diff --git a/writing/3/terrifying/blind-strife.md b/writing/3/terrifying/blind-strife.md index fda5a8f2..19bf75de 100644 --- a/writing/3/terrifying/blind-strife.md +++ b/writing/3/terrifying/blind-strife.md @@ -1,5 +1,3 @@ ## Blind Strife ((Struggling against expectations versus desires esp re: feeling like I deserve to take up space)) - -((Justification through external sources)) diff --git a/writing/3/terrifying/intro.md b/writing/3/terrifying/intro.md index c57b39b2..9f17e0de 100644 --- a/writing/3/terrifying/intro.md +++ b/writing/3/terrifying/intro.md @@ -8,4 +8,14 @@ Do I park myself in the corner of others' minds? Do I sit cross-legged on the fl Is asking so many questions just feeding into that anxiety? +> For we, when we feel, evaporate. Oh, +> we breathe ourselves out and away. From ember to fading ember, +> we give off a fainter scent. Oh, someone may tell us: +> You get in my blood, this room, the springtime, +> is filled with you...\footnote{\parencite[23]{duino}} + +I have recently had several conversations about this, about how much space I take up. Almost all of them take place over text, too, as they often come with a worry that synchronous communication might be too much of a demand. Some of them take place between my partners and I speaking frankly about how we interact with each other. Others take place between other versions of me, characters I role play or those that I write, each expressing their own anxiety. + +Over the years, I have thankfully fallen out of the habit of asking whether or not I am a burden. + ((How much space I take up))