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<p><span class="tag">diary</span> <span class="tag">livejournal</span> <span class="tag">fossils</span></p>
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<details><summary>Read more...</summary>
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Kanja nuzzles.
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Ranna kisses whiskers.
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Kanja smiles and twitches whiskers softly.
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Ranna giggles and strokes over your muzzle, "Fawks.
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Kanja nuzzles into your paw a bit and gives your palm a kiss. "Mmm, viksin." :>
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Ranna awrfs and grins, nestling herself against you and nodding, "That's me.."
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Kanja grins a bit and snuggles you in closely, giving a squeeze. "Especially the sin part.." ;>
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Somewhere on the muck, Snout has connected.
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Ranna hees and chirps at the squeeze, returning it around your morphic middle. "Awr.. s'not sinful! Naughty, maybe ^^"
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Kanja cups you gently in his forelegs, the nice lap he quite likes to provide, squeezing you a little more in his arms. "Both!" :>
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Ranna snickers and nods a little, nestling into that lap and petting her paws back down over your back and over the second set of
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shoulders, "Yeah, I suppose."
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Kanja leans down a little so he can nuzzle at you, kissing your ears a bit while he rubs softly up and down your back in return,
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scritching. "We're not married but we live together! We're living in siiiiin!" he teases, giggling. :D
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Ranna snickeres and wiggles her ears about at you, arching up a little at the rubs and scritches. "Hey! I can be your common-law wife, I
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guess..."
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Kanja nuzzles about and kisses here and there at your ears, smiling and pulling you in close against him. "Mmm, that's true.. My vixen
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mate." :9
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Ranna beams and blushes a little, tucking her muzzle up under yours and snuggling close. "Mmhm.. my foxyminkerwoof mate."
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Kanja nestles his chin overtop your head and presses there, tucking in with you warmly while he tightens his arms around you, just
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embracing you firmly. "Well, then now I really am yours," he murmurs, grinning and blushing warmly at the same time.
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Ranna awwrs and giggles a little, splaying her reddened ears and squeezing you firmly, pressing close against your front and nuzzling into
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your fur.
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Kanja rubs his chin overtop your head affectionately, nuzzling a little at your ears here and there while he keeps his hold around you,
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forepaws gathering up a little around your hips to helpfully embrace. "Guess we're not living in sin then.." he teases, giggling. :D
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Ranna chirps as you help gather her up against you, kneading her paws at the small of your back and giggling. "Well.. 'cept when we're
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both boys, or girls.."
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Kanja rrms quietly, kneading his own paws along you likewise, rubbing up to your shoulders a little and squeezing them slowly. "Ooh,
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well, I guess you might have a point there. Oh well, so we're sinful foxes." ;>
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Ranna snickers and nodnods, "Yeah.. and there's nothing new with that." She leans up to kiss at the corner of your jaw, rrring quietly at
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the rubs to her shoulders.
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Kanja tilts his muzzle down and kisses at your nose and the corner of your mouth, smiling and nuzzling in. "Never really had a mate
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before.." he muses with a soft giggle, blushing along his ears. He kneads gently but firmly over your shoulders, squeezing along them
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contently. Rrm.
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Ranna perks her ears a little, then splays them and blushes, rubbing her snout to yours and shrugging a little into your kneading paws.
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"You haven
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Ranna bites fingers.
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You yerf, "You haven't? I thought you said you had an ex.."
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Kanja muzzlerubs slowly together while he keeps kneading at your shoulders, squeezing up to the crook of your neck on either side and then
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back down again. "Had a couple. But that was RL." :>
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Ranna rrawrfs and tilts her head a little at the squeezing, eyes closing a little as she rests against you. "Ohh.. I've had more online
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than RL.." she murmurs, blushing. "All of my experiences in RL have just proven to me that either myself or others really not mature
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enough for the kind of relationship I want."
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Somewhere on the muck, Ivan has connected.
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Ranna squeak.. gotta run real quick! She'll be back later, though..
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:gah! Sorries c.c
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Ranna gah! Sorries c.c
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Kanja cuddles. He saved the conversation. :>
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:awr :o) Goodfox.
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Ranna awr :o) Goodfox.
