%title Maverick log. %date 2005-10-09 04:32:52
Log Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier noses ya" to you. You whisper, "Astarael gives the nose a smooch, "Woof."" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier fuzzles and hrmms a bit, "there's kind of something i want to talk to you about."" to you. You whisper, "Astarael nods a little and perks, "I'm all ears, fuzzy."" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier nods and snugs ya close, "I think we are starting to kind of like each other like we used to a while ago, though not exactly sure how you feel."" to you. You whisper, "Astarael rrfs, "Yeah, I've kinda noticed. I like it, of course - it's a decidedly pleasant feeling - but I'm also feeling sorta.. cautious about the whole thing. Some weird things have been going on recently."" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier nods, "its cool. and yeah cautious is good... i don't want to do to you what i did last time. i still feel really bad about it."" to you. You whisper, "Astarael moufs at whiskers, "More than that, I'm feeling cautious because -I- don't want to do that to -you-. Like I said, some weird things have been going on lately, particularly involving a few people, and I don't want to hurt anyone.."" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier smiles and lix yer nose, "that is ok... the first time it was because of how old you were.. i was even afraid to be yiffy with you so i kind of just avoided it untill it went away... and now if things started to get more serious... i couldn't bring you into my life style, you are too good of a person and i wouldn't want you to have a messed up life" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "so i guess it isn't so bad this time... now there is one less person you have to worry about having feelings for and stuff" to you. You whisper, "Astarael nuzzles into the licks and noddles, "I know, fuzzy. And I felt kinda awkward when I ran into you here of all places, after our relationship being so completely platonic previously. Still a little weird, but I suppose seeing you after so long makes up for it ^^ What do you mean about your life style, though?"" to Maverick_Xavier. You whisper, "Astarael rr?" to Maverick_Xavier. Maveri ck_Xavier whispers, "i am a party wuff. doing drugs is a part of my life" to you. You whisper, "I wouldn't worry too much about my getting taken in by that, so much as me being sorta.. boring as compared to you. I mean, I've tried my share of substances, but none of them have really been good enough that I'd do them often, or ever again. Especially in a party scene. Anyway, what did you mean about one less person to worry about?" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "you said you had a few people that you were pursuing... now you don't have to worry about going after me or me going after you" to you. You whisper, "Astarael ohs and nods a little, "Not even just a little persual? :o)" He giggles, "Mrf.. well.. promise we can stay close?"" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier hugs you tight, "don't get me wrong, you are still one of my favourite ppl and i'll always love ya :) i just don't think life would work out quite right with the two of us paired together" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "of course we can :o)" to you. You whisper, "Astarael awrs and gives you a good squeeze, poking his nose in fur, "You're such a neat woof, and I'll always love you too." He nods some, "So I plan on bothering you whenever you come in here, still."" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier giggles and squeezes ya back tightly, "you are definately welcome to it... and i don't know how you feel about it, *blushes* but i've always wanted to be rar with ya at least once sometime."" to you. You whisper, "Astarael giggles and puts a smooch on your cheek, "I can dig it. Give me some time, though? I don't want it to be awkward or forced or anything."" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier giggles and fuzzles you, "well i'm not asking you to do me on the floor right now or anything ;P but yeah, i just would like for it to just kind of happen, both being all snuggly and the mood strikes us both :) though i don't even know if you see me in that way.. might just be all around weird for you.. like i'm too much of just a friend." to you. You whisper, "Astarael rar! He giggles and nods, "I just want to wait until it feels right, 'cause, like, we've waited six years, after all."" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier giggles and slurps yer muzzle, "yeah, i think it was something that is just long over due, so might as make it nice when it does happen :o)"" to you. You whisper, "Astarael pushes his muzzle into slurpings and nodnods, all swishy." to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier smiles and cuddles ya all up" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "so tell me about your adventures in substance experimentation" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "like what kind of stuff have you done?" