%title I confuse myself (within my flower... heh)
%date 2004-06-26 10:51:09
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I had a dream about Kory last night.  It was nice.  A little too nice, though.  I guess I'm not completely over him.
<em>Go figure...</em>
You're back!
<em>Yeah.  Your front.</em>
Heh x.x  Anyhoo, not sure about Shan now, either.
<em>Were you ever?</em>
Good question.  I mentioned something to Michael and Samir about having gotten lost somewhere along the line, and I think I know when: Rynden.  I did something when that whole thing was going on, and.. I dunno.  I just kinda started making decisions that were separate from my path, separate from my ideal.  I don't regret them, and most of them I enjoy or would've made anyway, but I feel like it wasn't really me that made them.
<em>That had nothing really to do with Shan.  Anyway, you know everyone does that, right?  Everyone has multiple Aspects of themselves (just look at me) and sometimes an Aspect will make a decision behind your back (seemingly) and it will feel like someone else.</em>
But then, maybe it is.
<em>Careful, or you'll start to sound like me.</em>
Hah.  In other news, Erowid sent me their newsletter, or, rather, two of them.  When I donated, The agreement was that I would get two of the semi-annual Erowid Extracts, and I thought that meant that I'd get one from the middle of this year and one from the beginning of next year, but instead, I got one from the middle of this year, and one from the end of last year.  Oh well.  Good stuff, really.  Now I'm just waiting for the rest of the Pharmako/ series and the sheet music for Whitacre's A Boy and a Girl.

Oop, mom's home.