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Kanja lets his paws drift up again, squeezing at the crook of your
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neck once more and then kind of wandering along the back of it,
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kneading gently at your scruff again. "I suppose I've had some
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relationships online, but nothing so close as to call a mate. I guess
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generally I had friends with benefits, hee! Or maybe I was just a
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slut back then," he chuckles, grinning a little ruefully at himself.
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He nodnods softly and licks your muzzle a moment. "My second one was
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like that. We parted amicably and are still friends, but yeah, I
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don't think either of us was ready for that. First one was pretty
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similar, just not mature enough, especially since we were both rather
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young anyway. Though we also just simply grew apart, to the point now
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that we haven't really spoken directly in years. Third one, the last
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one, was an entirely different thing, one of those horror tales people
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tell. Kept me from being close to anyone again for years." c.c;
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:'s only got a few minutes, and is in a computer lab, so.. er.. yeah.
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Just so you know. "I can understand all that. I.. er.. used to be
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way into the online thing, and rare was the friendship that.. well..
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didn't have benefits. I suppose I've been drifting away from that,
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though there are still a few friends that I'll let get close to me
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like that. The sort of.. turning point was with Rikoshi, whom I got
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really close to, but we both sort of realized that an online thing
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wouldn't work out between us, so for about a year, we stayed real
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close, but never quite got into a true.. Relationship, I guess you
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could say - capital R and all. It started getting rather painful
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nearing the end of last year, so even we've been drifting apart, which
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is for the best, I suppose.."
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Ranna's only got a few minutes, and is in a computer lab, so.. er..
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yeah. Just so you know. "I can understand all that. I.. er.. used
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to be way into the online thing, and rare was the friendship that..
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well.. didn't have benefits. I suppose I've been drifting away from
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that, though there are still a few friends that I'll let get close to
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me like that. The sort of.. turning point was with Rikoshi, whom I
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got really close to, but we both sort of realized that an online thing
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wouldn't work out between us, so for about a year, we stayed real
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close, but never quite got into a true.. Relationship, I guess you
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could say - capital R and all. It started getting rather painful
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nearing the end of last year, so even we've been drifting apart, which
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is for the best, I suppose.."
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"I think I do better with online things at the moment just because RL
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just isn't too terribly stable for me - living situation, emotions,
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and.. er.. coming of age, I guess you could say, are all sort of in
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limbo. The last one, in particular, is sort of up in the air: I'm
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really still trying to figure out how I fit into the workings of the
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world, I guess. c.c
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You yerf, "I think I do better with online things at the moment just
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because RL just isn't too terribly stable for me - living situation,
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emotions, and.. er.. coming of age, I guess you could say, are all
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sort of in limbo. The last one, in particular, is sort of up in the
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air: I'm really still trying to figure out how I fit into the workings
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of the world, I guess. c.c"
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:ramble. Was thinking about this for a while.
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Ranna ramble. Was thinking about this for a while.
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Kanja nuzzles at your ears softly. "I was really into the online
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thing too, yeah. It would not be slanderous to say I really WAS an
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online slut for a while, hee. But that was years ago, like seven,
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eight years maybe when it was at its peak, which coincides with just a
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natural hormone peak of that age, hee. :> After that I started
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calming down, but even during that time and before then, I would form
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very close and tight friendships. I still do, that's never changed.
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I'm just less.. er.. hormonally driven these days. Not that I can't
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be extreme sexual as the urges hit. c.c;; I guess to be fair, my RL
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relationships were long distance affairs, done a lot online but
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getting together in person every time we could. That's part of why
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the first two didn't work out so well, though the second was just,
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yeah, we weren't mature enough, and kinda incompatible. Glad he and I
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are still friends though."
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Kanja says, "I do better with online myself, in a lot of ways, not
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just relationship. It's easier for me to talk and open up and really
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be myself online, with the protective barrier of the screen. I'm a
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lot more closed and shy and maybe even secretive offline. Defensive,
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I guess would be a good description."
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:rrfs and nods.. She's gotta run again, but she'll save the convo..
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Ranna rrfs and nods.. She's gotta run again, but she'll save the convo..
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"See Kanja cuddles.
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ya soon, love..
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You yerf, "See ya soon, love.."
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Kanja will be here, sweetie. :>
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You yerf, "Sorry about all the interruptions, love. Class, and all."
