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+Whiteboard - $1
Five drawer filing cabinet - $8
Masonite board - borrowed from Shannon
Electrical tape - free
$9 (and about two hours of work, putting the staves on the whiteboard) for a good portion of my studio stuff? Oh heck yes :3<br clear="all"/
Decided to write a few Character Dances. Theme songs for my friends. Here's one.</a
+ Expand all +I can call out, but I can't receive any calls.
+Also, there's a chance that I won't be able to get my contacts out of this phone; if so, I'll do a screened-reply post asking for folks' numbers again. :
+ Expand all +Going out of town from Thursday afternoon to Monday morning for a much needed vacation.
+'Much needed' being the understatement of the year
+ Expand all +Looks like I can receive calls, since the speakerphone rings if I have the volume up.
+So I have a phone, just can't receive texts
+ Expand all +My UDQE went well. Better than well, it went excellent. Probably the most fun I've ever had during a final, really. Maybe I'll still try for my Ph.D.
+It went that well :o)
+Also KIRAN KIRAN KIRAN KIRAN talk to me :D If we're doing R/M's reception at your place, I'd like to bring some foodstuffs there ahead of time if possible. If not, then I need to see about an alternate spot
+ Expand all ++For those of you that are not following the recent controversy + that has to do with Laura Schlessinger: she is a radio personality who + dispenses advice to people who call in to her radio show. Paramount + Television Group is currently producing a "Dr. Laura" + + television show. Recently she has become a convert to Judaism, and now + she is Ba'al T'shuvah. Recently, she has made some statements about + homosexuals that has caused the Canadian anti-hate laws to censure + her... The following is an open letter to Dr. Laura which was posted on + the internet...+
+These are the Biblical verses refered to above, in two different
+ translations: the King James Version [KJV], and New International Version
+ [NIV]
+
+ Lev 18:22 [KJV] Thou shalt not
+ lie with mankind, as with womankind: it is abomination. [NIV] Do not lie
+ with a man as one lies with a woman; that is detestable.
+Lev 1:9 [KJV] But his inwards and
+ his legs shall he wash in water: and the priest shall burn all on the
+ altar, to be a burnt sacrifice, an offering made by fire, of a sweet
+ savour unto the LORD. [NIV] He is to wash the
+ inner parts and the legs with water, and the priest is to burn all of it
+ on the altar. It is a burnt offering, an offering made by fire, an aroma
+ pleasing to the LORD.
+Exodus 21:7 [KJV] And if a man
+ sell his daughter to be a maidservant, she shall not go out as the
+ menservants do. [NIV] If a man sells his daughter as a servant, she is
+ not to go free as menservants do.
+ Lev 15:19-24 [KJV] And if a
+ woman have an issue, and her issue in her flesh be blood, she shall be
+ put apart seven days: and whosoever toucheth her shall be unclean until
+ the even. 20 And every thing that she lieth upon
+ in her separation shall be unclean: every thing also that she sitteth
+ upon shall be unclean. 21 And whosoever toucheth
+ her bed shall wash his clothes, and bathe himself in water, and be
+ unclean until the even. 22 And whosoever
+ toucheth any thing that she sat upon shall wash his clothes, and bathe
+ himself in water, and be unclean until the even. 23
And if it be on her bed, or on any thing whereon she sitteth, when he
+ toucheth it, he shall be unclean until the even. <font size="-1">24</font>
+ And if any man lie with her at all, and her flowers be upon him, he
+ shall be unclean seven days; and all the bed whereon he lieth shall be
+ unclean.
+ <br/>[NIV] When a woman has her regular flow of blood, the impurity of
+ her monthly period will last seven days, and anyone who touches her will
+ be unclean till evening. <font size="-1">20</font> Anything she lies on
+ during her period will be unclean, and anything she sits on will be
+ unclean. <font size="-1">21</font> Whoever touches her bed must wash
+ his clothes and bathe with water, and he will be unclean till evening.
+ <font size="-1">22</font> Whoever touches anything she sits on must
+ wash his clothes and bathe with water, and he will be unclean till
+ evening. <font size="-1">23</font> Whether it is the bed or anything
+ she was sitting on, when anyone touches it, he will be unclean till
+ evening. <font size="-1">24</font> If a man lies with her and her
+ monthly flow touches him, he will be unclean for seven days; any bed he
+ lies on will be unclean.</font>
+
Lev 25:44 [KJV] Both thy
+ bondmen, and thy bondmaids, which thou shalt have, shall be of the
+ heathen that are round about you; of them shall ye buy bondmen and
+ bondmaids. [NIV] Your male and female slaves are to come from the
+ nations around you; from them you may buy slaves.
+Exodus 35:2 [KJV] Six days shall
+ work be done, but on the seventh day there shall be to you an holy day,
+ a sabbath of rest to the LORD: whosoever doeth
+ work therein shall be put to death. [NIV] For six days, work is to be
+ done, but the seventh day shall be your holy day, a Sabbath of rest to
+ the LORD. Whoever does any work on it must be
+ put to death.
+Lev 11:10 [KJV] And all that
+ have not fins and scales in the seas, and in the rivers, of all that
+ move in the waters, and of any living thing which is in the waters, they
+ shall be an abomination unto you [NIV] But all creatures in the seas or
+ streams that do not have fins and scales --- whether among all the
+ swarming things or among all the other living creatures in the water ---
+ you are to detest.
+Lev 21:20 [KJV] Or crookbackt,
+ or a dwarf, or that hath a blemish in his eye, or be scurvy, or scabbed,
+ or hath his stones broken [NIV] or who is hunchbacked or dwarfed, or who
+ has any eye defect, or who has festering or running sores or damaged
+ testicles.
+Lev 19:27 [KJV] Ye shall not
+ round the corners of your heads, neither shalt thou mar the corners of
+ thy beard. [NIV] Do not cut the hair at the sides of your head or clip
+ off the edges of your beard.
+Lev 11:6-8 [KJV] And the hare,
+ because he cheweth the cud, but divideth not the hoof; he is unclean
+ unto you. 7 And the swine, though he divide the
+ hoof, and be clovenfooted, yet he cheweth not the cud; he is unclean to
+ you. 8 Of their flesh shall ye not eat, and
+ their carcase shall ye not touch; they are unclean to you.
+
[NIV] The rabbit, though it chews the cud, does not have a split
+ hoof; it is unclean for you. 7 And the pig,
+ though it has a split hoof completely divied, does not chew the cud; it
+ is unclean for you. 8 You must not eat their
+ meat or touch their carcases; they are unclean for you.
+Lev 19:19 [KJV] Ye shall keep
+ my statutes. Thou shalt not let thy cattle gender with a diverse kind:
+ thou shalt not sow thy field with mingled seed: neither shall a garment
+ mingled of linen and woollen come upon thee. [NIV] Keep my decrees. Do
+ not mate different kinds of animals. Do not plant your field with two
+ kinds of seed. Do not wear clothing woven of two kinds of material.
+Lev 24:10-16 [KJV] And the
+ son of an Israelitish woman, whose father was an Egyptian, went out
+ among the children of Israel: and this son of the Israelitish woman and
+ a man of Israel strove together in the camp; 11
+ And the Israelitish woman's son blasphemed the name of the Lord, and
+ cursed. And they brought him unto Moses: (and his mother's name was
+ Shelomith, the daughter of Dibri, of the tribe of Dan:) 12
+ And they put him in ward, that the mind of the LORD
+ might be shewed them. 13 And the LORD
spake unto Moses, saying, <font size="-1">14</font> Bring forth him
+ that hath cursed without the camp; and let all that heard him lay their
+ hands upon his head, and let all the congregation stone him.
+ <font size="-1">15</font> And thou shalt speak unto the children of
+ Israel, saying, Whosoever curseth his God shall bear his sin.
+ <font size="-1">16</font> And he that blasphemeth the name of the L<font size="-1">ORD</font>,
+ he shall surely be put to death, and all the congregation shall
+ certainly stone him: as well the stranger, as he that is born in the
+ land, when he blasphemeth the name of the Lord, shall be put to death.
+ <br/>[NIV] Now the son of an Israelite mother and an Egyptian father
+ went out among the Israelites, and a fight broke out in the camp between
+ him and an Israelite. <font size="-1">11</font> The son of the
+ Israelite woman blasphemed the name of the L<font size="-1">ORD</font>
+
+ with a curse; so they brough him to Moses. (His mother's name was
+ Shelomith, the daughter of Dibri the Danite.) <font size="-1">12</font>
+ They put him in custody until the will of the L<font size="-1">ORD</font>
+ should be made clear to them. <font size="-1">13</font> Then the L<font size="-1">ORD</font>
+ said to Moses: <font size="-1">14</font> Take the blasphemer outside
+ the camp. All those who heard him are to lay their hands on his head,
+ and the entire assembly is to stone him. <font size="-1">15</font> Say
+ to the Israelites: If anyone curses his God, he will be held
+ responsible; <font size="-1">16</font> anyone who blasphemes the name
+ of the L<font size="-1">ORD</font> must be put to death. The entire
+ assembly must stone him. Whether an alien or native-born, when he
+ blasphemes the Name, he must be put to death.</font>
+
Lev 20:14 [KJV] And if a man + take a wife and her mother, it is wickedness: they shall be burnt with + fire, both he and they; that there be no wickedness among you. [NIV] If + a man marries both a woman and her mother, it is wicked. Both he and + they must be burned in the fire, so that no wickedness will be among + you. + +
+I got the letter off the Net, but without an + attribution. Some + Web versions have the sig "Carole M. Cusack, Lecturer, + School of Studies in Religion, University of Sydney" attached, but + do not make it clear if this refers to the original author, or to the + poster. So I requested clarification in an earlier version of this page. +Someone emailed me in September 2000, saying that + the UK Guardian newspaper of 16 Sept 2000 had an article claiming the + author was Steve Turner. +Someone else emailed me on 1 April 2001 [really!] + saying "In the May 2001 edition of Playboy, they have a letter from + a reader on page 62 in which a 'Kent Ashcraft' states that he originally + wrote the letter." +Then in July 2001 Kent Ashcraft emailed me, + saying he is indeed the author (except of the last three questions, + which are additions to his original).+
I thoroughly enjoyed this.
+Olberman on Bush (again) - http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/21134540/24635229#2463522
+ Expand all +Wait until DVD :o/ My opinion, at least.
+OPEN MEMO TO THE ENTERTAINMENT INDUSTRY
+Comedy relief characters are not funny anymore. Subtlety can still be your friend, too
+ Expand all +Speed Racer: A+
+Juno: A+
+D D D
+ Expand all +TPA's awesome.
+Anyway, I helpfully screwed up the last night here - sorry about that, Andrew. Got a four hour flight to think about why I was angry, 'cause, like.. sheets coming off the bed are frustrating, but not usually enough to alienate people. Nothing like two weeks of the worst depression since high school :D
+Anyway, they're boarding soon, so.. fff.. back when I get to Fort Collins
+ Expand all +So.. thinking of dipping down to RMFC for a while, probably Saturday during the day, unless I can get down there Friday night and find a floor to crash on. Anyone else going
+ Expand all +So I'm building querysets in Django, and I think I'm in love. Not only can you chain query sets together - that is, you can specify multiple things to search for, such as the title, duration and whatnot - but you can chain across relationships. So, I can search for a song in the Score table that contains 'butt' in the title regardless of case, and specify that it's only by a certain composer, which is a completely separate table.
+All through creative use of underscores.
+scores = Score.objects.filter(title__icontains = 'butt').filter(client__full_name__icontains = 'matthew scott')
Just creamed my pants. :
+ Expand all +Got Teh Booze and some of Teh Foodz for Ryan and Merry's thing. I'll get the rest after pay day.
+Tentative menu: +Three or four brined roast chickens +Mashed potatoeseseses +Veggies, depending on what all is around at the time, probably steamed with lemon juice, salt, and savory +Anything anyone else wants to bring - I'm cutting myself off here for the sake of time and money. Snackfoods, maybe? The food is going to take a little bit to cook, since I'm doing it all up at Kiiiiiraaaans, so snackables would be good.
+Driiiiinks: +LOTS AND LOTS OF MEAD OMIGOSH - wedding mead, plus whatever I have laying around that's good +A thing of champagne with a spot of St. Germaine in it +Mass mojitos +Maaaaybe absinthe +Juiiiiiice, maybe soda +Anything you can make with the above and various alcools, I guess. Maybe folk want to bring some other stuff, too
+ Expand all +Random IM from some guy..
+(7:50:04 PM) someguy: Hello? +(7:50:22 PM) Drab Makyo: Hello. Who are you? +(7:50:22 PM) someguy is now known as someguy.
+(7:50:29 PM) someguy: Someguy of FA +(7:51:02 PM) Drab Makyo: Ah, hello. +(7:52:52 PM) someguy: WHo are you? +(7:53:06 PM) Drab Makyo: Ranna of FA +(7:53:14 PM) someguy: Page, pwease? +(7:53:41 PM) Drab Makyo: http://www.furaffinity.net/user/ranna +(7:54:56 PM) someguy: I don't know why I added you now...o.o +(7:55:12 PM) Drab Makyo: Oh well :o) +(7:55:19 PM) someguy: Hmm... +(7:55:24 PM) someguy: Musta been SOMETHING you did. +[...]
+Wow.. uh.. thanks. c.
+ Expand all +Wish I were this talented:
+Today. I talked at Ryan for a while, then realized I was being a FREAKING JERK after he left. Then I invited Moondiggetydawg over for dindin, and my mom took us out to D'Napoli. Afterwards, we hid in the basement for a good long time trying to be quiet or something. When he went home, I returned to being a recluse.
+I have an idea for a sort of comic thingy. It's called 'Senioritis' and features, so far, me (as Ranna), Ryan (as Floof), Shannon (as EL), Kiran (as himself), and Matt D. (as Collins). I'm doing it in a real brief style so far (Androo should know what I mean, since he has my drawings; the fox saying 'NONE of your SASS' is basically the design for myself). I don't think there'll be a plot, just a bunch of hating school and random jokes. One sketch I have so far is of me yelling 'SWEET JESUS! What the fuck is up with gravity today?' and a vignette with Shannon's quote about me falling off the ground and Brunching's quote about shitting Jesuseseses.
+They won't all be as self centered, really. And I swear I'll get more characters, like Nicku, Androovoop, some teachers (I'm picturing Revier with a permanent anger-squiggle above his head) and maybe some others outside of Seniordom like Moondoggy and maybe some parents. Oh, to note, only those who identify as furs are furs. Thus, Kiran and Collins are humans. Well, Kiran is, Collins is a glorified stick figure ^
+ Expand all +TORNADOES EVERYWHERE WAAAAAAAGH! RUN, YOU FOOLS
+ Expand all +I do what I want! This must be shared.
+RMFC was pretty awesome, and now I want to move down to Denver.
+Glad I went home early, though, 'cause Ryan and Merry (plus kids and dog) showed up that evening! Handfasting's gonna take place on Wednesday, looks like.
+Still need to clean some and bottle mead, though
+ Expand all +Dunno your email :o) Anyway, congee party is gonna have to move to either Tuesday or Thursday or Friday. Let me know what works for you
+ Expand all +Really sort of torn up about all this, and I can feel all sorts of defense mechanisms rising to the fight without my approval :| Hopefully I'll get over it by tomorrow.
+Shanerak broke things off about a week ago. Pretty torn up about it, to be honest, despite pretending otherwise, and I'm spending all my time fighting down all sorts of illogical defense mechanisms. Truth is, I suppose I saw it coming, but that doesn't make it any less heartbreaking.
+Oh well.
+Gonna need a roommate coming up here at the end of summer, starting about August or so, but for now, I need to focus on Ryan and Merry and the kids
+ Expand all +<img src="http://makyo.drab-makyo.com/handfasting.jpg"/
+ Expand all +The handfasting was a blast, and the reception was amazing. Lots of delicious food and good people.
+Here are some more pictures.</a
+ Expand all +Someone go ahead and buy me this. :D:D:D:
+ Expand all +Dude.. what kind of FREAK inks a COMIC with a DIP-PEN?! Mmm.. cursive tip.. pointy..
+In other news, my stomach still hates me X
+ Expand all +Just sent Ryan+Merry+kids+dog on their way. It was really nice seeing the couple again and getting to meet the kids. I think I'm pretty okay with being 'Uncle Matt' for a while :o) Should give me some time to work through some personal issues now, though. On the relationship front, I've got a whole host of defense mechanisms cropping up that I need to be careful of; I'm trying not to rebound on anyone too much and doing my level best to not place blame where it doesn't belong. Also really need to not get all overwhelmed in it all - I still have a degree to finish, hopefully in one school year, and a company to start, not to mention several thousand dollars of debt to pay off.
+Hard to 'just be positive' on two hours of sleep, I guess :o
+ Expand all +First of all, let me begin by saying that all that I say is pure in intention - I tried to be sarcastic in order to get along better with you, and none of what I say is meant to be sarcastic now.
+I have to admit that I'm really pretty angry about this whole thing. It certainly came at a bad time, what with the stress of school, work, money, the handfasting, so on and so forth. However, please picture this from my point of view: while I knew that things were not going as well as planned, I left Tampa thinking that it would just be another speedbump to get over, what with us going so fast. That day, you told me that things hadn't been as you had imagined since we got back together. One week later, Jill posted that she had someone she liked and that it was mutual. Since she had originally made such a fuss about how I would take to her feelings about you, and since you had already discussed such with me, I think it's understandable that I be a little angry at the both of you, since it appears to me that you had just waited until dropping me in order to both feel secure for your feelings in each other. This is why I brought up Rynden and Ty; in both of those instances, it seemed to me that you were dovetailing relationships - not waiting until one relationship was over before starting another.
+This has me pretty frustrated at you and Jill both, but I don't mean to place blame, however much my subconscious would love to. I'm certainly guilty of doing much the same thing - after all, I didn't admit to Tyson, the Texas mink, until November of last year or so that I was going out with you, though we had already split up, and I'm sure you remember the fiasco with Merlin when we first got together. None of this is anyone's fault but distance, and again, I'm hardly placing blame. I just feel a need to tell you how I feel, and I hope you understand that. I'm not asking for you back, since we've pretty effectively proved that that's not going to work; just that I need to sort this out with you, and I'm too ashamed to do it over the phone, or even over IM. It's just another one of those defense mechanisms. Remember when I got really depressed back in highschool and you threatened to break up with me? I feel sort of like I did then - hell, I was even tempted to commit suicide, something even my subconscious admits is pretty stupid - but things are different now. Not only are we both more mature and I can attempt to describe how I really feel, but I don't have to worry about acting in the best interest of 'us' anymore, and I can say what I mean without layers of sarcasm and innuendo.
+Anyhow, I have to say that I really don't care whether or not you and Jill are dating, I still feel that I should be able to wish you both luck, whether in relationships or even just figuring things out. I love you enough and respect her enough to be allowed to do that, I think.
+~ Mat
+ Expand all +Wish I had some sort of artistic outlet for all this that worked worth a damn.
