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<p><span class="tag">writing</span> <span class="tag">fiction</span> <span class="tag">scifi</span> <span class="tag">post-self</span> <span class="tag">book</span> <span class="tag">short-story</span></p>
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<p>Echoes of Grace singing, memories and emotions, clashed with the doctor’s words.</p>
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<p><em>Dans un sommeil que charmait ton image<br />
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Je rêvais le bonheur, ardent mirage,<br />
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Tes yeux étaient plus doux, ta voix pure et sonore,<br />
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Je rêvais le bonheur, ardent mirage…</em></p>
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<p>“I know you’ve signed the waivers, but I need a verbal confirmation,” she was saying. “Do you understand the procedure?”</p>
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<p><em>Tes yeux étaient plus doux, ta voix pure et sonore,<br />
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Tu rayonnais comme un ciel éclairé par l’aurore;</em></p>
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<p>Echoes of Grace singing, memories and emotions, clashed with the doctor’s words. “I know you’ve signed the waivers, but I need a verbal confirmation,” she was saying. “Do you understand the procedure?”</p>
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<p>Sylvie nodded. It was strange not to feel her hair, always so frizzy and buoyant, not following the motion a scant second too late.</p>
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<p>“I’m sorry, Sylvie, it needs to be a verbal confirmation. The uploading process will be fatal and irreversible. There is some risk, about one and a half percent, that it won’t work.” The doctor paused and picked up a pen. She added, “Won’t work after the point where your body will have died, that is. Do you understand?”</p>
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<p>A swallow, dry, and another nod. “What will happen in that case?”</p>
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<p>“Your family will receive a payout of ten million francs CFA. Your body will not be available for a burial, unfortunately.” The doctor looked strangely abashed. “The results of the process are…ah, not pretty.”</p>
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<p>“I understand.”</p>
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<p>“I understand. “</p>
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<p>“One last thing, then. After the uploading process, successful or not, your blood, organs and tissue will be donated — or, ah…sold — to a tissue bank in central Africa. Your family will receive ten percent of this, and the Centre the other ninety. This is to help defray the cost of the process.”</p>
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<p>Sylvie thought for a moment, rubbed her hand over her smooth-shaven head. “About how much will that be?”</p>
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<p>“The cut to your family?” The doctor fiddled with her pen, twirling it across delicate dark fingers. “Lately, we’ve been getting about a hundred million francs, so again, about ten million. Not a bad payout, hmm?”</p>
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<p>Not bad indeed. Sylvie had little love for her family, minus her brother, so the payout wasn’t a huge incentive, as it was for others. She just hoped Moussa wound up with a chunk of it. Unlikely, given her mother. She nodded.</p>
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<p>“So then. Your surgery is scheduled in one hour. You have fifteen minutes before prep, which means fifteen more minutes to back out if you should choose. I’m going to head back to the team and leave you be to think this over.” The doctor gestured to her right; a phone sat, mute, on the table next to the coffee machine, the creamer and sugar. “Dial zero on the phone on the desk if you wish to cancel. There will be no repercussions if you do.”</p>
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<p>Not bad indeed. Sylvie had little love for her family, minus her brother, so the payout wasn’t a huge incentive, as it was for others. She just hoped Moussa wound up with a chunk of it. Unlikely, given her mother. She nodded. “Uh, I agree. Confirm. Whatever.”</p>
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<p>“So then. Your surgery is scheduled in one hour. You have fifteen minutes before prep, which means fifteen more minutes to back out if you should choose. I’m going to head back to the team and leave you be to think this over.” The doctor gestured to her right: a phone huddled, mute, on the table next to the coffee machine, the creamer and sugar. “Dial zero on the phone on the desk if you wish to cancel. There will be no repercussions if you do.”</p>
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<p>The doctor stood and leaned forward, offering her hand. Sylvie lifted herself out of her chair and accepted the handshake, marveling at such an antiquated gesture, feeling the need, however real or not, to be careful of those delicate fingers. The grip was firm.</p>
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<p>As the doctor stepped out of the room, Sylvie settled back into the chair. She closed her eyes against the sight of all the posters advertising the procedure.</p>
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<p>“Upload today!” they said.</p>
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<p>“Experience a life beyond need!” they promised.</p>
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<p>“Upload today!” they shouted.</p>
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<p>“Experience a life beyond need!” they howled.</p>
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<p>“Work without pressure!” they hollered.</p>
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<p>Everything was so loud, so loud.</p>
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<p>She had them all memorized, anyway. All those overbright promises that hat circled her head like a halo yearning for the System somewhere above had grown wearisome. </p>
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<p>She had them all memorized, anyway. All those overbright promises that hat circled her head like a halo yearning for the System somewhere above the sky had grown wearisome. </p>
