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@ -48,9 +48,9 @@ Ey nodded. "I can make the bed bigger. Should I make a second set of covers?"
She swallowed several times in a row, a sign of tears to come ey well knew from May. "Can I ask...can you two..."
May got her arms around the skunk and murmured, "We will work it out."
May got her arms around the skunk and shushed her gently. "We will work it out."
Ioan hesitated a moment longer before willing the bed to expand another half meter in width with a wave of intent. A second set of covers and pillows spooled themselves out onto it as well, just in case.
Ioan hesitated a moment longer before willing the bed to expand another half meter in width. A second set of covers and pillows spooled themselves out onto it as well, just in case.
Ey paced back and forth a few times, shook eir head, then waved a hand again to bring a set of pajamas into being on the bed. Sleeping in eir usual dress of a pair of boxers didn't seem quite appropriate at the moment.
@ -58,7 +58,7 @@ May blinked down at the clothes, giggled quietly, and shook her head. *"You are
Ey shrugged helplessly, gathered up the loose lounge pants and shirt to go change.
*"I have no clue how tired I even am,"* ey subvocalized once ey returned. *"Or if I'll even be able to sleep here."*
*"I have no clue how tired I even am,"* ey sent once ey returned. *"Or if I'll even be able to sleep here."*
*"If you need to sneak off to sleep in our bed, you can."*
@ -66,7 +66,7 @@ Ey shrugged helplessly, gathered up the loose lounge pants and shirt to go chang
Her expression softened. She tilted her muzzle down to whisper something to True Name, and when she received a nod in response, she signed *okay* and patted the bed to invite em up.
Ey nodded and climbed onto the (now much larger) bed so ey could settle down beside May in the nook of pillows. Getting eir arm around her, ey let her rest her head on eir shoulder. It was a little awkward, with True Name still slouched against her side, but it worked well enough.
Ey nodded and climbed onto the (now much larger) bed so ey could settle down beside May in the nook of pillows. Getting eir arm around her, ey let her rest her head on eir shoulder. It was a little awkward with True Name still slouched against her side, but it worked well enough.
*"I'm surprised she's so...physical,"* ey sent.
@ -80,7 +80,7 @@ It made sense, at least. Whenever ey'd dealt with a longer merge --- eir longest
*"How are you doing with it?"*
She sighed, at which True Name squinted up to her, then over to Ioan, offering a faint smile, before settling back into processing.
She sighed, at which True Name squinted up to her, then over to Ioan, offering a faint smile before settling back into processing.
*"I do not know, my dear. It has activated all of my care instincts, so I am happy to make her comfortable in all of the ways I know how. It helps, then, that those are all of the ways she knows now, too, or at least is learning. If I focus on that, I feel very positive. It is only when I get distracted and ruminating that I begin to spiral. It is more comfortable for me to focus on caring for someone now than it is to think about boundaries or Zacharias or Jonas."*
@ -202,17 +202,17 @@ Ey smirked. *"Har har. All the same, I'm glad you made it through to this far, a
*"Thank you, Ioan. As am I."*
They fell back into silence then. Ioan spent a while marveling at the mix of coziness and strangeness. It *was* comfortable, there with the two skunks. May was in eir arms as she should be, and True Name, similar as she was, fit well enough in the mix. The strangeness, then, came from the knowledge that she was specifically True Name. This was so counter to what ey knew of her from the years prior, and even the her that she'd become over the past few weeks since End Waking's merge.
They fell back into silence then. Ioan spent a while marveling at the mix of coziness and strangeness. It *was* comfortable, there with the two skunks. May was in eir arms as she should be, and True Name, similar as she was, fit well enough in the mix. The strangeness, then, came from the knowledge that she was specifically True Name. This was so counter to what ey knew of her from the years prior, especially the version of her that she'd become over the past few weeks since End Waking's merge.
Ey could already tell that she'd changed, though, even beyond the fact that she'd wound up as close as this. Her speech patterns were shifting once again, losing some of their formality, finding their way back to ground from the high-minded patterns she'd picked up from her other cocladist, and yet they weren't totally those of May, either. They didn't sound the same, just more alike than they had before.
She was tripled, now. She was True Name and she was End Waking and she was May. Whether or not she would become something new or remain fractured ey didn't think even she knew. The adjustment would certainly take time for everyone. Ey liked End Waking quite a bit as a friend, but that friendship was different than that of eirs with True Name. Ey was friends with May, but in that way that partners were still friends beneath the romance of a big-R Relationship, and there was certainly no comparison to be made between the other small-r relationships here. If she was of three minds, so was ey.
She was tripled, now. She was True Name and she was End Waking and she was May. Whether or not she would become something new or remain tripled ey didn't think even she knew. The adjustment would certainly take time for everyone. Ey liked End Waking quite a bit as a friend, but that friendship was different than that of eirs with True Name. Ey was friends with May, but in that way that partners were still friends beneath the romance of a big-R Relationship, and there was certainly no comparison to be made between the other small-r relationships here. If she was of three minds, so was ey.