+Some artists identify so closely with their own work that were they to cease producing, they fear they would be nothing - that they would cease existingExpand all +
Dreamt that I was in ninth grade, had a ferret that kept biting me, and watched an overly dramatic performance of Rite of Spring that sounded like something else entirely.
+First time I've remembered a dream in a while
+ Expand all +If you gave me the flu, I'mma have to kick your ass :|
+Maybe I can skip out on stringing cable, though. :
+ Expand all +Slept all day, waking up every two hours after having the same dream over and over again. Jesus
+ Expand all +Still looking at pistols because, hey, I'm still a dork :D
+More knowledgeable folk should let me know what they think (likely 9mm where available):
+http://www.magnumresearch.com/Baby_Eagle.asp
+http://www.hecklerkoch-usa.com/usp_general.html
+http://www.hecklerkoch-usa.com/mark23_general.html
+Not going to buy anything for a while yet, since this is likely just another phase, but it's neat to research. Just peeking at something a little stronger than the .22-lr guns
+ Expand all +Got to shoot not only the Ruger I want, but also the Buck Mark I want, as well as Ryan's old 9mm Kel-Tec and a bunch of neato rifles. A 10-22, a 30-30, a 22 thing, and a muzzle-loader. Besides bibles, we shot clay targets, 2-liter bottles of water, phone books, and an old camera lens I brought
+ Expand all +Think I changed my mind on the Ruger Mk. III - the Mk. II sounds like the way to go, being a little more mature of a pistol while the former has that mature pistol as a base with some more immature, lawyer pleasing additions. After having shot James' Buck Mark, I think I can say that the Ruger will be my first choice, should I purchase anything down the road. I liked the Buck Mark, too, just not as much - not fond of the magazine release on the side of the trigger guard (and that's standard, unfortunate for me), the Ruger's bolt was easier to pull with the 'ears', where as the Buck Mark was closer to operating a slide, and the Ruger just felt a little more solid all around.
+Still peeking about at other pistols, but nothing so decisive on that front. Kinda digging the .22s, rifle-wise. Ruger (again) has some nifty semi-auto .22s with rotary magazines. Haven't read any reviews, they just look neat :D I did better with the 10/22 and the single-shot .22 (falling-block action, I think? James?) yesterday than any of the other guns, which seemed mis-sighted or something, though the wind stayed up around attempt-to-divest-Matt-of-clothing force throughout the entire time, so that might've been why both .22 pistols seemed like they needed such heavy correction. While I started to get used to the DAO trigger on the Kel-Tec, I still could only aim in a general sort of POINT THIS WAY sort of way with it, so I don't know if I hit anything, and the 30-30 'cannon' was a bit much for me, sitting down like I was; James blew a pretty solid hole through a phonebook with it, though! Who knows what happened with the muzzle-loader :D I guess long story short, I don't do well with much recoil.
+Must've shot 300-400 rounds of .22, 20 rounds of 30-30, almost 75 of 9mm, and four shots on the powder rifle
+ Expand all +Diggin' the looks of various Kimber pistols (rowr), though the price is pretty friggin' high for most of them.
+Oh well, maybe I'll win the lottery one of these days. 9.
+ Expand all +Weif, I'm a freak. Showed off my comicness today and annoyed people, inked it just nowish.
+Got sheet music (Three Flower Songs) and a video in the mail (the PBS thing on string theory. Should show it to Shannon). Every time I fall the ground tells me I'm in love.
+And now, Dead Can Dance.
+Sota mono tratao no trateja mon +uto traja satija totaja tom +ima toja satao no trateja mon +uto traja satija tom, satija tom +sadom sadom +sadom sadom
+Una torti sadom +Una parki sadom
+Suta mono tratao na trateja ton +uto traja satija totaja ton +Ima toja satao uno trateja ton +uto traja satija tom, satija tom +sadom sadom +sadom, sadom
+Una torti sadom +Una parki sado
+ Expand all +O, on the Volga walks the lonely beggar, +Walks the Heavenly wanderer of the plains, +The Lord shows him his fist, +But to him it's all laughter--in the fist there is cocaine. +And down the Volga--a Golden Hoard, +And up the Volga--women look on the shore. +O, the well water--water of life, +Take my blood, o great snows, +How the winter made peace, with iron and cold, +It brought peace, but then turned into Spring. +How the snow will melt, oh what will be then, +And whne the ice moves, oh what will be with me... +And it is just the Volga flooding, not teh World Flood, +Or maybe the Lord is covering his tracks, +But I no longer care--I am almost ready, +Ready to sing to you from under the water; +And from under the water, sing the churchbells, +And from under the wall, blinding light. +Take away my sins, with your wing, +Take away my sins--why are you quiet? +So burn, you Seraph, golden winged- +Burn, don't be ashamed, be a guiding star. +I don't care--I lost the reins, +And there is no more paths, only with you. +So this is our life--Either there, or Here, +Either in teh field, death, or in your head, Savior. +I left so I could walk to the beginning of things, +But I drank and I fell--this is the whole book. +And teh ravens are quiet, and the ladies scream, +Either as dark wolves, or as liht sisters... +Either saving famine, or a saving poison, +Can you hear me, I knock--open up! +So give us to angels, or count us beasts, +Just don't be quiet, I cannot live without fire. +And,m wherever I walk, I knock at your doors, +So, Lord of mine, save me!
+The Kimbers are $150 less than MSRP at Jensen's.
+:
+ Expand all +Got phone service switched over today. Friggin' SWEET. Actually, it was pretty stupid.
+Please don't text me
+ Expand all +Makyo's got a gun :D:D:D:D:D:D:
+ Expand all +And so many wrong ways c.c
+After a week of near constant heartburn interspersed with bouts of extreme dizziness and occasional nausea, I'm heading into the health center to see what's up. They freaked me out, saying I had to pay an $85 'health fee', until I found out that that was only if I wanted 'free' health care. Instead, I think I'll just pay the insurance's $20 copay :oP
+Wish me luck
+ Expand all +Appointment went well enough. The doctor was pretty amazing - he talked to me rather like an equal and didn't really dumb anything down, even moving around to sit next to me when he described blood-test results (fine). I guess I have pre-ulcer symptoms and need to cut down on caffeine, which makes sense, and NSAIDs like ibuprofen, which is my standard go-to painkiller. So I got some generic Zantac-150 to help train my stomach to produce less acid for the next month or so, and a suggestion to get some Mylanta or whatever.
+On the other hand, because I didn't pay the $85 fee, insurance is refusing to cover the cost of the visit, but will still cover the blood test ($18) and prescription ($16) ?.? However, since the visit was a $50 consult, which is still less than that stupid fee.. who cares? Jesus.. what a stupid program. All the front-desk people were bitches about it, too, like they thought I was just INSANE for not paying the $85 fee. They don't get a commission, why do they care? :oP If this insurance didn't get me free health care period during the semester, I'd go with some company that's a little easier to work with :o
+ Expand all +1 cup pineapple juice +1/2 cup plain yogurt +1 whole egg.
+Blend.
+Drink :o
+ Expand all +Ryannon (Ryan, Shannon :oP), are we taking you to dinner on prom night, or are you two gonna handle that? I'm thinking either The Med or Nabil's..
+Also, a reminder to the Jackal and the Voop, I won't be getting out of school until 6-6:30ish, so we'd be getting to group late. If you want to definately ge there for artshare, you might want to cop a ride from someone else
+ Expand all +In no particular order...
+• Ruger Mk. II +• Kimber (+ .22 LR conversion kit) +• Fiddly pistol (Makarov, H&K USP, Taurus 99?) +• Hunting/Target rifle (with scope; .223 rem, .243 rem, .308 win, .30-30, .30-06? Remington Model 700?) +• Surplus Rifle (AK, Mauser, Mosin-Nagant?) +• Plinking rifle (with scope? Marlin Model 60, Ruger 10/22, .17 HMR?)
+Boldface = new :3
+In other news, I filled a graph with herbs/flavors based on the temperature/humidity/color index I use for constructing dishes. I'll figure out some way to post it
+ Expand all +Put about 8 slug rounds through the shotgun, as well as about 15 rounds of shot. Also got to shoot James' shotgun, his .30-30 with a new scope (which was pulling his cast bullets, whoops), and a Romanian surplus .22 practice rifle. And his new 9mm Taurus PT99, which was suitably amazing, especially for $250. Think I'm gonna get a Kimber sooooon :
+ Expand all +From Thursday, more on Flickr.<br clear="all"/
+ Expand all +An old beater Marlin Model 60 for plinking when
So, since I'm fairly decided on a pistol (gonna try a .45ACP gun soon to see if recoil will be a problem), I've started looking at rifles (bad idea, I know..) The more I look, the more interested in .243 Win/.243 AI for an adequate mix of punch and accuracy, should I decide to either get into match shooting or hunting (which I may - I mean, hey, not only local food, but I did it myself :oP), though I'm not discounting the various .30 caliber rounds. The question on my mind is what to get, though. Part of me would really like a falling-block style single-shot, but another part thinks a bolt action would be perfectly adequate.
+This is all rambling, of course. If I do get a centerfire rifle before 2009, it'll be a surplus gun, unless I come across an incredible deal somewhere. I plan on waiting mostly to make more money :
+ Expand all +
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+My internet keeps closing and shows a "debug" or close window. Any ideas?
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+Maybe one of these days they'll implement a required computer literacy course for employees. Or maybe English literacy. It's not uncommon for us to get requests such as "the internet is in arabic help!!!
+ Expand all +So for those of you who weren't privvy to my venting, I'm dealing with a good bit of homophobia at work. Usually, I just ignore it - the idea is that my sexuality has nothing to do with my work, until it starts to interfere with my work, and it's getting to the point where I can barely look my boss in the face, with all of the goofy, nasty, or even hateful things he says (usually about the building proctor, who is openly gay). Basically, it's starting to interfere with my work because I'm so uncomfortable around my boss and coworkers when they joke about that. I've been asking everyone's opinion, including that of the GLBT Student Services director, whose job it is to deal with this sort of thing, but other opinions would certainly be helpful!
+I should add that it really is all joking and commentary - my boss has completely revolutionized the way the workplace runs for the better in every other way, so I'm loathe to get him fired, or even disciplined. Rather, I'm looking for a more personal, one on one solution
+ Expand all +Shooting at the Grasslands again today. About 80 rounds through the Model 60, worked like a charm. Pretty accurate, too, until I almost lost the rear sight blade :3 First time shooting a revolver, too; not as bad as I thought it'd be
+ Expand all +First Semester | Second Semester |
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American Lit. & Comp. Roitz | American Lit. & Comp. Roitz, Carla |
Issues in Health Briggs, MaryAnn | +Free |
Music Theory 1 Keller, Jim | Free |
Latin 2 Gibert, Lynn | Latin 2 Gibert, Lynn |
Festival Choir Revier, Ron | Festival Choir Revier, Ron |
Chemistry Coon, ??? | Chemistry Coon, ??? |
Algebra 2 Fick, ??? | Algebra 2 Fick, ??? |
Regional World History Carter, ??? | Regional World History Carter, ??? |
52 choir pictures scanned, and a bunch of Senioritis.
+In other news, I feel like a table. Go ahead and put s'more stuff on me. Maybe I'll break
+ Expand all +Something's really wrong with this summer, so far. Everything seems to just be going to hell for just about everyone.
+Here's to things looking up, soon :o
+ Expand all +
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Matt's R&D/Student coworker: Yeah, I make $xx.xx an hour. +Matt: Holy crap, I make $x.xx an hour! Maybe I should seek some sort of lateral move to R&D! +Matt's boss: Better get to work on suppressing your gag reflex, and maybe get some knee pads. +Matt: ... D
+ Expand all +Wound up with guns yesterday, finally got the photos up :3
+Ruger Mk III, blued, with a 6" barrel. It was the last one they had, so I got a wee discount, possibly because it was the case model. A whole separate gun for less than the .22LR kit for the Kimber I was looking to get :3 +
+Mosin-Nagant 1891/30 with bayonet. Cheap rifle, coated in cosmoline. It's cleaning up nice, though - the stock's actually really nice wood, though it'll need to be refinished - and as a consequence, my whole apartment smells like Hoppe's, and my hands are raw from old grease. +
+A Kimber is likely still in the works soon, depending on monies, but these little toys should keep me sated quite nicely.
+Even Kitty's happy :3 +</a
+ Expand all +Having some troubles with Iceweasel/Firefox, now that it's upgraded to 3.0. Seems to be a problem with rendering certain stylesheets, but who knows... Probably have to click through to see the larger version.<br clear="all"/
+ Expand all +100 rounds through the new Ruger, 20 through the Nagant. No problems at all. Accuracy was hard to determine with the wind being what it was, but the Ruger did plenty fine; of the two types of surplus ammo for the Nagant, the steel-casings did better than the brass. The Ruger's still toight as a toigah, dissassembly-wise, and it may take another couple hundred rounds before I don't have to use my hammer's wood handle to get the receiver/barrel on and off the grip :o
+ Expand all +Another 100 through the Ruger, with only one weird problem, probably due to ammo (misfire, FTE). About 60 through the Nagant, including a bunch at two 4'x4' pieces of plywood, one at about 120 yards and one at 300 yards. Same targets with the Marlin .22 - we had to wait after each shot for almost a second before it would hit near the 300 yard target :D It was pretty accurate, though, and I busted a 6"x6" piece of ceramic tile at 120 yards
+ Expand all +A+ amazing :D
+EDIT: Cooooosmoooooliiiiiiiine! D
+ Expand all +While I'm fairly accurate with the Nagant, I have two problems with it: the length of pull (distance between the trigger and butt-plate) is too short, and the comb (the top of the stock, where you rest your cheek) is too low and angled downwards. I fixed the first problem with a recoil absorber pad, and the second with an elastic ammo sleeve with a folded up piece of cloth under it. My goal was to fix these problems without modifying the rifle, in case I want to display it.
+ Of course, I still have lots of cleaning to do before it's display worthy - this is about 20 patches worth of just the inside of the barrel, after doing 30 last night. Cosmo D:<br clear="all"/
So, it looks like I'm getting a Kimber sometime soon, so for all you CO folks wot like guns, who would be interested and able to come to a wee bit of a party on Saturday, July 26 at the FoCo Grasslands?
+Details: +- Matt may make food, but no promises +- Recommended cover price will be bringing your own box of .45 ACP if you want to shoot, however much you want. We'll pool it so everyone gets to shoot some at least. Look carefully: .45 ACP. Not .45 Colt or .45 GAP. .45 ACP, sometimes called .45 Auto. I strongly suggest getting hardball FMJ rounds, as hollow-points seem to be prone to misfeeding in the break-in period. +- Matt also has a few .22s and a Nagant he can bring. and if y'all want to bring your own guns, that's cool, too - bring your own ammo.
+Let me know what y'all think
+ Expand all +A grade A pain in the ass, a liar, a cheat, an elitist, and a domineering bitch, but mostly, a naive little girl who doesn't know a damned thing about love
+ Expand all +There are some pretty brilliant composers out there. I've now got four signed on (plus myself) to be published under my company (and to think, all I have advertising it is a single-page website).
+Unfortunately, been fairly depressed lately, so I haven't even touched the website. No way I'll make it in 14 days :oP I'll have to have a talk with the composers and let them know the site will take a little longer to get things up and running
+ Expand all +...<br clear="all"/
+ Expand all +I've been playing with the Kimber all evening. Got put away, alas, and locked up: I need to have a long conversation with the last of my gin. And some white Russians I know.
+Man, this summer sucks
+ Expand all +I figured it'd be a way to relieve some stress. Relieved more driving out to the grasslands than actually shooting, though :3 Found a bunch of brass for James, some for myself, too. Very shiny Hornady Match-grade .308, which is what I was figuring I'd get my rifle in some day
+ Expand all +Saturday Shooting:
+Will be taking a friend from out of town shooting at the Grasslands plinking range on Saturday the 26th - that's this coming Saturday - if anyone would like to come along! I will be bringing: Marlin Model 60 .22, Mosin-Nagant 1891/30, Ruger Mk. III .22, and Kimber Custom II .45 ACP. If you'd like to shoot my guns, it'd be cool if you brought some ammo for those that you'd like to shoot - we'll pool so that everyone gets a chance, to be sure*. Also, if you'd like, feel free to bring guns and ammo of your own! This will be a fun, informal, safe time for plinking and light target shooting - I have a reactive plinking target borrowed from James, a few 2-liter bottles I can fill with water, and some old, empty computer cases to shoot at farther distances with larger rounds. Don't forget ear- and eye-protection! If you don't have any, Harbor Freight, three blocks away, sells muffs and safety glasses for way cheap.
+Where: Meet at Matt's house (1104 Remington St. #304) in order to consolidate cars and pool out to the grasslands - it's a bit of a drive! +When: Meet at Matt's at about 10:30 to leave by 11. I can make snacks, or you can come fed, but eating while handling lead bullets is generally a Bad Idea, so don't plan on bringing anything to the actual shooting.
+Let me know if you're coming in the comments :3
+Someone screwed up, looks like. And I really wanted to shower ;.
+ Expand all +Also, I was told to spread the glee :3
+
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+ Expand all +GREAT SUCCESS.
+No thanks to you lot :o
+ Expand all +Who shoots up a UU church? D:</a
+ Expand all +Here, have a crappy picture of my handguns, Kimber has new grips.<br clear="all"/
+ Expand all +Pardon me if I seem rather escapist, but I'm just gonna drop the subject. Kelly, I tried, I really did, and I got some gratitude for it, but reposting the conversation wasn't to anyone's benefit, and made me feel just as bad as the original did. Michael, I'm not going to choose sides; I don't feel comfortable in this tizzy. Kindra, maybe there's a way you can salvage my respect for you, but I don't know what it is. Everyone else, I'm out.
+In other news, school still sucks. Failed another math test I thought I did well on. I think I might be last in class rank. Latin has a 200 line poetry test coming up next week. Second half of a history test next week. Speaking of history, I ditched an assembly ("don't drink and drive") and got to Carter's class on time, along with about half of the class, only to find out that the assembly ran 20 minutes late, making it completely obvious who ditched and who didn't. Carter got pissed at the administration.
+I have about 200 pictures to scan this weekend. Joy
+ Expand all +This dose of nightmare-stuff brought to you by
So I've got myself four composers so far, plus myself, for an opening catalog of five composers with about 10-15 pieces among them. This is almost more than I hoped for, considering I advertised with a single-page website, and that's it! The problem I'm having, though, is that I'm getting a lot of very modern music (of the composers, two are college students, two are college professors, and one is a church organist), all of which is pretty difficult, with only two pieces at the level 3 of 5 difficulty, and the rest up at 4 and 5.
+Should I start actively soliciting composers to publish for me? Particularly, composers who I know can write some easier to perform music? Part of me feels pretty awful soliciting anything, but the other part knows I should get over that if I want to be successful.
+Is this the right time to start that
+ Expand all +Well, since last night. In Star Wars Ep. III, one of the Jedi Council (Yoda, or maybe Windu) says, "Only the dark side deals with absolutes."
