diff --git a/.tags b/.tags index 582d8e71..f5d74851 100644 --- a/.tags +++ b/.tags @@ -35,6 +35,7 @@ chapter writing/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/010.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoh chapter writing/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/011.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/011\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/011 chapter writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-a.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-a\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-a chapter writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-b.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-b\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-b +chapter writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002 chapter writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/004.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/004\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/004 chapter writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/005.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/005\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/005 chapter writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/006.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/006\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/006 @@ -126,6 +127,7 @@ fiction writing/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/010.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoh fiction writing/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/011.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/011\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/011 fiction writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-a.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-a\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-a fiction writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-b.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-b\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-b +fiction writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002 fiction writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/004.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/004\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/004 fiction writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/005.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/005\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/005 fiction writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/006.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/006\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/006 @@ -235,6 +237,7 @@ novel writing/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/010.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qohel novel writing/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/011.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/011\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/011 novel writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-a.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-a\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-a novel writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-b.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-b\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-b +novel writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002 novel writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/004.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/004\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/004 novel writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/005.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/005\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/005 novel writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/006.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/006\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/006 @@ -306,6 +309,7 @@ post-self writing/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/010.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/q post-self writing/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/011.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/011\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/011 post-self writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-a.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-a\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-a post-self writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-b.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-b\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-b +post-self writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002 post-self writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/004.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/004\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/004 post-self writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/005.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/005\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/005 post-self writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/006.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/006\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/006 @@ -364,6 +368,7 @@ qoheleth writing/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/010.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qo qoheleth writing/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/011.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/011\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/011 qoheleth writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-a.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-a\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-a qoheleth writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-b.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-b\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-b +qoheleth writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002 qoheleth writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/004.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/004\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/004 qoheleth writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/005.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/005\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/005 qoheleth writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/006.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/006\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/006 @@ -447,6 +452,7 @@ scifi writing/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/010.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qohel scifi writing/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/011.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/011\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/011 scifi writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-a.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-a\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-a scifi writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-b.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-b\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-b +scifi writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002 scifi writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/004.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/004\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/004 scifi writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/005.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/005\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/005 scifi writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/006.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/006\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/006 @@ -526,6 +532,7 @@ writing writing/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/010.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoh writing writing/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/011.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/011\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Ioan/011 writing writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-a.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-a\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-a writing writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-b.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-b\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/001-b +writing writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002 writing writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/004.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/004\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/004 writing writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/005.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/005\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/005 writing writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/006.md 2;" vimwiki:writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/006\twriting/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/006 diff --git a/writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002.md b/writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002.md index 22b65d68..177dfe5f 100644 --- a/writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002.md +++ b/writing/post-self/qoheleth/Qoheleth/002.md @@ -1,21 +1,21 @@ %title Qoheleth --- 2305 :writing:novel:chapter:fiction:scifi:post-self:qoheleth: -It's been long enough that I'm thinking of myself as Qoheleth now. I've even begun introducing myself as Qoheleth whenever I go out, just to try it on for size. +It's been long enough that I'm thinking of myself as Qoheleth now. All that slow washing-away of given names to replace with chosen ones. Something worth being methodical with. I've even begun introducing myself as Qoheleth whenever I go out, just to try it on for size. That I've never actually done so is of little concern. It's ancillary to the problem at hand. Something I can tackle later, or at least tackle in thought. I can daydream about the name change. Just plan and plan and plan, like I've planned everything else. -I like the sound of it. I like the way it feels in my mouth when I say it out loud. I like the connotations of 'teacher' and 'gatherer' and 'director of the assembled'. I want to feel the way that it feels to be someone different, and I've found at least a part of that in this name, the name that *I* chose for *myself*. Not some line of a poem I wish we would all forget. I've not yet taught or gathered, but I'm working constantly to attain that. +I like the sound of it. I like the way it feels in my mouth when I say it out loud. I like the connotations of 'teacher' and 'gatherer' and 'director of the assembled'. I want to feel the way that it feels to be someone different, and I've found at least a part of that in this name, the name that *I* chose for *myself*. Not some line of a poem I wish we would all forget. I may not have yet taught or gathered yet, but I'm working constantly to earn it. And 'Hebel'. Hebel was another name I picked up. Vain, futile, mere breath. -Qoheleth's words, in the book written so very, very long ago were all about hebel. "This, too, is meaningless," Qoheleth had written after that walk through life and exploring. Try pleasure. Try work. Try prayer. This, too, is meaningless. +Qoheleth's words, in the book written so very, very long ago, were all about hebel. "This, too, is meaningless," Qoheleth had written after that long walk through life. Try pleasure. Try work. Try prayer. This, too, is meaningless. That's not how I envision the name, though. -I think of the two names as signifiers. I think of the two *sources* of names. Not the book, not the time at which it was written. My two sources. Now. +I think of the two names as signifiers, rather than simple names. I think of the two moods that they bring. And I think most often of the two *sources* of names. Not the book, not the time at which it was written. My two sources. Now. -Qoheleth was the name I had given myself out of hope. It's a name of goals and aspirations. It embodies the things that I want to do. It takes all of my plans and me, maker of plans, and binds them up neatly into a word. Ties a pretty bow to the top. A single word. A name and a rejection of the Name. +Qoheleth was the name I had given myself out of hope. It's a name of goals and aspirations. It embodies the things that I want to do. It takes all of my plans and me, maker of plans, and binds them up neatly into a word. Ties a pretty bow to the top. A single word. A name and also a rejection of *the* Name. Hebel was the name I had given myself out of despair. It's a name of self deprecation and a way of reminding myself that, lofty as my goals may be, they're all vanity. Mere breath. Meaningless in the end.