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 <p>We each were terrible in our own way, and yet we made it work. We accepted that about the other that was undesirable and found ways to work with or around it in order to let the parts that <em>did</em> work for us improve us as individuals. </p>
 <p>I loved it for its art, yes, but also for its depth of emotion, for its emotional literacy where mine was lacking. I loved it for the patience it had in helping me learn how to be an active participant in my own life. I loved it for just how fucking weird it was.</p>
 <p>Hearing you talk about May Then My Name has tallied quite well with this, too. She&rsquo;s taught you much the same, and you&rsquo;ve added to each other&rsquo;s lives without necessarily being a perfect fit. She&rsquo;s sometimes too much: you&rsquo;ve complained about her being too emotionally intense or requiring a bit more engagement than you&rsquo;re always prepared to give often enough, but you still find ways to work with or around that just as I did with Dear.</p>
-<p>Twice is a curiosity, three times is a pattern, however.</p>
+<p>Twice is a curiosity, three times is a pattern, as we saw with Codrin#Pollux and Serene. And now four (five?) times with Sasha?</p>
 <p>Yes, there&rsquo;s a third of Sasha who is already someone you love, but whether or not you realized that you were doing so, you also spoke quite fondly of True Name over the last year that she was solely herself. You had your hesitancies, of course. You equivocated about whether or not you were friends, what your role actually was in interacting with her, sitting between her and your partner. We&rsquo;ve all expressed our frustration (or even anger) with her over her role in both our lives and the System as a whole, you included.</p>
 <p>But as you mentioned in letters during that year, you were also called out on this by both Sarah and May Then My Name more than once. Hell, <em>that</em> you were equivocating speaks to the fact that you were even thinking about it in the first place. It wasn&rsquo;t some foregone conclusion that you were just, as you put it once, &ldquo;cordial and intentional acquaintances&rdquo;. You recognized that friction.</p>
 <p>Don&rsquo;t even get me started about how you talked about E.W.! Yes, I wish I&rsquo;d had the chance to meet him, too, but for a while, nearly every letter you sent included some story followed by that exact sentiment.</p>
 <p>Congratulations are due to Aurel, yes, but I am in absolutely no way surprised.</p>
-<p>So what is it about them? Why the Odists? How come we keep winding up in relationships with them? Is it some core aspect to them? Would we have gotten on so well with Michelle, had she been singular enough and in our lives at the right moment? Or is it just those </p>
+<p>So what is it about them? Why the Odists? How come we keep winding up in relationships with them? Is it some core aspect to them? Would we have gotten on so well with Michelle, had she been singular enough and in our lives at the right moment? Or is it just those with the right &ldquo;perpetual hyperfixation&rdquo; as you so eloquently put it who fall into our lives?</p>
+<p>You and perhaps Codrin#Pollux are uniquely positioned to answer this litany of questions. Do you have any insight into what it is that has led us to this state?</p>
+<p>I&rsquo;ll be honest that I&rsquo;m not sure what I&rsquo;ll get out of your answer. I don&rsquo;t know if it&rsquo;ll feel good to read (I can tell you that it took several sessions to actually write this letter), but I guess I&rsquo;m hoping that it&rsquo;ll offer some sense of closure. If I&ndash; no, <em>when</em> I feel comfortable getting in touch with Codrin again, I will likely ask em, too, as perhaps █████ will have some insight. I will, just&hellip;not yet.</p>
+<p>There is one more thing that I&rsquo;m a little hesitant to ask about, because I&rsquo;m not quite sure what direction your thoughts are heading in. I&rsquo;ve noticed that you&rsquo;ve been talking about Rareș quite a bit more over the last year. What was it that brought him to mind?</p>
+<p>I still think about him, you know. I think about how when he got frustrated, he&rsquo;d smile, but with his brows knit. It was such a uniquely <em>him</em> expression. I think about our parents&rsquo; funeral and how, even at 10, he seemed to understand on a deep level &mdash; deeper than us &mdash; the finality of death. I think about the confusion and hurt on his face when we announced we were going to upload. </p>
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