+Wh-wh-whaaa
+ Expand all +Work: Pre-semester Pharos Vx3 imaging +Business: Getting the website up +Music: Character Dances: a musical diary of all my failed relationships -or- a poor musician's therapy, extended piece for piano (two sketches underway, about 10% total sketched) +Writing: Manifesto (yeah, still working on it), informal experiment in tarot (don't really want to reveal too much, in case it falls flat), NaNoWriMo (got a few ideas) +School: paying for my own tuition. Composition better be worth it
+ Expand all +Afterwards, he relived each day unceasingly
+ Expand all +COMPUTOR EXPIRED: PLEASE PURCHASE ANOTHER.
+Oh well. It was long past time I upgraded, anyway
+ Expand all +2GB RAM +Gigabyte ATX motherboard, open box special +Celeron Conroe-L 1.8GHz low power processor +Arctic Cooling fan/heatsink +Radeon X1650 Pro dual headed video card +Seagate Barracuda 250GB SATA drive +A couple cheapo fans, just in case +(Using the case from Ryan's old box; Thermaltake dealie with PSU and seven(!) fans)
+All came out to $265 or so, which is a pretty good deal, I suppose. I have the old box up and limping with the case open and the PSU lifted out to improve circulation. Works well enough to back up all that I need just in case. If things can be fixed in any reasonable fashion, I may turn it into a back-up box, just run a stripped down Debian installation and only turn it on to back stuff up to it.
+Hodgepodge as it was, it served me well
+ Expand all +Haven't answered one of these myself, but I'm just gross enough to steal it anyway.
+There is at least one person on your friends list that wants to fuck the hell out of you.
+So lets play the Fuck or Pass game.
+The rules are simple.
+If you want to fuck the person who posts this, send him or her a reply saying "I'd Fuck You" But, you have to post this in your journal, in exchange. (Actually, I could care less if you do this)
+And marvel at the replies.
+Comments are screened
+ Expand all +From
$5,000: debt +$8,000: finish my degree +$37,000: life, as it is (rent, food, more efficient car, and the rest to business) +$50,000: into TIAA-CREF, if I could. I don't expect to really make quite enough to retire on from my business
+ Expand all +Moondog Dragon: my mom's asking me wierd questions...
+Moondog Dragon: I can only avaoid questions so long whimper
+Ranna Fox: Like what? o.o
+Moondog Dragon: umm... "so are you and matt thinking about moving in together when you both get jobs"
+Ranna Fox: Yes, I'll keep you in my dorm room, in my bed.
+Moondog Dragon: yay
+Moondog Dragon: my mom wants to know what you're going to CSU for
+Moondog Dragon: your major
+Ranna Fox: Biochemistry, though I may switch to biology education.
+Moondog Dragon: that's spiffy
+Ranna Fox: Yeah. I'd like to teach, but I'm not sure I could deal with the kids, so I'll see how I like biochem.
+Moondog Dragon: ah
+Moondog Dragon: corrupting kids would be fun though
+Ranna Fox: Yeah. Teaching really does appeal to me, but I'm starting to realize how much I hate highschool kids :o)
+Moondog Dragon: lolo
+Moondog Dragon: i think being in high school makes you dislike highschoolers
+Ranna Fox: True..
+Ranna Fox: I kinda want to be a choir director, but I'm not sure.
+Moondog Dragon: oooh
+Moondog Dragon: that would be fun
+Moondog Dragon: I thought you didn't like choir so much though
+Ranna Fox: I love choir, I hate my director like pieces of the sun.
+Moondog Dragon: oh, alright
+Moondog Dragon: i get it
+Ranna Fox: petpetpets Any other questions I can answer? ^^
+Moondog Dragon: hmm...
+Ranna Fox: Truthfully or otherwise.
+Moondog Dragon: hmm, lemme think ^~
+Moondog Dragon: my mom asks "what are you intentions towards me?"
+Ranna Fox: That's.. an odd question.
+Moondog Dragon: i know
+Moondog Dragon: she's looking for an answer, sarcastic or not... you asked if there were more questions, lol
+Ranna Fox: Do I need a goal-oriented action-item, or can I just say 'to be the best person I can be for you'?
+Moondog Dragon: she said that's the perfect answer
+Moondog Dragon: and i agree
+Ranna Fox: Oh, is this a pop quiz? :o)
+Moondog Dragon: yes
+Moondog Dragon: ^^
+Moondog Dragon: is that alright?
+Ranna Fox: Mmhm ^^
+Moondog Dragon: when do you start CSU
+Moondog Dragon: and are you on scholarship(s)?
+Ranna Fox: I start in the fall, and no scholarships. I've been too busy to apply for lengthly ones, and FAFSA didn't like me.
+Moondog Dragon: ^^
+Moondog Dragon: My mom wants to know what you plan on happening when you stay here next weekend?
+Ranna Fox: Do you own Labyrinth?
+Moondog Dragon: yes
+Ranna Fox: I wanna watch it ^^
+Moondog Dragon: kk
+Ranna Fox: Other than that, no plans ^^
+Moondog Dragon: does you mom know you're staying?
+Ranna Fox: Not yet. Haven't had a chance to talk with her since I'm at my dad's.
+Moondog Dragon: ah
+Moondog Dragon: kk
+Ranna Fox: Eep, weird crap in my room./
+Moondog Dragon: like?
+Moondog Dragon: she has another question... "do you want me to go back to college?"
+Ranna Fox: I think it'd be neat . You'd make a good vet. ^^
+Moondog Dragon: aww thank you
+Moondog Dragon: she wants me to be a chemistry major, lol
+Moondog Dragon: i like the vet thing
+Ranna Fox: Why a chem major?
+Moondog Dragon: she said I love it, which I do, and I'm great at it, which I am, and i could help the world a lot by doign it, and she said it's a natural thing for me, which I agree on
+Moondog Dragon: she's full of questions... hope it's not bothering you
+Ranna Fox: I'm having fun ^^
+Moondog Dragon: she wants to know who you think is dominant in our relationship
+Ranna Fox: I'd say the alpha, but actually, we're fairly egalitarian.
+Moondog Dragon: she said that;s a good answer
+Moondog Dragon: she wants to know if you see me as a male or female
+Ranna Fox: Depends on the situation. I think of you as male, but sometimes can't help but see you as female. shrug
+Moondog Dragon: she askes "in which situations do you see her as female and do you see her more and more as female?"
+Ranna Fox: Situations where physical characteristics make it evident, such as moments where your voice gets particularly soprano-esque.
+Moondog Dragon: lol
+Moondog Dragon: and the other half of the question?
+Ranna Fox: As male?
+Moondog Dragon: no...
+Moondog Dragon: do you see her more and more as female?"
+Moondog Dragon: such as as we go along... does it go more male ro female or female to male?
+Ranna Fox: Um.. I really don't pay a whole lot of attention to it, except when it's brought up or made evident, might have to get back to you on that. Sorry for the non-answer..
+Moondog Dragon: it's alright
+Moondog Dragon: she thinks your stalling on the answers, lol
+Ranna Fox: I am, I need time to think c.c
+Moondog Dragon: i know, i told her that, lol
+Moondog Dragon: "do you see yourself as male or female?"
+Ranna Fox: Twisted answer or simple answer?
+Moondog Dragon: "the honest answer"
+Ranna Fox: They're both honest, each in its own way.
+Moondog Dragon: it dostn't matter to her but i want the twisted one
+Ranna Fox: Simple: male.
+Ranna Fox: Twisted: I don't think of having a gender. I'm male by consequence and genetics, but I'm neither masculine nor feminine.
+Moondog Dragon: lol, that's what my mom sais about herself
+Moondog Dragon: ^^
+Moondog Dragon: she asks "what do you think abotu this relationship between her and Samir?"
+Moondog Dragon: no judgement on my part
+Ranna Fox: It's constructive. I can't see anything bad coming of it.
+Moondog Dragon: ^^
+Moondog Dragon: i like that one
+Ranna Fox: Yee ^^
+Moondog Dragon: she asks "are you an only child?"
+Ranna Fox: Yup. I had a stepbrother and two step sisters for.. 11 years.
+Moondog Dragon: she asks "do you know how to quiet your mind?"
+Ranna Fox: Yes, I use a grounding technique from Usui style Reiki.
+Moondog Dragon: ""
+Moondog Dragon: "when you get depressed, do you use it? or do you forget it's a talent?"
+Ranna Fox: It depends on where the depression's coming from. If it's sympathetic or empathetic, it usually helps by quieting it, but if I'm actually depressed, I rarely remember it.
+Moondog Dragon: "do you know what a metaphysision is or how to spell it?"
+Moondog Dragon: lol, neither of us can spell it
+Ranna Fox: Metaphysician.
+Ranna Fox: My guess would be that it's a reiki practitioner.
+Moondog Dragon: thanks for the spelling
+Moondog Dragon: hai hai, that's what my mom is
+Moondog Dragon: "can you create?"
+Ranna Fox: If it's create with a lowercase c, then I suppose so. I can make coffee and such :o) If it's Create, then I'm not sure what you mean.
+Moondog Dragon: "do you believe you create your own reality?"
+Ranna Fox: Within limits, yeah, I suppose I do.
+Moondog Dragon: she said "there are no limits"
+Ranna Fox: Except the ones you put on yourself :o)
+Moondog Dragon: ^^
+Moondog Dragon: "can you close your eyes and invision something and know it's true?"
+Moondog Dragon: "and know that it's going to be?"
+Ranna Fox: Depends again on the limits I place on myself.
+Moondog Dragon: kk
+Moondog Dragon: she said "you're still young, her journey didn't start until she was 43 and studied for 10 years to get to where she is now"
+Ranna Fox: And I've got all the time in the world, so I'm taking steps. The only leap I've taken was getting attuned to 2nd degree Reiki in four hours, and that awoke a stomach ache to end all stomach aches. :o)
+Moondog Dragon: "what do you mean by second level attunement?"
+Moondog Dragon: "are you talking abotu running energy?"
+Ranna Fox: Reiki is a school, divided into three degrees depending on how much you learn, which is based on how ready you are. I was ready for what I had to learn, but practicing the first day lead me to a purge that took place over a few days.
+Ranna Fox: Michael knows about this from my journal thing.
+Moondog Dragon: she said she's out of questions
+Moondog Dragon: do you have any for her? ^^
+Ranna Fox: Did she come to any conclusions about me? :o)
+Moondog Dragon: "being a metaphysican I don't judge, I accept things given to me as information"
+Moondog Dragon: so I'd say no, but she had no bad reastions to any answers ^^
+Ranna Fox: Hehe, everyone has their non-answers.
+Moondog Dragon: ^_^
+Moondog Dragon: i suppose so
+Moondog Dragon: she said that she'll think about
+Moondog Dragon: it
+Ranna Fox: Okie ^^
+Moondog Dragon: do you have any questions for me?
+Ranna Fox: How do you think it went?
+Moondog Dragon: i think it went well
+Moondog Dragon: except I'm all "Q & A" mood now
+Ranna Fox: Hee ^^
+Moondog Dragon: oops, she has one more for you, then she said she's done "what do you honestly think about wendy smoking?"
+Ranna Fox: Hmm.
+Ranna Fox: Still torn between me wanting to say it's up to you and that it's another feature that just makes you all the more 'you'; and the fact that it really is bad for you, and I probably wouldn't be too happy if you got sick 'cause of it..
+Moondog Dragon: "spiritually, do you know what it's used for?"
+Ranna Fox: I have a vague idea of what tobacco itself is used for, but, from what I've read, there's precious little of that in cigarettes. :o)
+Moondog Dragon: "no... smoking is used to hide anger"
+Ranna Fox: I thought you meant traditionally. My bad.
+Moondog Dragon: lol
+Moondog Dragon: she said "I'm not traditional, don't know what normal is and have a hard time talking to 'normal' people, or non-aware people"
+Ranna Fox: Normal is a theme, and themes make good music
Compare and give me your opinion: http://makyo.drab-makyo.com/sib-ly_compare.html
+I'm trying to decide whether or not I want to go through the trouble of using lilypond to publish all of my scores. It would be a little harder on me, but the result seems to be easier to read with a few caveats (the cross-bar tie between measures five and six, the dot collision in measure six, both in the right hand piano part). I spent the day learning the lilypond syntax, and I can do much more with it than with Sibelius
+ Expand all +Two things: the last image shows the CPU cooler that came with the CPU, I switched to the nicer one I bought later (which is in backwards in the middle picture, otherwise the fans would be blowing away from each other); and I had to get a new power supply, too, since the old one seems pretty busticated
+ Expand all +as it stands (probably have to click 'Week' to see it
+ Expand all +Behold! The Mosin-Nagant Sniper(sorta)! Should be fun :3<br clear="all"/
+ Expand all +School and work are taking a lot more time than I anticipated. Sorry I'm not around online and not posting here very much. Still working on all of those projects underway, just not nearly as much. Should calm down soon.
+Classes are okay, nothing great, nothing terrible. The new building is amazing, though, and I feel like I'm actually getting to help in some respects. With our regular replacement cycle of two years at work, we pulled 52 relatively good computers (3GHz, 1G RAM, 40G SATA hard drives, but only two PCI slots, no PCI-E or AGP, so onboard video only). I pulled some strings and initiated some dialogs, and somehow got 19 of those computers, plus 21 fairly decent 17" LCDs, PLUS 10 laptops taken over to the new building. All of those desktops are going in the music composition lab, which I'll be helping to set up. The Music people didn't know about the free equipment transfers, so they're all excited to be getting this stuff for free from the library. There's a whole lot of politics involved, really: campus surplus would have us transfer the machines through them (charging $25 per computer, plus the cost of recycling the current hard drive and buying a new one) and have the music department buy the computers from them afterwards. As the department would be using student tech fees, which bought the computers in the first place, to do this, students would effectively be buying the computers twice. No one in LTS is a fan of that, though, so we do our best to work around that by technically willing the computers to an individual over in the new department. Kinda sneaky, I guess, but worth it.
+I guess that's it, really. x.
+ Expand all +I'm looking for suggestions to get a traditional mediums piece done of my mom's dog, who's getting up there in years. I think it'd be a good sort of present. Looking to have it done and in my hands by October 16th at the earliest, and Christmas at the latest. Anyone have any suggestions for artists
+ Expand all +
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Time once again for you to tell me what you think, this time with piano scores.
+Exhibit A: +Sibelius +Lilypond (source)
+Exhibit B: +Sibelius +Lilypond (source)
+I'm still hung up on this because Lilypond's printed output really does look better to me than Sibelius', which looks anemic. Now that I know what I'm doing, it really doesn't take much longer to transcribe from printed music to Lilypond than it would to Sibelius
+ Expand all +Card will be paid off Monday. Won't be using it again until after it expires in January and I get the next one.
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+ Expand all +Officials: Burglar wakes men with spice rub, sausage whack</a
+ Expand all +This link will be sporadic, so enjoy it while it's up
+ Expand all +And also:
+
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$0.99 single piece sale (3-day weekend? one week? one month?) - sell individual short pieces like art-songs or piano pieces for $0.99. Offer some songs only through this deal?
+Build-your-own songbook - for the price of the songs plus a small fee, combine pieces into a book - make sure LaTeX, PDF combining, and page-numbering are all worked out firs
+ Expand all +Dr. Thiem -
+Dr. Thiem agreed to allow me to take String Techniques by working with one of her graduate students in cello pedagogy since there was a time-conflict with one of my other classes. A time-conflict override requires her action, I have no control over the situation, a fact confirmed by the university Registrar's office. I get an email from her telling me what time the cello pedagogy will be, so I email her back asking her kindly again to help me with the override. She emails me back within the hour to say that she is very unhappy with the fact that I haven't registered for the class yet, and that she expects me to talk to the student secretary of the music building and get her to override me into the class(!!). I explain to her that time-conflict overrides are intended to be done by the teacher, and she replies that she doesn't have access to that part yet. I ask the secretary, who throws a fit about Dr. Thiem, saying that she most certainly does have access, and that if she sends any more students to her (the secretary) for registration, blah blah blah. Basically, I get in trouble for a teacher's incompetence.
+Dr. Asbill -
+Dr. Asbill teaches one of two sections of beginning conducting. I signed up for one section (with the other professor), but we started the first three class periods with the entire class combined. Then, Dr. Asbill, who had barely let the other professor speak more than two or three words per period, simply had us count of 1, 2, 1, 2, and made all the twos go with the other professor and all the ones stay with him. I didn't really think anything of it until Tuesday, when he informed half our class that they weren't registered for his section and that we should do that within the next few days. I tried to register on Wednesday, only to find out that registration had closed, and I found out today that I can still get Dr. Asbil to file a late-registration class change. For $50. Basically, I have to pay for a teacher's incompetence, on top of my $4,000 semester.
+Nice, guys. Real nice
+ Expand all +Posting from my iPod at work over wireless and VPN. This thing is pretty awesome, even if it makes my coworker call me a latte-sippin' Mac user :
+ Expand all +Finally getting all set up :3 Just need all the data drops activated c.c<br clear="all"/
+ Expand all +scan Enter. Alt i e 9 Alt i i tab tab 800 Ctrl+shift+s Shift+tab Shift+tab down up up enter tab right right down down down enter down enter tab 0501-059 tab j enter enter +Repeat.
+ Expand all +Grab the nearest book. Find the 5th sentence on page 23. Append it to the paragraph below. Append your name to the list below of people who have contributed to the paragraph. Post the result to your LJ.
+They also talk of our being guilty of injustice, and their being the victims of an unjustifiable war. Brandy, and Tom got increasingly close-mouthed and sour. Although a certain sense of tripartite society survived down to Christian times, the three classes described in the Eddic poem "Rigdthula" bear little resemblance to Dumezil's three. It is often argued, and still oftener thought, that none but bad men would desire to weaken these salutary beliefs; and there can be nothing wrong, it is thought, in restraining bad men, and prohibiting what only such men would wish to practice. At its nearest point the wall was little more than one league from the City, and that was south-eastward. When he saw Jack Hare jump towards the fire, and the Practical Man brandishing the toasting-fork, Sir Isaac grabbed the strings of gravitational force that bound Jack to his destiny and PULLED--- That's a seventy-four gun privateer, besides. To honour a group of British nobles, treacherously slain at a conference by Hengist's guards, Aurelius decides to erect a great monument near Amesbury. That being so, he did not chortle when he went upstairs. Let stand. This ensures that when the garbage collector runs, it has complete access to the memory in the heap and can perform its tasks safely without the threat of being preempted by another thread. And then you may begin to laugh. The data are stored in Column 1 and renamed "Age." Pull your hand back. I don't remember that any secrets were revealed to me, nor do I remember any avid curiosity on my part to learn something I wasn't supposed to--perhaps I was too young to know what to listen for. You don't remember how awful it is being normal. Highlight the desired state tax table and press Enter. Abraham had now reached a ripe old age, and the LORD had blessed him in every way. This doesn't alter either string, any more than 2+3 alters either 2 or 3. And I will say firmly that it is the author who says, "One does feel," who is really an egoist; and the author who says, "I believe," who is not an egoist. The police have agreed to let us show this video. She was particularly fond of Union Maj. Joseph Willard, some years her senior, who courted her amid the competitive field of Blue and Gray. And he rose up that night, and took his two wives, and his two womanservants, and his eleven sons, and passed over the ford Jabbok. Nonetheless I am surprised to see the amount my week's worth of toil has actually brought me. "How Noble," the Reverend Mother sneered.
