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<p>Lyut is slow to begin moving, and when he does, he walks as though a great dream has come upon him. He lets Ýng guide his movements and I stand apart from the lord and Their servant.</p>
<p>Lyut moves as though a great dream has come upon him and lets Ýng guide his movements, and even so his morning task of making incense is far slower than usual, for his eyes water constantly and he marvels at just how drab the ingredients, so colorful in the nostrils and so familiar to the touch, really are. He has not known the comparison of color before, but even to one for whom sight is a new sense, he is surprised to find that the crushed root of nardin and the shaved root of sweet flag look so similar despite their vastly different aromas and purposes, that the mastic, that steadfast base of a scent, nearly glitters in the sun while the jewel-bright scent of cardamom is belied by so dun a color.</p>
<p>He moves as though a great dream has come upon him until it is time to lay the powdered incense in the bowl of ash, that third prayer of creation, and he realizes that he can see the furrow he digs in ash with his claw, can see the tan powder that he packs in its place, and can see the spiral he builds, and then the tears come upon him once more, and all of his prayers of destruction are completed through sight blurred by shock and he relies on his habits and Ýng&rsquo;s guidance to make it through to the end.</p>
<p>I stand apart from the lord and Their servant and watch, and sup in what prayers I may along the way.</p>
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<p>At last, the time for prayer passes and Lyut stumbles into the woods to tend to his toilet and lingers a moment in wonder at the sight of his own body before returning to his cave and, out of the habit of so many hears, grabbing his stick to guide him down to the river.</p>
<p>After a moment&rsquo;s confusion, the fisher laughs.</p>
<p>&ldquo;Do you need that, faithful?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;I suppose I do not, Týw.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Will you leave it behind?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;It is comforting in my paw. I will take it with me.&rdquo;</p>
<p>Guided still by habit &mdash; and perhaps by Ýng, for I do not know the lord&rsquo;s every thought &mdash; Lyut taps his way down the path to the water, and perhaps it is for the best that he has brought the stick, for his eyes are drawn to every detail along the way, from the way the suns arrows strike the leaves to the way their shadows dance across the ground when the wind moves across them. His eyes water still, for he is overflowing with sensation. A life lived without a sense is still a full life, and to one born without that sense, raised without that sense, he did not even think of himself as blind except in comparison to Zita who picked up the amphorae of incense with such ease that he had never known.</p>
<p>Stops, at last, at the edge of the stream and stares at my domain, mouth open as though to speak, though no words come forth.</p>
<p>I wait a while, and then ask: &ldquo;Faithful, do you see the beauty of my friend the water?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;I had never imagined that it looked like this. I did not know that something could be as beautiful.&rdquo;</p>
<p>This fills me more than any prayer yet that day. &ldquo;I am the god of the water and the god of watching and the god of the moon and death. When you come here to fish, when you come here to bathe, when you come here to drink, those are praises that you sing to me.&rdquo;</p>
<p>Lyut tilts his head. &ldquo;Is Ýng not the god of all things?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;They are the god of many things, and They are the god of me. To sing praises to me is to sing praises to Them in turn.&rdquo; At this, I feel the lord&rsquo;s anger at me lessen, though it does not go away entirely.</p>
<p>&ldquo;I do not know the words to any prayers to you.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;That is alright, faithful. You may pray all the same by fishing and bathing and drinking, by rejoicing in those things that are under my jurisdiction.&rdquo;</p>
<p>Lyut nods and steps into the water. This is not the usual order of his mornings, but as the wonder on his face at the sight of the water moving around his legs fills me to overflowing, I do not complain.</p>
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<p>(fishing, watching the water)</p>
<p>(talking with Tyw instead of meditating)</p>
<p>(Tyw tries to convince him to rejoice in seeing, but he isn&rsquo;t so sure)</p>
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