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<h1>Zk | The Hand of God (Southern Reach fic)</h1>
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<h1>Zk | The Hand of God</h1>
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<p><span class="tag">writing</span> <span class="tag">fanfic</span> <span class="tag">fiction</span> <span class="tag">short-story</span></p>
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<h2 id="the-biologist">The biologist</h2>
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<p><span class="tag">writing</span> <span class="tag">horror</span> <span class="tag">fiction</span> <span class="tag">short-story</span></p>
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<p>The day began with the botanist giving the physicist a hand in setting up countless contraptions around the rim of the clearing, describing an invisible net of arcane geometries held there five feet above the ground. She lugged the total station while he placed the equipment. He prattled on as he went, describing what he was doing, what tools he was using, what equipment she was carrying. She largely lost track after the word ‘theodolite’.</p>
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<p>Theodolite.</p>
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<p><em>Theo</em>-dolite?</p>
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<p>“Yeah, sorry.”</p>
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<p>“It’s alright. Did you hear something?”</p>
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<p>“No. Maybe. I don’t know.”</p>
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<p>The physicist frowned, peered out into the trees in the direction the botanist had been looking. “I thought you might have heard something. You froze and started looking over there, over to the staircase.”</p>
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<p>The physicist frowned, peered out into the trees in the direction the botanist had been looking. “I thought you might have heard something. You froze and started looking over there, over to the outcropping.”</p>
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<p>She didn’t remember which way she had been facing. She knew that she had turned to face the physicist, though.</p>
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<p>“But then you just kept standing there. It wasn’t like you were listening. You were just frozen.”</p>
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<p>“Yeah, sorry. Maybe this place has me a little on edge.</p>
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<p>A flash. A sudden light from all five posts set the clearing in stark relief.</p>
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<p>The physicist smiled dreamily. “Thank God that worked.”</p>
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<p>And then they unwound the entire procedure from before. Undoing the cabling, unearthing the rods, undowsing, in some strange way, the work of the theolodite.</p>
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<p>On the way back to the camp, the physicist continued to chatter. He was measuring the way light and shadow moved within Area X. “No reason to think something as basic as light would differ here,” he had assured her. Or at least assured her form, as her mind was elsewhere. “But you have to admit, everything’s a little strange.”</p>
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<p>At the camp: quiet. The four sat, each in front of their tent, thinking or not, reading or not. At one point, the linguist asked after the architect, and the psychologist repeated, “He went back to base.”</p>
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<p>On the way back to the camp, the physicist continued to chatter. He was measuring the way light and shadow moved so untrod an area. “No reason to think something as basic as light would differ here,” he had assured her. Or at least assured her form, as her mind was elsewhere. “But you have to admit, everything’s a little strange.”</p>
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<p>At the camp: quiet. The four sat, each in front of their tent, thinking or not, reading or not. At one point, the linguist asked after the fifth member of their expedition, and the psychologist repeated, “He went back to base.”</p>
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<p>And then: quiet.</p>
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<p>They ate.</p>
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<p>The botanist read for a few pages, and then set her book down, tented up over the unfinished page, and fingered instead the thin shim of metal that was her bookmark. Brass, or something like it, it had become her fetish over the last two days. A thing to touch. Something known. Something remembered. Something grounding in this most ungrounded of places.</p>
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<p>“You know it?”</p>
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<p>“Yeah. I studied Celtic languages for a while and wrote a paper on the whole blessing for an undergrad anthropology class. Write what you know, I guess.”</p>
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<p>The physicist: “‘The whole blessing’?”</p>
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<p>She grinned. “Yeah, it’s several lines. Uh…<em>go n-éirí an bóthar leat, go raibh an ghaoth go brách ag do chúl, o lonraí an ghrian go te ar d’aghaidh, go dtite an bháisteach go mín ar do pháirceanna, agus go mbuailimid le chéile arís, go gcoinní Dia i mbos A láimhe thú.</em> I think. It’s been a while. It’s like, ‘good luck on your road, may the wind be behind you, may the sun shine on your face, may the rain fall on your fields, and until we meet again, may God hold you in the palm of His hand.’“</p>
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<p>She grinned. “Yeah, it’s several lines. I think. It’s been a while. It’s like, ‘good luck on your road, may the wind be behind you, may the sun shine on your face, may the rain fall on your fields, and until we meet again, may God hold you in the palm of His hand.’“</p>
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<p>It was the most any of them had spoken in hours about anything other than…than work? Than whatever it was they were doing out here in Area X. All of them were listening.</p>
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<p>And as she listened, the botanist felt that hand, felt God’s hand, close around her mind. Felt it cradle, grip, tighten, squeeze. Felt it test her limits, and, on finding them, sit just shy of too much. She was sure there must be some visible change, a hand-print sprawled across her face, but none of the others said anything about it.</p>
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<p>The physicist: “See, I have engraved you on the palms of My hands.”</p>
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<p>Hands.</p>
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<p>Hands.</p>
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<p>Always hands.</p>
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<p>The botanist had tuned out, and some distant part of her was surprised to find that she had stood, that she had been pacing, that she had stopped and hunched and tensed, once more facing the stairs. The stairs. That finger pointing toward God.</p>
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<p>The psychologist: “Are you excited, too?”</p>
