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@ -22,6 +22,8 @@ I suspect there must be some similarity to addiction here; the overwhelming pung
Similarly, this crush, if that's all it is anymore, requires of me a constant level of maintenance. I have to feed it fantasies, have to pour into it energy. I have to dream, both at night and during the day. I have to imagine the feeling of our fingers intertwining.
It is a negative part of my life in both its concrete and emotional effects. It feels perilously close to sin. I think that's why I sought out confession.
It is a negative part of my life in both its concrete and emotional effects. It feels perilously close to sin. I think that's why I sought out confession. What was it the priest had said? *Ask yourself who it is that you are hurting in these situations.*
I remember the surety of knowledge after that, that the only one I was hurting through these struggles was myself.
[^codependence]: I suspect that their relationship is codependent, as I think that her husband gets as much out of taking care of her as she gets out of him taking the lead. However, I don't think that it's abusive or manipulative in anyway, simply that this is the way that their relationship works. If there is any negative aspect to the codependency, that, I suspect, is egosyntonic.