+1) Ranger Rick 2) Rialian 3) Elenbarathi 4) Starsandfishes 5) Echthros 6) Doltaghey 7) Ebonhost 8) Tibicina 9) Browngirl 10) ceo 11) roozle 12) quietann 13) Dale (achinhibitor) 14) tigerbright 15) autographedcat 16) kitanzi xvii) annonyno חי)thnidu 19) smallship1 20) vashti 21) xydexx 22) Leonard_Arlotte 23) margaras 24) Maky
+ Expand all +So I'm reaching quite a bit :3
+Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!
+Maria, Maria!
+http://www.dailykos.com/story/2008/9/28/203016/697/536/61374
+ Expand all +And yeah..
+ATTENTION
MY CAT SOMETIMES SMELLS LIKE POOP
THAT IS ALL :3<br clear="all"/
I kinda suck at this game
+ Expand all +If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now,(even if we don't speak often or ever) please post a comment with a COMPLETELY MADE UP AND FICTIONAL memory of you and me.
+It can be anything you want - good or bad - BUT IT HAS TO BE FAKE.
+When you're finished, post this little paragraph in your LJ and see what your friends come up with
+ Expand all +Tod is awesome. Like, extremely so.
+ + Expand all +Inked and scanned two new ones. +04 - Sorry if it's unintelligible. Features Mr. Pilot, and his favorite line from FLCL. +05 - Features Moondog. Keep in mind that this is a parody of real life, with only the species changed.
+I'm glad pen nibs only cost a quarter or so, 'cause I wouldn't waste a micron on this ^
+ Expand all +Shopping today, I was almost hit by a car trying to turn in the wrong way down one of those one way parking-lot lanes, so I pointed to the arrow on the ground indicating the lane's one-way-itude. Some guy who witnessed this accosted me on the way in and called FoCo the "Jackass capitol of the west" and implied that I might be the president of such a capitol. Further, he indicated that he would slit his wrists if he was from such a jackass state, and implied that I should do the same.
+I didn't have time to commend him for how well he seems to be fitting in :oP
+In other news, I figured out that Obama backwards is 'I will love' in Latin. Clearly, he's far to intellectual for America, hiding such things in his name
+ Expand all +Can't help it with the Cornelius
+(The conductor, alas, is far from metal
+ Expand all +Jesus.. why do I do these things to myself?
+Anyhow, in my ongoing attempts to ACTUALLY COMPLETE A PIECE OF WRITING, I'm going to try NaNoWriMo again this year, and I'm really working on it, I promise! I have a LaTeX shell that I just need to fill in as I write (though I'll likely write in plain text and just copypasta everything into the shell later, since all the pretty colors of LaTeX are distracting :D), I just got back from the first Meet'n'Greet and I plan on going to as many Write-Ins ans I can (FoCoNaNo-ers are surprisingly like furries, I must say; whether this is good or bad is yet to be decided c.c), and I have an outline that I plan on actually following (last year, my characters got out of control and turned out to be just as boring as I am).
+As for the other projects, I'll likely pick Manifesto up again in December (snow is for spiritualism, I guess), and maybe I'll do the Tarot project over Christmas break, since school and work stole that out from under me pretty efficiently - I even have a volunteer who wants readings done. The problem is I'm good at planning (the novel, Manifesto, and the Tarot project are all completed on paper) but I need to work on completing. Oh well, that's my goal with this mess.
+<img src="http://www.nanowrimo.org/files/main/images/nanowrimo_participant_icon_122x244.gif"/
+ Expand all +If you don't bring Doc's headphones with you next time you come up here, I'm gonna kick your butt :
+ Expand all +(and that's all arts - visual, audio, written...)
+Mihaly Czikszentmihalyi on flow</a
+ Expand all +If anyone's interested in coming to a free choral concert tonight, it's at St. Luke's Episcopal Church at 7:30pm tonight. I don't know what Concert Choir's singing, but Chamber Choir's doing Eric Whitacre's "When David Heard" and Frank Martin's "Mass for Double Choir"
+ Expand all +Dinner plans up in the air. The Med is kind of expensive and full, so maybe The Kitchen or something else.
+ Expand all +Decided to do a few little monologues, short stories, snippets.. whatever in preparation for NaNoWriMo just to get into the writing mood again. Here's the first, non-fiction (sadly).
+Fiction, of course.
++ Who, though I screamed, would hear me among the ranks of angels? + + And even supposing one of them took me suddenly to his breast, + I would perish within his overpowering being. + For the beautiful is right at the margin of terrifying, which we can only just endure. + And we marvel at it so because it holds back in serene disdain and does not destroy us. + Every angel is terrible. ++ +
Woo, mom dragged me to the Obama rally today. It was.. strange. I don't think the organizers were expecting the population of Fort Collins to pile on campus, and so the line wound up being 2.5-3 miles long. Still, it was kinda fun to go, and is probably the closest to a (possible) president I'll ever get
+ Expand all +All of the sudden and with no warning...
+...I now like candy corn. o.o
+<img src="http://makyo.drab-makyo.com/pretties/reds/image030.jpg"/
+ Expand all +I haven't composed more than four or five measures in the past two and a half weeks because upgrading Sibelius took away all the functionality that I actually liked and used in the previous version. I don't know what to do anymore.
+I'd list my options, but I'm now so angry that I can't even type properly
+ Expand all +Hopefully I can keep this up.
+NaNoWriMo.org is so slow the official picture wouldn't load, so...
+For those of you who are reading, sorry about the weird quotes. It's for LaTeX, which differentiates between an open and close quote. I went through and replaced them all last time, but I'm too lazy this time :3
+Sorry for the weird copying issues in the last couple of entries. My bad. I'd start typing in Vim without being in insert mode, and wound up yanking (copying) and pasting paragraphs accidentally. All told, deleting those duplicates brought me down to 9,778 words. I tried to make it up tonight, getting to my old count and writing past that.
+Unfortunately, I don't feel like posting the whole thing twice. Twice, you say? Shameless plug, I say! I got my drupal site running enough to start posting things there, and the 'book' plugin is pretty awesome, so you can see the whole thing at http://drab-makyo.com/node/3
+Or you can just pick up where we last left off. Caution! Matt got sappy, borderline saccharine! Oh, and I wrote about morning wood. Just a forewarning :
+ Expand all +I'm sure y'all are voting anyway, but I have to share this, 'cause... 'cause fuckin' stoats, man...
+Your result for What's your key signature?...
Congratulations, I guess. You’re D Minor, the key that F Major turns to when its lover dumps it. This key is downright depressing, but not in a loud way. This is more the “brooding as you slowly cut yourself in the corner” type of depressing. A member of the totally-real band Spinal tap once said that when D minor begins, “everyone instantly starts weeping." It’s an easy key to play for many instruments, and is quite a nice key for slow jazz ballads, as if you didn’t have enough of the blues.
+So yeah, you’re D Minor, but you probably don’t care. In fact, you were probably expecting this when you started the damn quiz. Pessimism isn’t always the answer, friend!
+SONG EXAMPLE: So What? By Miles Davis (OK, I know it’s actually in D’s Dorian mode, but close the hell enough.)
+INTERESTING TIDBIT:
+* This key is actually fairly easy to rock in if you’re in drop D, but you rarely hear any super punk death metal in D Minor. Odd.
Once again reminded of how much I love biology. Lately, these essays-a-night have been bugging me, but the one due tomorrow is on the immune system. When I found my notes, I had another sort of flashback to learning in class and getting so damned excited at the topic that I was most likely impatient with Ms. Reed for going slow :o) Anyway, I'm quite pleased with my reaction, as I was afraid that I'd have a hard time with bio in college, but with this I can understand how I'll just end up having fun with it. Well, most of it ^
+ Expand all +Cruisin' along. finished the second section of the novel (for those of you following along with the outline, I just finished the 'First theme in the tonic'. At this rate, I'm going to be writing a fairly long book.
+I posted it, but, fair warning, there's some sex in the last 'chapter'. I was tasteful, but it's pretty damn explicit. Sorry about that, but, after so many years of dealing with typefucking on the internet, I feel as though I'm entitled to take some liberties with my novel :D:D:D
+Picking up where I left off.</a
+ Expand all +With yesterday's election I watched several of you celebrate victory and several of you mourn in defeat. For many, the election brought mixed feelings, and I know that I struggle with some of my own. However, my heart ached with despair most when I watched many immediately withdraw into yourselves.
+For those whom the election did not favor, I watched many of you resign yourselves to the decisions of others: some gave way weakly and some backed into their corner with teeth bared, their defeat feeding the fuel of their passive-aggressive response.
+Many of those whom the election favored I watched celebrate, comfortable in your victories. Some of you relaxed as if your work was forever finished, and some of you gloated among your friends or over your opponents.
+However, victors and defeated, I watched nearly all of you stop, and this broke my heart. I was disappointed to watch so many of my dear friends act in a way completely counter not only to democracy in America but to human nature itself. Humanity does not stop, and neither should a government of humanity.
+If you feel loss after this election, please, for me, for you, and for all in this country, do not fall victim to short sightedness in your loss. Mourn, yes, but seek the change, the rights, the laws you were denied, no matter what they are, because our individuality is what most strongly unites us as a people.
+If you are celebrating after this election, please, for humanity's sake, do not stop. Acknowledge your victories, yes, but never let anything stop you from trying to make this a better world no matter how you are able, because our drive to improve is what will make this world great through the ages to come.
+This American election was stressful for us all, Americans and otherwise, but it is just a moment in time, and time will never stop. Let us look back and say that we weathered the surge of politics and moved on, ever seeking to make the world a better place for ourselves, our friends and families, and for everyone in it for eons to come.
+(It's written like a speech because I was going to check out one of the library's MacBooks and make a YouTube video, but someone stole one of them Friday and the police have requested we put a hold on them for a while, so take it in its context.
+ Expand all +24,226.
+That's how far I got last time I did NaNoWriMo the last time, in 2006. And that was my wordcount on the 14th. Makes me feel good to see that here it is, the 5th, and I've already almost reached that number. 45.21% - I'm almost halfway done with the goal.
++(I liked this one, since it makes me look like I wrote way more than I did today, since I didn't update until after midnight last night)
+Finally onto the transition to the second theme: http://drab-makyo.com/node/9 Gonna be a long book at this rate
+ Expand all +I burned the heel of my right palm on the cast iron skillet making steak for myself tonight. I never realized how much that part of my hand moves when I type, especially reaching for the backspace and shift keys until now x.x Oh well, I'm keeping a frozen lump of emu close by so that I can palm it every now and then. The good news is that there are two shift keys and the right shift key on this laptop is going out, so I've been using the left more and more. The bad news is that I almost always use the right shift anyway, since that's what I use normally, only correcting myself after the fact.
+Stupid foxes.
+Anyway, still writing tonight, pain or no. I finished `chapter' fifteen earlier today, which means I'm done with the transition section. On to the second theme, which might be a whole lot more difficult to write. I'm finding that I'm starting to care about my characters' relationship a lot, which.. well, I shan't spoil the rest of the book :o
+ Expand all +28,406 words - 56.81% I've now surpassed my previous effort :D
+I'm getting into the swing of the second theme, two chapters into it now. I'm curious, for those who are reading as I write, do you want me to tell you what the themes represent before I get too deep into the second one, or do you want to guess for yourselves? I had planned on the latter and asking when I got halfway done with the book just to see if I was pulling things off, but I figured I'd see if y'all want to know up front :o)
+Anyway, I left off halfway through chapter sixteen which I finished earlier today, so here's the link to that: http://drab-makyo.com/node/45 I promise I'm not writing a porno, but there's more sex c.c It's part of the plot, I promise
+ Expand all +James came up yesterday, so I took a bit of a writing break. He was out this morning, though, so I got another chapter done. It's posted here: http://drab-makyo.com/node/55
+I'll be writing more this weekend, too be sure, but since I'm at 31,690 words/63.38% I don't feel too bad taking it easy for a day or two :o)
+Watch out, now he's doin' drugs
+ Expand all +Mind.. blank! Agh! @.@
+Edit: Read this instead</a
+ Expand all +35,235 - two more chapters under my belt, and probably two more in this section. The second of the chapters is a total cop out that will likely disappear when I edit, but for now, it's a bunch of words that have something to do with the story, so I'll keep it :D
+Where we left off: http://drab-makyo.com/node/56
+<img src="http://www.nanowrimo.org/NanowrimoUtils/NanowrimoGraph/116254.png"/
+ Expand all +Went to a NaNoWriMo write in today for the hell of it (there now, actually). Friggin' awesome. They gave us goodie bags with little plastic ninjas and buttons and 'Novelist' signs.
+Plus, chai, man. Friggin' chai.
+PS - I think the sound of seventeen people all typing on laptops may be one of the coolest things I've heard in quite a while
+ Expand all +37,610. I was interrupted rather rudely by an IBS attack, so I had to step away from the write in and kneel down around a corner and just sort of rock back and forth like an idiot for a while :| Oh well. 2,375 words tonight is good enough, even though it's only one chapter. More emoooooo. Almost done with this section, then I can write the codetta and finish this whole part of the novel.
++(it occurs to me that these images cache. I really shouldn't use them. BUT THEY'RE SO AWESOME. Ctrl+f5 or Shift+f5 to refresh all cached data. One of the two :o)
+http://drab-makyo.com/node/5
+ Expand all +I feel like crying! It's sad :o)
+Anyway, I slept in until 5:30 on accident, leaving me virtually no time for homework, a good deal of which is due today, and it made me incredibly sad.
+Well, half of me. The other half is irrationably chipper ^
+ Expand all +41,302, woooooo. Also, I'm now done with part 1! Time to figure out how to write the development section :3 This predicts that I'll break 50k in four days :D:D:D:D
+ +http://drab-makyo.com/node/59 More druuuuuuuugs
+ Expand all +This is friggin' awesome (and I don't even like most of that music
+ Expand all +So, I've been conducting an informal study over the past several days and have drawn the following conclusions:
+Just an observation - I've stopped washing my hair in the morning because I look British :D
+(typed on my iPod, sorry for all of the stupid mistakes :oP
+ Expand all +43,013 - 86.02%
++http://drab-makyo.com/node/61
+Got some serious heartburn going o
+ Expand all +I thought a shopping trip would interrupt my writing flow, but I'm not so disappointed now. Vitamin water was on sale for $0.50 per bottle, so I stocked up on that (been looking for something non alcoholic to keep around the house c.c) and got a bunch of fruit, as well. Total score.
+Anyway, I've decided that I'm not sleeping until I break 50,000 words tonight :
+ Expand all +Bang, baby. 11:50 PM, I saved and reached 50,070 words! Now, my laptop's battery is about to die, so I gotta head home and recharge. I'll finish the chapter and post then.
+EDIT: As I was walking home, there were two layers of clouds, moving rapidly in opposite directions. I can only hypothesize that this is due to how awesome I feel. :o) Just got home, will finish chapter now.
+EDITEDIT: Finally! 50,694. I know it's all rambly. Side effect of trying to cram 7,000-some-odd words into such a short time. Where we left off: http://drab-makyo.com/node/6
+ Expand all +First snow of the season. A MONTH LATE. Looks like it'll only leave half an inch or so, which will be gone by 9 tomorrow
+ Expand all +Two days off has made it decidedly difficult to get back into writing.
+Oh well, 52,612 words (52.16% complete, if I'm aiming for 100,000, which is accurate enough), one chapter that probably doesn't make any sense and adds very little to the plot. Hopefully I'll get back into the swing of things.
+http://drab-makyo.com/node/6
+ Expand all +54,478
+http://drab-makyo.com/node/66
+I may update this if I write more later, but I may focus on music instead. Artfox is arted out. And fat! *squish
I'll do your name up all pretty-like if you ask me nicely
+ Expand all +but that's a PDF. It's also on the web: +Here</a
+ Expand all +Before I forget
+http://drab-makyo.com/node/6
+ Expand all +58,634 - http://drab-makyo.com/node/6
+ Expand all +Just something to give me nightmares before bed c.
+ Expand all +My brain has melted out my left ear in protest, but I finally got some of my crazymodern stuff done in lilypond
+http://makyo.drab-makyo.com/documents/Character_Dances--Others.pdf
+Recording: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1722607
+ Expand all +...But I've stalled :| I neglected to plan the middle section, so I don't really know how to finish it off. Still trying
+ Expand all +You know, in general, I try to keep an open mind about things. And I don't mean diversity or anything, though I usually try to keep that in mind as well. My Psychology of Music class has taught me that musical preferences are usually set by ages eighteen to twenty-two, so despite the fact that I'm currently listening - nay, rocking out to a song utilizing extended vocal techniques, pan-triadicism, free atonality, and a narrator, I can dig the fact that some people just like country.
+Not only that, but I understand that there are other disciplines out there besides music. Hell, I started college in biochemistry. I regularly read books, watch lectures, and think thoughts pertaining to fields outside my own in an attempt to keep in touch with the things that I'm still interested in. I do my best to keep myself up to date in copyrights as part of business, but also for fun. I'm interested in computers, nanotechnology, biology, psychology, all that nifty stuff.
+One excellent source for nifty ideas in all of those fields is http://ted.org TEDTalks are short (10-20 minute) lectures on innovative ideas. I highly recommend the site to ANYONE. No matter where your interests lie, there is bound to be something there that will interest you. They even have a free podcast, so every day, I get a brand new lecture on my iPod.
+Recently (a few hours ago) I found a lecture by Evelyn Glennie, a deaf percussionist, on how to listen to the whole body, and how that pertains to music therapy and music education. I mentioned this to an engineer acquaintance of mine as an example, since I had described TEDTalks as "lectures by various people on various good ideas."
+His response was along the lines of "Oh, so not really, then. Just soft, good-feeling ideas." He often refers to me as 'soft', which I've always found vaguely insulting, but accepted as a term of endearment. It always seemed to imply that I wasn't real, that I had no depth, and that the things I did and studied were of no use.
+I countered with "Well, before that, I was watching a segment on designing for the future, including venture capital for carbon nanotubes and preparing for pandemics. And before that, a clip on how research is showing that we perceive scent based on elemental frequencies, as the presenter put it, and how they designed a substitute for coumarin that isn't carcinogenic simply by finding a molecule that influenced scent perception in the same way. So no, not all softer, good feeling things." Which was true enough.
+"Oh, good!" he replied. "Substance! I like substance."
+I disconnected immediately. I was in no mood to explain my emotions at that moment, figuring they'd just be viewed as 'soft, good-feeling things'.