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<p>Right now, she just wanted quiet. She just wanted peace and stillness. She just wanted to <em>think.</em></p>
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<p>She just wanted to think of Grace.</p>
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<p>Grace with her silvering hair.</p>
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<p>Grace with her fair and smooth skin.</p>
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<p>Grace with her liquid laughter and lovely voice.</p>
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<p>They’d fallen in love within weeks. A chance meeting at a work party — Grace someone’s plus-one, someone in accounting — had led to an hour and a half talking about music. The chat had led to a concert. Then another. Then coffee. They’d shared only a scant few years together after that, one of them married, before being separated again. An impenetrable boundary of distance, of the immiscibility emulated sensorium and embodied flesh.</p>
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<p>Grace’s decision hadn’t been Sylvie’s. Uploading, the very thought of it, made her skin itch and eyes ache. To be removed from this world and sent to another, to the System, didn’t appeal to her. What greater life could the System offer? What did “a life beyond need” mean? That one could eat to one’s delight? But she’d heard that hunger wasn’t a thing, so what mattered satiation? That one could sleep as long as one wanted? Of what use were dreams up there? That one could live forever?</p>
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<p>They’d fallen in love within weeks. A chance meeting at a work party — Grace someone’s plus-one, someone in accounting — had led to an hour and a half talking about music. The chat had led to a concert. Then another. Then coffee. They’d shared only a scant few years together after that — one of them married — before being separated again. An impenetrable boundary of distance, of the immiscibility emulated sensorium and embodied flesh.</p>
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<p>Grace’s decision hadn’t been Sylvie’s. Uploading, the very thought of it, made her skin itch and eyes ache. To be removed from this world and sent to another, to the System, didn’t appeal to her. What greater life could the System offer? What did “a life beyond need” mean? That one could eat to one’s delight? But she’d heard that hunger wasn’t a thing, so what mattered satiation? That one could sleep as long as one wanted? But of what use were dreams up there? That one could live forever?</p>
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<p>It did appeal to Grace.</p>
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<p>Grace with her failing voice.</p>
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<p>Grace with her deteriorating coordination.</p>
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<p>Grace with her pain, her depression.</p>
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<p>For Grace, it was a way to escape her body. That body that Sylvie loved so much, and which was such a prison to Grace. A voluntary procedure — “Help combat overpopulation!” the posters howled, eugenics veiled thinly, and then with a wink and a nudge — but also a way to neatly sidestep the multiple sclerosis slowly claiming her body and mind.</p>
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<p>After the upload, Grace had communicated with Sylvie through text, through mails sent to her terminal which she’d pore over at work. She asked Sylvie. She begged her. <em>Come join me, come upload,</em> she said. <em>The posters, they’re all true, they’re all right. We can be together as if nothing had changed. At least, nothing for the worse.</em></p>
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<p>For Grace, it was a way to escape her body. That body that Sylvie loved so much, and which was such a prison to Grace. A voluntary procedure — “Help combat overpopulation!” the posters screamed, eugenics veiled thinly, and even then only with a wink and a nudge; the population had been dropping for a decade at least — but also a way to neatly sidestep the multiple sclerosis slowly claiming her body and mind.</p>
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<p>After the upload, Grace had communicated with Sylvie through text, through mails sent to her terminal which she’d pore over at work, reading top to bottom, top to bottom, a daily <em>lectio divina</em>. She asked Sylvie. She begged her. <em>Come join me, come upload,</em> she said. <em>The posters, they’re all true, they’re all right. We can be together as if nothing had changed. At least, nothing for the worse.</em></p>
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<p>The thought <em>still</em> made her skin itch and her eyes ache, but all the same, she kept dreaming of Grace. Dreaming of softer eyes, of a voice more sonorous. Her Grace shining like the dawn.</p>
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<p>So she’d relented.</p>
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<p>Sylvie’s mind was filled to overflowing with Fauré, with that rolling, lilting theme, with Grace’s voice at the piano. Even as she was put in a hospital gown, even as she was wheeled back to the operating room on a tired gurney, it played in her head. Maybe she hummed, she didn’t know.</p>
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<p>“We’re going to keep you awake, okay? We need to as part of the process, you have to be conscious but you’ll be under local anesthesia. It’ll make you feel a little dreamy. You may have visual disturbances.” The doctor’s smile was kind. “Some report it to be enjoyable.”</p>
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<p>“Okay. How long will it take?”</p>
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<p>“The procedure will be about thirty minutes to prep you for upload, and then the upload will happen in two stages,” she said. “You’ll be uploaded to a local node at our center, which will give you access to a waiting room of sorts for the System proper. The upload to the L<sub>5</sub> point will take several hours via Ansible — it’s a lot of data going a long way, you understand — so the waiting room will usually have you stick around while another copy of you will be uploaded.”</p>
