From 8a9173409b49d04893193dc96647f67f41d60ffe Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: Madison Scott-Clary Date: Mon, 15 Feb 2021 22:58:05 -0800 Subject: [PATCH] update from sparkleup --- writing/hand-of-god.md | 22 +++++++++++----------- 1 file changed, 11 insertions(+), 11 deletions(-) diff --git a/writing/hand-of-god.md b/writing/hand-of-god.md index 959a7aac..f35130e2 100644 --- a/writing/hand-of-god.md +++ b/writing/hand-of-god.md @@ -55,7 +55,7 @@ And then they unwound the entire procedure from before. Undoing the cabling, une On the way back to the camp, the physicist continued to chatter. He was measuring the way light and shadow moved so untrod an area. "No reason to think something as basic as light would differ here," he had assured her. Or at least assured her form, as her mind was elsewhere. "But you have to admit, everything's a little strange." -At the camp: quiet. The four sat, each in front of their tent, thinking or not, reading or not. At one point, the linguist asked after the fifth member of their expedition, and the psychologist repeated, "He went back to base." +At the camp: quiet. The four sat, each in front of their tent, thinking or not, reading or not. At one point, the linguist asked after the geologist, the fifth member of their expedition, and the archaeologist repeated, "I don't know. He's just gone." And then: quiet. @@ -81,7 +81,7 @@ The physicist: "'The whole blessing'?" She grinned. "Yeah, it's several lines. I think. It's been a while. It's like, 'good luck on your road, may the wind be behind you, may the sun shine on your face, may the rain fall on your fields, and until we meet again, may God hold you in the palm of His hand.'" -It was the most any of them had spoken in hours about anything other than...than work? Than whatever it was they were doing out here in Area X. All of them were listening. +It was the most any of them had spoken in hours about anything other than...than work? Than whatever it was they were doing out here in this newly alien land. All of them were listening. And as she listened, the botanist felt that hand, felt God's hand, close around her mind. Felt it cradle, grip, tighten, squeeze. Felt it test her limits, and, on finding them, sit just shy of too much. She was sure there must be some visible change, a hand-print sprawled across her face, but none of the others said anything about it. @@ -91,7 +91,7 @@ Silence. He looked abashed. "Isaiah forty-nine something." -The psychologist lifted her sleepy head. "You're Catholic." +The archaeologist lifted her sleepy head. "You're Catholic." It wasn't a question. She knew already. Knew all of their profiles. A statement, then, for the benefit of the others. @@ -105,9 +105,9 @@ Hands. Always hands. -The botanist had tuned out, and some distant part of her was surprised to find that she had stood, that she had been pacing, that she had stopped and hunched and tensed, once more facing the outcropping. The outcropping of dead rock, new these last few months, resisting study and understanding.. That finger pointing toward God. +The botanist had tuned out, and some distant part of her was surprised to find that she had stood, that she had been pacing, that she had stopped and hunched and tensed, once more facing the outcropping. The outcropping of dead rock, new these last few months, resisting study and understanding. That finger pointing toward God. -The psychologist: "Where are you going?" +The archaeologist: "Where are you going?" She frowned, the tension draining from her as a blanket settled over her unsettled mind. Turned, abashed, back toward camp. "No. Maybe. I don't know." @@ -119,7 +119,7 @@ The camp grew quiet once more. The physicist handed her bookmark back and she fi The quiet grew thick. The air grew heavy. The light failed. -And one by one, they went to bed. The physicist. The linguist. The psychologist. The botanist. +And one by one, they went to bed. The physicist. The linguist. The archaeologist. The botanist. One by one they retreated to their tents and their own personal narratives diverged once more. Perhaps they slept, perhaps not. Perhaps they dreamed. @@ -135,7 +135,7 @@ And her cheek was as cool as her own felt, and those tiny hairs that lent to the And while the dreamy confusion was mirrored on her face, there was also curiosity, also a detached fondness, an understanding, however inexact, of oneself. And these, too, were inexact, for she did not understand, did not feel fond. Did not feel anything. -And she had stopped thinking of this Doppelgänger as something other than herself. She was not it. She was she. She was she. +And she had stopped thinking of this dream-scented Doppelgänger as something other than herself. She was not it. She was she. She was *she*. And her hands were her own. She had a hand in their making. Her hand was forced hand in hand with blood on her hands washing her hands of the matter. After all, was a bird in the hand not worth two in the clearing, there beside the outcropping where, written on the stone, were the words the linguist toiled over day after day? @@ -151,19 +151,19 @@ And they reached out toward each other and their fingertips touched and the touc And they relaxed, and the botanist felt that even as the darkness deepened, the light within her grew, and they both settled down to their knees. -And finally, the mirroring was broken as the *her* that was not her slid *her* fingers up over her wrist and gently guided her hand down toward the soil, loamy and damp, and she knew then that she must spread her fingers and dig them down into the earth, there by the outcropping which were a finger pointing at God such that she was in turn pointing at...at what? At the owner of that hand? At the owner of that finger? +And finally, the mirroring was broken as the *her* that was not her slid *her* fingers up over her wrist and gently guided her hand down toward the soil, loamy and damp, and she knew then that she must spread her fingers and dig them down into the earth, there by the outcropping which was a finger pointing at God such that she was in turn pointing at...at what? At the owner of that hand? At the owner of that finger? And as she did so, she felt that the dirt beneath her fingernails took root, that her nails themselves must have been rootlets and that her arm a stolon, that her whole body was the runner for some tree, some entity other than herself, for at that point, she took root. And her fingers crawled beneath the soil, and drank of the water there, and tasted the nutrients, and found purchase beneath the layer of loam and humus. -And there, her fingers curled around the God-stone, and indeed, she knew it as she felt it, amber with a kernel of pain embedded within. +And there, her fingers curled around the God-stone, and indeed, she knew it as she felt it, amber with a seed of pain embedded within. -And even as the bark crawled up her arm, she saw her Doppelgänger stand and smile to her. A dreamy smile; not kind, not cruel, not knowing, not ignorant. Just a dreamy, inevitable smile. +And even as the bark crawled up her arm, she saw her Doppelgänger stand and smile to her. A dreamy smile; not kind, not cruel, not knowing, not ignorant. Just a dreamy, inevitable smile. Just a dream. Just inevitablity And she felt growth accelerate as, bound now to the earth, her bones became wood and her muscles loosened, unwound, and thus unbound began to lengthen, to strengthen, to arch skyward, seeking stars, seeking God. And when the physicist awoke, he was the first to notice the botanist was gone. -And when the psychologist awoke, she was the first to notice the new tree, where ferns fingered the air and fronds like hands reached out to touch them. +And when the archaeologist awoke, she was the first to notice the new tree, where ferns fingered the air and fronds like hands reached out to touch them.