+Usually when I do something like that, I start feeling guilty after a while. I'm pretty good at drama, but I don't relish the thought of invoking it. However, it's been a few hours. I've taken a long bath, eaten a giant glob of peanut butter, and listened to a lot of music. And still, all I can think of are countless rebuttals to this comment. 'Oh, sure, just dismiss all but a small section of human knowledge and experience as insubstantial.' 'Not even my dad was as insulting when I changed my major to music.' 'I personally find music to have a good deal of substance, and since I know you don't suffer from amusia, I'm assuming you do as well. You're not a liar, are you?'
+These aren't really constructive, though. So:
+• Merry, I find radiology to be insufferably boring. +• Ryan and James (and Merry and Kiran and myself and...), I don't think guns are worth all this fuss. +• Herefox. Painting, huh? +• Rikoshi, writing is a soft art. Clearly not worth it.
+Defend yourselves*, and in the process, teach me how to defend myself! I get this, though rarely this blatant, about once a week, and I need to know how to convince people that music is a legitimate, substantial endeavor worth pursuing in today's world, because honestly? I'm getting sick of this.
+:|
Rifles (left to right) Ruger No. 1 in .25-06 (3-9x Leupold scope); T/C Encore in .243 (6x Bushnell Scope Chief); Mosin-Nagant in 7.62x54R; Marlin Model 60 in .22LR; Browning BPS in 20 Ga.
Pistols (left to right): Kimber Custom II in .45acp; Ruger Mk. III 6" barrel in .22LR
+:
Yap!
+Just got my pictures today in the mail.
+Tod's amazing :
+ Expand all +Dear Sir or Madam:
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+Nothing in this letter shall serve as a waiver of any rights or remedies of Paramount with respect to the alleged infringement, all of which are expressly reserved. Should you need to contact me, I may be reached at the below address.
+Regards,
+Mark Ishikawa +Chief Executive Officer +BayTSP, Inc. +PO Box 1314 +Los Gatos, CA 9503
+ Expand all +Everything is hunky-dory-ish. :D:D:D:D:D:D D
+ Expand all +Labyrinth + Mugwort and Catnip tea lead to me dreaming about David Bowie being my choir director and some odd group (it had Tim Schiesswohl in it, who isn't actually in choir) rehearsing lying down on the stage naked.
+Anyway, yesterday: I had my speech in public speaking. It went pretty well. My 'opponent' ended up proving my point in a round about way, but she still did well. I think, for doing my outline a few hours previous, I did pretty well, too ^^ I didn't lose anyone on the oppinion polls. After that.. um.. Carter.. nothing exciting. Went home for lunch alone (I waited.. c.c) and put in eyedrops before my eyes got too bloodshot and itchy (which they did anyway) and also printed out my poem for creative writing. Latin was actually pretty cool. Sort of. Got out early and went to Wendy's for fries. Creative Writing, MissDoo's hatred grows.
+Last night, I wish I had been able to talk to teh Moondoggy s'more, but my mom stole the computer and I went to bed. Oh yeah, before that was Labyrinth and tea. So.. here I am ^
+ Expand all +Made it all the way through the day, then got all emotional when I got home. Oh well. Walked a couple miles, went to a bar a block from my house, and ate the most decadent thing I could find. I had a glass of scotch, mushroom tortellini in a white porcini sauce with truffle oil, and a glass of wine (by the way, wine folk, I finally understand why you pair wine with food), all for fairly cheap. I think I've gotten over all that mess, though it was likely more the walk than the consumerism, though those tortellini were really good :
+ Expand all +Over break, I watched a bunch of TEDTalks and finally got around to watching the one by Al Gore on climate change. On a whim, I decided to see what all the hype was about with An Inconvenient Truth and found a torrent of it. With the school's connection, such things usually finish in a few hours, overnight at the longest. However, I forgot to turn the torrent off.
+Come Monday, my network admin gets an email from the head ACNS guy, a forwarded cease-and-desist letter from BayTSP, the company that researches infringements for copyright holders, including Paramount, who produced An Inconvenient Truth. Now, due to the fact that just about everyone has been screwing up with scheduling this semester for the next, I took the day off work to make my rounds and berate people into getting me the classes I need. Unfortunately, this email came at about three in the afternoon, and I was in choir, where I didn't get any wi-fi reception. After choir was a cello lesson, and after that, dinner with John. So I didn't get the email from my boss ("Matt, get your ass in here right now. I've unplugged both your computers. Is it your windows or linux box?") until I was just getting to bed.
+I freaked out. I ran to work at eleven since the building closes at midnight, turned both computers off, plugged in the network cables, then turned the Windows box back on so that I could reimage the linux box, effectively replacing most everything on the hard-drive with the bloated staff image.
+I was worried because a copyright infringement suit would be a good reason for composers not to trust me to publish their copyrighted works. Not only that, but it would also be good reason for me to get fired, me to get dismissed from the university, and for me to lose a whole lot of money. At least this wasn't a lawsuit, just a take-down notification.
+Anyway, I got back into work the next day, planning on what I would do if I got fired. My boss pulled me aside and told me that everything would be okay, that I wasn't getting fired, but that if I did it again, not only would I be fired, but he would personally kick my ass. The network admin told me just about the same thing. I was told that it was technically untraceable to me and that no litigation would be filed because it was fairly untraceable. And then we got to work as normal.
+This was the first thing I had downloaded in months, almost a year. I think the last thing I got was BSG season 3. And you know? This was a pretty effective deterrent - I think it'll be the last thing I download, too.
+Moral: be careful. They really are keeping an eye on this, and they really will contact you, if nothing else
+ Expand all +Sucks that the first snow of the season didn't come until December, but at least it came. (click through for large, didn't resize well
+ Expand all +Got the white balance all fixed up on this one, too. Huzzah :D<br clear="all"/
+ Expand all +...is James' squib load out of my Encore.
+And a new cleaning rod (snapped), and a new .22 cal jag (bent). And probably a new .243 barrel for the Encore (which may have a new groove)
+ Expand all +http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1777895/ - Concerto for Saxophone Quartet (2nd draft)
+http://www.archive.org/details/CharacterDances - Character Dances for piano (final draft)
+There's some other piddling little things, but nothing even worthy of 'draft'
+ Expand all +Friggin' love work :
+ Expand all +Oh gawd...
+From
STEP ONE +- Make a post (public, friends-locked, filtered... whatever you're comfortable with) to your LJ. The post should contain your list of ten holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV"). The important thing is to make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want. +- If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) can get in touch with you. Your home address is not required! +- Make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ, or link to this post (it'll be public) so that the holiday joy will spread.
+STEP TWO +- Surf around your friends list (or friendsfriends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now, here's the important part. +- If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes one person's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use - or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free - do it. +- You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf - to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not - it's your call. There are no guarantees with this project, and no strings attached. Just... wish, and it might come true. Give and you might receive. You'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.
+1.) Scores! (Frank Martin - Songs of Ariel; Frank Martin - Mass for Double Choir; Lars Johan Werle - Canzone 126 di Francisco Petrarca; Leonard Bernstein - Symphony #3 "Kaddish" choral score; Leonard Bernstein - Chichester Psalms choral score; plus way more that I can't think of right now) +2.) Music! (iTunes monies :3) +3.) Pillows, g'damnit. :3 +4.) A table. Like.. a good, very sturdy work table that can support a 200lb printer, a paper cutter, the like. +5.) Foooood
+(and now that material goods are out of the way...) +6.) Some help in coming up with neat ideas for childrens music +7.) More music to publish +8.) Some help with possibly setting up the company as a non-profit :| +9.) Musical inspiration that doesn't lead to copying c.c +10.) Help sorting through my room to get rid of a bunch of crap
+In other news, I went to the food bank today and got fooooood, finally. Prr :3 Rather awkward collection of people in line there. Don't suppose I helped - red pants and a brown fleece and way too much hair.
+In other, other news, I got a couple pictures of me from a friend. May be helpful somewhere
+ Expand all +Went grocery shopping today 'cause despite going to the food bank yesterday, I was still missing a variety of things - coffee, noodles and sauce, vegetables, etc. Still, I spent $90 at King Soopers, which usually gets me about two weeks worth of food, but this stuff should last me about a month (except for the spinach and milk). If I can cut my food costs in half like this for every month, I think I'll be good!
+In other news, I'm ready to be done with school :
+ Expand all +Poor Kiran :o) I keep getting the feeling that I'm making him uncomfortable 'cause I'm rather physical with friends. I've asked him about it, but he always denies. Oh well. Don't apologize, Kiran, I should if I am making you feel awkward.
+Anyway, yeah. After school, I beat people with my tail for a while, then we all (Ryan, Nicku, Andru, Kiran) decided to go to my house for partaking in Labyrinth, since some had never seen it (it was cheap, so I bought it). We piled, sort of, and I reiki'd Kiran for tummy hurtiness until he squirmed away from my overheated paws. After, there was more piling, some wrestling, and other goofing around while Nicku looked at my Magic cards. Before long, Kiran had called his mom to get picked up, Andrew left for the bus, and Ryan and Nick followed shortly after Kiran was picked up. So here I am. Talking to Li'l Orange Thing.
+Today was cool. Went to talk in health classes about faggotry. Nicki and Constance spoke, too, so we had a grand ould time. Lots of good questions and good responses. In choir, we voted for top senior people, and I was informed by a good number of people that they voted for me. Hmm. Odd. Anyhoo. Nothing special after that, 'cept for leaving Latin to go drink chocolate soy milk with peoples on rampthing.
+P-p-p-p-p-prom! I'm thinking an earlyish dinner and a movie somewhere. Man on Fire and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind have been suggested to me by biology students. Kiran wants to come to dinner and movie, too, but not Prom, so.. yeah. Michael and Ryannon, talk wif me, and we'll work times out that'll work. Also, what should we do about dinner? I'm assuming there's no qualms with the Kitchen or Nabil's..
+ Expand all +the first five people to comment get a doodle of their choosing. in return, they have to post this in their journals.
+This won't be pretty :
+ Expand all +OMIGOSH been ages. This was such a bad idea! :D
+Read more...
+
+Herefox. Dunno why I drew you in a top hat*. But.. crap. Looks so bad :D
+Maybe it's better smaller?
+</details
+ Expand all +The top fifty SF books. Bold the ones you've read, strike the ones you hated, italicize the ones you couldn't get through. Asterisks for the ones you loved - more asterisks, more love. Plus signs for the ones you own.
+hehehehe.. +
+</details
+ Expand all +Just watched Supersize Me and was absolutely disgusted. Just.. gross. In fact, it disgusted me enough that I'm really, really tempted to try an experiment in January: not eat out at all.
+I'm wondering if I can pull it off - everything would have to be made at home, and I could take it to silly little extremes to make it a little more entertaining:
+I'd have to pick up a couple of things just to help myself out. Pasta rollers, ingredients, dish soap and dishwasher detergent, stuff like that. Some more tupperware, sandwich baggies, and plastic wrap would help, too. I can probably borrow my mom's pasta rollers, which would be the biggest expense, but does anybody want to 'sponsor' me with some of the other things? Already got a bunch of food from James. :3
+Also, if this just plain uninteresting, I'll leave it out of here
+ Expand all +Breakfast: 10 Grain Cereal, coffee
+Lunch: Nothing :|
+Dinner: Chicken Saag over rice, water
+Desert: Orangey drink thing
+VBScript sucks. Like, hard-core. I'm not quite sure how something like this can be called an adequate language by any stretch of the imagination. WMI is a good idea, I suppose, but its implementation rather blows.
+Anyway, did my programming. We now have a way to turn the entire public area of the library, including all three labs, off and on remotely. And since all public machines are set to boot to NIC on Wake-On-LAN, that means we can reimage the entire public area as needed from our desktops in the cozy area we live in :D And hey, if we replace computers? There's a script that rebuilds all the WOL scripts, too :o)
+Ship it
+ Expand all +Breakfast: Steel-cut oatmeal, coffee
+Lunch: Leftover Saag
+Dinner: Beef Stroganoff, Corn Bread, mead, brandy, whiskey
+Pff. Where would YOU hang your holster?<br clear="all"/
+ Expand all +Breakfast: Nothing
+Lunch: Omelet
+Dinner: Leftovers
+I was gonna write a big ol' thing on prom, but really it was kinda nothing special. See Ryan's post for details. After promishness, I took people home and headed over to Michael's to pass out. I felt kinda bad about not staying up later, but I was really tired, so.. oh well. We messed around some in the morning and I left kinda confused; mostly just pondering sexuality. I'm feeling really asexual lately.
+
+32. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE YOU SEND THIS TO, TO SEND IT BACK? Send?
+33. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Oranges & Lemons - Soramimi Keeki
+34. LAST THING YOU ATE? Oh jeez.. a six hour old Quarter Pounder with Cheese, microwaved. (I was really hungry, okay? ;.;)
+35. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Sa-Kun, briefly, and Michael before that,
+36. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? Hello.
+37.DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? No, I hate you all. I hate the entire pack, AND Sa-kun. (See #20)
+38. HOW ARE YOU TODAY? Odd. Mostly.
+39. FAVORITE DRINK? Buh.. not Calea tea. Um.. chocolate malt Ovaltine or honey-lemon-ginger-water.
+40. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? It's all pretty gross, but I can do a mellow red wine.
+41. FAVORITE SPORTS? I have to give Curling credit for being interesting.. other than that.. sleeping's a sport, ne?
+42. HAIR COLOR? Dark brown.
+43. EYE COLOR? Depends. Glammour and what I'm wearing may make it vary.
+44. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Nope.
+45. SIBLINGS? No, thanks.
+46. FAVORITE MONTH? May's pretty cool.
+47. FAVORITE FOOD? Food. Just.. food. I like most anything.
+48. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Started watching Neverwhere. Mmm.. Gaiman..
+49. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? Today! Or Beltaine.
+50. ARE YOU SHY WHEN IT COMES TO ASKING SOMEONE OUT? Goodness, yes. But I want to ask some pretty weird people out.
+51. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? M-m-m-m-movies?!
+52. SUMMER OR WINTER? Both!
+53. HUGS OR KISSES? Both!
+54. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? Relationships.
+55. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Whoever wants to.
+56. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Whoever doesn't want to.
+57. HAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING NOW? Ah.. Mikhail Bulgakov - Master and Margarita, Vergil - The Aeneid (latin and english), I forget - The Labyrinth, and a few others.
+58. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Dell / www.dell.com / support.dell.com
+59. FAVORITE BOARD GAME? Cribbage? Or.. um.. some game where you use glass beads and a board with wells drilled into it, and you move the beads around.
+60. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? Neverwhere.
+61. FAVORITE SMELLS? Clooooves, Calea flowers, L'Occitane Amber inscense.
+62. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP? Fuk.. beep.. what.. beeping.. g'damn.. smack alarm clock
+63. SAY ONE THING NICE ABOUT THE PERSON THAT SENT THIS TO YOU: You're all a bunch of losers. I mean.. I love the lot o' ye ^^</lj-cut
Breakfast: Nothing
+Lunch: Leftover saag
+Dinner: Stir-fry
+I'll add more to this later, hopefully. Good stir fry. Late, though
+ Expand all +Hi-Power GET!<br clear="all"/
+ Expand all +Day 5:
+Breakfast: Okonomiyaki
+Lunch: Leftovers
+Dinner: Steak and mashed potatoes
+Day 6:
+Breakfast: Pancakes and sausage
+Lunch: Nothing
+Dinner: Pasta with homemade red sauce and home-made sausage; orange dreamsicle shakes
+James has been over, sorry for slacking on the writing. I'll try to remember how I made all these soon, but I keep forgetting to post until way too late
+ Expand all +http://www.dpmsinc.com/firearms/firearm.aspx?id=18 D:
+D:
+===
+Also, too sick to eat breakfast, made dinner with mom. Roast chicken, string beans, and mashed potatoes. Cranberry "sauce" and poppy-seed cake for dessert. Some good stuff, wish I had the will to post recipes
+ Expand all +Things are still going well. Still eating in, still never have the energy to post about it.
+Only 57.
+ +Every time we get a shipment in, I wind up with a wall separating me from my (very concerned) coworker
+ Expand all +Still alive, promise. Still eating in for the most part, though I've had a few little excursions here and there. I've even been making some interesting stuff, but.. dunno, just fell out of posting. Maybe when I'm done, I'll compile a few recipes and pictures of neat stuff. I've been feeling better for eating in, too, since I use so little oil, grease, and fat (makes me wonder if I have some sort of gall bladder problem c.c).
+Work's been going well enough. I've been doing a lot of scripting and such for the public machines. VB Script still sucks, but WMI and ADSI are alright. They're certainly good ideas, if implemented a little awkwardly (it IS Microsoft, after all). I'm trying for a lateral shift of some sort, so that I'd be working under both R&D and Tech Support. I'd be doing all that I'm doing now, plus a little PHP maintenance, and I'd get a small raise. Got my resume all prepped for that.
+Other than that.. uh.. dunno. I suck at this blogging thing, I guess
+ Expand all +It's pretty rare that I find any of these more than vaguely chuckle-worthy, but this one was just too perfect this morning :o)
+
see more puppies</a
Plus this eventually. :D:D:D
* It will eventually grow up into a big pew pew pew.<br clear="all"/
Feeling really good ^^ Mellow waves of a sort of vague, euphoric love wash over me. It's both directed and undirected, so if I seem rather affectionate tomorrow (big if, it might not last the night), cool. Apologies if it offends.
+Talked to Kory a little bit earlier about the crush I had (have? As nice as it'd be to have other feelings leave when you enter a relationship, it's not always so simple) on him, as well as Jerred, though it was mostly just a discussion on how it related to Shanerak. Silly old me, I ended up sorta edging away from the truth, portraying Shan as an enabler who sort of edged me closer to my crushes. What can I say, I was scared shrug
+I might've seemed angry at Androo earlier tonight, but he was coming off as kinda rude. Sill old me, jumping to conclusions. Anyhoo, I'm in love with the world, so it seems to matter so little now ^
+ Expand all +Built it myself, with help from
Just cleaned, de-primed, sized, and primed my first brass on
Also from this weekend: a bench rest for accuracy and a bipod for when the AR comes of age :D Oh, and a buttstock wrench for ARs, if anyone needs it :o
+ Expand all +Huzzah! Single-stage press - making .308 Winchester, 150 grain Sierra spitzer-boattail, 42 grains of Accurate 2495BR<br clear="all"/
+ Expand all +From
So, I actually got a new job last week. Sort of. There was something of a lateral shift at work and now I have two bosses. My old boss who makes the stupid homophobic jokes, is still my boss when I don't have any work from my new superior, who is actively homophobic, but okay to be around if I just ignore that.
+In the video, the camera follows a hand with a marker as it draws on a wall or giant whiteboard, never lifting the tip of the marker from the surface. Faces and buildings start to show, here and there, and finally, the camera zooms out to show that the artist has combined everything into a giant mural. Anyone seen this video or know where I can find it
+ Expand all +When I moved over to start working for R&D, I figured I would, if nothing else, be less stressed due to not having to fix things for stupid crazy people.
