From 61aa5483e7f3cd19a6a60eeef5fba264267b390e Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: Madison Scott-Clary Date: Wed, 20 Jul 2022 22:05:52 -0700 Subject: [PATCH] update from sparkleup --- writing/post-self/mitzvot/015.md | 20 ++++++++++---------- writing/post-self/mitzvot/index.md | 6 +++--- 2 files changed, 13 insertions(+), 13 deletions(-) diff --git a/writing/post-self/mitzvot/015.md b/writing/post-self/mitzvot/015.md index 8a338c9c..171638ab 100644 --- a/writing/post-self/mitzvot/015.md +++ b/writing/post-self/mitzvot/015.md @@ -6,7 +6,7 @@ At least, Debarre enjoyed the warmth and the feeling of his boyfriend beside him "Thanks for letting me stay, E.W." -"Mm? Of course, my dear. I am glad for your help and your company." +"Mm? Of course, my love. I am glad for your help and your company." He nodded. Silence fell again. End Waking put another log on the fire. @@ -16,7 +16,7 @@ He nodded. Silence fell again. End Waking put another log on the fire. "Please," the skunk said after a long pause. "I do not like sending you away, but so much has happened this last week, these last few months..." -He scooted closer to End Waking and slipped an arm around his waist. It was probably more affection than the skunk would have preferred at the moment, but he needed at least something to go with that statement. End Waking seemed to realize this, as well, and although he didn't reciprocate the affection, he did at least relax against his side. +He scooted closer to End Waking and slipped an arm around his waist. It was probably more affection than the skunk would have preferred at the moment, but he needed at least something to go with that statement. End Waking seemed to realize this, as well, and although he didn't reciprocate the affection, he did at least relax against Debarre's side. "What do you suppose they are doing on Artemis?" End Waking asked, staring at the fire rather than up to the stars. @@ -48,7 +48,7 @@ Debarre hesitated, unsure of how to broach the question. *No way out but through He sighed. "No, it is okay. If that is what is happening, then that is what is happening, and we are bound to talk about it. One moment, then." -There was a long silence from End Waking, then. Debarre imagined him trudging through exos, reading back through clade communiqués that his down-tree instance over on the LV had sent back. +There was a long silence from End Waking. Debarre imagined him trudging through exos, reading back through clade communiqués that his down-tree instance over on the LV had sent back. "She remains herself," he said at last. "I mean truly herself, not the bent and twisted True Name of Lagrange. Competent, confident, in complete control. She strives behind the scenes in both Convergence and the rest of Castor as she always has." @@ -62,13 +62,13 @@ There was a long silence from End Waking, then. Debarre imagined him trudging th Debarre nodded. -"Perhaps, yes. What that actually means to May Then My Name, I am not sure. Does she want to shock True Name into becoming whatever she considers a real person? Does she want to break her out of rigidity and make her more complete? Does she want her to move beyond whatever this unspeakable atrocity is through force alone? I do not know." +"Perhaps, yes. She shared more with me before she arrived and I do...I do see the reasoning behind her request. What that actually means to her, however, I am not sure. Does she want to shock True Name into becoming whatever she considers a real person? Does she want to break her out of rigidity and make her more complete? Does she want her to move beyond whatever this unspeakable atrocity is through force alone? I do not know." "Maybe just hurt her without killing her," he mumbled. End Waking looked at him sharply, then subsided. "Also a possibility. Had you suggested that a decade ago, I would have been quite upset, because I do not think that who May Then My Name used to be could possibly have been so vengeful, but I am not sure that that is the case anymore." -"Is that such a bad thing, though?" Debarre frowned, hunting for his own words. "I mean, I love her, I think she's one of the best people I've ever met, but she was almost a caricature with how sweet she was. If she can be anything other than head-over-heels in love with everyone she meets, wouldn't that mean that she's more a more complete person, too?" +"Is that such a bad thing, though?" Debarre frowned, hunting for words. "I mean, I love her, I think she's one of the best people I've ever met, but she was almost a caricature with how sweet she was. If she can be anything other than head-over-heels in love with everyone she meets, wouldn't that mean that she's more a more complete person, too?" The skunk tensed and carefully