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<p>The botanist had tuned out, and some distant part of her was surprised to find that she had stood, that she had been pacing, that she had stopped and hunched and tensed, once more facing the outcropping. The outcropping of dead rock, new these last few months, resisting study and understanding.. That finger pointing toward God.</p>
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<p>The psychologist: “Where are you going?”</p>
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<p>She frowned, the tension draining from her as a blanket settled over her unsettled mind. Turned, abashed, back toward camp. “No. Maybe. I don’t know.”</p>
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<p>The hand of God had loosened its grip around her mind and here she was, back at camp, back beneath the trees, back by the tall reeds, back by the ferns fingering the air and the fronds like hands reaching out to them.</p>
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<p>It did not last.</p>
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<p>And her cheek was as cool as her own felt, and those tiny hairs that lent to the softness of her skin were beyond familiar: known in a way that proved the relationship beyond a doubt.</p>
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<p>And while the dreamy confusion was mirrored on her face, there was also curiosity, also a detached fondness, an understanding, however inexact, of oneself. And these, too, were inexact, for she did not understand, did not feel fond. Did not feel anything.</p>
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<p>And she had stopped thinking of this Doppelgänger as something other than herself. She was not it. She was she. She was she.</p>
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<p>And her hands were her own. She had a hand in their making. Her hand was forced hand in hand with blood on her hands washing her hands of the matter. After all, was a bird in the hand not worth two in the clearing, their beside the stairs where, written on the wall, were the words, “Were lies the strangling fruit that came from the hand of the sinner”?</p>
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<p>And there she was, and if there had been a transition from her being in her tent to her standing in the clearing, to her moving toward where those stairs bored down into the earth, she missed it, just as she had missed that transition between waking and sleeping.</p>
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<p>And her hands were her own. She had a hand in their making. Her hand was forced hand in hand with blood on her hands washing her hands of the matter. After all, was a bird in the hand not worth two in the clearing, there beside the outcropping where, written on the stone, were the words the linguist toiled over day after day?</p>
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<p>And there she was, and if there had been a transition from her being in her tent to her standing in the clearing, to her moving toward where those dead rocks climbing stolidly up from earth, she missed it, just as she had missed that transition between waking and sleeping.</p>
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<p>And yet was she asleep? Was she? She was here, and the air was heavy, and the light had failed, and the quiet was absolute aside from the sounds of the night. No words, no words.</p>
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<p>And there she was in front of her. There was her. There was <em>her</em>. There was her mirror image, her perfectly imperfect self.</p>
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<p>And they crouched toward each other, feral, as if in preparation for flight. </p>
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<p>And they reached out toward each other and their fingertips touched and the touch was warm and the callouses were real.</p>
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<p>And they relaxed, and the botanist felt that even as the darkness deepened, the light within her grew, and they both settled down to their knees.</p>
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<p>And finally, the mirroring was broken as the <em>her</em> that was not her slid <em>her</em> fingers up over her wrist and gently guided her hand down toward the soil, loamy and damp, and she knew then that she must spread her fingers and dig them down into the earth, there by the stairs which were a finger pointing at God such that she was in turn pointing at…at what? At the owner of that hand? At the owner of that finger?</p>
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<p>And finally, the mirroring was broken as the <em>her</em> that was not her slid <em>her</em> fingers up over her wrist and gently guided her hand down toward the soil, loamy and damp, and she knew then that she must spread her fingers and dig them down into the earth, there by the outcropping which were a finger pointing at God such that she was in turn pointing at…at what? At the owner of that hand? At the owner of that finger?</p>
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<p>And as she did so, she felt that the dirt beneath her fingernails took root, that her nails themselves must have been rootlets and that her arm a stolon, that her whole body was the runner for some tree, some entity other than herself, for at that point, she took root.</p>
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<p>And her fingers crawled beneath the soil, and drank of the water there, and tasted the nutrients, and found purchase beneath the layer of loam and humus.</p>
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<p>And there, her fingers curled around the God-stone, and indeed, she knew it as she felt it, amber with a kernel of pain embedded within.</p>
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<p>And she felt growth accelerate as, bound now to the earth, her bones became wood and her muscles loosened, unwound, and thus unbound began to lengthen, to strengthen, to arch skyward, seeking stars, seeking God.</p>
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<p>And when the physicist awoke, he was the first to notice the botanist was gone. </p>
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<p>And when the psychologist awoke, she was the first to notice the new tree, where ferns fingered the air and fronds like hands reached out to touch them.</p>
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<h2 id="the-physicist">The physicist</h2>
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<p>Breathe.</p>
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<p><em>Breathe.</em></p>
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<p>“Come on.”</p>
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<p>Hands clutched soil.
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Grasped for purchase, for solidity.
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Anything to help keep him anchored to reality.
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<em>Pin me to perception - or perception to me,</em> he begged air gone thrawn.</p>
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<p>His cries, nonverbal, were nonetheless beat back by some unseen force, some will bent on countering his own with mindless determination.</p>
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<p>Page generated on 2021-02-15</p>
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