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@ -123,27 +123,27 @@ Stolon talking with Tycho very informal and slangy, also a bit spotty on English
* [o] [Tycho Brahe](local/tycho/004) --- Tycho, True Name, Answers Will Not Help, other astronomer (Paolo Verda), and System tech (Sovanna Soun) fork to basically create a massive workforce to get all this done as fast as possible, .com - 1924
* [o] [Codrin Bălan](local/codrin/004) --- Meets up with the Artemis team at dinner, somewhat tense around True Name, but learns a bit more about the current status and how well under control it is (or how tightly controlled Odists are keeping it) - 2168
* [o] [Tycho Brahe#Artemis](local/tycho/005) --- Tycho has a dream about meeting the Artemisians, wakes and talks with TN about preemptive cultural exchange so that they know more about each other, works with Why Ask Questions thinking she's Answers Will Not Help. - 1758
* [o] [Ioan Bălan](ioan/001) --- Ioan gets word from Castor
* [o] [Ioan Bălan](ioan/001) --- Ioan gets word from Castor - 1844
* [-] SPLIT <!--[Interlude](interlude/001) --- Ioan and May discuss news, but also Codrin's notes about feeling dragged along - 3624-->
* [o] [Codrin Bălan](local/codrin/005) --- Tycho#Tasker, Sarah, have dinner with Codrin, Dear, Dear's partner, talk about jobs, what they used to do, how odd it is to have one. Tycho gets message re: Artemisian culture and importance of time-bending, and shares with table, Tycho says TN refuses to accommodate on Castor. - 2324
* [o] [Tycho Brahe#Artemis](local/tycho/006) --- Tycho watches news disseminate with True Name, learns of various reactions. - 2222
* [o] [Codrin Bălan](local/codrin/006) --- Walk with Dear, talking about what to expect/not expect (actual understanding may take decades, some other stuff), Dear admits that this might be one it's glad to sit out b/c its existence relies on being able to understand, they talk about that - 2082
* [o] [Ioan Bălan](ioan/002) --- True Name shows up
* [o] [Ioan Bălan](ioan/002) --- True Name shows up - 1838
* [o] [Tycho Brahe#Artemis](local/tycho/007) --- They work out a date, start making preparations e.g: building the DMZ out a bit, forks for who's going, senses how little input he will have but keeps to himself, letting #Tasker know to talk with Codrin back at house on prairie - 2174
* [o] Experience - exchange of emissaries, discussions, knowledge share
* [o] [Codrin Bălan#Artemis](local/codrin/007) --- divvying up tasks (e.g: #Emissaries talk about politics, society, history, #Artemises talk about science, language, astronomy), forking, watching remote team head off, then forking and transiting DMZ border to welcome and orient emissaries. - 1490 (expand)
* [o] [Codrin Bălan#Emissary](remote/codrin/001) --- First entry into the meeting hall, a dome in the middle of a compound, disoriented, unable to fork, time feels weird, introduced and oriented, ey finds out about WAQ/AWNH switch, remembers what they were for, frown; AWNH and TN are kind of freaking out b/c time slipperiness feels like being lost. - 2403
* [o] [Ioan Bălan](ioan/003) --- May had a cry.
* [o] [Ioan Bălan](ioan/003) --- May had a cry - 1804
* [o] [Codrin Bălan#Artemis](local/codrin/008) --- starts out simply recording, Tycho too overwhelmed to speak, notices Turun Ko, discusses roles during a lull, TN frowns, Emissaries are set up with sandbox sim for downtime however they please; catches up with Tycho and Sarah Genet about how learning is going (hint: everyone's baffled) - 1875 (expand)
* [-] MERGED ABOVE <!--[Codrin Bălan#Emissary](remote/codrin/002) --- starts out simply recording, Tycho too overwhelmed to speak, notices Turun Ko, discusses roles during a lull, TN frowns-->
* [o] [Tycho Brahe#Emissary](remote/tycho/001) --- overwhelmed at meeting them all, introductions go around, working out specialties and such, gets a bit excited talking about astronomy and how much there is to learn, TN frowns, though she's still struggling b/c lost-alike sensations Tycho learns about time from Turun Ka and that this is how they managed to work fast: modifying time rather than forking. They explain forking and merging in turn, compare with Artante's experience - 2195
* [o] [Ioan Bălan](ioan/004) --- Ioan and May are super gay and sad.