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier is just curious cause he couldn't imagine this foxy doing anything like that at all :oP" to you. You whisper, "Astarael nestles in green fur and pets paws over your chest. Hides his face, too. He just typed it out and realized how much he's done c.c Gonna be a long whisper.." to Maverick_Xavier. You whisper, "Hmm.. alright. I've never done anything strictly chemical, 'cause I've always been fascinated with the more organic sorts of things, so natural stuffs were my focus. I tried nutmeg a few times. It wasn't really that pleasant unless I was outside and moving. I tried LSA containing HWBR seeds, which mostly just made me feel ill. I've gotten stoned enough to realize that it's either pleasantly relaxing or utterly terrifying for me. Salvia divinorum was terrifying, but beautiful. Shrooms were the worst experience of my life due to an allergic reaction. Kava's relaxing and mellow, empathogenic. Kratom was a little -too- nice, like the codeine cough syrup I had for a while. Lotus was.. exceedingly pleasant, but has a sort of protection built into it where it only really has an effect once every few weeks. Urm.. Calea was terrible and worthless. Betel nut was tasty, and pleasantly stimulating." to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "wow, you have actually done alot of stuff i haven't. I am sorry about the shrooms. they can be a really awesome time if you're not allergic to them" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "I am not even sure what kratom is, i will have to look that one up" to you. You whisper, "Astarael nods a little, "I could see how it could be pleasant, and really the reaction wasn't that bad. Just a slight case of hives, mostly on legs and forearms. Phantom itches and the like. I started feeling really dehydrated, so I took a bath. Got stuck in a thoughtloop, and it really just turned into a bad trip from there. I smoked pot once after that, at AC this summer, and had to just leave the room and go lay down on the floor in TealFox and Andreal's room." to Maverick_Xavier. You whisper, "Kratom's rather.. opiate like, though it lacks the sickness and some of the euphoria." to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "yeah, the thoughtloop is what causes a bad trip :/" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "and i don't like to smoke to strong of pot anymore myself.. getting too high causes anxiety" to you. You whisper, "Astarael nods, this was supposedly some crazy strong pot. He wouldn't know. He probably would've freaked out if it was parsley c.c Hasn't done anything since, and if he does, he'll stick with the more relaxing things like lotus and kratom and kava." to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "well if chances ever happen and we are at a con or something together, would you consider doing E with me?" to you. You whisper, "Astarael blinks, nodnods, "Yeah, actually. It's one of the only chemicals I've wanted to do, and it'd be nice to do with a nice woof :o)"" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier smiles and nuzzles you, "and don't worry, its not a sexual type of thing, though people can make it into that.."" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "we'd probably be snuggly like we are on here if we wanted to, just being happy to be alive, happy that we are friends, and just plain happy" to you. You whisper, "Astarael smiles and noddles. Even if it were more than that, he trusts you enough. It all sounds so wonderfully pleasant, though ^^" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "it is. its one of the most amazing experiences you can i have. at least that's what I believe" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "you are going to FC this year?" to you. You whisper, "Astarael mmhms. Gonna have to miss a few days of school, but it's his birthday present :o)" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "its possible that I could go as well. i know people that are going to be there that could make that possible. something you might want to think about?" to you. You whisper, "Astarael smiles all big, "That'd be neat! I won't be there too long - wednesday late night until sunday evening - but I'd definitely like that. Rrf.. wouldn't be too much of a strain for you, though, would it?"" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "it would be a vacation for me, get to see alot of other friends too. there wouldn't be any strain, just a good time :)" to you. You whisper, "Astarael nodnods and rubs his nose on you, "Well, I think it would be really good to see you, fuzzy, if you make it."" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier grinz and picks you up squeezing you tight, "it would be really awesome to finally get to see you, and then spend a night like that together!! :)"" to you. You whisper, "Astarael yip! He giggles and clings to you with a squeeze, "Mmhm! It'd be good to sneak away from all the people there to spend a nice time with a nice woof."" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier grinz and nods, "well it will probably be in a setting of a hotel room where a few other people are rolling as well."" