From 286218081cb838543bee3ba9c9ce917de3a1270e Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001
From: Madison Scott-Clary <makyo@drab-makyo.com>
Date: Mon, 12 Sep 2022 23:00:17 -0700
Subject: [PATCH] update from sparkleup

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-<li class="done4"> Conversation &mdash; Ioan&rsquo;s been hanging out with TN, May is actively working on letting go, and has gotten to the point of being cordial, polite, occasionally kind<ul>
+<li class="done3"> Conversation &mdash; Ioan&rsquo;s been hanging out with TN, May is actively working on letting go, and has gotten to the point of being cordial, polite, occasionally kind<ul>
 <li class="done4"> <em>What lives we lead we lead in memory</em> &mdash; The grandest contribution offered by newborn immortality is the ever-living memories of the dead. Our lives become a ceaseless eulogy.</li>
 <li class="done4"> CHAPTER Ioan 2349<ul>
 <li class="done4"> <a href="001.html">Coffee date - Nov 2349</a> &mdash; Ioan and TN get coffee, which they&rsquo;ve been doing about once a month or so for a few years now.</li>
@@ -59,85 +59,85 @@
 <li class="done4"> <a href="004.html">Meet Cute</a> &mdash; Ioan and May talk about how much they wind up talking about TN; Ioan, on a whim, heads out for a walk at Arrowhead, conversation with TN about how much they wind up talking about May; ey draws conclusions about how much they think still think about each other</li>
 </ul>
 </li>
-<li class="done4"> CHAPTER Debarre? 2350<ul>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="005.html">Something innocent</a> &mdash; something innocent to break it up a bit. Debarre and End Waking being <em>really</em> furry, maybe? Rebuilding the rammed earth back wall of the tent? Maybe a flood took the old one out?</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="006.html">May&rsquo;s No Way 1</a> &mdash; Still resentful of TN but conflicted about Ioan seeming to be getting a lot out of talking with her, how much to trust her, discusses with Debarre, hints at considering EW merging down.</li>
+<li class="done3"> CHAPTER Debarre? 2350<ul>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="005.html">Something innocent</a> &mdash; something innocent to break it up a bit. Debarre and End Waking being <em>really</em> furry, maybe? Rebuilding the rammed earth back wall of the tent? Maybe a flood took the old one out?</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="006.html">May&rsquo;s No Way 1</a> &mdash; Still resentful of TN but conflicted about Ioan seeming to be getting a lot out of talking with her, how much to trust her, discusses with Debarre, hints at considering EW merging down.</li>
 </ul>
 </li>
-<li class="done4"> CHAPTER Ioan 2350<ul>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="007.html">Ioan&rsquo;s No Way 1</a> &mdash; Feeling weird about being stuck in the middle, fighting against the need to fix things (walk around lake at first, then dinner out with May; they shouldn&rsquo;t be homebodies just because I am)</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="008.html">Coffee date - Jan 2350 (TN&rsquo;s No Way 1)</a> &mdash; Assassination attempt (actual assassination may not be until most of the way through a few thousand words after talking with May), the fact that Ioan&rsquo;s been meeting with TN&rsquo;s root instance hits home</li>
+<li class="done3"> CHAPTER Ioan 2350<ul>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="007.html">Ioan&rsquo;s No Way 1</a> &mdash; Feeling weird about being stuck in the middle, fighting against the need to fix things (walk around lake at first, then dinner out with May; they shouldn&rsquo;t be homebodies just because I am)</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="008.html">Coffee date - Jan 2350 (TN&rsquo;s No Way 1)</a> &mdash; Assassination attempt (actual assassination may not be until most of the way through a few thousand words after talking with May), the fact that Ioan&rsquo;s been meeting with TN&rsquo;s root instance hits home</li>
 </ul>
 </li>
 </ul>
 </li>
-<li class="done4"> Conflict &mdash; After assassination attempt on TN, learn about TN getting pushed out by Jonas, May offers to merge down, turns into big discussion<ul>
+<li class="done3"> Conflict &mdash; After assassination attempt on TN, learn about TN getting pushed out by Jonas, May offers to merge down, turns into big discussion<ul>
 <li class="done4"> <em>To hone is to trade ends for perpetual perfection</em> &mdash; The danger in ceaseless memorialization is just how close it lies to idolatry. To elevate the dead to such a status as false god (for what being that is limited to the perfection of memory is not false?) is to ceaselessly perfect the imperfectable.</li>
