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writing/3/terrifying/blind-strife.md

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 Who, then, has this merged instance become? Are they who they were? And yet, so much of identity is formed from the experiences we have, the memories that we form. Are they not also that ephemeral up-tree instance? Some mix of the two? And how much? Half and half? The down-tree instance may keep only a portion of the memories, rather than merging them all wholesale; how does that change things? There may be conflicting memories, where identity rankles; when these are reconciled, does that affect identity more or less?
 
 These questions attract more than a little attention from those who experience plurality, whether in the form of Dissociative Identity Disorder or some form of medianity.
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+I can see the allure, there, myself. Of course I can.
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+I teased myself when the first book in that series, *Qoheleth*, came out that if I had an nickel for every time I accidentally wrote something with heavy plural undertones that nonetheless made me doubt my own identity, I would have two nickels. Which isn't a lot, as the quote continues, but it is weird that it happened twice. After all, hadn't I received all of that attention from plural folks with regards to *ally*? "I think it's my favorite plural memoir", Rax wrote,\footnote{\cite{rax}} yes?
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+And then *Toledot* came out. And, six months later, *Nevi'im*, and *Mitzvot* six months after that.
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+Five hundred thousand words 
 ((Struggling against expectations versus desires esp re: feeling like I deserve to take up space))