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< p > date: 2019-08-16
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< p > A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up.< / p >
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< p > My interest in furry wound down a bit in university. I’ d burned myself a bit too hard, hurt too many people, grew too jaded to take part. I still prowled around the usual haunts on the MUCKs, still poked my head in FFF, still looked at all the art, < a href = "https://adjectivespecies.com/2012/03/21/makyos-kaddish/" > but my heart wasn’ t in it anymore< / a > .< / p >
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< p > There was a reason behind this. There were people behind this.< / p >
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< p > Well, true. I don’ t know how to square that with… well, a lot of things.< / p >
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< p > You don’ t know how to square that with how you felt about those people at the time.< / p >
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< p > That’ s one aspect, yes. I also don’ t know how to square that with the fact that I was growing too jaded in a lot more than just furry. I grew jaded at school. I grew jaded at work. I struggled with my relationships. I struggled.< / p >
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< p > You struggled with gender.< / p >
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< p > Well, yes, but I wasn’ t quite ready to admit that, yet.< / p >
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< p > You struggled with self harm.< / p >
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< p > Yes.< / p >
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< p > You struggled with the intersections, the interstices, and the liminal spaces.< / p >
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< p > I was going to write about [a][s]. Where are you taking me?< / p >
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< p > Straight homeward to your symbol-essences.< / p >
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< p > Shall I not die, then?< / p >
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< p > Isn’ t that the point of writing?< / p >
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< p > I’ m pretty sure all our names are writ on water at this point.< / p >
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< p > Come now. You wanted to be Keats when you grew up.< / p >
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< p > You’ re in a mood.< / p >
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< p > You’ re in a mood.< / p >
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< p > Fine.< / p >
< p > Where are you taking me?< / p >
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< p > Let [a][s] speak for [a][s]. Let yourself speak for yourself.< / p >
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< p > < a class = "pulse" href = "/furry/margaras" > Okay< / a > .< / p >
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