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "which is actually a good thing... its really nice to have other people around that are rolling as well :)" to you. You whisper, "Astarael nodnods, "I just mean away from all the people of the con, some place more relaxed than 2000 furries, or whatever :o)" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "yeah! i have it set up for a private party if we do that. don't have to worry about wondering around all the sober people... would probably get kicked out of the con from trying to pet the fursuiters too much hehe" to you. You whisper, "Astarael giggles! Hmm.. he's got a set of paws Jim made him and a tail, though, which could be nice for petting and petting with." to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "woah! those would be super cool to roll with :D" to you. You whisper, "Astarael nodnods, feels nice to get petted with soft paws even when not rolling. And tails are always fun to play with." to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "so yeah, it would be a very relaxed atmosphere with just a couple of other people sitting around, snuggling, dancing with glowsticks." to you. You whisper, "Astarael mms and noses at, "Sounds nice, fuzzy :o)"" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier mrrrrs and lix the nose, "yes it does.. will be the warmest fuzziest night of your life :)"" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "and I will make sure you recieve plenty of entertainment with lightshows and backrubs." to you. You whisper, "Astarael hees and awrs, nuzzling on your cheek." to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "even though i am all fat n stuff, i can still glowstick pretty well" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier mrrrs and rubs his muzzle against yours." to you. You whisper, "Astarael whiskertwitches and awrs, giving you tummyrubs." to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "though it being furries n stuff.. its possible that someone might decide to start yiffing in the room. dunno how you'd feel about that" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier mrrrrps and puffs his tummy out for the tummy rubs." to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "I know myself, when stuff happend like that at the furry house i lived at. it made me feel very uncomfortable and awkward... like when people got naked and just started doing it on the floor and couches." to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "it was really weird and i didn't know how to react or feel when stuff like that happened" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "so if it happens to happen at the party, what do you think?" to you. You whisper, "Astarael gets a call, just a sec!" to Maverick_Xavier. You whisper, "Astarael erp, sorries, "Urm.. if that happened, I'd probably just keep myself all distracted with you, since you don't seem like the type of person to do that."" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier smiles and nods, "yeah i'd probably do the same... and well to tell the truth while we we're rolling we actually probably wouldn't care too much and just be happy that they were enjoying themselves. probably would just be comfortable sitting there snugging on each other while people yiffed themselves silly."" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "not that there is a huge chance of that happening anyways.. most likely wouldn't happen at all, but it has been known to happen." to you. You whisper, "Astarael leans against you a little and pokes his nose about, "Even so, I can see how it would be nice to know that people were enjoying themselves, while enjoying myself with a woof. ^^"" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier giggles and snugs you against him, "yeah its weird like that, you're just so happy and can be cool with pretty much anything going on around you."" to you. You whisper, "Astarael giggles and nods, "Sounds just like how I want to be :o)"" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "anyways was just thinking of some odd scenerios that could be happen, just so its not a huge surprise if it does..." to you. You whisper, "Astarael mms and tucks his muzzle 'neath yours, "I like thinking about it, so that's okay."" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier smiles and cuddles up close, "the only other thing i can think of that could happen is people start getting nekkid and curling up with each other... not to be yiffy, but just because it feels nice to be clothes free and snuggled up together... not that that would be something i'd ever do myself, though if everyone else started to get nekkid they might try to convince us :P and even though i'd be rollin, my clothes are stayin on. noone is seeing this ugly woofs naked body, its too scary." to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "those are the only two things i can think about that could happen to worry about. other than that everything else is just having lots of fun :)" to you. You whisper, "Astarael giggles a little and awrs, "I'm sure you don't look -that- bad. Not from what I remember of the pictures you sent.. uh.. five years ago c,c But I wouldn't try to convince you either, 'cause I'm sure that's the last thing you really need, is a room full of fuzzies all trying to get you to do something ^^ But yeah, it sounds like a bunch of fun."" to Maverick_Xavier. You whisper, "Astarael gotta idle for, like, five minutes. He'll be back, though!" