%title Sonata (working title) :writing:novel:memoir:fiction: Another stab at writing a novel in sonata form. * Introduction * Theme A in the tonic: on music * Theme B in the dominant: on movement * Development * Transition to development: the moment they started coinciding was when I started walking when composing/composing when walking * Theme A vs theme B building tension and modulating - add in magical realism bit by bit and it turns out the magical realism is just escaping depression * Recapitulation * Theme A in the tonic: music dissolving into chaos with senior recital * Theme B in the tonic: movement dissolving into chaos only literally this time * Coda * Remembering the faintness of heart that went with the decision not to walk and how similar that was with accepting losing one's body and maybe I do hear music in the everyday and getting away from it is as hopeless as getting away from movement. I think the thing that helped me get through Qoheleth alright was starting to write (or at least outline) the two separately, and then work on interleaving them about oh I dunno maybe halfway through, so. Also vi doesn't like working with me at list depths greater than three, so. ### Theme A * Introduction * [o] [I would love to tell you...](love-to-tell-you) * [o] [I just love office supplies](office-supplies) * [o] [Why am I playing saxophone?](why-sax) * [o] [Oboes and ownership over one's own life](oboes) * [o] [Wow omigosh choir](choir) * [ ] [And then my dad bought me Sibelius](sibelius) * [ ] [Music education is a cop-out](music-ed) * Development * [ ] [At some point I started walking while composing](walking-while-composing) * [o] [It was at that point that I started to recognize the power of music](magic-in-music) * Recapitulation * Coda ### Theme B * Introduction * [ ] [The folly of doing your own damn research](folly-research) * [ ] [The importance of doing your own damn research](important-research) * [ ] [Rocking out vs just rocking](rocking) (thinking "gosh, at least I don't have that" as I saw the guy in the car behind me rocking out thinking about TD) * [ ] [Are my hands moving? Is my head moving?](hands-vs-head) (at bconnected) * [ ] [Saying no on an ongoing basis](saying-no) (tic at bconnected getting frustrating) * [ ] [Going where no one knows your name](leaving) (leaving bconnected for canonical) * Development * (some other stuff here) * [ ] [At some point I started composing while walking](composing-while-walking) (introducing akathisia) * Recapitulation * Coda