scooted an inch or two away from Debarre, gently nudging the weasel's arm from around his waist. @@ -78,7 +78,7 @@ He laughed. A short, sharp bark of a laugh that was more bitter than amused. "Fu Debarre blinked, nonplussed. -"You are right. It is terrible that she has to hate someone to be more complete, but you are right. However, my love," he said, grinning humorlessly. "That means --- that *must* mean --- that the same holds true for me, caricature of penance that I am." +"You are right. It is terrible that she has to hate someone to be more complete, but you are right. However, my love," End Waking said, grinning humorlessly. "That means --- that *must* mean --- that the same holds true for me, caricature of penance that I am." He laid his ears flat, nodding. "Sorry, E.W." @@ -92,9 +92,9 @@ Debarre squinted. "I don't think it works that way." "I do not remember, Debarre," End Waking said tiredly. "Sometime before the first centennial." -He held up his paws. "Then she'll have more than a century's worth of work dumped on her, and she'll be the one who has to process that and try to integrate it. Can you imagine how fucked that'd feel? Can you imagine what she'd become?" +He held up his paws, surrendering the point. "Then she'll have more than a century's worth of work dumped on her, and she'll be the one who has to process that and try to integrate it. Can you imagine how fucked that'd feel? Can you imagine what she'd become?" -"Do you think I should merge down?" End Waking growled. +"Do *you* think I should merge down?" End Waking growled. "I don't know, E.W. I really don't. Let's drop it, though, okay? I'm just gonna keep on hurting you if we keep this up, and I *really* don't want that." @@ -102,8 +102,8 @@ The skunk sighed, nodded, and, after a moment, reached out and took Debarre's pa He smiled cautiously and gave that paw a little squeeze. -They sat in silence for the rest of the night, then, watching the fire burn low until the skunk put it out. They stripped down for bed and, for the first time in months, climbed into their cot within their tent --- theirs at least until the need for solitude struck full force again. They shared their wordless intimacies and then curled together for sleep. +They sat in silence for the rest of the night, then, watching the fire burn low until the skunk put it out. They stripped down for bed and, for the first time in months, climbed into their cot within their tent --- theirs at least until the need for solitude struck full force again. They shared their wordless intimacies and then curled together for sleep. "You know that she will have memories of this, too, my love," End Waking murmured. -"Let her," he said, yawning. "You're more complete than you give yourself credit for. If the goal is for her to have some semblance of that, let her have them." +"Let her," he said, yawning. "You're more complete than you give yourself credit for. If the goal is for her to have some semblance of that, let her." diff --git a/writing/post-self/mitzvot/index.md b/writing/post-self/mitzvot/index.md index 14e5098c..38064672 100644 --- a/writing/post-self/mitzvot/index.md +++ b/writing/post-self/mitzvot/index.md @@ -40,9 +40,9 @@ Wherein True Name and May reconcile, and we deal with the problem of the ownersh * [X] [TN's No Way 2](011) --- Trying to salvage this, confronting the reality based on what Ioan passes on from Jonas (that afternoon) * [X] [Something innocent](012) --- TN moves in with Ioan and May through attached townhouse, trying to figure out how to work this so there's no cat^H^H^Hskunkfights * [X] [Bone Town](013) --- TN talks with May about Jonas in CoS. Later, she comes up with the idea to merge down (needs to be filled out) - * [O] CHAPTER Debarre 2350 - * [O] [May's Wallow 1](014) --- May comes over distraught, they talk, she suggests he merge down (has a few reasons why, but doesn't express them super well) - * [O] [Debarre and EW talk](015) --- May leaves, Debarre and EW get their bed back in the tent and talk about what the merge would look like and mean for both him and TN, thinks he might so long as May agrees to merge down in the future as well. + * [X] CHAPTER Debarre 2350 + * [X] [May's Wallow 1](014) --- May comes over distraught, they talk, she suggests he merge down (has a few reasons why, but doesn't express them super well) + * [X] [Debarre and EW talk](015) --- May leaves, Debarre and EW get their bed back in the tent and talk about what the merge would look like and mean for both him and TN, thinks he might so long as May agrees to merge down in the future as well. * [O] CHAPTER Ioan 2350 * [O] [TN's Wallow 1](016) --- TN moping about how things have wound up re: her calling * [-] (SNIPPET) [EW merges down](0x1) --- EW merges down