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "okies, i will be here :)" to you. You page-pose, "Astarael kerpets, snugs while he's gone." to Maverick_Xavier You page-pose, "Astarael foxpounce." to Maverick_Xavier In a page-pose to you, Maverick_Xavier ooofs and squeezes! Maverick_Xavier pages, "back now?" to you. You page-pose, "Astarael nodnods and drapes over. Is making snackies, though." to Maverick_Xavier Maverick_Xavier pages, "okies" to you. You page-pose, "Astarael okies. All set. Leans on you and mnches." to Maverick_Xavier Maverick_Xavier whispers, "anyways with the naked thing.. normally i would be all freaked out, a bunch of fuzzies trying to convince me to undress. however i'd most likely be perfectly ok with that while rolling. but i don't want to be seen naked, don't want you to remember a picture of me like that :P so for me that's the only thing i'm afraid of happening" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "oh mahrat will be there rollin with us :) i know i don't have to worry about him doing that kind of stuff. just don't know who else will be there and i guess i have seen my share of oversexed get naked furries ;P" to you. ZanDen heads back towards the back hallway Maverick_Xavier whispers, "so yeah, just wanted to finish my thought on that ;P" to you. You whisper, "Astarael nods a little, "I don't want to push it, woof. If you're uncomfortable with something, then, by all means, you don't have to do it, and if ever I make you uncomfortable, just say so, and I'll stop as best I can. As for the pictures.. well.. I guess all I have is memories. I don't really know what to say.."" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "i'm not accusing you of pushing anything :) its just that if that situation normally came up i would be uncomfortable, but in the party situation i would probably go ahead and do it... and i would probably regret later everyone having seen the ugly fat woof naked :P so if that starts to happen just trying to think of ways to get out of it quickly hehe. clothes come off, sneak to the bathroom with fox perhaps?" to you. You whisper, "Astarael nods a little and nuzzles at, "Alright, woof. I can do my best to distract you, too :o) I like spending time with you, and I'm sure that'll be true in RL, clothes or no, rolling or no."" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier giggles and nods, hugs ya tight." to you. You whisper, "Astarael leans into you and gives you a squeeze, "You will tell me if I make you uncomfortable, though, right? Some people won't..."" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier snuggles close to you, "like make me feel uncomfortable when?"" to you. You whisper, "Astarael rubs his paws on your sides and noses at, "I dunno.. I just mean, if I do something that unintentionally makes you uncomfy, you'll tell me?"" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "sorry, got distracted... yes i would let you know :)" to you. You whisper, "Astarael bumps his nose against your cheek, "Thanks, wolf. I just think, if we're going to meet, then I don't want to do anything to make it weird, you know?"" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "though if you were referring to doing something that might make me uncomfortable while rolling. that probably wouldn't happen cause in that state i'd be comfortable with anything." to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier smiles and rubs his cheek against your nose, "well i am super shy and will be uncomfortable quite a bit... but when we roll together i think things will get comfy really fast between us."" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "will make for a really nice ice breaker... cause afterwards it should seem like we've been pals for quite sometime and are just comfortable around each other" to you. You whisper, "Astarael nods a little, "Alright, I can understand that.. Sorry to keep bugging you about this, just don't want either of us to feel bad :o)"" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "so what were you thinking of that you could do to make it weird?" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "oh you will let me know too then, right??? i don't want to make you feel uncomfortable either" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "is there something you think i might do that would make you feel bad?" to you. You whisper, "Astarael wrrf, "Well, you sound more shy than me, is all, and I want to be careful, for both our sakes ^^"" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "I am extremely shy, but that's ok... as far as offending me or making me feel bad. as long as you don't make fun of me or direct me into the center of attention i will be ok :) is there anything you are worried that i might do to you?" to you. You whisper, "Astarael shrugs and headshakes. "I'm shy, too, so pretty much the same stands. I'm also quiet at first, so a lot of questions would probably make me a little freaked, but nothing too bad."" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier giggles, "i think you'll be like to get more than a hi how are you. really great to finally meet you" out of me ;P" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "like = lucky" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "I hope I can... i'm pretty bad... have a bit of social anxiety problems, even more so than when meeting someone you really like n stuff. just feels like i'm going to mess up and look like a big ass dork and retard and like my IQ is 50" to you. You whisper, "Astarael puts a smooch on your cheek, "I think I understand, fuzzy. And you know I'll like you no matter what happens :o)"" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier blushes and nuzzles yer cheek back, "awww that's sweet of ya."" to you. You whisper, "Astarael giggles a little and pets on ya, "Well, it's true - I know that probably won't help with any anxiety, but.."" