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< p > date: 2020-02-23
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< p > Does my dad know that I’ m trans? Does he truly, < em > truly< / em > know? Does he accept it?< / p >
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< p > Does my dad know know about HRT? About surgery?< / p >
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< p > Does my dad know I’ m poly? Is that something he has internalized?< / p >
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< p > Does my dad know about self-harm? Does he know about suicide? Has he seen the scars?< / p >
< p > Does he know about you?< / p >
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< p > Does it matter?< / p >
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< p > The joy that I felt at his response is tempered by a whole new set of anxieties.< / p >
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< p > Did you feel joy?< / p >
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< p > Honestly? Yeah.< / p >
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< p > It was a relief, in a way to see that he was not the dad I grew up with. That I could see change in him is not only something that’ s good for our relationship, but also something that makes me feel better about myself. It makes me think that I, too, have the ability to change, to grow and become a better person.< / p >
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< p > Was that in doubt?< / p >
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< p > Yes.< / p >
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< p > Really? Given this project? The core theme of the death of Matthew?< / p >
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< p > Oh yes. So many times when I was writing about that, it felt like I was writing about someone else. I feel so stuck sometimes. So static. It’ s easy to lose perspective until it’ s rubbed in your face.< / p >
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< p > Will you talk to him about your anxieties?< / p >
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< p > Yes. After hearing back from him, I think I probably should, too.< / p >
< p > Just over time.< / p >
< p > Slowly.< / p >
< p > Carefully.< / p >
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< p > < a class = "pulse" href = "/16" > Take your time.< / a > < / p >
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