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<p>Ey nodded. “Friend almost gets assassinated, almost goes crazy from a merge, and disappears. Partner freaks out after a conversation, then freaks out when the merge goes sideways and mentions she was thinking of merging down, herself, then requests that I disappear. It’s just…a lot.”</p>
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<p>“Wait, <em>May</em> wanted to merge down?” Douglas said. “Wasn’t expecting that.”</p>
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<p>“Well, I don’t know quite how much ‘wanted’ fits, but I asked if she was thinking about it and she said yes. I couldn’t quite piece together why, though. After End Waking merged down, she mentioned that there was at least a part of her that was feeling vengeful, so I think I was worried that maybe she would be thinking of piling on her own vengeance, or that maybe she would be trying to help make her a better person.” Ey shrugged and added, “Or both. She did seem to have True Name’s best interests at heart when she forced the merge. At least mostly.”</p>
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<p>End Waking nodded. “She did mention being torn, yes. She wanted to kick her out but also wanted to help her get away from Jonas.”</p>
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<p>“She’s certainly softening on True Name.”</p>
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<p>“And how’re you taking it?” Debarre asked. Something about Ioan — eir posture, eir face, something — made it seem like this was the question ey was dreading the most.</p>
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<p>There was a long silence before Ioan answered. “It’s really grating at me. I don’t even know why, either. I think it honestly would help True Name, in the end, if it were just May merging down, but having that be the case with her memories of us together feels like…well, it kind of makes me jealous. Those are our memories that we made together. Our fights and good times, our affection–“</p>
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<p>“Probably most of the memories, there,” End Waking stage-whispered, getting a smirk out of Ioan.</p>
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<p>“Yeah. Our affection and our sex, too, for that matter. Suddenly, True Name has all that. I think it also started grating on me after the merge because of how real End Waking’s was. It wouldn’t just that it’s a library for her perusal, but she will have actually lived them. She will have actually–” Ey frowned, as thought digging for the words.</p>
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<p>“She’ll have actually loved you, maybe?” Debarre guessed.</p>
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<p>Eir features fell and ey sighed. “Yeah. That. Putting it that way makes it feel terrible, but it’s exactly that.”</p>
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<p>“I was pulling back when she and Zacharias were getting close,” End Waking said,sounding thoughtful. “And I have been her. We were both Michelle. I know that she is capable of experiencing romantic feelings. They will not be alien to her.”</p>
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<p>“And she’s been you,” Debarre added. “And you’ve got romantic feelings, too. At least, I hope so.”</p>
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<p>End Waking pushed him over onto the ground. “If you imply that I do not have romantic feelings to you again, I will make you sleep outside tonight.”</p>
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<p>He laughed. “Love you too, E.W.”</p>
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<p>“What I am saying, though, is that it will not be alien to her. She will have experienced love for others, and the loss of that love. She will have experienced love for others through another’s memories and experiences, even. You can trust her to integrate that, I believe.”</p>
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<p>“Even though she was struggling with integrating those memories of yours?”</p>
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<p>“Perhaps especially so. I think that she is struggling because it clashes with her personality, not she feels that she might love Debarre. Though, my dear,” he said, nodding to Debarre. “I can guarantee that just about every Odist is at least a little in love with you.”</p>
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<p>He shook his head and waved the comment away. “Yeah, yeah.”</p>
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<p>More than one of them had confessed such to him over the centuries, and it wasn’t until he’d actually conceded that something about End Waking landed in that sweet spot of attraction and personality match enough to at least try dating that they’d stopped. He was thankful that they seemed happy enough to live vicariously through him. He had liked Sasha and Michelle, loved in that sympatico that true friends can share, but any more felt pretty far out of his league as a gay man.</p>
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<p>Instead, he nudged Ioan with his elbow again. “So if you don’t need to worry about it from True Name’s side, and you know you’re worrying about it from your own side, how do you feel about it from May’s point of view?”</p>
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