makyo
/
zk_html
1
0
Fork 0
Code Issues Pull Requests Projects Releases Wiki Activity

update from sparkleup

This commit is contained in:
Madison Scott-Clary 2022-10-29 22:45:11 -07:00
parent 921f886031
commit 02205dc232
1 changed files with 7 additions and 0 deletions
Show Stats Download Patch File Download Diff File Expand all files Collapse all files

7
writing/post-self/selected-letters/018.html
View File

@ -17,6 +17,13 @@
<p>systime 229 (2353)
(transmission delays)</p>
</blockquote>
<p>Codrin#Pollux and Sorina,</p>
<p>Hi you two. I hope you&rsquo;ve been doing well of late.</p>
<p>It&rsquo;s been heartening watching you reconnect, if I&rsquo;m honest. I know I say it just about every time I write either of you, but I&rsquo;ve been worried. You&rsquo;ve both mentioned in the past feeling like I&rsquo;m someone grounding that you can talk to, and&hellip;well, I hope this isn&rsquo;t weird of me to say, but I&rsquo;ve been feeling protective of you both of late. It&rsquo;s not quite the realm of parenthood or anything like that, but it does kind of feel like I&rsquo;m watching over the clade, in a way. I don&rsquo;t know if it&rsquo;s a root instance thing, a shared past thing, or a me, now, as I am thing.</p>
<p>It&rsquo;s probably the last.</p>
<p>I think it&rsquo;s high time to admit aloud that all of these memories of Rareș are starting to pile up for me. I&rsquo;ve been struggling to keep my mind off him, honestly, and have been writing quite a bit. There have been a few abortive attempts at pulling the thoughts together into a book or screenplay or something, just as a way to process my feelings.</p>
<p>The thing is, if I want to be successful at something like that, I&rsquo;ll have to actually sit down and research the past. That&rsquo;s where I&rsquo;ve been failing. I know it&rsquo;s something I&rsquo;d need to do if I&rsquo;m to do any project like that justice, and probably something I need to do if I&rsquo;m to find a way to come to terms with the past, but there&rsquo;s some emotional block. Lately, every time I get close to engaging with the topic head on, I have a panic attack. Honest to goodness, full blown, hyperventilating and feeling like I&rsquo;m dying panic attack.</p>
<p>It&rsquo;s something I&rsquo;ve been working on a lot with Sarah. I certainly don&rsquo;t like the feeling, but neither do May or, when she&rsquo;s around, Sasha like seeing that happen.</p>
</article>
<footer>
<p>Page generated on 2022-10-29</p>