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writing/post-self/neviim/interlude/001.md

@@ -102,4 +102,98 @@ She tugged at eir fingers. "You have become a script writer and performer, my de
 
 "And it is our job as Odists to fuck with you until you break out of it. I have faith in em, just as I had faith in you." She slid the paper back across the table to em. "You just need to pass that on."
 
+Ioan knew that it would be quite a while yet before eir and May's forks merged back down. Time Is A Finger Pointing At Itself, the director of the play was quite strict but she also drank like a fish and clung jealously to some remnant of productions she'd remembered from more than two centuries ago, so it had become a comfortable rhythm for Ioan, May, and any other actors who wished to join to follow her to a pub that served strong drinks and greasy food.
 
+Ey had been planning on a simple dinner on eir own, perhaps catching up on some reading, but with this news and the fact that May was now here with em, the plan evolved into something more involved. Staying inside didn't feel right. Something about the news had em in mind of stars, in mind of looking up to the sky, so they wound up grilling burgers out on the patio and talked as they watched the stars above, sitting there in the house's back yard.
+
+The burgers had long been finished and the grill long since put away when Ioan felt an automated sensorium ping of someone entering the house, followed shortly by a real message from who had arrived.
+
+She did not give em time to react, nor even to stand. Ey had only managed to turn to look to the door opening out to the patio before the skunk stepped out onto the concrete, lit only by the string of lights tucked beneath the overhanging deck.
+
+"I...what? True Name?"
+
+She bowed quickly before holding her paws up in a disarming gesture. "Ioan, May Then My Name. I apologize for the brusque entry, but I believe we need to talk."
+
+"I will leave you to it," May growled, pushing herself to her feet. Ey had only ever seen eir partner furious on a scant handful of occasions, but now ey could add one more to the list. Her teeth were bared, tail bristled out, and paws bunched up into fists. In the two decades since the research and publication of *On the Origin of Our World*, May's view of her down-tree instances had dropped precipitously, and all but one of those moments of fury had been triggered by her clade.
+
+"May Then My Name, please," True Name said, crossing her paws before her and bowing once again. She sounded contrite, small. "I know that you do not hold me in high regard, but all the same, I would prefer if you stayed, as I am assuming that you have both received the news."
+
+May frowned, crossed her arms, but did not move to leave.
+
+"Thank you," the other skunk said, straightening up and brushing her paws down her blouse, a nervous gesture ey had never seen on one who always looked so in control. "I will not take up too much of your time, as there is much to be done and even though there are several of me already at work and this is my only task, my mind is still torn in many directions. May we please step inside where there is more light?"
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+Ioan looked up to May, who shrugged. She still looked as though she would like to either quit or bounce True Name from the sim entirely.
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+"We can talk at the dining table," ey said, climbing to eir feet.
+
+Once they were seated, True Name stared off into space for a moment, and Ioan imagined her rifling through several exocortices at once, digging out a collection of files and memories.
+
+"Alright," she said, shaking her head to focus. "First of all, may I see the message that you have received from Codrin#Castor?"
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+"There was some content that was clade eyes only, but I'll share the first half with you."
+
+"And there is nothing in the second half that pertains to Artemis?"
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+Ey shook eir head, drawing the first half of the message out from the tabletop as a bit of foolscap which ey handed over. "Codrin had questions on a career change. Nothing pertinent."
+
+The skunk skimmed the message rapidly while Ioan and May looked on. Eir partner still held fury in her eyes. Ey only felt tired.
+
+"Alright, this is much the same information that we received earlier today." True Name folded the slip of paper and slid it into a pocket in her slacks. "I am sure that you can guess why I have arrived in such a rush, but to be clear, True Name#Castor learned that Codrin had sent you this update. Ey was perfectly welcome to, but, well, it is our job to consider information security and hygiene, so she sent us an additional message immediately upon learning of this."
+
+"And you are here to shut us up," May said.
+
+True Name lowered her gaze. "I am here only to provide suggestions as to that same security and hygiene."
+
+Ioan marveled at the sight of the skunk. She had always seemed so proud and in control, and now she looked to be on the verge of tears. She looked scared.
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+"Okay, I'll listen," ey said. "But didn't you and Jonas plan for this? Run simulations?"
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+"We did, yes. We even ran the fact that it might be you who received the information through our models," she said, nodding to em.
