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<h1>Zk | Limerent Object (WT)</h1>
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<p><span class="tag">short-story</span> <span class="tag">fiction</span> <span class="tag">sawtooth</span> <span class="tag">furry</span></p>
<h3 id="brief-outline">Brief outline</h3>
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<li>The slow formation of a crush<ul>
<li>Falling for anyone who&rsquo;s the slightest bit nice to you</li>
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<li>Intolerable limerence<ul>
<li>Limerence as unwanted emotional attraction</li>
<li>pining</li>
<li>dreaming about just being close, casual affection, etc</li>
<li>Not wanting to talk about it b/c afraid of coercion</li>
<li>Just try to be the best person you can be for them</li>
<li>Except that just makes it all the more intense</li>
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<li>Crisis point and denouement<ul>
<li>Bounce off each other at some point and the limerence starts to fade</li>
<li>Picture what would have happened had they gotten together.</li>
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<p>Told in the form of journal entries after long online conversations, complete with snippets</p>
<h3 id="characters">Characters</h3>
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<li>Dee<ul>
<li>Coyote guy</li>
<li>Psychology student</li>
<li>Has the terminology and some of the self awareness, but not enough</li>
<li>Raised very religious</li>
<li>Has a crush on&hellip;</li>
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<li>Kay<ul>
<li>Coyote gal</li>
<li>Music student at UI Boise</li>
<li>Transferred after a year, met in the last few weeks of shared class</li>
<li>Not religious, and the thing that they bounce off each other on down the line is her refusal to not demonize religion</li>
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<h2 id="story">Story</h2>
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<p>I wrap emotions in the cool embrace of jargon to soften sharp edges, take the sting out of ones I feel to keenly. It&rsquo;s why I got into this field. It&rsquo;s why I studied what I did. Of course I care for my patients, and of course I live what I do, but my reason for being here, for being a psychologist, is a simple insatiable need to explain away my emotions.</p>
<p>I&rsquo;ve talked about it with my therapist at length - we all have them, therapist-therapists, and you should never trust a therapist who does not. We talk about my need to hide behind words as a way of reducing my vulnerability. They become armor, when taken in this sense.</p>
<p>There&rsquo;s a tension, then, between these two explanations: to put it the way I did at the beginning is to allow words to be a useful tool to define the edges of my emotions and perhaps make them easier to digest and understand in the process.</p>
<p>To here Jeremy&rsquo;s suggestion, though, my words are a means by which I might reduce my responsibility to actually feel the emotions I try to define.</p>
<p>Thus me, sitting here on my lunch break, writing journal entries on my phone.</p>
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