-<li class="done4"> CHAPTER Ioan 2350<ul>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="009.html">May&rsquo;s No Way 2</a> &mdash; Upset about the situation; that it&rsquo;s politics is bringing up a lot more bad feelings about True Name</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="010.html">Clearing the house</a> &mdash; Ioan goes to clear the house and lock down ACLs. Bounces all the assassins, meets Jonas and talks with him for a bit. He&rsquo;s a dick. They still decide to stay the night at the lake with some basic camping amenities, EW comes over to help, TN is elsewhere, stomping around the lake off sending messages and such (EW brings two of things, Ioan corrects to three)</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="011.html">TN&rsquo;s No Way 2</a> &mdash; Trying to salvage this, confronting the reality based on what Ioan passes on from Jonas (that afternoon)</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="012.html">Something innocent</a> &mdash; TN moves in with Ioan and May through attached townhouse, trying to figure out how to work this so there&rsquo;s no cat^H^H^Hskunkfights</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="013.html">Bone Town</a> &mdash; TN talks with May about Jonas in CoS. Later, she comes up with the idea to merge down (needs to be filled out)</li>
+<li class="done3"> CHAPTER Ioan 2350<ul>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="009.html">May&rsquo;s No Way 2</a> &mdash; Upset about the situation; that it&rsquo;s politics is bringing up a lot more bad feelings about True Name</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="010.html">Clearing the house</a> &mdash; Ioan goes to clear the house and lock down ACLs. Bounces all the assassins, meets Jonas and talks with him for a bit. He&rsquo;s a dick. They still decide to stay the night at the lake with some basic camping amenities, EW comes over to help, TN is elsewhere, stomping around the lake off sending messages and such (EW brings two of things, Ioan corrects to three)</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="011.html">TN&rsquo;s No Way 2</a> &mdash; Trying to salvage this, confronting the reality based on what Ioan passes on from Jonas (that afternoon)</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="012.html">Something innocent</a> &mdash; TN moves in with Ioan and May through attached townhouse, trying to figure out how to work this so there&rsquo;s no cat^H^H^Hskunkfights</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="013.html">Bone Town</a> &mdash; TN talks with May about Jonas in CoS. Later, she comes up with the idea to merge down (needs to be filled out)</li>
 </ul>
 </li>
-<li class="done4"> CHAPTER Debarre 2350<ul>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="014.html">May&rsquo;s Wallow 1</a> &mdash; May comes over distraught, they talk, she suggests he merge down (has a few reasons why, but doesn&rsquo;t express them super well)</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="015.html">Debarre and EW talk</a> &mdash; May leaves, Debarre and EW get their bed back in the tent and talk about what the merge would look like and mean for both him and TN, thinks he might so long as May agrees to merge down in the future as well.</li>
+<li class="done3"> CHAPTER Debarre 2350<ul>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="014.html">May&rsquo;s Wallow 1</a> &mdash; May comes over distraught, they talk, she suggests he merge down (has a few reasons why, but doesn&rsquo;t express them super well)</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="015.html">Debarre and EW talk</a> &mdash; May leaves, Debarre and EW get their bed back in the tent and talk about what the merge would look like and mean for both him and TN, thinks he might so long as May agrees to merge down in the future as well.</li>
 </ul>
 </li>
-<li class="done4"> CHAPTER Ioan 2350<ul>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="016.html">TN&rsquo;s Wallow 1</a> &mdash; TN moping about how things have wound up re: her calling</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="017.html">Retreat: merge</a> &mdash; May talks about EW merging down, then he does</li>
+<li class="done3"> CHAPTER Ioan 2350<ul>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="016.html">TN&rsquo;s Wallow 1</a> &mdash; TN moping about how things have wound up re: her calling</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="017.html">Retreat: merge</a> &mdash; May talks about EW merging down, then he does</li>
 </ul>
 </li>
 </ul>
 </li>
-<li class="done4"> Apprehension &mdash; EW merges down and TN has to deal; Ioan and May have to consider ramifications<ul>
-<li class="done4"> CHAPTER Ioan 2350</li>