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier smiles and snuggles up to you, "nah, nothing can stop the nervousness" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "actually a couple of valiums probably would ;oP" to you. You whisper, "Astarael giggles and ruffles atcha, "I'm sure we'll still have a good time ^^"" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier mrrrfs and flops against you, "me too... hehe i guess i'm really planning on going now :P"" to you. You whisper, "Astarael moofs and pokes his nose down between ears. "Even if you don't make it, now I'm really interested in meeting you some day, so maybe some con after that or something." to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier smiles and wags, "yeah :) really going to try to make it to this one. i could use a weekend like that."" to you. You whisper, "Astarael nuzzles around the ears in a figure eight, "Mmhm :o) Would you just be out for the weekend, then?"" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "yeah probably, "I don't think I can miss too much work, but it will be after the new year so i will have more vacationdays to use... i will have to see."" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "which days are you going again?" to you. You whisper, "Wednesday late night through sunday afternoon." to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "I probably could do 4 days no problem. thursday fri, sat, sun" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "plane tickets would be the only big problem stopping me from going" to you. You whisper, "Astarael nodnods, "Well, we'll keep talking about it as things come up. It's still a few months off." to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier noddles, "i'll have to try and put some money away.... do you know how much rooms are?"" to you. You whisper, "$90 a night. That's the convention price, so if you have, like, five people to a room, it's $18 a night." to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier noddles, "i'll have to look into that too. see if there are some ppl i can room with" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "i will probably ask mahrat and see who all is coming down from seattle" to you. You whisper, "Astarael noddles and pets on. Will be staying with Rikoshi, if the other fox gets his act together." to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "only one other person?" to you. You whisper, "I think so.." to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "would you rather it that way for more privacy or would you want more ppl to save money?" to you. You whisper, "I think.. er.. we were aiming for privacy.." to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "that is cool :) was just going to offer you guys stay with us if you wanted to save some cash" to you. You whisper, "Astarael nods a little, "Thanks for the offer, fuzzy :o)"" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier smiles, "no problem :) is he like your bf?"" to you. You whisper, "I don't really know right now. Like I said, kind of a weird situation right now.." to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier noddles, "can i ask, or is it private stuff?"" to you. You whisper, "Astarael shrugs, "It's fine. Um.. he and I just got kind of close - ur.. really close, I suppose - but I think both of us realize a long distance thing wouldn't be very good for either of us now, so it's all just up in the air. It's all really confusing :o)"" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier ahhs and nods, "so its just him that the weird situation involves?"" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "for some reason i thought there were multiple people that you were interested in" to you. You whisper, "Astarael grf, searches for words.." to Maverick_Xavier. You whisper, "He's the only one I'm interested in in that way. Seeing you again was a different kind of interest, like I wanted to go back to how we were. Also, there's weird things going on with Shanerak." to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier smiles and nods, "I see... well this person coming to FC, is he going to get jealous if you spend time with me?" to you. You whisper, "Astarael smiles and headshakes, "No, he'll understand."" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "okies :) as long as he is cool with it" to you. You whisper, "Astarael beams, "I'm glad we talked today, fuzzy."" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "Maverick_Xavier grinz and lix yer nose, "I'm glad too :) got some stuff i was worried about with us off my mind and now we might be meeting up soon :)"" to you. You whisper, "Astarael nuzzles in the licks and nodnods, "Anything else on your mind, woof?"" to Maverick_Xavier. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "was calculating about how much going to the con is going to cost me... looks like about $650.... i've got alot of saving to do if i want to make it" to you. Maverick_Xavier whispers, "no i don't think there is anything else on my mind... anything on yours?" to you. You whisper, "Astarael headshakes, "Not at the moment. In fact, it's feeling pretty empty :oP"" to Maverick_Xavier. You whisper, "Astarael gives you a good squeeze and nuzzles in green fur, "I'm gonna go for a walk. I'll talk to you later, woof.."" to Maverick_Xavier. In a page-pose to you, Maverick_Xavier hugs tightly. take care