From a34d91a47a867ae095b522280685b621445b0ffb Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: Madison Scott-Clary Date: Fri, 21 May 2021 21:15:05 -0700 Subject: [PATCH] update from sparkleup --- writing/sawtooth/limerent-object/61.md | 8 +++++++- writing/sawtooth/limerent-object/index.md | 3 ++- 2 files changed, 9 insertions(+), 2 deletions(-) diff --git a/writing/sawtooth/limerent-object/61.md b/writing/sawtooth/limerent-object/61.md index 8a897182..e25d9cdb 100644 --- a/writing/sawtooth/limerent-object/61.md +++ b/writing/sawtooth/limerent-object/61.md @@ -64,4 +64,10 @@ A soft hum on the other side of the screen, that soft noise the priest always ma The weight on my shoulders slid down and off of me. "Thank you, Father." -(certainly not talking to kay, go into talking with god with scene from discerment) +That was Wednesday, and coming on Friday evening, now, I still do not know the root of my jealousy. + +I waffle still. Sometimes, it feels like envy. It feels like I'm craving something that I cannot have, something that is being kept from me in some form or another. Other times, however, I recognize that there is nothing keeping me from 'having' Dee, and that perhaps I am simply jealous of something that I do not yet have, but see myself having in the future. + +And other times still, both words fail, and I'm left simply with yearning. + +I'm left with yearning, and I know that the only one who I am hurting in these situations is me. diff --git a/writing/sawtooth/limerent-object/index.md b/writing/sawtooth/limerent-object/index.md index e13e0326..f29982e1 100644 --- a/writing/sawtooth/limerent-object/index.md +++ b/writing/sawtooth/limerent-object/index.md @@ -55,10 +55,11 @@ Told in the form of journal entries after long online conversations, complete wi * [o] [A dream](40) * [o] [Leaving seminary vs liking Kay](50) * [o] [Dee chickens out](60) -* [ ] [Confession](61) +* [o] [Confession](61) * [o] [Projection](70) * [.] [Egodystonic attraction](71) * [ ] [Calling Borenson](81) * [ ] [Talking with God](90) * [ ] * [.] [The conversation](xx) +* [ ] [Talking with God again](xx1)