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<p>&ldquo;How do I get to it?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Why, that is the final step in the tutorial. Project an intent to visit &lsquo;home&rsquo;. This will work for any sim name you are provided, so long as it is either public or you have been invited by the sim owner.&rdquo; Another smile tickles at the corner of the guide&rsquo;s mouth. &ldquo;For instance, if you would like a lovely cup of coffee, may I recommend The Alley Cat? You may find it at Old Town Square#58289a40.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Oh, well&hellip;alright. Thank you, I guess.&rdquo;</p>
<p>The construct bows. &ldquo;My pleasure. Please enjoy, and do not hesitate to ask for help on the new uploads assistance feed.&rdquo;</p>
<p>I bow back and step out of the orientation sim with a wish.</p>
<p>&ldquo;My pleasure.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;I don&rsquo;t suppose you have a name?&rdquo;</p>
<p>The construct bows. &ldquo;You may call me what you wish, but I am patterned off one of my creators, Then I Must In All Ways Be Earnest of the Ode clade.&rdquo; I must look nonplussed, as the construct laughs, waving a hand dismissively. &ldquo;You will learn, my dear. Please enjoy, and do not hesitate to ask for help on the new uploads assistance feed.&rdquo;</p>
<p>I hesitate, bow back, and step out of the orientation sim with a wish.</p>
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<p>Those early days are heady for me. I do indeed get a very good coffee at The Alley Cat, though not without a moment of embarrassment as I have to ask the constructs working behind the bar how to pay.</p>
<p>&ldquo;No need,&rdquo; they say, sounding far less personal than the guide I&rsquo;d met. &ldquo;Reputation cost deducted automatically. No need.&rdquo;</p>
<p>Ah well, like I said, pretty damn good coffee.</p>
<p>I spend a few days just poking around Old Town Square and its environs. At night, I step home to my little apartment, sleep for a while, browse the feeds, maybe take a shower. Then in the morning, I&rsquo;m back to the public sim, poking through the various shops — I spend the most time in the one specializing in impossible shapes — or going for a hike up to the natural park environment just beyond the pedestrian mall.</p>
<p>I eat, I sleep, I explore, and I fork. I fork like mad.</p>
<p>There is a cost to forking — after all, that new me takes up space on the System&rsquo;s hardware, too — but only if you let the two instances linger for more than five minutes. It makes sense: if forking is the easiest way to work in these huge changes, then that gives you a buffer to do so.</p>
<p>So I fork, holding in mind a change, and then my new instance and I discuss how it works out, and if it&rsquo;s good, the old instance quit and the new instance becomes the only me. I learn early on to make small changes, as trying to hold too much in my head at once just leads to a confused jumble of an appearance. I fork my hair smoother, less dry. I fork my face rounder and softer. I fork my breasts rounder and my hips curvier. I fork myself shorter.</p>
<p>In short, I guess I kind of complete the transition I&rsquo;d started back phys-side.</p>
<p>It&rsquo;s thrilling and terrifying, leaving behind that old version of myself. What happens if I fuck up and don&rsquo;t like who I become? What if the wrong me quits? Would I die?</p>
<p>The feeds help me out immensely, here. With nearly two trillion instances, I&rsquo;m hardly the first trans girl to upload to get away from a less-than-ideal life. I&rsquo;m hardly the first one struck with a case of the genders uploading to hunt for a cure.</p>
<p>Here&rsquo;s what I learn:</p>
<ul>
<li>Don&rsquo;t fucking worry.</li>
</ul>
<p>Sure enough, I can&rsquo;t quit without another fork already in existence. It&rsquo;s like pressing against a membrane: maybe I could push through, but it&rsquo;s like Lagrange doesn&rsquo;t want me to. Also, I find that if I focus hard enough, I can fork back into the version of myself who originally uploaded.</p>
<p>So I keep on forking and forking and forking until I&hellip;well, I guess I look a little bit like the guide who introduced me here. Sure, I&rsquo;ve got longer hair and I&rsquo;m not quite as stocky as she was, but I pass. </p>
<p>I don&rsquo;t just pass, I <em>am</em> that girl. Not quite the same one I dreamed, so long ago, but I just plain am that girl.</p>
<p>Don&rsquo;t fucking worry, indeed.</p>
<p>It&rsquo;s my third day there when I start to get pretty actively lonely, and instead of digging into the sims and shops and yet more restaurants, I start hunting for people.</p>
