%title Hmm.
%date 2004-01-23 05:33:17
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Lately, I've found my self liking this one girl (who shall go unnamed for the moment) as well as this one guy (who's name you already know.. if you're me!!two  Ahahaha.. er.. Kory).  Now, this isn't a very big problem for me (well, it was, but I have my ways of justification [the current is "I work on a case by case basis"]), but it might be moreso for some folk around me.  I've been calling myself gay for all of my high school career, and people have all of their own little conceptions about sexuality, and I think this might damage some of those.  It certainly damaged mine for a while.  Anyway, I think I'll just keep publicly obsessing over Kory while having a little private obsession over Ms. Unnamed on the side.

Mind you, due to something freaky, none of this really has to do with sex.  Sex is mighty cool, yes, but recently I've had no desire to actually.. partake in it.  After a  few incidences of people getting rather close to me, I've found that I'm rather.. uh.. well, lets just say that I've fucked myself over for a little bit by doing the online thing for so long and not learning how to interact with people in the Real World(tm).  When a situation starts getting close, I freak out, and that's not exactly wonderful, because not everyone has buried their physical desires under a layer of words ^.^  So, I have little to no desire to make the beast with two backs with Kory, and almost no desire to do the horizontal bop with Ms. No-name.  Maybe I still fit the rei populorum definition of gay.