* [o] [Ioan Bălan](ioan/004) --- Ioan and May are super gay and sad - 1501
* [-] MERGED ABOVE <!--[Tycho Brahe#Artemis](local/tycho/008) --- overwhelmed at meeting them all, introductions go around, working out specialties and such, gets a bit excited talking about astronomy and how much there is to learn, TN frowns, though she's still struggling b/c lost-alike sensations-->
* [o] [Codrin Bălan#Emissary](remote/codrin/003) --- Exchanges notes with Codrin#Artemis, hinting at swap with WAQ/AWNH - 2192
* [o] SPLIT <!--[Interlude](interlude/002) --- Ioan and May (who indeed have a cry) discuss how it feels to know that the talks are taking place and may be over by the time they hear about it - 3319-->
* [o] [Tycho Brahe#Artemis](local/tycho/009) --- Talks with Sarah Genet about what the two parties are learning and how its impacting his view of the System and Artemis - 1920
* [o] [Tycho Brahe#Emissary](remote/tycho/002) --- Watches TN try to have a discussion with Turun Ka regarding history, and it is an exercise in mutual misunderstanding, starting to feel out of his league with #Emissary being about social aspects - 1725
* [ ] [Ioan Bălan](ioan/010) --- Ioan, May, End Waking, A Finger Pointing, Douglas meet up to talk about thing; what does it feel like, etc
* [o] [Ioan Bălan](ioan/010) --- Ioan, May, End Waking, A Finger Pointing, Douglas meet up to talk about thing; what does it feel like, etc - 1938
* [o] [Tycho Brahe#Artemis](local/tycho/010) --- Compares utility differences between forking/time manipulation (mostly Tycho, but also TN/WAQ) (day 3 after lunch) - 1965
* [o] [Codrin Bălan#Artemis](local/codrin/009) --- After watching similar discussion of TN misunderstanding, meets up with Sarah Genet over break, discusses note from Codrin#Emissary (day 3 lunch) - 2251
* [o] [Codrin Bălan#Emissary](remote/codrin/004) --- Talks about current status during break, suggests ideas to Tycho about what he could be paying attention to re: politics/society/history in terms of the stars, leads to question of whether there were others that they've met along the way but didn't join them arising, but told not to ask yet - 3208

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@ -74,4 +74,42 @@ This short speech seemed to demand a silent acknowledgement of a few minutes, an
The skunk shrugged. "That is not enough to stand in the way of my desire. Would I go mad in the midst of their forest? Very well, I would go mad."
Ioan, May, End Waking, A Finger Pointing, Douglas meet up to talk about thing; what does it feel like, etc; A Finger Pointing ends with a monologue?
"Is that what it feels like? Going mad?"
"I am not sure how else to put it," he said after a long silence.
"I was on a field of dandelions and grass," May said, her voice distant and dreamy. "And there was no echo. The world stretched out before me in empty nothingness, and there was no echo. At my back was a bar --- scratched wood, stools, a foot rail, a gutter for pouring drinks --- and the only way I could hear my own voice pass through the air was to huddle between those stools and face the bar."
"Words came unbidden," A Finger Pointing picked up where May left off. "And as they passed through my mind, they dripped and smeared, a painting with too much wet paint on the canvas stood on its edge. The dreaming mind did not know what to do with language that close to the surface, and so the language stained all it touched."
End Waking nodded, speaking toward the fire. "And so I screamed and I ran, and when I looked back, the bar was gone, and when I looked forward again, there it was. The words came unbidden, and with each one that left my mouth, a cord that tethered me to reality snapped, and I grew lighter and lighter, and I feared I would float up into the sky, into the sun."
"And through it all, time was unmoored and set adrift." May sighed, shook her head. "Sixteen hours, twenty three minutes, is what they said, but I lived lifetime after lifetime beneath that sun. The light thrummed and vibrated around me, and I lived and died and lived again. I watched eternity fall away and rot at my feet."
"Or perhaps it was just an instant," A Finger Pointing said.
End Waking's words came with a finality that seemed to draw the memory to a close, though nothing about the words had felt memorized or learned. "And so I went mad."
"Jesus." Douglas's whisper broke the long silence that followed. "And you're afraid that's what would happen on Artemis?"
"Not exactly that," the skunk said. "But when presented with the fragility of eternity once more, I cannot imagine that I would remain sane. That any of us would."
"This is what we fear," May said.
"With memory?"
She nodded, tugging Ioan's arm tighter around her middle. "A madness born of eternities. Memory upon memory upon memory. Our memories, our whole subconscious lies too close to the surface, and that barrier between conscious and subconsciousness cannot bear the weight of an eternity, and so the cracks widen."
"Do you think that's what happened with Death Itself and I Do Not Know? To Michelle?" Ioan asked.
End Waking dipped his snout and drew his hood up over his head once more. A Finger Pointing took a long drink from the bottle of whiskey.
"I do not know, my dear. I will never know. It is very hard to quit when one is at the root of a clade, or even a larger subtree. Death Itself may have been struggling to do so for a long time. I cannot imagine how difficult it must have been for Michelle. The System is not built for death."
Ey felt eir muscles tense, was helpless to stop it.
"I am sorry, Ioan. The System is not built for death, just as you are not. It wants to keep us alive, and so to end a clade is very difficult."
Ey nodded slowly, focusing on feeling eir partner next to em, the log they sat on beneath em, the warmth of the fire before em. Ey focused on the feeling of being alive and being *here*, of being present and in the world, digital or otherwise.
"How heavy must that madness be, then, to crash through so many failsafes and allow someone who has been within the system for more than two centuries? This is what we fear."