*"Unrelated to comfort or awkwardness, I am going to get up to make coffee,"* she sent, nudging em out of rumination once more. *"I did not sleep, and if I do not have coffee soon, I shall surely die."*
May grumbled again when True Name rolled away from her, gathering the remainder of the covers and a stray pillow up to replace the space that had been left by her cocladist's absence. Ey couldn't tell if the skunk was actually awake or not, but she settled down once more, if nothing else.
True Name sat up and scrubbed at her face with her paws, wiping the grit of sleep --- or, more likely, tears --- from her eyes. She grinned down to em. *"My assessment remains. You two are so cute that it is disgusting."*
True Name sat up and scrubbed at her face with her paws, wiping the grit of sleep --- or perhaps tears --- from her eyes. She grinned down to em. *"My assessment remains. You two are so cute that it is disgusting."*
Stifling a laugh, ey rolled eir eyes. *"Blame May."*

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@ -34,7 +34,7 @@ Wherein True Name and May reconcile, and we deal with the problem of the ownersh
* [X] CHAPTER Ioan 2350
* [X] [Ioan's No Way 1](007) --- Feeling weird about being stuck in the middle, fighting against the need to fix things (walk around lake at first, then dinner out with May; they shouldn't be homebodies just because I am)
* [X] [Coffee date - Jan 2350 (TN's No Way 1)](008) --- Assassination attempt (actual assassination may not be until most of the way through a few thousand words after talking with May), the fact that Ioan's been meeting with TN's root instance hits home
* [O] Conflict --- After assassination attempt on TN, learn about TN getting pushed out by Jonas, May offers to merge down, turns into big discussion
* [X] Conflict --- After assassination attempt on TN, learn about TN getting pushed out by Jonas, May offers to merge down, turns into big discussion
* [X] *To hone is to trade ends for perpetual perfection* --- The danger in ceaseless memorialization is how close it lies to idolatry. To elevate the dead to such a status as false god (for what being that is limited to the perfection of memory is not false?) is to ceaselessly perfect the imperfectable.
* [X] CHAPTER Ioan 2350
* [X] [May's No Way 2](009) --- Upset about the situation; that it's politics is bringing up a lot more bad feelings about True Name
@ -45,30 +45,30 @@ Wherein True Name and May reconcile, and we deal with the problem of the ownersh
* [X] CHAPTER Debarre 2350
* [X] [May's Wallow 1](014) --- May comes over distraught, they talk, she suggests he merge down (has a few reasons why, but doesn't express them super well)
* [X] [Debarre and EW talk](015) --- May leaves, Debarre and EW get their bed back in the tent and talk about what the merge would look like and mean for both him and TN, thinks he might so long as May agrees to merge down in the future as well.
* [O] CHAPTER Ioan 2350
* [X] CHAPTER Ioan 2350
* [X] [TN's Wallow 1](016) --- TN moping about how things have wound up re: her calling
* [O] [Retreat: merge](017) --- May talks about EW merging down, then he does
* [O] Apprehension --- EW merges down and TN has to deal; Ioan and May have to consider ramifications
* [X] [Retreat: merge](017) --- May talks about EW merging down, then he does
* [X] Apprehension --- EW merges down and TN has to deal; Ioan and May have to consider ramifications
* [X] *For memory ends at the teeth of death.* --- And so the dead may live on in restless eternity, never knowing peace or the oblivion they so richly deserve. There is no peace in eternal memory, no release in unending remembering.
* [O] CHAPTER Ioan 2350
* [O] [Retreat: perspective](018) --- TN recovering, trying to reconcile her calling vs penance
* [O] [Retreat: memories](019) --- After talking with TN about her memories from EW about Debarre, Ioan starts to feel icky about TN having May's memory of their relationship
* [O] [TN Choose Fear](020) --- TN says she can't deal, pulls back from both May and Ioan, stays at Arrowhead lake with new camping knowledge (We learn about TN's relationship)
* [O] [May Choose Fear](021) --- May overflows (just a few days), claims the home
* [O] CHAPTER Debarre 2350
* [O] [Ioan chooses fear](022) --- Ioan's really struggling with the idea of May merging, but also really wants to help, but now May's gone, goes to stay with Douglas, who calls Debarre over for historical context
* [O] [Something innocent](023) --- Debarre talks about his relationship with EW, plus EW's merging down from his point of view
* [O] CHAPTER Ioan 2350
* [O] [Ioan's wallow 2](024) --- Now *Ioan's* struggling, crushed at both May overflowing and TN requesting her own time alone, while ey's the only one with both sides. Has at least one sensorium conversation with each.
* [O] [May recovers](025) --- Visits, says hi etc, brings Ioan back home.
