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@ -6,7 +6,7 @@ There was a sense in the air that the skunk wanted to ask him to leave again, to
It was never comfortable to be asked to leave one's partner. He knew the reasons, could understand the drive, but to build a relationship up over however many decades it was now, and yet still need to put it on hold for months or, on one occasion, years at a time still hurt.
He knew he had a temper, too. He'd spent the last centuries going all the way back to Cicero's death working on setting that aside when he could feel it getting too hot within him. He always worked his hardest at that around End Waking. He loved the skunk, wanted nothing but the best for him, and although he knew that End Waking was one of the more resilient of the Odists, he had also known Michelle far longer than...well, just about anyone possibly could, now. Two and a half centuries was a long time to understand just how the other person processes pain and trauma, and he didn't want to add to any of the Odists' burden, having spent so long with them from the beginning. From before the beginning, in some senses.
He knew he had a temper, too. He'd spent the last centuries going all the way back to Cicero's death working on setting that aside when he could feel it getting too hot within him. He always worked his hardest at that around End Waking. He loved the skunk, wanted nothing but the best for him, and although he knew that End Waking was one of the more resilient Odists, he had also known Michelle far longer than...well, just about anyone possibly could, now. Two and a half centuries was a long time to understand just how the other person processes pain and trauma, and he didn't want to add to any of the Odists' burden, having spent so long with them from the beginning. From before the beginning, in some senses.
Well, except perhaps True Name.
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May Then My Name was sobbing. It looked as though she had been for a bit, too, judging by the mess of tear-tracks in the fur of her cheeks.
There wasn't much that he could think of to say, so he awkwardly shifted from a crouch to a kneeling position beside her, wrapping his arms around her shoulders and gently tugging her against him. Although he rarely had reason to be comforting to May Then My Name in particular, it was familiar enough from all the way back at the Crown Pub when Sasha'd come back from some break-up or another.
There wasn't much that he could think of to say, so he awkwardly shifted from a crouch to a kneeling position beside her, wrapping his arms around her shoulders and gently tugging her against him. Although he rarely had reason to comfort May Then My Name in particular, it was familiar enough from all the way back at the Crown Pub when Sasha'd come back from some break-up or another.
"I will get water," End Waking murmured, leaving the physical comfort to someone better able to provide such.
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She nodded and accepted the mug with both paws to hold it steady, taking a few unsteady laps of the water before simply clutching it to her chest. "Thank you," she croaked, freeing up a paw to accept the damp rag to wipe her face. "I am sorry for so dramatic an entrance."
"Hush. You are fine," End Waking said. "Everything sounded quite dramatic. Please take your time, and we can discuss it later."
"Hush. You are fine," End Waking said. "Everything sounded quite dramatic indeed. Please take your time, and we can discuss it later."
She nodded, slouched a little further against Debarre, and sighed shakily.
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"You think about it from the outside, my love," End Waking said. "You think about who we were. You have the capacity to do so. May Then My Name and I have diverged so far from True Name that she has become a new entity, and I do not think that we can so easily see Sasha in her."
May Then My Name was nodding. "And that is the source of at least some of my resentment towards her. I cannot see Sasha in her, and yet I was created from her. I see that of Sasha in myself, the caring side of her who got lost looking for lost friends, and while I can *remember* those few years that I was True Name, I am not that person. I do not feel like I ever was that person. Becoming me was waking up from a dream."
May Then My Name nodded toward End Waking. "And that is the source of at least some of my resentment towards her. I cannot see Sasha in her, and yet I was created from her. I see that of Sasha in myself, the caring side of her who got lost looking for lost friends, and while I can *remember* those few years that I was True Name, I am not that person. I do not feel like I ever was that person. Becoming me was waking up from a dream."
"A nightmare, perhaps," the other skunk murmured.
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"Of course, no rush."
"Right. Well, Jonas got her involved with something in the late 2130s. It was sort of a side...thing, very hush-hush but it still has taken up at least a small part of her attention ever since. It was all very low-level stuff --- low enough that it flew beneath even her radar --- and I guess after Launch, he dropped it all on her in a meeting similar to what he had promised for Secession day. All that time had turned into a lever to use against her, and I think that, whether she realizes it or not, relatively little has been done of her own accord since then."
"Right. Well, Jonas got her involved with something in the late 2130s. It was sort of a side...thing, very hush-hush but it still has taken up at least a small part of her attention ever since. It was all very low-level stuff --- low enough that it flew beneath even her radar --- and I guess after Launch, he dropped it all on her in a meeting similar to what he had promised for Secession day. All that time had turned into a lever to use against her, and I think that, whether she realizes it or not, relatively little has been done of her own accord since then here on Lagrange."
Debarre nodded, waiting for her to say more, to which she eventually shook her head. "I am sorry. I need at least a few days to be able to process it. I cannot even think about it without wanting to...I do not know. I want to quit and force a merge on her. I want *you* to force a merge on her," she said, nodding to End Waking. "I want her to know something other than herself."

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@ -36,14 +36,14 @@ Wherein True Name and May reconcile, and we deal with the problem of the ownersh
* [X] [Coffee date - Jan 2350 (TN's No Way 1)](008) --- Assassination attempt (actual assassination may not be until most of the way through a few thousand words after talking with May), the fact that Ioan's been meeting with TN's root instance hits home
* [O] Conflict --- After assassination attempt on TN, learn about TN getting pushed out by Jonas, May offers to merge down, turns into big discussion
* [X] *To hone is to trade ends for perpetual perfection* --- The danger in ceaseless memorialization is how close it lies to idolatry. To elevate the dead to such a status as false god (for what being that is limited to the perfection of memory is not false?) is to ceaselessly perfect the imperfectable.
* [O] CHAPTER Ioan 2350
* [X] CHAPTER Ioan 2350
* [X] [May's No Way 2](009) --- Upset about the situation; that it's politics is bringing up a lot more bad feelings about True Name
* [X] [Clearing the house](010) --- Ioan goes to clear the house and lock down ACLs. Bounces all the assassins, meets Jonas and talks with him for a bit. He's a dick. They still decide to stay the night at the lake with some basic camping amenities, EW comes over to help, TN is elsewhere, stomping around the lake off sending messages and such (EW brings two of things, Ioan corrects to three)
* [X] [TN's No Way 2](011) --- Trying to salvage this, confronting the reality based on what Ioan passes on from Jonas (that afternoon)
* [X] [Something innocent](012) --- TN moves in with Ioan and May through attached townhouse, trying to figure out how to work this so there's no cat^H^H^Hskunkfights
* [O] [Bone Town](013) --- TN talks with May about Jonas in CoS. Later, she comes up with the idea to merge down (needs to be filled out)
* [X] [Bone Town](013) --- TN talks with May about Jonas in CoS. Later, she comes up with the idea to merge down (needs to be filled out)
* [O] CHAPTER Debarre 2350
* [O] [May's Wallow 1](014) --- May comes over distraught, they talk, she suggests he merge down (has a few reasons why, but doesn't express them super well)
* [X] [May's Wallow 1](014) --- May comes over distraught, they talk, she suggests he merge down (has a few reasons why, but doesn't express them super well)
* [O] [Debarre and EW talk](015) --- May leaves, Debarre and EW get their bed back in the tent and talk about what the merge would look like and mean for both him and TN, thinks he might so long as May agrees to merge down in the future as well.
* [O] CHAPTER Ioan 2350
* [O] [TN's Wallow 1](016) --- TN moping about how things have wound up re: her calling