%title Urg
%date 2005-01-25 14:39:46
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I'd like to know why my body saw fit to keep me up until 6am on the day I needed to be up at 7 while proclaiming to be tired at 10 the night before.  Well.. I know why, I think.  Back at school, drinking tea again.  I must restrict that to mornings for a while.

Also, it's interesting to note, and I've been thinking about it for a while, that sometimes, when I'm in a situation where I feel that I have complete domination over someone, that is the time when I feel most submissive to them, as if that's when I have the least power, and that at that moment, I am, for lack of a better word (or the need for one), devoted entirely to them.  It makes me feel strange.  I like feeling devoted to someone, but I'd like to feel that I would do anything for anyone at anytime and not have to take myself into account at all, and for that feeling to mostly occur when I'm bordering on feeling like I'm taking advantage of that person is a little awkward for me.  I'm still new to this whole life thing, only 19 years in.