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<p>“An hour and a half, plus about thirty minutes to prep you for upload. The upload will happen in two stages,” she said. “You’ll be uploaded to a local node at our center, which will give you access to a waiting room of sorts for the System proper. The upload to the L<sub>5</sub> point will take several hours via Ansible — it’s a lot of data going a long way, you understand — so the waiting room will usually have you stick around.”</p>
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<p>Sylvie thought for a moment, “What about the copy that remains?”</p>
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<p>“It’s free to quit, like a program on your terminal quitting. But they — the…ah, sysadmins — usually request that it stay around in case the upload to the system gets interrupted for some reason. Cosmic rays or whatever technobabble fits that day.”</p>
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<p>“And I just…wait?”</p>
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<p>Time wandered.</p>
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<p>Voices rang with the timbre of bells. Sometimes they formed words, sometimes they were broken down into their component tones and she could only here formants, fundamentals. Surgeons talking to technicians.</p>
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<p>A dull, basso organ note of something grinding, her vision vibrating, blurring the sight of the light above the bed.</p>
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<p>The light? A light? Were her eyes even open?</p>
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<p>The light? A light? <em>Are my eyes even open?</em></p>
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<p>The light took the form of Grace, and Sylvie more readily gave in to the effects of the drug.</p>
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<p>Grace with her angelic smile. Grace lifting her up, away from the earth. Grace running, running into the ring of that surgeon’s lamp. Clouds, clouds parting.</p>
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<p>Grace with her angelic smile. Grace lifting her up, away from the earth. Grace running, running into the ring of that surgeon’s lamp. Into and through, up and up. Clouds, clouds parting.</p>
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<p>The organ note screamed up through several octaves.</p>
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<p>Calm, ringing voices.</p>
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<p>That yearning song tinkling through her mind. She was unable to tell whether it came from herself or from one of the techs. Or maybe from Grace. <em>Dans un sommeil que charmait ton image…</em> Tinkling and flowing. Rocking. Drunken. Drunken on dreams.</p>
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<p>Minutes fled by. Hours. Days, perhaps. Always, in front of her, her angel. Pure white skin that contrasted beautifully against her own, cream spilled in coffee. Always lifting her up. How far did they have to go?</p>
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<p>Grace was drifting away from her, receding.</p>
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<p>The light flared in intensity. Somehow became black. A shining, blinding blackness amid a field of more blackness.</p>
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<p>The light flared in intensity. Somehow became black. A shining, blinding blackness amid a field of more blackness, matte and plain.</p>
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<p>Tugging, pulling.</p>
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<p>Prying.</p>
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<p>A snap.</p>
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Reviens, reviens radieuse,<br />
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Reviens ô nuit mystérieuse!</em></p>
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<p>The team stood still. There was no written protocol as to what one should do while the local node processed the upload, but they always remained silent. The doctor held her breath every time.</p>
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<p>A small pinging noise. The local readout flashed red.</p>
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<p>Shoulders sagged around the room.</p>
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<p>“Error in processing upload.” The tinny speaker sounded impersonal. Perhaps it was designed that way to play down the loss. “Irrecoverable data corruption. Please check all contacts before continuing or contact a system support technician for a full rig inspection.”</p>
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<p>“Well.” The anesthesiologist’s voice, so human, contrasted with the words from the speaker. “That’s that, then.”</p>
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<p>“That’s that,” the doctor echoed. She sighed and backed away from Sylvie’s body. It was empty, now. A husk. “I’ll start the paperwork and call her family and the insurance company. Get the payout processed as soon as possible.”</p>
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<p>The other team members nodded. None of them looked happy.</p>
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<p>“Go on, get her cleaned up and sent to the handlers.” She trudged out of the room slowly, her feet dragging. Pulling off her gloves, one by one, she added, “At least someone will get something out of this. Alas.”</p>
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<p>“That’s that,” the doctor echoed. She sighed and backed away from Sylvie’s body. It was empty, now. A husk. A vessel poured out into nothing. “I’ll start the paperwork and call her family and the insurance company. Get the payout processed as soon as possible. Third one this month, too.”</p>
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<p>The other team members nodded. None looked happy.</p>
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<p>“Go on, get her cleaned up and sent to the handlers.” She trudged from the room, her feet dragging. Pulling off her gloves one by one she added half to herself, “At least someone will get something out of this. Alas.”</p>
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<p>Prayers began around the corpse.</p>
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