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Kanja kisses softly. "It's okay, sweetie. I know how it goes." :>
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Ranna kisses back lightly and smiles to you, "Just one more thing to add, to our.. er.. extended conversation. I'm definitely your vix,
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but I don't want to lie or hide anything, so if you ever want to know something, I'll let you know.."
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Kanja wraps his arms and forelegs around you gently, squeezing you in close to him, tightly so. "And same for you, sweetheart. You're
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welcome to ask me anything you want. Like I said the other day, it's rare for anything to be too personal. Especially if I'm gonna
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be your fox, even less stuff is too personal." :>
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Kanja ponders. "I remember reading in your journal your feelings about monogamy and othersuch, hmm."
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Ranna rrfs and nods a little, "Do you remember what it was in reference to? Two people in the last two years have kinda made me wonder
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about things. The more I.. well.. experience that, the tougher it gets for me - I don't think I could ever be polyamorous x.x"
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Ranna erf.. guesses it's been three years, now. Oh well.
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Kanja nuzzles at your ears a little bit, and perks his own. "Hmm, really? Unless I'm just misremembering one of your friends' journals
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you linked to, I could've sworn your entry was about your decision that you're a polyamorous person and that's that. Hee. Either
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way, hmm. Maybe I'm thinking of one of your friends, since I read through a lot of stuff you linked to in your journal, that was
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links to other journals. Aaannnyway, it occurred to me as something to mention, since me, I'm not really a poly person myself."
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Ranna splays her ears a little and peeks up at you, "I really tried for a while, there, with Moondog and Rikoshi, but.. I just don't work
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that way, I guess. I get a little jealous, I suppose, 'cause I can only feel that way about one person at a time, really, and it
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feels a little strange if I'm with someone who's.. well.. dividing their attention. I have to admit that sometimes, I do play around
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a little online, but I never really let it get to the point where I'm diverting my attention away from the person whom I'm really
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devoted to. But if that's something you don't want me to do, I'm perfectly willing to do that for you, love :o)"
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Kanja oohs and nodnods gently, nuzzling here and there at you and giving a kiss between your eyes. "Yeah, I get jealous too, and it makes
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me very uncomfortable. It's especially bad RL, but I can get jealous online too. I'm definitely a monogamous type of person in a
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real relationship. That being said, I'm.. flexible.. I guess would be the word. What Ranna@FM or Makyo does is not my concern nor
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does it bother me, since I'm here with you and that's what's got my focus. If you want to play around with them, well feel free! Not
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going to hurt my feelings. :> Though yeah, I'm a little more closed when dealing specifically with the vixen I belong to. It's a
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little different."
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Kanja giggles. "And flexibly also in that while I don't lean towards polyamory, the idea of sharing something physically intimate with a
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third person isn't such an issue with me. Just not a relationship. A little tryst isn't polyamory. It's a threesome." O:>
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Kanja says, "But in that, that's definitely a mutually agreed-upon situation, from all three people, and the third knows it's play, not a
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relationship."
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Kanja says, "And not something I would do regularly."
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Kanja rambles.
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Ranna blinks a little and giggles, rubbing her muzzle up under yours and nodding a little. "When it comes to a relationship in RL, I'm
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definitely quite monagamous. Rrf.. it's quite different dealing with just a little fling versus dealing with my mink. Or fox'taur,
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hee ^^" She giggles a little and nods, adding on to what you say, "As long as the third person understands about the relationship
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already in place."
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Ranna kisses on ramblyfox. Rawrf ^^
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Ranna has to run to class in a few, just to let you know. Just walking to class, though so she'll be back when she gets there.
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Kanja smiles and nodnods. "Yeah, like I said, if the person knows there's a relationship already and this is just play, it's not
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polyamory, it's a threesome. ;> Actually had that experience once, a couple friends who were engaged (they're married now). We
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played around a little and such in threesomes, but with some limits on what I could do with either of them, and with the understanding
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afterwards we wouldn't do such anymore. And I was fine with that, it was a fun experience. There's still good friends. :> Hee, but
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yeah, anyway, online stuff I'm more relaxed with. Truth be told I probably wouldn't even be especially bothered with you-Ranna
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playing on here, but I'd feel more comfortable if I merely knew you did such and wasn't told more than that, since it'd probably perk up my discomfort and jealousy and I can't help that. c.c; Stuff you do elsemu doesn't bother me hearing about, and sometimes it's
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kinda hot." :9
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Kanja rrfs, typo. They're still good friends, he meant to say.