* [O] [May and TN's Wallow 2](026) --- May's feeling bad because she can't help, also starting to agree with Ioan: not fair to them as a couple for TN to have those memories
* [O] [Choose love: TN's offer](027) --- TN comes back, few days of attempted normalcy, topic of May merging comes up, May and Ioan mention apprehensions, but TN is actually kind of for it. She needs the change, needs good as well as bad, but she'll also have memories of their apprehensions and can work with that
* [O] [Choose love: Ioan and May](028) --- Ioan expands on this when they're alone, and they talk about how TN won't just have May's memories wholesale, she'll have a synthesis. May agrees, thinks knowing love is only ever going to be a good thing, TN also deserves that (plus memories of resentment will open things up). May's little lie about 'merging down every few years' comes up, she hasn't in nearly two centuries
* [X] CHAPTER Ioan 2350
* [X] [Retreat: perspective](018) --- TN recovering, trying to reconcile her calling vs penance
* [X] [Retreat: memories](019) --- After talking with TN about her memories from EW about Debarre, Ioan starts to feel icky about TN having May's memory of their relationship
* [X] [TN Choose Fear](020) --- TN says she can't deal, pulls back from both May and Ioan, stays at Arrowhead lake with new camping knowledge (We learn about TN's relationship)
* [X] [May Choose Fear](021) --- May overflows (just a few days), claims the home
* [X] CHAPTER Debarre 2350
* [X] [Ioan chooses fear](022) --- Ioan's really struggling with the idea of May merging, but also really wants to help, but now May's gone, goes to stay with Douglas, who calls Debarre over for historical context
* [X] [Something innocent](023) --- Debarre talks about his relationship with EW, plus EW's merging down from his point of view
* [X] CHAPTER Ioan 2350
* [X] [Ioan's wallow 2](024) --- Now *Ioan's* struggling, crushed at both May overflowing and TN requesting her own time alone, while ey's the only one with both sides. Has at least one sensorium conversation with each.
* [X] [May recovers](025) --- Visits, says hi etc, brings Ioan back home.
* [X] [May and TN's Wallow 2](026) --- May's feeling bad because she can't help, also starting to agree with Ioan: not fair to them as a couple for TN to have those memories
* [X] [Choose love: TN's offer](027) --- TN comes back, few days of attempted normalcy, topic of May merging comes up, May and Ioan mention apprehensions, but TN is actually kind of for it. She needs the change, needs good as well as bad, but she'll also have memories of their apprehensions and can work with that
* [X] [Choose love: Ioan and May](028) --- Ioan expands on this when they're alone, and they talk about how TN won't just have May's memories wholesale, she'll have a synthesis. May agrees, thinks knowing love is only ever going to be a good thing, TN also deserves that (plus memories of resentment will open things up). May's little lie about 'merging down every few years' comes up, she hasn't in nearly two centuries
* [O] Reconciliation --- After the merge and TN's collapse, she has to process two centuries of memories while Ioan and May have to process the results of the merge
* [X] *The living know that they will die / but the dead know nothing.* --- By our very act of knowing, of remembering, of denying our own deaths, the dead are left in limbo, for every idea's opposite is the absence of that idea, and we can no longer grant them that.
* [O] CHAPTER Ioan 2350
* [O] [Plan and risk](029) --- they plan together on how to make this a more deliberate thing than the merger with EW, setting up a nest in which she can process comfortably, Ioan lays in supplies, TN negotiates boundaries and how they'll shift, May merges down
* [O] [Grand gesture](030) --- TN processes, cries a lot, they talk about what this means (acknowledging that talking boundaries is a new thing for TN) It goes well enough that her fork quits
* [X] *The living know that they will die / but the dead know nothing.* --- By our very act of knowing, of remembering, of denying our own deaths, the dead are left in limbo, for every idea's opposite is the absence of that idea, and we can no longer grant them even that absence.
* [X] CHAPTER Ioan 2350
* [X] [Plan and risk](029) --- they plan together on how to make this a more deliberate thing than the merger with EW, setting up a nest in which she can process comfortably, Ioan lays in supplies, TN negotiates boundaries and how they'll shift, May merges down
* [X] [Grand gesture](030) --- TN processes, cries a lot, they talk about what this means (acknowledging that talking boundaries is a new thing for TN) It goes well enough that her fork quits
* [O] CHAPTER Debarre 2350
* [O] [Result for EW](031) --- EW and Debarre talk about how they both feel about TN's mergers and how this could go either way for EW: he feels better about TN, but now he's listless and unsure of how he feels about the clade given how much of his identity was bound up in rejecting TN.
* [O] [Result for Jonas and Debarre](032) --- They talk about how this is working for Jonas, how it's dangerous because it gives Jonas & Co an opening through May's known weaknesses (less his because they haven't studied him nearly so much), how EW was requested to be there. Maybe some more about reactive elements? Debarre comes home to talk with e.g: user11824?