update from sparkleup

writing/sawtooth/limerent-object/beats/07-seeds-of-doubt--3-choose-fear.md

@@ -16,7 +16,7 @@ I left after spending a surprisingly small amount of money on a surprisingly lar
 
 Following the bookstore, we walked a block to an Ethiopian restaurant. I had never tried such cuisine before and while it was not unpleasant, I am still trying to puzzle out the tastes.
 
-The rest of the day was spent lounging at Kay's place, reading. She parked herself in her computer chair and insisted that I just use her bed --- those being the sole pieces of furniture within her apartment --- so I propped myself up against the wall with her pillows and poked through my haul.[^books] It wasn't the most comfortable of seats, and I had to dedicate a small portion of my mind at all times to ignoring the scent of Kay clinging to the sheets and pillowcases, but it was enjoyable arranging and rearranging the stack in what order might be best to read them in.
+The rest of the day was spent lounging at Kay's place, reading. She parked herself in her computer chair and insisted that I just use her bed --- those being the sole pieces of furniture within her apartment --- so I propped myself up against the wall with her pillows and poked through my haul.[^haul] It wasn't the most comfortable of seats, and I had to dedicate a small portion of my mind at all times to ignoring the scent of Kay clinging to the sheets and pillowcases, but it was enjoyable arranging and rearranging the stack in what order might be best to read them in.
 
 Kay, for her part was doing much the same, and whenever I would look over, she would be chewing on her cheek or a claw. She kept tapping out rhythms on the page of whatever page of a score she was looking at, humming arpeggios, and at least once I caught her nodding and tapping her tail about behind her, and when she looked up and saw me, she smiled bashfully and mumbled an apology.
 
@@ -35,7 +35,7 @@ I am not ashamed to admit that physiological response, but I am ashamed that I w
 
 [^scent]: It can get rather close to the scent of mildew, which makes me quite uncomfortable. Scent is complicated.
 
-[^books]: I picked up a few commentaries, a few more pop-theology and a few that were dense and reminded me strongly of my time at St. John's to the point where I could almost smell the study room I spent so many hours in, the scratched desk and rickety chair. I also acquired a books on psychology that I'd heard about from colleagues and had been meaning to read. Of note were two books on shame and vulnerability. How appropriate. 
+[^haul]: I picked up a few commentaries, a few more pop-theology and a few that were dense and reminded me strongly of my time at St. John's to the point where I could almost smell the study room I spent so many hours in, the scratched desk and rickety chair. I also acquired a books on psychology that I'd heard about from colleagues and had been meaning to read. Of note were two books on shame and vulnerability. How appropriate. 
 
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writing/sawtooth/limerent-object/choose-fear-1.md

@@ -16,7 +16,7 @@ I left after spending a surprisingly small amount of money on a surprisingly lar
 
 Following the bookstore, we walked a block to an Ethiopian restaurant. I had never tried such cuisine before and while it was not unpleasant, I am still trying to puzzle out the tastes.
 
-The rest of the day was spent lounging at Kay's place, reading. She parked herself in her computer chair and insisted that I just use her bed --- those being the sole pieces of furniture within her apartment --- so I propped myself up against the wall with her pillows and poked through my haul.[^books] It wasn't the most comfortable of seats, and I had to dedicate a small portion of my mind at all times to ignoring the scent of Kay clinging to the sheets and pillowcases, but it was enjoyable arranging and rearranging the stack in what order might be best to read them in.
+The rest of the day was spent lounging at Kay's place, reading. She parked herself in her computer chair and insisted that I just use her bed --- those being the sole pieces of furniture within her apartment --- so I propped myself up against the wall with her pillows and poked through my haul.[^haul] It wasn't the most comfortable of seats, and I had to dedicate a small portion of my mind at all times to ignoring the scent of Kay clinging to the sheets and pillowcases, but it was enjoyable arranging and rearranging the stack in what order might be best to read them in.
 
 Kay, for her part was doing much the same, and whenever I would look over, she would be chewing on her cheek or a claw. She kept tapping out rhythms on the page of whatever page of a score she was looking at, humming arpeggios, and at least once I caught her nodding and tapping her tail about behind her, and when she looked up and saw me, she smiled bashfully and mumbled an apology.
 
@@ -35,4 +35,4 @@ I am not ashamed to admit that physiological response, but I am ashamed that I w
 
 [^scent]: It can get rather close to the scent of mildew, which makes me quite uncomfortable. Scent is complicated.
 
-[^books]: I picked up a few commentaries, a few more pop-theology and a few that were dense and reminded me strongly of my time at St. John's to the point where I could almost smell the study room I spent so many hours in, the scratched desk and rickety chair. I also acquired a books on psychology that I'd heard about from colleagues and had been meaning to read. Of note were two books on shame and vulnerability. How appropriate. 
+[^haul]: I picked up a few commentaries, a few more pop-theology and a few that were dense and reminded me strongly of my time at St. John's to the point where I could almost smell the study room I spent so many hours in, the scratched desk and rickety chair. I also acquired a books on psychology that I'd heard about from colleagues and had been meaning to read. Of note were two books on shame and vulnerability. How appropriate.