+So much for that idea.
+Time for a beer and furry porn :o
+ Expand all +Socketed.
+Via William Gibson's Pattern Recognition, and his concept of souls in terms of jet lag
+ Expand all +I had a lot of dreams last night, but one seemed to just be packed with people. The weird part was that I had this dream when I dozed off during a snooze-button episode - fifteen minutes. Nevermind the plot, I don't remember, but it contained:
+all packed into some terrible little dinner, which may have been an IHOP. Ohgawd D
+ Expand all +Schoool. Overslept some, but Revier didn't say anything. Went home during second for a shower and a snack. I ended up eating something that made me rather sick, and, though I started feeling slightly better during lunch, I ended up just taking Shannon home and sleeping through sixth and eighth. I made it back to school in time for Chivalry, where we had a really good rehearsal, even if the bases (coughKorycough) wouldn't shut up. During massed choir, I sung and poked at Kory some, then sat on the stage and poked at Jerred. I was gonna give Kory a ride to his car 'cause he's a lazy bum, but he had to stay, so I just drove Shannon home and dumped off some plastic. Just got off the phone with Moondoggy, who sounded half asleep, and now here I am.
+Yesterday was unspectacular except for the lack of sleep. I was late to Chivalry 'cause I forgot it started at 6:45, so Revier yelled at me and I yelled back. After school, I drove home to pick up mail. Got my Salvia (10x extraction, and a free baggie of 5x extraction) and HBWR seeds. Then to coffee with Samir. We talked a lot about everything from Michael to innocence (that file is one I mentioned to Samir; it's not what I remember it being, but some similar ideas and a quote are expressed). After the talk came group, which sucked mightily, so Michael, Samir, Androo, Me, Kelly, and two NVHS kids left for coffee. I left shortly after to go to bed.
+Aaaaand I just forgot to press enter x.x I know I told Michael I was gonna go to bed after a shower, but I got distracted (and spent some money. Damnit..), sorry. Anyway, gonna talk with him Sunday about schtuffs
+ Expand all +Okay,
EDIT:
Spent $712.50 on food today. I purchased fruit and vegetable shares at Grant Family Farms, so every week from June to December, I should receive about ten pounds of vegetables and seven pounds of fruit. It was a big hit on my credit card, but I also won't have to buy much more than milk from the store, since I can get most everything else from the food bank. Hell, I'm thinking I might even get an egg share, then I could probably cut out meat from my diet fairly easily - or at least cut it way down. The list of what I'll be getting over the 26 weeks is impressive, and there's a chance that I'll get even more, since I heard mention of peaches :o9 Since I usually spend between $100 and $200 per month on food anyway, I'm really excited to be getting half a year's worth of food for that price.
+Grant Family Farms, if anyone's interested. Order before the end of the month and you'll get a discount :3 (And if you want, tell them 'Matt Scott' from Fort Collins sent you :D
+ Expand all +Drupal has FAILED ME.
+Spent the last two days marathon-coding my storefront in Python using Django and Gchecky. Fuuuuck. Oh well, proves I can actually do things when I put my mind to it. Gonna take the weekend to myself and finish development and testing, hoping to go live next week.
+EDIT: Dreamhost has also FAILED ME. Oddly enough, my site on DreamhostApps also runs Drupal 9.
+ Expand all +This thing is stupid amounts of fun
+ Expand all +MJS Publishing trade name withdrawal - $10.00 +MJS Services trade name registration - $20.00 +Matthew J. Scott Music Publishing, LLC articles of incorporation - $75.00 +Renewing box 843 - $52.00 +SSL Cert for secure.mjs-svc.com - ~$170.00 (five year term)
+Fuckin' adding up
+ Expand all +Isn't my icon SUPER COOL? Well, the SUPER COOL artist who did the SUPER COOL picture I got the icon from is doing some SUPER COOL icon sale!
+You should totally check it out :3</a
+ Expand all +Where'd all my pretty music go
+ Expand all +Gears for eyes! :D:D:
+ Expand all +Me.
+You.
+A giant self-portrait of you.
+This Friday.
+Ohhh yeeeaaah :
+ Expand all +I'm lazy, I like Modest Mouse, and I like Erowid. That's all I really have to say
+ Expand all +I really hate the person that I've become. I was supposed to meet up with Jerred tonight but he never called. Part of me is glad because I would be embarassed for him to see what I am now after being so close for so long
+ Expand all +You Are An INTP |
You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can. Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge. Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat. A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it. In love, you are an easy person to fall for. But you're not an easy person to stay in love with. Although you are quite flexible, you often come off as aloof or argumentative. At work, you are both a logical and creative thinker. You are great at solving problems. You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor. How you see yourself: Creative, fair, and tough-minded When other people don't get you, they see you as: arrogant, cold, and robotic |
You guys are idiots. Seriously
+ Expand all +Finished Neal Stephenson's Anathem last night. I'm starting to see a formula to his books, but, like Neal Gaiman, it's a good one, and he pulls it off well. While this wasn't my favorite Stephenson book, I enjoyed seeing his writing in a more blatant sci-fi setting (closer to Diamond Age rather than his cyberpunk Snowcrash). I'll have to read it again to really get the whole thing
+ Expand all +I think I want this in black and this in gray, green, or taupe. Dapper foxes should be dapper
+ Expand all +Finally. Took waaaay too long, but now I can convert Sibelius to Lilypond.
+And now, bed x.
+ Expand all +Need a second computer at some point. The problem is that I need a Windows box for the business, but I don't want a Windows box at all. I have a few applications and a device or two that are keeping me tied to this horror of an operating system, and Wine support is running low :oP Wondering if I should see about borrowing one from work..
+ Expand all +Modem died, tech out tomorrow! Hopefully be back then
+ Expand all +Junior recital: at least it's over. Too ashamed of recordings to post them :o
+ Expand all +I've been thinking of some rules for harmonious living. I need input before I, like, make signs or draw up leases for roommates, so let me know. No offense is intended against anyone by these. +1. Everyone must have a job or be actively looking for one.
+I have a strong desire to live with constructive members of society, and this means that if people aren't leaving the house on a daily basis for work or to look for work, they need to be working from home in some capacity. This is not about money, so I don't care if your parents are paying your rent - this is about being a normal person.
+2. The common areas will be cleaned regularly by everyone.
+I don't care about your room*. Honestly. You should see what my closets look like. However, the common areas of the house must be presentable. That is, we need to be able to welcome someone into our house on no notice without having to apologize for anything.
+* NB: see rule #5 and understand that walls and doors don't stop everything +3. The kitchen is a sacred place. See below:
+I know that cooking is a lot of work and a lot of fun. I also know that dishes are a lot of work and no fun at all. However, I will wage religious war on you if you disobey my will in regards to the kitchen. There are decidedly less than 613 rules for you to follow:
+a. cleaning shall take place after every meal; +b. clean dishes may remain in the dishwasher for a maximum of six hours; +c. when feeding everyone, he who cooks shall not clean; +d. there is a place for everything, and everything shall ever be in that place; +e. you are responsible for everything you do. +4. The bathroom is a sacred place. See below:
+As above, prepare for hellfire should you disregard the following:
+a. your shit stinks, guaranteed - you will use the fan; +b. a consequence of bar soap is scum - if you must use it, rings and clogs are your responsibility; +c. the sink, tub, and toilet are not containers, and should accordingly not have your spare facial or head hair/tooth paste/excrement stored in them or their drains; +d. water belongs in the aforementioned non-containers, not the floor; +e. the bathroom is also a public place and the rules above apply. +5. Respect everyone.
+Automatically assume that every action you take in this dwelling will affect everyone else that lives there. I think we can all agree that cleanliness is less offensive than messinessm and there are five senses for you to consider, each as important as the other: raunchy smells, eating others' delicious food, disturbing others' sleep with light and loud nose, and slimy counters or floors are disrespectful. Passive-aggressiveness will happen, to be sure, but part of respect is working problems out when they happen. In order to live well with others, make sure that everything you do takes them into consideration and accept possible compromises you will have to make if something goes awry
+ Expand all +It sucks to hurt people even if it feels like you're doing it out of necessity. I woke up with just barely enough time for a shower and driving over to Michael's, but traffic was against me, so I ended up being 15 or 20 minutes late. We were to talk about some of the stuff that Samir and I had talked about, but didn't get around to it for a few because I'm a wimp. Basically, we ended up putting the relationship on hold. My feeling non-sexual and a little iffy about Michael's sex combined with Michael's feeling quite sexual made things awkward and kinda put a more platonic relationship in doubt. We'll need to talk more, but I'm assuming this means we're just good friends. At least I hope so.
+I'm gonna go lie down for a bit, then get up and do math homework
+ Expand all +Finally, something to show for the past few months. I've got so many half-completed things :o/ Oh well, have fun.
+In other news, I seem to have come down with a big sinus infection, which is what has been messing with me for the past few months. Got a Z-pack and some sprays to snort. :D
+Finally, it's looking more and more as though I'll be helping to a house here pretty soon. We've got three of the four bedrooms filled for sure and some leads on the fourth - anyone else interested, in case things don't pan out? It's in East Fort Collins
+ Expand all +Halfway through Bolt. I've already vomited rainbows, and the cute is starting to hurt :| Gonna make scones~
+In other news, bid on a house today, wooooo. Hopefully we get it. I've got my heart set on it :
+ Expand all +So, along with orchestrating Mirrors for Pierrot ensemble, my other major project for composition was Little Eclogue (link to FA). It's a shitty rendering of a choral piece, and it's still only a rough draft, but I imagine once I get the pacing worked out and rewrite one or two parts, I'll be pretty proud of it. The text is an intriguing poetic dialog from one of my friends, whom I haven't seen in aaaaages.
+And then there's this. Ehehe c.c It's paced wrong, nearly impossible to play, a friggin' MIDI, and my teacher told me to not waste my time on it.. BUT GOD DAMNIT I DID! And it was fun :o) I may have to rewrite it for when CSU gets that crazy Vienna set up and turn it into an electronic-orchestra piece, but until then, I've got competitions to write for
+ Expand all +This is what I'm doing currently at work - GIS stuff for the library so that when people go to search for a book, they'll have a good idea of where it is in the stacks. This is a map of one of the support areas (the one I work in, no less), since we don't have any call-number locations entered.<br clear="all"/
+ Expand all +Exported Tempest into a more listenable format: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/227422
+ Expand all +It's.. it's.. KIRAN!
+It just so happens that, despite the almost completely undocumented state of OpenLayers, the rather messy documentation of MapServer, and the nonsequiturs of QuantumGIS, I still kick ass :
+ Expand all +So, Colorado has this bill that says that every year, state employees will have the final paycheck of the fiscal year deferred to the next year for some accounting BS that was supposed to get the state out of debt. I'm not quite sure how that works, because they make employees skip one month's pay in order to pay them that same amount the next month. This originally applied only to employees with monthly salaries, but someone thought it would be a good idea to tack on hourly employees paid bi-weekly. Like me.
+Now, for some unknown reason, this year it works out to this Friday's paycheck being the last bit of money paid to me until July 1st, which is fucking absurd. I have to start planning trips to the food bank and everything because of this bullshit. I'm pretty pissed, so I went searching for the text of the bill (surprisingly hard to do), and came across this gem:
+SALARIES PAID ON A BI-WEEKLY BASIS FOR THE FOURTEEN-DAY PAY PERIOD PRECEDING THE FIRST FOURTEEN-DAY PAY PERIOD FOR WHICH SALARIES PAID ON A BI-WEEKLY BASIS FOR ANY WORK PERFORMED DURING THE MONTH OF JUNE ARE PAID ON OR AFTER JULY 1 SHALL BE PAID ON THE FIRST WORKING DAY OF JULY.
+...?
+Breaking it down...
++SALARIES PAID ON A BI-WEEKLY BASIS { + FOR THE FOURTEEN-DAY PAY PERIOD PRECEDING { + THE FIRST FOURTEEN-DAY PAY PERIOD FOR WHICH { + SALARIES PAID ON A BI-WEEKLY BASIS { + FOR ANY WORK PERFORMED DURING THE MONTH OF JUNE { + ARE PAID ON OR AFTER JULY 1 +Syntax error -------^ Unexpected token 'are'. + } + } + } + } +} +SHALL BE PAID ON THE FIRST WORKING DAY OF JULY. +^------- Syntax Error: unexpected token 'shall'(V-subjunct.) at start of line. ++ +
Or maybe:
++SALARIES PAID ON A BI-WEEKLY BASIS { + FOR THE FOURTEEN-DAY PAY PERIOD PRECEDING { + THE FIRST FOURTEEN-DAY PAY PERIOD FOR WHICH { + SALARIES PAID ON A BI-WEEKLY BASIS { + FOR ANY WORK PERFORMED DURING THE MONTH OF JUNE + } + ARE PAID ON OR AFTER JULY 1 + } + } + SHALL BE PAID ON THE FIRST WORKING DAY OF JULY. +} + +Segmentation fault. Core dumped. ++ +
Long story short, borrowing money.
+EDIT: Not quite so horrible as I made it out to be - I'll still get paid on the fifth of June, due to paychecks coming two weeks after the end of each pay period. But for someone who's living paycheck to paycheck, a month is quite a long time
+ Expand all +Bike''s messed, I'm torn up, but I'm still alive. I'll have to patch a hole in the wall - I got a little angry
+ Expand all +What a shitty day. When I'm not thinking about yesterday, I'm being tormented by teachers, my inability to deal with inanimate objects, other people's responsiblities, and my own mind messing with me. What I wouldn't give to not have to go back to school right now -.
+ Expand all +Sorry for the short post last night, wasn't really in the mood for typing a whole big thing up.
+James and I were ten miles into an eighteen mile ride when we had to cross one of Fort Collins' many railroad tracks - this one at the bottom of a short hill. I usually do alright crossing this track, but with a lot of gravel on the shoulder, I had to aim for a different crossing. Unfortunately, this part of the crossing had big pothole that I didn't see until too late. With the downhill angle, the corner of the railroad crossing ties, and my speed of about 18 mph, my front wheel was crimped on impact, even with the high pressure tires. I stayed upright for another three feet or so, but the crimped wheel stopped rolling after it got to my breaks and I went over the handlebars. Unfortunately, James was right behind me and crashed right into me when I hit the ground, basically using my kidneys as a jump.
+We both tumbled for a bit, then dragged our bikes off the road. Another biker stopped to ask if we were alright and waited around as we called our friend to come pick us up (John Wright rocks :D). After we got home and John left, I punched a hole in the living room wall. It feels like everything I love doing just ends in disaster, and I was pretty pissed about the crash.
+I've got road rash on a good bit of my left side and my gear is a little scraped, but not too badly, my left knee's freaking out (fingers crossed that it's nothing big), and my lower back hurts like hell whenever I move, but I think my kidneys are alright. James has a little bit of road rash and some muscle in his left shoulder might be torn, so he's in a borrowed sling for a bit. My front wheel is trashed, as is my rear bike light, and James' front wheel is out of true, possibly trashed. Other than that, the bikes seem fine.
+Thanks for all the comments and concern - everything's fine, but I'm still pretty pissed. Oh well, my mom might come up to help me patch the drywall and to possibly get me a new front wheel as an early Christmas present, which should help a lot
+ Expand all +So I've now completed several projects for work in my new position - I modified the library's calendar to use LDAP for authentication and changed things to fit the library's standards; I've researched the possibility of migrating the site to a content management system as well as possibilities for specific systems; I researched and implemented GIS enabling the library; and now I've completed in three days a full library catalog system for a portion of the library that's not kept in the base catalog, including LDAP authentication, searching, checking books out, etc.
+Everyone seems pleased with my progress, but I'm still dissatisfied. For one, the only project to be implemented so far is the calendar. The CMS project was apparently completely and totally unnecessary: not only were they already planning on migrating to a CMS, but they already had a CMS picked out, despite my research and recommendations. The GIS stuff was appreciated by surprisingly few people at first, but has suddenly turned into a committee effort, involving meetings and bureaucracy heretofore unimagined; it will probably be wrested from my hands and outsourced or I'll be forced to change everything to some products that have more buzzwords attached. The catalog was appreciated and will be deployed soon enough, thankfully, but I was forced to work with some undesirable technology which shall remain anonymous to protect myself from flaming. All this, and I'm still making less than entry-level tech-support wages at Hartshorn Health Center, where my friend wound up; and I'm making far less than my coworker in tech support who isn't doing any development. If I don't receive a raise by the end of the fiscal year, I think I'll install Sibelius on my Windows box here and spend my time composing instead of working - I'll work only as much as I get paid :o
+ Expand all +Photos taken during the inspection today. Definitely lots of cosmetic work, but we can deal for the price
+ Expand all +Sera has a thing about sitting in the gun safe. Just a cute picture for the day.<br clear="all"/
+ Expand all +I stumbled across a journal of mine from middle school and high school, and have never been more mortified in my life. Then I reread some LJ stuff, and it just got worse. I would like to apologize to the following people, in chronological order (if you think it's you, it probably is):
+Read more...
+Nick C.
+Matthew D.
+Amanda
+Sarah T.
+Leslie W.
+Michael G.
+Janusz S.
+Ransom C.
+Forest (don't remember the last name)
+Julene H.
+Steven M.
+Matthew
+Daniel J.
+"paranoid_cow"
+"shrimpingoddess"
+Everyone on GovTeen.com
+My dad
+Trent Reznor
+My mom
+Jay K.
+Zach K.
+Marek Y.
+Krista K.
+"Nikkita"
+"Talaer"
+"Yoshi"
+"nothingkat"
+"Merlin"
+"Malson"
+"Matthart"
+"Snout"
+Matthew
+Andrew S.
+Jim C.
+Cullen M.
+Jarred S.
+Kiran K.
+Kory K.
+Kristal A.
+Shannon F.
+Lon M.
+Ryan C.
+"Michael"
+Andy B.
+Charles
+Kevin F.
+Tyson W.
+Osric W.
+Kayla K.
+James C.
+Andrew A.
+Anyone I've left out.
+I'm truly, deeply sorry, and I hope that you'll forgive me for being such a terrible person.
+x.
+ Expand all +I think it's time to dust off the old resume and start searching for a new job. If nothing else, I'd like to have something to bargain with when it comes to demanding a raise next month. After rereading a bunch of a friend's entries from a year or two ago, I just want to say "you aren't paying me enough to do the stuff you're asking me to do" more than ever
+ Expand all +Quite the kerfuffle over the desktop backgrounds they want to push to the public computers. Apparently, there's some turf war going on over who gets to decide this: the public area coordinators, or the marketing team. Unfortunately, the marketing team has won. Here are the proposed desktops (8MB PDF).
+Note that students were not involved at all in the decision making process, nor was anyone with anything beyond a mediocre grasp of Adobe Photoshop asked to help. The only input we got was when we were asked how possible it would be to push news and advertisements to the desktop backgrounds via a PDF. You can trust that that was shot down as quickly as possible, as was anything relating to web pages as the desktop.