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Ranna will reply when she gets to class. Shan't be long ^^
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Ranna ahem. Anyway. She kisses on your snout and replies, "I'm all yours, foxer. I really don't even know all that many people here - I
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really hadn't been here in a year or so when I decided to connect on a whim and ran into Macy that afternoon :o) All I really do
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elsewhere is talk, for that matter. On FM, I just hang out in the Nurple and talk with that crowd - s'where I met Roma, after all. I
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don't do much on Taps, either, since all my friends hang out in the Lining, and I'm usually a girl there (as much as some of my
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friends hate that), so if I'm with them, I'm a girl in a gay bar :oP"
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Kanja kisses softly at the bridge of your muzzle, nibbling it. "I'm all yours too, vixen. Definitely your mate. :> I know few people
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here myself beyond Mac, hee. I hang around on HLM (Here Lie Monsters) all the time though, as Puck my mouse character and personal-
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fur, but that's a social muck, all talk. For that matter I rarely do stuff on Taps, but occasionally I do, yeah. Truth be told
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though, I've done more with you in this short time than I had in the last few /years/. c.c;; Not that that's a bad thing! :D I
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loved every minute of it and happy to do more, rrm. :9 But yeah, either way, whether you play elsemu or not, it doesn't bother me." :>
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Ranna purrs quietly and tilts her muzzle up for the kissing, squeezing her arms around your middle and smiling to you, nodding. "Same
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goes for you, too, foxer. This is definitely a very intimate thing in a very intimate place, but I'm certainly not going to keep you
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from doing what you like elsewhere, or even here, if you want. I don't even mind hearing about it, if you want to - there's a time
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and a place for that, whether it's in a teasing, sexy sort of way, or if you really just want to talk about it." She shrugs it off
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and rubs her muzzle up against yours, "Anyhow, I'm really glad to be yours, hon. It's kinda strange that I spend time looking for
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relationships, and just as soon as I stop, I find such a wonderful fur.."
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Kanja smiles and muzzlerubs slowly. "Doubt I'd do anything with anyone else on here. No real reason to, but also I like being just your
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fox and yours alone." He giggles and kisses the side of your muzzle. "Though yeah, sometimes it can be fun to hear about what's been
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done elsemu. Can be pretty hot, not to mention can give a fox some ideas. :9 I'm really glad to call myself your fox, and your mate.
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It still feels kinda strange to me, honestly, at the same time. I mean, like I said, after that.. er.. last thing, I haven't really
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bonded or been close for years. You're actually the first person that I've gone this far with since then. c.c; And we're still
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getting to know each other and all, so it kinda makes me feel weird, since I have that terrible stuff in the back of my mind and it
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colors my perceptions and my worries. :P Still, I feel good around you and comfortable, and I don't take stuff like this lightly or
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enter into it with ease, so yeah, I feel good being yours." :>
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Ranna squeak ^^ Got her all blushed up in class, hee. "Awr.. I don't ever want to do anything to hurt you, hon - though I know that not
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everything can always be good and light - but you're my fox, and I'd do anything for you." She bumps her nose to yours and sneaks in
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a little kiss, "I can't stay too much longer, but I'll be back a little later, okay?"
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Kanja smiles and nibbles at your whiskers lightly, nuzzling. "I know you don't, hon. I can feel that. I just can't help my worries
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sometimes. I'm sure you understand about deep personal scars that you just can't push out of your mind so easily. c.c; Makes it
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pretty hard for me to full open up anymore, but I'm working through it. And as we've already said, you're welcome to ask me about
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anything you want, especially if I'm being closed (it's a reflex these days ;.;), since asking me is the best way to get me to realize
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what I'm doing and open up. If I'm gonna be your mate, there's nothing too personal." He smiles softly and noserubs a moment,
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touching a warm kiss to your lips in return. "I'll still be here, love."
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Ranna nods a little presses her nose to yours, "We'll talk more about this later - I've got real specific reasons for not wanting to hurt
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you (er.. besides, of course, the fact that I love ya lots ^^). Right now, I gotta run, so I'll see ya then, honeyfox."
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Ranna curls up against and dozes for a little..
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