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+"But you did not count on me," May said.
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+There was a tight silence that lingered a long few seconds before True Name nodded. "We did not count on you. We did not count on you *both*. We did not count on..." She took a shaky breath, recomposed herself, and continued. "We did not count on what changes the dynamic between you two would lead to."
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+"Your models included a historian and a member of your stanza, you mean," Ioan said. "And now you've got two actors, one of whom is particularly good at influencing others."
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+She looked stricken, gaze jumping between em and May. "When one has lived so long with a certain set of expectations, having them subverted is a shock. May Then My Name, I do not begrudge you your feelings toward me. It is not my goal to win you back; all I can do is admit my shortcomings and try to do better by you, even if that is, as you have requested, leaving you be. I truly am happy for you --- for both of you --- as you have accomplished something that I never could, that even Michelle struggled with. However, I have a job. I have goals to work towards. I have a vision that I would like above all things to uphold."
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+"You have painted yourself into a corner," May said. Her voice had lost the edge of fury at her down-tree instance's admission. "And now you need a bit of time for that paint to dry."
+
+True Name giggled. It was an uncanny sound coming from her. Ioan had seen her laugh, grin, and smile, but they were all tightly controlled. They were all laser-focused cues to guide her interlocutor. The giggle held amusement, yes, but also nervousness. It held some sense of a covering a much larger emotional outburst. Ey had been considering just how much of this interaction up until this point was a carefully considered act, how much of her visit could be dismissed with a wink and a grin, but there was something far to real about that giggle.
+
+Ioan and May looked to each other and laughed as well.
+
+"I'm sorry, True Name," ey said. "I mean this in all compassion, but you sound like you're about to lose it."
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+The skunk giggled again, then rested her elbows on the table and buried her face in her paws, grinding the heels of her pads against her eyes before straightening the longer fur atop her head. "I am, yes, at least in a way. There are many threads happening at once and, as May Then My Name put it, I have painted myself into a corner."
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+"Make your pitch, then," May said, voice softer still.
+
+"It is a small ask, I hope," The skunk said, folding her hands on the tabletop once more. "Do not publish any of this information in the feeds or put it anywhere in the perisystem architecture. I would ask that you keep it between yourselves, me, and other Odists. You may, of course, keep communicating with Castor, but I would ask that you not pass this on to Pollux yet. Codrin and True Name are working together, so I imagine our messages will contain similar content, but if anything interesting comes up, I would be much obliged if you shared with me. Are you open to that?"
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+"Sure," Ioan said.
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+May shrugged. "Sure. I may talk to A Finger Pointing and End Waking about it, but I think you will have the rest under control before I wind up speaking to them again. The only other that I would like to share this with, however, is Douglas."
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+The skunk stiffened in her seat and sat silent for a moment. "May I be there when you do? I would like to impress upon him the gravity of the situation."
+
+"Absolutely not."
+
+True Name wilted. "I see. Well, if you would pass on my request for information security, I would be very thankful."
+
+"I will," May said.
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+Standing and, once more brushing her blouse flat, True name bowed. "Thank you both."
+
+May stood as well and stepped around the table, taking the other skunk's paws in her own. It was strange to see the gesture of affection after so tense a discussion, but the expression on May's face as she looked at her down-tree instance showed none of the friendship implied. Ioan marveled. If the sight of two skunks that shared so much in common and yet differed in such key ways was strange, seeing them touch in such a way after so much history bordered on uncanny.
+
+"You wrote to me in back in systime 197 and told me, "You are, in many ways, a better version of me, and the completeness that you bring to our stanza ensures that we add up to something that is greater than the sum of its parts". Do you remember that?"
+
+The skunk canted her ears back and nodded.
+
+May let go of her paws and then hugged her arms up around her cocladist's shoulders. "I still believe that."
+
+True Name choked back a sob and leaned into the hug.
+
+After a moment, she leaned back, rested her paws on True Name's shoulders, and said, "But never, *ever* come to my fucking house again."