+Currently writing a letter to those involved asking why students had no say in the look and feel of student computers. Grr
+ Expand all +I spent the day having responsibilities that aren't mine pushed upon me unwillingly because people can't deal with them themselves. So when I got home today (to a package, yay) and talked with Moondog, I was hardly in the mood for an argument, so I tried everything I could think off to be as reasonable as possible, and now we're in limbo. Everything, that is, except backing down. There's nothing I can do about our current dilema. I've dealt with just dealing with things that make me uncomfortable in relationships in the past, and it almost always lead to disaster, so I stand firm (ha ha) on my current boundry of no sex. However, that just seemed to confuse things as I offered Moondog myself as I was before. I'm trying my hardest to be steadfast, but it's only seeming to make things worse. I wish I knew if I were helping Michael, or hurting him further by doing this. It makes me just want to give up sometimes; curl up, fall asleep, and never wake again
+ Expand all +http://e621.net/post/show/2769
+ Expand all +<img src="http://www.gliffy.com/pubdoc/1745767/L.jpg"/
+ Expand all +o_
+ Expand all +I'm now a homeowner. Awesome. $64k in debt :D
+Here she be. If you want something to do today, come help me pull weeds and such :D:D:
+ Expand all +Omigosh house. Lots and lots of work done on it today after signing my name about fifty billion times. Oh well. Still be a bit until we move in, but I'm excited because the work seems meaningful now that I own the place.
+Edit: Ryan and/or Merry, email me. August nears
+ Expand all +From a call this morning: my uncle and his boyfriend had moved to Florida and ran out of money. They were living in a rented house with no utilities connected. Somehow, they still managed to afford drugs, though, and purchased some pills of some sort, which they crushed and mixed with (probably) hot water in order to inject in between their toes. Both overdosed and died fairly soon after (ten minutes was the quoted number). After the full autopsy, they will likely be cremated and sent.. somewhere. My family wants to keep them together wherever they go, since they were together for something like 20 years, but we need to okay that with the other next-of-kin.
+While I wasn't particularly close to the uncle, and this wasn't much of a surprise due to him having used and abused Heroin since as long as I can remember, I DID look up to him for maintaining a relationship for that long and through all that mess. I'm not surprised by this happening, just.. sad. I don't know, I'm sure I need more time to think about it.
+Anyway, I got my iPhone today :o
+ Expand all ++On Wed, Jul 22, 2009 at 3:30 PM, Donnawrote: +> The story I got from the sheriff's deputy was a bit disjointed, He was +> pretty shaken up by the whole thing and the friends were not being very +> cooperative. P and R and 1 or 2 friends went out to get some +> drugs. P and R crushed the pills and injected them in the car and +> passed out immediately. The friend(s) drove them home and just thought they +> were passed out. They took them into the house and checked on them an hour +> later and found them dead. The friends then freaked out and it took a few +> hours for them to call the police and they kept giving different stories. +> +> The police showed up to what they thought was a crime scene and the dogs +> wouldn't let them near the bodies so they had to call animal control. The +> house didn't have any electricity, the windows were all open and it was full +> of cockroaches and filthy. The police are going to keep trying to find the +> person who sold them the drugs but no one is talking. They are not viewing +> it as homicide because P and R took the drugs willingly. +> +> Thats all the info I have. It would have really helped if they had a will +> so we could have kept their ashes together and known more info about the +> dogs. Without being able to marry or a will, their wishes can't be enforced +> and I am dead certain that P would have wanted his ashes to be with +> R's. They loved each other so much. I'm glad they were together when +> they died and they went very quickly. +> +> +> +> +> +> On Wed, Jul 22, 2009 at 3:06 PM, wrote: +>> +>> Mom, +>> +>> Thanks for letting me know what's going on with the remains and the dogs - +>> I hope things work out with M. +>> +>> When you and H were talking, you mentioned something about a couple of +>> friends; all I knew was that you had received a call. If it's not too much +>> trouble or too weird of a request, what's the story behind what happened? +>> I'm curious for more information because this is affecting me more than I +>> thought it would. It's not that P and I were terribly close, but I did +>> look up to the devotion in his and R's relationship. +>> +>> Love, +>> Matt +>> +>> On Jul 22, 2009 2:51pm, Donna wrote: +>> > Hi Matt, +>> > +>> > +>> > +>> > It was so nice to see you and James yesterday. I'm glad you could make +>> > it. +>> > +>> > +>> > +>> > I talked to R's brother again. They are going to save his ashes +>> > and bury them when his dad dies. I was hoping that P and R could +>> > have their ashes stay together. If they were married, it would not be an +>> > issue. Their insensitivity is upsetting but I keep telling myself that it +>> > is just ashes. +>> > +>> > +>> > +>> > +>> > I talked to the shelter manager where his dogs were taken. Apparently, +>> > the animal control officer was very shaken up by the situation since the +>> > dogs wouldn't leave P and were so protective. They haven't done the +>> > temperment testing yet to determine if they are adoptable because they were +>> > so traumatized, but maybe tomorrow. I gave them P's full name and they +>> > are going to try and find a vet in the area who may have seen the dogs +>> > because they don't even know the dogs' names. I don't think I can take 3 +>> > more dogs. I tried checking on flights down there to check on them myself +>> > but it is pretty expensive. +>> > +>> > +>> > +>> > +>> > I got in touch with M's husband and left a message but she hasn't +>> > called back. I hope we can get her to sign the consent form for the +>> > cremation. +>> > +>> > +>> > +>> > Talk to you soon. +>> > +>> > Love, +>> > +>> > Mom +>> > +>> > +>> > +> +
Hanging out with Ryan and Merry up in WA. So far, awesome company, awesome wedding, awesome food, and lots of greenery everywhere. And goats. And dogs. And chickens.
+Also, Port Townsend is totally like Boulder with an ocean nearby :
+ Expand all +School started. It sucks. I hate it. Except for choir, music theory, and latin. Aarrr. Moodswings started up again, so trying to do something about that in health class. I'm supposed to meditate or relax every day. I won't post much about my moods, as I think LiveJournal has plenty of that already, but I'll record my progress.
+Tree of Life - project in progress - http://ranna.bolognia.net/cgi-bin/dirlist.pl/available/in-progress/treeoflife
+A project I'm working on with my uncle in NC (I went to Charlotte at the same time as
Concerts: +The ones I'm going to go see, at least. I'll make a calendar thing for other concerts. DCPA is Denver Center for the Performing Arts.
+Revolutionary Spirit @ DCPA: Boettcher Concert Hall - Orchestra2:row O:seats 28 & 29 - Sunday September 22, 2002 at 2:30pm +- Daugherty Philadelphia Stories, +- Beethoven Piano Concerto No. 4 in G major, Op. 58 +- Shostakovich Symphony No. 5 in D minor, Op. 47 (the real reason I'm going)
+King'Singers @ DCPA: Boettcher Concert Hall - Orchestra 2:row N:seats 40 & 41 - Thursday February 27, 2003 at 7:30pm
+Hough Plays Rachmoninov @ DCPA: Boettcher Concert Hall - Orchestra 2:row O:seats 28 & 29 - Friday April 4th, 2003 at 7:30pm +- Vaughan Williams Fantasia on a Theme by Thomas Tallis (should be interesting) +- Rachmoninov Rhapsody on a Theme by Paganini, Op. 43 (not my favorite, but still good) +- Lutoslawski Concerto for Orchestra
+Tchaikovsky's Fifth @ DCPA: Boettcher Concert Hall - Orchestra 2:row N:seats 28 & 29 - Friday May 16, 2003 at 7:30pm +- Liszt Hungarian Rhapsody (heh.. wonder if it's No. 2) +- Bartok Violin Concerto No. 2 +- Tchaikovsky Symphony No. 5 in E minor, Op. 64</lj
+ Expand all +Before Samir gets on my case about inconsistancy, or Michael tries to read my rather odd reply to his comment this morning, I feel that I should make myself clear.
+Something odd happened this morning. I was fuming over the replies to my previous post and how it was misinterpereted when I started to remember the past few months. Certain things struck my in particular (and they shall remain private) about the relationship between Michael and I. The more I thought and read through my post, the more I realized just how stubborn I was being, and so I thought on that a bit. I've come to the conclusion, with the help of both Michael and Samir, that a mate should ultimately be able to change for the sake of his mate to the extent that they feel comfortable. It's part of love, and it's part of devotion, and this seems to be something that I've forgotten over the past few days. I don't want to seem like I'm trying to escape a problem, I just realized how simple of a problem it really was.
+So the result of my slight epiphany? I love you, Michael, and I suppose I feel comfortable declaring that publically. I love you enough that, given time, I suppose I could change. Maybe not completely, but enough that I feel I could deal with the way things are. No, not deal, enjoy. So, if you're still willing, if I haven't pushed you too far away, I'd like for you to remain my mate and help me as much as possible with any changes that need to be made by cooperating with my body for this short time while it rebels by being silent. I sincerely apologize for all the grief and confusion I've caused, but please, work with me.
+That said, both you and Samir, I think, read my previous post incorrectly, as I meant to just be summarizing the discussion for journal's sake, however weird it might have come out. God damn the english language, and I'm sorry for my ambiguous wording.
+Remember, Love keeps no record of wrongs, it does not rejoice in evil by rejoices in truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. I Corinth. 1
+ Expand all +Hi Matt, + +I took Hank in to see the vet this week about the weight loss and got the results today of the tests. It turns out he has a very aggressive form of cancer and the vet thinks he just has 3-6 weeks left. Fortunately he is not in pain and I have a chance now to make sure he gets some special food and extra walks for his last days. He has been such a great friend and head of home security for so many years. I can't help crying when I think of not having him around. He loves seeing you so much, I hope you can come by again so you can say goodbye. + +Love, + +Mo
+ Expand all +I've been alternating between apathy toward my situation and crushing emotions surrounding it. I really wish that I could sit down and write about it without having the two battle for control of the keyboard. About the only thing I feel strongly in one way about, however, is the trip to Aspen, which has helped me to decide not to be in choir anymore. Everything else - the house, Washington, my dog, work - is a bunch of mixed blessings. I feel as though it would be cathartic to get all that pent up crap out in a whiny LJ post, but every time I sit down to write the post, I either sulk or find "better" things to do.
+That said, I'm incredibly happy for Ryan and Merry, and incredibly lucky to have James and my mom in my life. Focusing on the happy brings about the apathy, so I'll have to write about everything some other time. "Better" thing of the moment: sleep
+ Expand all +So despite having the program for quite a while now, and the fact that I've ridden my bike to work almost every day now, I finally got around to using RunKeeper to track the ride, and whaddayaknow, it's actually really awesome. Check it out: my ride to work. I've been saying seven miles, but I think that was before I started taking the Poudre trail from Timberline. I used go down Summit View, then along prospect, to pick up the Poudre Trail from their, then riding up to the Spring Creek Trail. Inefficient! Oh well, It's less than a mile of non-trail now, which is good for a relaxing commute. I should use RunKeeper for real rides, when I get back to doing them :o) 10.08 miles per day isn't bad, though
+ Expand all +This morning's dream totally seemed like some sort of action movie. At the beginning, my younger brother and I got separated while I was busy being emo and eating breakfast with Shade. He wound up on some train or ship (long like a train, but somehow over a large body of water) that was holding a bunch of really smart children captive. Because we were both scientific geniuses, we independently discovered the same thing, which was that there was some sort of algal bloom in the pacific in the crook of Alaska and Canada called the 'cytochasm' (v. important in the dream, everyone kept saying it) that was caused by a greenhouse gas. The big problem was that this was some sort of weird.. uh.. couldn't remember the phrase in my dream, can't remember it now.. wound up calling it a self-fulfilling prophecy because the pollutant that caused the bloom caused the algae to create more of the pollutant. This was causing some sort of horrible reaction in the upper atmosphere that generating a lot of heat and spreading at the same speed as the bloom, creating an almost visibly widening hole in the ozone. I woke up then, but there was all sorts of foreshadowing of how the train my brother was on was the source of the pollutant, how my brother and I would be reunited, how Shade was awesome, eating quesadillas for breakfast, and finally saving the world.
+So super cool. Also, this is pre-coffee, sorry for the ramblage
+ Expand all +Personal computer: +Gigabyte μATX board +2GB DDR2 RAM +AMD Athlon II "Regor" 2.8GHz dual core processor (with AMD-V) +250GB drive (already have) +ATI dual-headed graphics card (forget which, already have)
+Running Windows 7 (next month, at least) for gaming and work
+Server: +Gigabyte ATX board +4GB DDR2 RAM +Intel Celeron "Wolfdale" 2.5GHz dual core processor (with VT-x) +500GB OS drive +2x 1.5TB storage drives
+Running Citrix XenServer, hosting Debian Lenny for file/print/imaging/web server and domain controller and Windows Server 2008 R2 to play around with and run Visual Studio 2008 (DreamSpark, she is nice to me, yuss).
+====
+All that and the μATX case I got is too small D: Waiting on a replacement before I really get started, though I may set up XenServer soon
+ Expand all +Seems that an X.org update busted my ATI driver. Probably have to live with one monitor until a new driver or a patch gets released. x.x
+(II) Loading /usr/lib/xorg/modules/drivers//fglrx_drv.so +dlopen: /usr/lib/xorg/modules/drivers//fglrx_drv.so: undefined symbol: +pciNumBuses +(EE) Failed to load /usr/lib/xorg/modules/drivers//fglrx_drv.soExpand all +
Last night's dream,
RYAN STOP SHOOTING OLD MEN. >:
+ Expand all +The quick, brown fox jumps over a lazy dog. DJs flock by when MTV ax quiz prog. Junk MTV quiz graced by fox whelps. Bawds jog, flick quartz, vex nymphs. Waltz, bad nymph, for quick jigs vex! Fox nymphs grab quick-jived waltz. Brick quiz whangs jumpy veldt fox. Bright vixens jump; dozy fowl quack. Quick wafting zephyrs vex bold Jim. Quick zephyrs blow, vexing daft Jim. Sex-charged fop blew my junk TV quiz. How quickly daft jumping zebras vex. Two driven jocks help fax my big quiz. Quick, Baz, get my woven flax jodhpurs! "Now fax quiz Jack! " my brave ghost pled. Five quacking zephyrs jolt my wax bed. Flummoxed by job, kvetching W. zaps Iraq. Cozy sphinx waves quart jug of bad milk. A very bad quack might jinx zippy fowls. Few quips galvanized the mock jury box. Quick brown dogs jump over the lazy fox. The jay, pig, fox, zebra, and my wolves quack! Blowzy red vixens fight for a quick jump. Joaquin Phoenix was gazed by MTV for luck. A wizard’s job is to vex chumps quickly in fog. Watch "Jeopardy! ", Alex Trebek's fun TV quiz game. Woven silk pyjamas exchanged for blue quartz. Brawny gods just flocked up to quiz and vex him. Adjusting quiver and bow, Zompyc killed the fox. My faxed joke won a pager in the cable TV quiz show. Amazingly few discotheques provide jukeboxes. My girl wove six dozen plaid jackets before she quit. Six big devils from Japan quickly forgot how to waltz. Big July earthquakes confound zany experimental vow. Foxy parsons quiz and cajole the lovably dim wiki-girl. Have a pick: twenty six letters - no forcing a jumbled quiz! Crazy Fredericka bought many very exquisite opal jewels. Sixty zippers were quickly picked from the woven jute bag. A quick movement of the enemy will jeopardize six gunboats. All questions asked by five watch experts amazed the judge. Jack quietly moved up front and seized the big ball of wax
+ Expand all +Rest in peace, puppy. http://www.flickr.com/photos/ranna/tags/hank/
+Emailed details
Sorry Matt, I've been pretty broken up today too. I can't talk about it without crying.
+I just left a voice mail for you. Hank really calmed down and relaxed once the oxycontin got in his system and he was comfortable until the vet got there. He died very peacefully in my arms. Bob came over and helped me carry him out to the yard to bury him.
Hank was such a great dog. Probably the most intelligent dog I've ever had. The vet was amazed he lived as long as he did after the cancer was found. He was sure a fighter. He was trotting on the trails and chasing rabbits up until yesterday so he really enjoyed life.
+I'm at Bob's house tonight because I didn't want to stay home alone. I'll call tomorrow. +Love, +Mom
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+ Expand all +The previous owners named him Freckles, which is apt, but I dunno. I was thinking Zephyr or Samuel. Ideas? :
+ Expand all +I'm going to pronounce 'yage' the american way, rhyming with sage, instead of the traditional way, 'yah-hey'. This has lead me to imagine a picture of Lady Sage (Salvia) and Master Yage (Yage) as furs, Salvia being a green vixen, middle aged, and Yage being a purplish male wolf, old and wisened. Also, I feel like equating Lady Salvia to Eris.
+Anyhoo, today was odd. Lots of choir stuffs, then a strange party in bio. Ryan, Kiran, and I left to go walk around Viele. After, Chivalry, where the conductors gave the pianists a card. I drove Ryan and Andrew home, and headed back myself to clean up after my 2x extraction of Salvia finished. The remains were consecrated and burned.
+At group, I was confronted with some possible changes in group culture, that, if they go into effect, will lead me to stop going. So instead of staying for the first hour, Michael and I went and sat by my car to talk (which shall remain private), me on a towel so as not to get grass all over my Excal suit. After that, the concert. My mom had insisted on a light dinner of a salad before, so I stopped and got some fries at Wendy's and Kory stared at me from the next lane as we cruised down Broadway. It took a while for me to notice. May Our Paths went well until the bases decided to leave before the curtain closed due to an ambiguous cue from Keller.
+This was followed shortly by Chivalry, which went very well. From the time I left the stage to the time I left the school, random people - mostly choir kids - came up to me and shook my hand, telling me how wonderful it was. I'd met up with Shannon earlier, and this didn't seem to make her very happy. I still feel slightly like I'm blamed by her for her outlook on choir. Oh well. More random, high profile people told me that they voted for me for #1 choir geek; I'm starting to think that I should think some about a speech for tomorrow. Anyway, massed choir followed and went really well. It felt kinda odd, like a penultimate moment. I think tomorrow's going to be really powerful, personally, and I probably won't feel so hot afterwards. I'm going to miss choir a lot, despite the shit I talk about it sometimes to keep myself ingratiated with friends or release anger with Revier. Specifically, there are a few people who I'm going to miss a whole lot, like Jerred and Kory, even though tomorrow's not the last time I'll see them. I feel kinda bad for still having a thing for Kory, even though I'm in a relationship currently.
+panics over choir video Aaaand.. that's it
+ Expand all +This dog is slowly killing me. Agh. So frustrating :
+ Expand all +For those dog people out there, I've got a question. Within the last few days, Zephyr's started getting more and more afraid of everything out doors, to the point where I sometimes have to block the entrance to the deck long enough for him to do his business in the back yard, lest he run up and whine at the door. He was leash-trained with 'heel' (well, sort of ^^), and would run with me for about a block or two, but now just tries to hide under ever car we pass. Is this a phase, permanent, or something else I should be worried about? He's seven and a half weeks old, which, I've heard, is the beginning of the "fear imprinting" phase, but I didn't expect that to mean that he would start being afraid of things he wasn't before.