-<li class="done4"> <em>For memory ends at the teeth of death.</em> &mdash; And so the dead may live on in restless eternity, never knowing peace or the oblivion they so richly deserve. There is no peace in eternal memory, no release in unending remembering.<ul>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="018.html">Retreat: perspective</a> &mdash; TN recovering, trying to reconcile her calling vs penance</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="019.html">Retreat: memories</a> &mdash; After talking with TN about her memories from EW about Debarre, Ioan starts to feel icky about TN having May&rsquo;s memory of their relationship</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="020.html">TN Choose Fear</a> &mdash; TN says she can&rsquo;t deal, pulls back from both May and Ioan, stays at Arrowhead lake with new camping knowledge (We learn about TN&rsquo;s relationship)</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="021.html">May Choose Fear</a> &mdash; May overflows (just a few days), claims the home</li>
+<li class="done3"> Apprehension &mdash; EW merges down and TN has to deal; Ioan and May have to consider ramifications<ul>
+<li class="done4"> <em>For memory ends at the teeth of death.</em> &mdash; And so the dead may live on in restless eternity, never knowing peace or the oblivion they so richly deserve. There is no peace in eternal memory, no release in unending remembering.</li>
+<li class="done3"> CHAPTER Ioan 2350<ul>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="018.html">Retreat: perspective</a> &mdash; TN recovering, trying to reconcile her calling vs penance</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="019.html">Retreat: memories</a> &mdash; After talking with TN about her memories from EW about Debarre, Ioan starts to feel icky about TN having May&rsquo;s memory of their relationship</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="020.html">TN Choose Fear</a> &mdash; TN says she can&rsquo;t deal, pulls back from both May and Ioan, stays at Arrowhead lake with new camping knowledge (We learn about TN&rsquo;s relationship)</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="021.html">May Choose Fear</a> &mdash; May overflows (just a few days), claims the home</li>
 </ul>
 </li>
-<li class="done4"> CHAPTER Debarre 2350<ul>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="022.html">Ioan chooses fear</a> &mdash; Ioan&rsquo;s really struggling with the idea of May merging, but also really wants to help, but now May&rsquo;s gone, goes to stay with Douglas, who calls Debarre over for historical context</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="023.html">Something innocent</a> &mdash; Debarre talks about his relationship with EW, plus EW&rsquo;s merging down from his point of view</li>
+<li class="done3"> CHAPTER Debarre 2350<ul>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="022.html">Ioan chooses fear</a> &mdash; Ioan&rsquo;s really struggling with the idea of May merging, but also really wants to help, but now May&rsquo;s gone, goes to stay with Douglas, who calls Debarre over for historical context</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="023.html">Something innocent</a> &mdash; Debarre talks about his relationship with EW, plus EW&rsquo;s merging down from his point of view</li>
 </ul>
 </li>
-<li class="done4"> CHAPTER Ioan 2350<ul>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="024.html">Ioan&rsquo;s wallow 2</a> &mdash; Now <em>Ioan&rsquo;s</em> struggling, crushed at both May overflowing and TN requesting her own time alone, while ey&rsquo;s the only one with both sides. Has at least one sensorium conversation with each.</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="025.html">May recovers</a> &mdash; Visits, says hi etc, brings Ioan back home.</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="026.html">May and TN&rsquo;s Wallow 2</a> &mdash; May&rsquo;s feeling bad because she can&rsquo;t help, also starting to agree with Ioan: not fair to them as a couple for TN to have those memories</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="027.html">Choose love: TN&rsquo;s offer</a> &mdash; TN comes back, few days of attempted normalcy, topic of May merging comes up, May and Ioan mention apprehensions, but TN is actually kind of for it. She needs the change, needs good as well as bad, but she&rsquo;ll also have memories of their apprehensions and can work with that</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="028.html">Choose love: Ioan and May</a> &mdash; Ioan expands on this when they&rsquo;re alone, and they talk about how TN won&rsquo;t just have May&rsquo;s memories wholesale, she&rsquo;ll have a synthesis. May agrees, thinks knowing love is only ever going to be a good thing, TN also deserves that (plus memories of resentment will open things up). May&rsquo;s little lie about &lsquo;merging down every few years&rsquo; comes up, she hasn&rsquo;t in nearly two centuries</li>
