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29 lines
780 B
Markdown
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date: 2019-08-18
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weight: 3
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TIASAP stands for *The Ill-Advised Self-Administration Period*.
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This is why.
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I was unsafe about it.
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I lost my sexuality for years.
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I turned the need for change into punishment.
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The color drained from my universe. The flavor was gone from food. I could not smell.
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> And when you added in a bit of estrogen, you wept at the return of sensation.
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I tell myself now that if I belive something to be true when I'm depressed as well as when I'm hypomanic, it's more likely to be right.
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And, well.
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<a class="pulse" href="/gender">Now I knew it was right</a>.
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But I was unsafe, I was punishing myself, and I did it all on purpose.
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> Why ruin your life on accident when you can <a class="pulse" href="/self-harm/suicide">do it on purpose</a>?
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