<p>Old Town Square is surprisingly chill, in terms of crowds. Sure, there&rsquo;s little knots of people that wander down the brick-paved pedestrian mall, or folks out in ones and twos enjoying the sun and their own cups of coffee, but it&rsquo;s hardly as packed as I would have assumed for a system containing so many people.</p>
<p>The amount of sims listed on the perisystem architecture about blows my head off when I check. There has to be millions, maybe billions of sims I could go looking into.</p>
<p>Which makes sense, I suppose. With the reputation I have, I could probably get started on a sim; it&rsquo;s not that expensive.</p>
<p>I haven&rsquo;t the faintest how to do so, nor the faintest idea of where to start, so I do the first thing that comes to mind and ask someone at The Alley Cat where they&rsquo;d go to start seeing more of the world. The person I ask shrugs and gestures behind them toward a door set in the wall. I&rsquo;d assumed it led out to a patio out back or something, a sign above it reads &ldquo;Infinite Café#06f4e37a — Thanks For Stopping By!&rdquo;</p>
<p>I step through the door and immediately fall to my knees.</p>
<p>The street I walk out onto is far more packed than Old Town Square, yes, but it also seems to go on pretty much forever. The further down the street I look, the more it seems to rise until, sure enough, it rises right up into the sky and continues around in a loop until back where I am. So large is the diameter of this loop that the street above me looks like a shimmering thread draped lazily across the dazzling blue sky.</p>
<p>&ldquo;What the fuck&hellip;&rdquo;</p>
<p>Someone beside me laughs, and I look up to someone towering above me, offering a hand to help me stand. They&rsquo;re tall — taller even than I was back phys-side — with long, hair that sits between frizzy and curly, and a rather chic looking tee to go with a pair of what look to be scrub pants. Messenger bag, glasses. They&rsquo;re delightfully gender. Visibly and effortlessly transfeminine. &ldquo;Come, stand. It is a lot, is it not?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Uh&hellip;yeah,&rdquo; I say, wobbling up to my feet with their assistance. Looking around shows me people. People and people and people. Across the street: another café, stuffed to the brim with people. Down the street: yet another coffee shop, a furry of some sort staring longingly at a display of pastries within. &ldquo;What the hell is this place?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Infinite Café.&rdquo; They laugh, not unkindly. &ldquo;Every café sim on Lagrange is invited to have a back door that opens onto this street. You could walk for a month here and not see half of the cafés on offer.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Jesus.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;There are&hellip;ah, looks like fifty-eight cafés with Jesus in their name, yes.&rdquo;</p>
<p>I snort.</p>
<p>&ldquo;Come, walk with me,&rdquo; they say.</p>
<p>&ldquo;Why?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Fuck if I know. I am starting to feel awkward standing in front of this place waiting for you.&rdquo;</p>
<p>I fall into step beside them as we start to make our way down the street. &ldquo;Wait, hold on. Waiting for me?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Yes. In All Ways said I ought to keep an eye out for you.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;In All wait, the construct? The orientation guide?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Her construct, yes. She keeps vague tabs on uploads that pass through her orientation settings.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;And she kept tabs on me?&rdquo;</p>
<p>They shrug, smiling. The smile is kind enough and earnest enough to take the wind out of my suspicion&rsquo;s sails. &ldquo;You seemed interesting enough to her, apparently. Seem nice to me, too. You can call me My.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;My&hellip;like me, my, mine?&rdquo; I say, sounding stupid even to myself.</p>
<p>They laugh. &ldquo;Just like that, yes. Hold My Name Beneath Your Tongue And Know of the Ode clade. Just &lsquo;My&rsquo; is fine. She/her.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;That&rsquo;s the second time I&rsquo;ve heard Ode clade, and I still don&rsquo;t get it.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;A clade is just a group of people forked from the same root instance. I am quite far diverged from my root instance. Certainly further than In All Ways is. You look a little like her, you know that?&rdquo;</p>
<p>Caught. I panic.</p>
<p>She rests a hand gently on my elbow and tuts. &ldquo;Hey, hush. It is okay.&rdquo;</p>
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