+<li class="done3"> CHAPTER Ioan 2350<ul>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="024.html">Ioan&rsquo;s wallow 2</a> &mdash; Now <em>Ioan&rsquo;s</em> struggling, crushed at both May overflowing and TN requesting her own time alone, while ey&rsquo;s the only one with both sides. Has at least one sensorium conversation with each.</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="025.html">May recovers</a> &mdash; Visits, says hi etc, brings Ioan back home.</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="026.html">May and TN&rsquo;s Wallow 2</a> &mdash; May&rsquo;s feeling bad because she can&rsquo;t help, also starting to agree with Ioan: not fair to them as a couple for TN to have those memories</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="027.html">Choose love: TN&rsquo;s offer</a> &mdash; TN comes back, few days of attempted normalcy, topic of May merging comes up, May and Ioan mention apprehensions, but TN is actually kind of for it. She needs the change, needs good as well as bad, but she&rsquo;ll also have memories of their apprehensions and can work with that</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="028.html">Choose love: Ioan and May</a> &mdash; Ioan expands on this when they&rsquo;re alone, and they talk about how TN won&rsquo;t just have May&rsquo;s memories wholesale, she&rsquo;ll have a synthesis. May agrees, thinks knowing love is only ever going to be a good thing, TN also deserves that (plus memories of resentment will open things up). May&rsquo;s little lie about &lsquo;merging down every few years&rsquo; comes up, she hasn&rsquo;t in nearly two centuries</li>
 </ul>
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 </ul>
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 <li>
-<p>[X] Reconciliation &mdash; After the merge and TN&rsquo;s collapse, she has to process two centuries of memories while Ioan and May have to process the results of the merge</p>
+<p>[O] Reconciliation &mdash; After the merge and TN&rsquo;s collapse, she has to process two centuries of memories while Ioan and May have to process the results of the merge</p>
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 <li class="done4"> <em>The living know that they will die / but the dead know nothing.</em> &mdash; By our very act of knowing, of remembering, of denying our own deaths, the dead are left in limbo, for every idea&rsquo;s opposite is the absence of that idea, and we can no longer grant them that.</li>
-<li class="done4"> CHAPTER Ioan 2350<ul>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="029.html">Plan and risk</a> &mdash; they plan together on how to make this a more deliberate thing than the merger with EW, setting up a nest in which she can process comfortably, Ioan lays in supplies, TN negotiates boundaries and how they&rsquo;ll shift, May merges down</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="030.html">Grand gesture</a> &mdash; TN processes, cries a lot, they talk about what this means (acknowledging that talking boundaries is a new thing for TN) It goes well enough that her fork quits</li>
+<li class="done3"> CHAPTER Ioan 2350<ul>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="029.html">Plan and risk</a> &mdash; they plan together on how to make this a more deliberate thing than the merger with EW, setting up a nest in which she can process comfortably, Ioan lays in supplies, TN negotiates boundaries and how they&rsquo;ll shift, May merges down</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="030.html">Grand gesture</a> &mdash; TN processes, cries a lot, they talk about what this means (acknowledging that talking boundaries is a new thing for TN) It goes well enough that her fork quits</li>
 </ul>
 </li>
-<li class="done4"> CHAPTER Debarre 2350<ul>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="031.html">Result for EW</a> &mdash; EW and Debarre talk about how they both feel about TN&rsquo;s mergers and how this could go either way for EW: he feels better about TN, but now he&rsquo;s listless and unsure of how he feels about the clade given how much of his identity was bound up in rejecting TN.</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="032.html">Result for Jonas and Debarre</a> &mdash; They talk about how this is working for Jonas, how it&rsquo;s dangerous because it gives Jonas &amp; Co an opening through May&rsquo;s known weaknesses (less his because they haven&rsquo;t studied him nearly so much), how EW was requested to be there. Maybe some more about reactive elements? Debarre comes home to talk with e.g: user11824?</li>
