zk/writing/post-self/idumea/index.md

%title Idumea

Pinocchio escapes Samsara by giving up humanity. Except Pinocchio is a tenth stanza Odist and Geppetto is a seventh stanza Odist and the blue fairy is Dry Grass.

## Notes

A version of Pinocchio told sys-side in reverse: someone unhappy with humanity endeavoring to lose it, goes through all the plot-beats in reverse order.

Question: how heavy-handed should it be? Should it be very little? Someone naming themselves Occhioni P.? Trying to turn themselves into a literal puppet? Designing sims to include the big fish? Finding their Geppetto (G from Oteppe, Belgium) who unmakes them, and then a blue fairy, a sympathetic systech kicks them into quitting? Or they turn into a tree? Told as a fairy tale? Quote the first lines of the original?

> Once upon a time there was—
>
> “A king?” my little readers will immediately say.
>
> No, children, you are mistaken. Once upon a time there was a piece of wood. It was not fine wood, but a simple piece of wood from the wood yard,—the kind we put in the stoves and fireplaces so as to make a fire and heat the rooms. 

More at https://nebula.tv/videos/jacob-geller-pinocchio-is-a-story-about-art-and-god

## Epigraph:

'''
And am I born to die?
To lay this body down?
And must my trembling spirit fly
Into a world unknown?
A land of deepest shade,
unpierced by human thought,
The dreary regions of the dead,
Where all things are forgot?

Soon as from earth I go,
What will become of me?

— Charles Wesley, 1763
'''

## Characters

* The Woman (End Of Endings) — suffering some severe mental health stuff, wants to rescind her humanity
* Her Friend (No Hesitation) — her companion striving to help her in general, accidentally helping her in particular
* The Blue Fairy (Dry Grass) — helps with the forking process

## Outline

* [o] [001](001) --- The Woman's life is too real, and she would like that to not be the case / Living forever waiting for time to come/as a real person
* [ ] [002](002) --- The Woman runs into Her Friend, who is having a very bad day, and shares her idea / Saving Geppetto
* [ ] [003](003) --- The Woman sees why Her Friend was having a bad day, has a similar bad day / Swallowed by the big fish
* [ ] [004](004) --- The Woman aims for greater pleasure to try and re-ground herself / Pleasure Island
* [ ] [005](005) --- The Woman tries being creative with Her Friend to create meaning / Puppet show to prove no strings/earn money for Geppetto
* [ ] [006](006) --- The Woman muses on the clade and her past, the ways she was taken advantage of /  Honest John and Gideon the cat
* [ ] [007](007) --- The Woman begins to wish for an escape from the cycle, and Her Friend has feelings / Comes to life after a wish
* [ ] [008](008) --- The Woman talks with Dry Grass with her idea, who mentions Serene, they talk and she turns into a tree, unclear if she quits / Carved from wood