diff --git a/writing/post-self/mitzvot/020.md b/writing/post-self/mitzvot/020.md index ec2948bd..124f2643 100644 --- a/writing/post-self/mitzvot/020.md +++ b/writing/post-self/mitzvot/020.md @@ -102,7 +102,9 @@ The rest of the afternoon passed easily enough. It was slow and boring, perhaps, But always, there was an air of waiting. They were waiting for True Name to return, yes, but ey felt like they were also waiting for the other shoe to drop. They were waiting for her to feel whole again. They were waiting for everything to fall into place (or at least close enough) so that they could do this meeting with Jonas and get it over with. -The skunk returned shortly before dinner. Both Ioan and May sat up straighter. The skunk looked dirty and scuffed up, and while her expression wasn't grim, it came close. +((Probably need more in here)) + +The skunk returned shortly before dinner. Both Ioan and May stood to greet her. The skunk looked dirty and scuffed up, and while her expression wasn't grim, it came close. There was frustration there, perhaps anger as well. *Overflowing,* ey thought, then tamped it down. @@ -116,7 +118,7 @@ Ey frowned. "But...?" "If you decide to keep my room here, I may come back, but, my dear, I am going to lose my fucking mind if I simply stay in--" She sighed, took a deep breath, recomposed herself. "I am going to spend a few days out at the lake. I need...away. I need away from walls. I need away from you two, nice as you are, away from all of your happiness and comfort. I need away from speaking, from dwelling on the last few weeks. I need solitude." -May had shied away from her down-tree instance the instant her temper started to rise, but Ioan stood eir ground as best ey could. +May had shied away from her down-tree instance the instant her temper started to rise, clutching tightly at eir hand, but Ioan stood eir ground as best ey could. "Well, alright. It's no trouble keeping your room, of course, and I guess there's the tents already out there." @@ -124,4 +126,46 @@ She nodded, subsiding at the reasonable tone in eir voice. "Yes. Thank you for u "Is there anything we can do to help?" -" +"Can you grant me ACLs to create supplies? There is nothing to hunt." + +"Hunt?" Ey frowned, then shook eir head. "Right, sorry. End Waking always did. You should...you should have them now." + +She nodded. Much of her time out there must have been spent cataloguing what she'd need in order to survive, going off of memories that were now hers, as it took her less than ten seconds and a wave of the paw to create an axe, a knife, and two canvas bags ey assumed were full of reasonably stable food and other such tools. This was followed by her forking a few times over, shifting her outfit one article of clothing at a time. It struck a middle-ground between her ordinary conservative dress and End Waking's ranger garb, one with canvas leggings and a sturdy shirt, over which she wore a leather jerkin with what looked to be a detachable hood. It usually wasn't worth it to fork just to re-clothe oneself, but she seemed antsy to be away and on her own, not to mention that lingering air of frustration about her. + +"Thank you both," she said, more quietly this time. "Earnestly. It does mean a lot that you have both thought to help so much. I will be in touch." + +With that, she bowed, lifted her bags and axe, then stepped from the sim once more. + +"What the hell..." + +May took a moment to un-cringe from the whole experience, slowly relaxing her grip on eir hand. "I think perhaps she--" + +"Is overflowing?" + +The skunk nodded. + +Ey sighed, nodded. "That was my guess, too. I was going to say it came on pretty quick, but the last few days make a lot more sense with that as context." + +With a sigh, May leaned forward and rested her forehead against eir upper arm. Her tail hung limp and her ears were splayed out to the sides. + +Ey extricated eir hand from her paws so that ey could turn and get eir arms around her, careful not to jostle too much. Ey leaned down to kiss between her ears, murmuring, "How about you, May?" + +"Mm?" + +"You've seemed on the edge of overflowing for a few days now." + +It took her a long time to respond. At last, she hugged her arms around eir middle and lifted her head to look at him. "You will not be upset with me if I say yes?" + +"What?" Ey blinked, shaking eir head. "Of course not. I apologize if it's seemed that way in the past." + +She rested her head against eir shoulder. "No, but...I do not know, my dear. Everything is so much more complicated this time. It is bad enough when you have one skunk in your life, but now you have two at the same time. Two and a half, perhaps." + +"It's okay, May. It's complicated, but we've done it before, so we'll make it work this time." + +She nodded. + +"Can I stay for tonight? I'll help get some food prepped and some of my stuff in order. It'll give me a chance to contact Douglas, too." + +"Of course, my dear. I am not...there yet, but I am close." + +"Well, come on, then. Let's get some food in you and we can take it easy for the night and finish the preparations in the morning." diff --git a/writing/post-self/mitzvot/021.md b/writing/post-self/mitzvot/021.md new file mode 100644 index 00000000..64853b23 --- /dev/null +++ b/writing/post-self/mitzvot/021.md @@ -0,0 +1,3 @@ +----- + +((Show how it looks when May starts to overflow. Won't get out of bed, won't speak, just barely keeping emotions in check. Ioan makes preparations on eir own: food for a few days, changing ACLs so that TN will be dropped in entryway to wait for permission to enter (doesn't wind up being needed). Leaves for Douglas's, has a good cry out in the field before going inside)) diff --git a/writing/post-self/mitzvot/index.md b/writing/post-self/mitzvot/index.md index 984ee805..8a87dce2 100644 --- a/writing/post-self/mitzvot/index.md +++ b/writing/post-self/mitzvot/index.md @@ -46,11 +46,11 @@ Wherein True Name and May reconcile, and we deal with the problem of the ownersh * [-] (SNIPPET) [EW merges down](0x1) --- EW merges down * [o] [Retreat: merge](017) --- May talks about EW merging down, then he does * [.] Apprehension --- EW merges down and TN has to deal; Ioan and May have to consider ramifications - * [.] CHAPTER Ioan 2350 + * [o] CHAPTER Ioan 2350 * [o] [Retreat: perspective](018) --- TN recovering, trying to reconcile her calling vs penance * [o] [Retreat: memories](019) --- After talking with TN about her memories from EW about Debarre, Ioan starts to feel icky about TN having May's memory of their relationship - * [ ] [TN Choose Fear](020) --- TN says she can't deal, pulls back from both May and Ioan, stays at Arrowhead lake with new camping knowledge (We learn about TN's relationship) - * [ ] [May Choose Fear]() --- May overflows (just a few days), claims the home + * [o] [TN Choose Fear](020) --- TN says she can't deal, pulls back from both May and Ioan, stays at Arrowhead lake with new camping knowledge (We learn about TN's relationship) + * [ ] [May Choose Fear](021) --- May overflows (just a few days), claims the home * [ ] CHAPTER Debarre 2350 * [ ] [Ioan chooses fear]() --- Ioan's really struggling with the idea of May merging, but also really wants to help, but now May's gone, goes to stay with Douglas, who calls Debarre over for historical context * [ ] [Something innocent]() --- Debarre talks about his relationship with EW, plus EW's merging down from his point of view