+<li class="done3"> CHAPTER Debarre 2350<ul>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="031.html">Result for EW</a> &mdash; EW and Debarre talk about how they both feel about TN&rsquo;s mergers and how this could go either way for EW: he feels better about TN, but now he&rsquo;s listless and unsure of how he feels about the clade given how much of his identity was bound up in rejecting TN.</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="032.html">Result for Jonas and Debarre</a> &mdash; They talk about how this is working for Jonas, how it&rsquo;s dangerous because it gives Jonas &amp; Co an opening through May&rsquo;s known weaknesses (less his because they haven&rsquo;t studied him nearly so much), how EW was requested to be there. Maybe some more about reactive elements? Debarre comes home to talk with e.g: user11824?</li>
 </ul>
 </li>
-<li class="done4"> CHAPTER Ioan 2350<ul>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="033.html">TN&rsquo;s path forward</a> &mdash; TN decides she&rsquo;s ready to start planning the meeting, has a better idea of what she&rsquo;ll become (maybe merge down? See where it goes)</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="034.html">Ioan sets the meeting up</a> &mdash; Ey&rsquo;s acting as amanuensis and as close to a neutral party as there is, and Jonas is all asmirk at this. They head out, and are greeted by Zacharias, Ioan is struggling with anger, they&rsquo;re going to meet up in a week.</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="035.html">They meet, they talk, TN changes</a> &mdash; Jonas talks about how the upcoming changes require a different kind of stability for continuity and TN just isn&rsquo;t gonna cut it, gives ultimata for her continued existence. TN becomes Sasha, and now she&rsquo;s all asmirk.</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="036.html">Something innocent</a> &mdash; The aftermath. They get Serene to basically duplicate Arrowhead Lake in place of Sasha&rsquo;s field, etc Sasha works on finding a new purpose, realizes it&rsquo;s going to be a long process.</li>
-<li class="done4"> <a href="037.html">Epilogue</a> Ioan and Sasha are drifting closer together as hinted at in 002, but this should a) look like it&rsquo;s going to end happily and b) be an active and open conversation because I am completely unwilling to lose any of them.<ul>
-<li class="done4"> <em>To deny the end is to deny all beginnings, / and to deny beginnings is to become immortal, / and to become immortal is to repeat the past.</em> &mdash; It has been a quarter of a millenium since their death, and yet less than a quarter of a thousand people know their name. Fitting, then, that I tell you the story of the poet and the one true origin of our world, of our very own ghost in the system, of the whispers in your dreams and the one who binds us to immortality.</li>
+<li class="done3"> CHAPTER Ioan 2350<ul>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="033.html">TN&rsquo;s path forward</a> &mdash; TN decides she&rsquo;s ready to start planning the meeting, has a better idea of what she&rsquo;ll become (maybe merge down? See where it goes)</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="034.html">Ioan sets the meeting up</a> &mdash; Ey&rsquo;s acting as amanuensis and as close to a neutral party as there is, and Jonas is all asmirk at this. They head out, and are greeted by Zacharias, Ioan is struggling with anger, they&rsquo;re going to meet up in a week.</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="035.html">They meet, they talk, TN changes</a> &mdash; Jonas talks about how the upcoming changes require a different kind of stability for continuity and TN just isn&rsquo;t gonna cut it, gives ultimata for her continued existence. TN becomes Sasha, and now she&rsquo;s all asmirk.</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="036.html">Something innocent</a> &mdash; The aftermath. They get Serene to basically duplicate Arrowhead Lake in place of Sasha&rsquo;s field, etc Sasha works on finding a new purpose, realizes it&rsquo;s going to be a long process.</li>
+<li class="done3"> <a href="037.html">Epilogue</a> Ioan and Sasha are drifting closer together as hinted at in 002, but this should a) look like it&rsquo;s going to end happily and b) be an active and open conversation because I am completely unwilling to lose any of them.<ul>
+<li class="done3"> <em>To deny the end is to deny all beginnings, / and to deny beginnings is to become immortal, / and to become immortal is to repeat the past.</em> &mdash; It has been a quarter of a millennium since their death, and yet less than a quarter of a thousand people know their name. Fitting, then, that I tell you the story of the poet and the one true origin of our world, of our very own ghost in the system, of the whispers in your dreams and the one who binds us to immortality.</li>
 </ul>
 </li>
 </ul>
@@ -325,7 +325,7 @@
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