+Secondly, I know this is a very important time for socialization, but the vet-nurse flat pretty much flat out told me that I wasn't to socialize him with other dogs until he got his third distemper/parvo vaccine, which won't be for another six weeks. This seems like it would cut out a lot of that learning period and possibly leave him unpredictable around other dogs. Is this the case
+ Expand all +YOUTUBE REMOVED IT.
+http://paws.ru/flash/src/Bewbs.swf instead :D:D:D:D:D
+Also, happy Thanksgive. :
+ Expand all +Last puppy I ever get. I already feel guilty for not adopting, but if I could circumvent this annoying brat stage at the same time as rescuing an otherwise unwanted dog, I'd be in heaven. :o
+ Expand all +I can't favorite this enough:
+More updates eventually :
+ Expand all +There's so much I COULD talk about here, but instead, here's this awesome thing from Tabernak. Hells yeah
+ Expand all +Sorry I haven't written in so long. I've been feeling like I'm totally overwhelmed by the ups and downs going on right now, like they're happening so suddenly that I have no time to think about them. Well, now I've got an hour free, and I figure writing about things is a pretty effective way to think about them. Gonna be kind of stream-of-consciousness due to time limitations, so, in no chronological order:
+FC was amazing, really. I didn't really go to any panels, and instead spent quite a bit of time showing James around and hanging out with a bunch of awesome people. Spent lots of money on food, but had some amazing stuff, including some excellent Ethiopian and Italian. Traveling home with someone made the PCD pretty light, since I had someone to talk about the con with and keep me company. Usually, the loneliness is the worst part of it.
+Zephpup has been growing up pretty quickly, and he's now about 45lbs and pretty difficult to pick up anymore. His feet are still big and stompy, so I think he may have another 15 or so pounds to go before he's "fully grown". He's been losing teeth left and right, bleeding all over the dog park and freaking people out when they see the spots of blood on the snow. On Friday, however, I ducked out side to move the car and came back in to find him with his head stuck (literally) in a bag that had previously contained chicken bones - something potentially fatal if they splinter. First time at the emergency vet hospital (and hopefully the last, though that place was amazing!) with the pup, where he got some radiographs done. Three chicken bones sitting in his gut, thankfully almost completely intact, since he didn't see fit to chew them after stealing them off the dining table. Outlook is good, though - he has a very good chance of either demineralizing/digesting the bones or just passing them, but he's still on med watch at home in case one of them splinters and perforates some part of his GI tract. Stupid dogs :| The X-rays were expensive enough, I'm just hoping surgery isn't necessary and that he passes the bones safely.
+Despite that rather large cost, I'm not too worried about money. I mentioned a while ago (though maybe not here) that I was being audited. Turns out, that was because I forgot to submit some documentation with my tax amendment for the first-time homebuyer's credit. After going to an actual tax preparer last week, though, I'm glad the amendment was rejected, since applying for the credit as an amendment on a previous year's taxes turns it into a loan, and I don't want to pay that off. With their help, though, looks like my return is going to be $11,000 with the credit included. I'm hoping to pay off my card and cut it up, possibly get a camcorder, then start saving for a car, since the Pathfinder's getting pretty crappy :oP
+One of the biggest stressors right now is my senior composition recital coming up in a little less than a month. I've got performers and music all lined up, but I'm still having a hard time getting any rehearsals done, and people aren't communicating very well with me. I'm also starting to freak out over the fact that I have to conduct one of the larger pieces myself, something which I'm pretty awful at. I have to tune out the music and just conduct beat patterns in order to not get messed up, which isn't very.. good :oP Thankfully, work's been fine. Despite some printer fuckups, I've had a good bit of time to sit and conduct the wall to practice.
+Composing hasn't stopped with the recital coming up, thankfully, and I've had a good bit more inspiration than I did last semester. I've been working on a three-movement set of songs for choir, soloists, and Pierrot ensemble called "Bird Songs" with texts by a friend, St. Francis of Assisi, and Wallace Stevens. I'm also working on some
A lot of creativity has been happening on the programming front, too. After getting a little fed up with Sibelius, I've started work on a program to help me write directly in Lilypond, whose output is amazing. The cool part about Lilypond is that its a text format, so you can diff
it easily, so I'm thinking of tying it in with a website which would act as a revision control system for composers. That way, instead of just saving a score to your computer, you can save it to the site and update it every now and then, then publish it for everyone to see when you've finished. The program is being written in Java, so it would be trivial to make it into an applet, which would mean that you could work on your music from any computer with a browser and Java installed. Big plans. Anyway, also got my portfolio site up and running in order to apply for a composer-in-residence position with these guys, which I hope works out well. If nothing else, it's good to have the site back up, so I can show off scores more easily. Man, I love Django :3
Anyway, work's being a butt, so that's all for now
+ Expand all +When you see this, post a poem in your journal
+Polyphemus at Morning +Richard Threadgall
+The blind Cyclops rose, wound clotted, +To the bleating of his rams--who called +To the cloth-dyer Aurora, day, day.
+He crawled in his cave, clutched Greeks; +Wine-pots splintered beneath his palms-- +The blown-glass dark between Sicilian pines +Bleached, colored, and bubbled up toward blue.
+And his goats, greedy for sunlight +And the white Ausonian glare, bleated +And drooped their ticked ears while he counted--
+He missed the ropes; his bleeding hands +Were two mauled despots stumbling under chains. +Dry wind salts his forehead, and his flock +Stamps down through the herd-paths, unburdened.
+So was that savage chastened. Yet here am I, +Who will ever be master of you--and while I sleep +You look at the olive log, but never free me
+ Expand all +Almost forgot, posted a bunch of music:
+http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3538369 - crappy recording of my live premier of "I live my life"
+http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3538357 - iffy recording of my live premier of "Character Dances"
+http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3537951 - Semi-final draft of Tempest orchestrated (now with more feasibility!)
+http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3533916 - First movement of "Thousand Leaves", incidental music for
Less than two weeks until my senior recital, of which there will be recordings and HD video :
+ Expand all +Except this time, I made it myself! Badger! is a little badge you can put on your blags and webpages with all your other web presences laid out as icon - from the badge, people can get to your Twitter, Facebook, LJ, and so on. Just a goofy little thing. Alas, the dynamic version doesn't work on LJ because it involves both style and script tags, which are stripped out automatically. The static version, however, works! + +
+ +First time I've done something like this, and it was pretty fun ^^ Felt like I woke up Tuesday with the idea fully formed in my head, and the rest was just making license plates. Have fun, do whatever with it, heh + Expand all +On Friday, March 26th at 4:30PM in the Organ Recital Hall at the UCA, I had my senior recital. The recital is a for-credit class that is technically geared towards performance majors, but they’re required of composition, education, and bachelor of the arts majors as well. Usually, grading is pretty straight-forward. Your applied teacher sits in the audience and watches you along with everything else, grading your performance of music that you have learned under their tutelage over the last however many semesters. Grades are as you would expect them – technicality, stage presence, song interpretation, working with the accompanist, and so on.
+ +Composition is a little different, however. With composition, your work on the pieces has already been graded by the applied professor, for the most part, you aren’t even performing the pieces. The point of the recital shifts away from proving you can sing or play to proving you can pull together music and get it performed somehow. Your job changes from learning music and reciting it on stage to writing music, finding performers, organizing rehearsals, then organizing the recital and possibly conducting or performing the pieces, though the focus on that latter part is minimal.
+ + + +Originally published at Drab Makyo - How Dull. Please leave any comments there.
Expand all +Alrighty. I used LiveJournal for quite a while and some of their current changes combined with the changes I’ve gone through in the way I think about blogging have prompted me to switch to a more personal system such as this. WordPress was just the ticket, and since it was free and I can set it up the way I want, it all works out for the best. I’ll try to link my posts over to my old LJ blog as well, just so that they get read by the masses over there, but I’m thinking that all of my writing will take place here, for the most part!
+ +Originally published at Drab Makyo - How Dull. Please leave any comments there.
Expand all +In my post-recital… ennui? Freedom? Afterglow? Well, anyhow, after my recital, I’ve found that it’s rather difficult to get back into writing music after spending so long away from it simply trying to get the recital up and running with as few hitches as possible (as has already been previously beaten to death here), and even though its been two weeks, I’ve only written about five bars of music.
+ +Part of the problem has been that I was fairly demoralized after the recital. After seeing how difficult it was to pull together the performers and get them learning the music as best as possible in even so long a time, I felt that perhaps I was doing something wrong with my music, writing it in such a way as to make it difficult for the performers to learn, read from, or perform. It was hard for me to go back to writing music that I felt would cause more of the same reactions that I got to my music on my senior recital.
+ +Beyond that, though, I felt that I had lost the sense of process that I had used to write music in the past, a process that served me through several years. Several of my pieces are based off one process or another. For example, each of the Character Dances was based off one aspect of a relationship between me and another. TW was based off the idea of constancy against flightiness. The left hand of the piano only plays two notes for the entire piece, while the right hand skitters around it indicating a change too quick to handle.
+ + + + + + + + + + + +Originally published at Drab Makyo - How Dull. Please leave any comments there.
Expand all +I'll post it to the real blag later, when I upload it somewhere other than FA, but here's my recital musics, in recital order:
+http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3717455 - Daglarim (string quartet) +http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3717466 - I often wondered (choir) +http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3717473 - Concerto for Saxophone Quartet - Mvt. 1 - Dance (sax quartet, piano) +http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3718302 - Duet for Horn and bass - Mvt. 1 (horn, bass, and percussion) +http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3718308 - " " Mvt. 2 +http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3718309 - " " Mvt. 3 +http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3717476 - Mirrors (Pierrot ensemble
+ Expand all +The audio recordings of my senior recital have been posted – video will be coming soon. I’m feeling okay about the recordings – not great, and not bad. Overall, they are too slow, not up to the tempi I would like. Also, there are a few problems with the performances of each piece, but not so much as to ruin them. They are all posted here, after the cut, but they may be found at http://drab-makyo.com/collection/senior-recital/.
+ + + + + + + + + + + +Originally published at Drab Makyo - How Dull. Please leave any comments there.
Expand all +The Manifesto Project, my most recent service project, just launched over at http://manifesto.mjs-svc.com The goal of the project is to provide a place for people to write down their ideas on their own beliefs and faiths in order to sort their ideas out into words. The idea stemmed from my own problems in articulating what I believed, and I found that the more I wrote, the easier it was for me to define my thoughts.
+ + + + + + + + + + + +Originally published at Drab Makyo - How Dull. Please leave any comments there.
Expand all +I called FexEx last night and told them to deliver my package sometime AFTER 3 O'CLOCK. I come home today to find out they tried to deliver at 11:15 AM. Do I really need to specify 3 PM? Are people really this dumb. I'm irate.
+As for today, the zoo kinda sucked with an assignment, but Kiran and Jani were there to goof around with. Still felt sad this morning, even though I slept in somewhat. Now I'm gonna go nap, 'cause I have a migrane and not enough sleep backing me up
+ Expand all +Not only did I give my dog a Twitter account, but I made him a website. Oy vey
+ +You can follow Zephyr on Twitter as @zephyr_sc or on his webpage, http://zephyr-sc.com.
+ + + + + + + + + +Originally published at Drab Makyo - How Dull. Please leave any comments there.
Expand all +My experience with software developing in any sort of managed (read: rational) way is actually rather limited. I didn’t really know what Agile was until a few days ago, I’ve only been using RCSes for the last few years, I sold or gave away all of my O’Reilly books, and I always seem to be a little behind the times. Now that I’ve been getting more and more into programming, though, I’ve decided that managed programming environments are most definitely a good thing, even as a solo developer. I read up on Agile, switched from Subversion to Git in several cases, and I’ve been trying to keep a little more current, finally caving and adopting an IDE (NetBeans) and some project management software.
+ + + + + + + + + + + +Originally published at Drab Makyo - How Dull. Please leave any comments there.
Expand all +Not cross posted to maintain the semi-professional decorum of the blag, but I'll be at Anthrocon this year, in the Westin with JD and Tabernak, flying out with JD and Rhaen. Hope to see folks there
+ Expand all +Working on a rather large project in grails, I’ve come to realize two things: there is some absolutely amazing software frameworks out there, and some people who write documentation appear to be 3-year-old kids who speak English as a second language. The embarrassing part about that is that, since the project is open-source, I could contribute to the documentation very easily, fixing problems that I see and adding where I see fit. However, the problem is so large and daunting (and the project I’m working on way more interesting), so instead, I wind up just living with it and searching El Goog over and over again for the same things.
+ +I’m going to try to change this as best I can, and I’m going to start by collecting a few nifty tips and tricks I’ve pulled out of thin air here, and hopefully pull them all together into one place soon enough.
+ + + + + + + + + + + +Originally published at Drab Makyo. Please leave any comments there.
Expand all +NPR’s Planet Money podcast recently aired a program on the deficit and what average Americans think would be the best way to fix it by cutting only one thing. I don’t think that cutting just one thing would ever fix a problem so huge, but crowd-sourcing such an idea is not a new concept. Whitehouse.gov itself used this at one point, allowing users to ask the newly elected Obama a question in an open forum, even using the users to help police the question boards through a flagging procedure. The neat part about crowd-sourcing with limitations is that not only does it keep discussions rather more on track than an open forum, but it takes a small (minuscule in the grand scheme of things) step towards direct democracy which may or may not be a good thing, I really don’t know, but it sometimes feels like this could make things a little better.
+ +One of the overwhelming questions on the whitehouse.gov forum was about legalization of marijuana. This issue has come up in my life three times now – the first was when I read Carl Sagan’s Contact way back when which featured a little vignette about marijuana being legalized and “this [being] deducted from your share in paradise”; the second was when I was on a bit of a spirituality/drugs/poetry kick and wound up reading Dale Pendell’s Pharamko/Poeia; and the third was when I recently finished with Michael Lewis’ The Big Short and got set off onto a financial kick. Since I finished The Big Short today and thus am still on said kick, I’ve been peeking into the issue of the financial implications of legalizing marijuana, but I’m having quite a hard time finding the information I need in the morass of data out there, little of which is readily available or easily searched.
+ + + + + + + + + + + +Originally published at Drab Makyo. Please leave any comments there.
Expand all +Turns out, due to a mistake with iTunes and the podcast, Planet Money DID do a podcast on the finances of marijuana. Check it out here – though it asks much of the same questions I asked: http://www.npr.org/blogs/money/2010/01/podcast_an_economist_gets_ston.html
+ + + + + + + + + +Originally published at Drab Makyo. Please leave any comments there.
Expand all +Stole it from rhaenburger
100% TMI, so.. yeah.Read more...
1.Is there anyone on your friends list you would ever consider having sex with?
Probably - already have with quite a few.
2. Sex in the morning, afternoon or night?
Doesn't really matter ^^ Most receptive in the morning, it seems.
3. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
Whichever side Zephyr ISN'T on.
4. Do you masturbate?
Yep.
5. How often? Lately?
Lately? 1-2x per day. Can be as high as 4x/day or as low as 1x/week
6. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money?
No.
7. Do you prefer showers or baths?
Showers. I don't fit well in many baths.
8. Have you ever had sex in the shower or the bath?
Sorta, yeah. Was too awkward :o/
9. Do you watch/read pornography?
Yep, though it's not often that it does much for me. I'm more of an obsessive collector than an actual looker.
10. Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed?
Aggressive, but I suspect the original author meant dominant or submissive. I go either way on that, so long as I'm not doing everything - passive people who need to be told to do everything don't really do much for me.
11. Do you love someone on your friends list?
Oh, sure! Lots :o) Seriously, too, love's free and benefits both parties, even if the other party doesn't realize it's there.
12. Do you know all the people on your friends list?
Nope.
13. Would you choose love or money?
This is NEVER an either-or scenario. Un-ask the question.
14. Your top three favourite kinks in bed?
Um.. hmm. I'm not very kinky. Exhibitionism, definitely. Maybe.. being quiet? Like.. acting as if nothing is really going on during orgasm, just quietly breathing in and out and trying to keep my breathing stable. Can't really think of many others. Multiple partners, maybe?
15. Has anyone ever gone beyond your personal line of respect sexually?
Yes, but I was young :o)
16. Where is the most romantic place you have had sex?
Oh, they're all good :D
17. Where is the weirdest place you have had sex?
On the steps of the back deck, or maybe laying out in the back yard.
18. Have you ever been caught having sex?
I don't think so..?
19. Have you ever been to a strip club?
Nah, pass.
20. Ever been to a bar just to get sex?
Depends. I've gone to a bar with someone with the end goal of sex at the end of the night! Not to pick anyone up, though.
21. Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club for sexual reasons?
Nah.
22. Ever been picked up in a bar?
No, but not for lack of trying. Sorry, guy :o/
23. Have you ever kissed or had sex with someone of the same sex?
Yep.
24. What's your sexuality?
Bisexual.
25. Had sex in a cinema?
No, but things have gotten pretty heated in one before.
26. Had sex in a bathroom?
Sure. My complaint was how many right angles and sharp corners there were :3
27. Have you ever had sex at work?
Nope. RP'd, though, lots.
28. Have you ever been in an "adult" store?
Yep.
29. Bought something from an adult store?
I.. don't think so, actually!
30. Do you own any sex toys?
Yep.
31. If yes, how many and what are they?
Two - a dildo (from Zeta, heh) and a vibrator.
32. Does anyone have naughty pics of you or are you on film?
Oh sure, they're available online :o)
33. Have you ever had sex with someone and called them the wrong name?
Nah, I don't really make noises during sex.
34. Have you ever had phone sex?
Yeah, wasn't really my thing. It served more to emphasize the distance rather than bring us closer.
35. Have you ever had cyber-sex?
Yep! At least.. check 679 times, according to the tally, but I know I missed some.
36. Do you think oral sex constitutes as a form of intercourse?
Sure..? "constitutes as a form of intercourse" sounds so dry. Yes, it's sex.
37. What's your favourite sexual position?
I'm willing to try most any, but the favorite depends on the mood.
38. What's your favourite sex act?
Hmm.. dunno that I've had one that I've not enjoyed! I used to not get anything out of receiving oral sex, but that's since changed.
39. Have you ever had sex with more than one person at a time?
Yeh. Several times :o)
40. Who do you think has the guts to repost this?
Whoever. I don't think many will, but I'd be curious to see some people's answers ^^
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+ Expand all +I’ve been listening to podcasts, watching videos, and reading articles over the past two or three years that relate to the financial melt-down as well as politics and gender issues. These things really do interest me quite a bit, as I’ve always wondered how something as abstract as government really works, ever since Dr. Carter’s history class in high school. I mean, it always looked so good on paper that it boggled the mind to think that that was how things really worked in the world. Of course, now I’m much older – I’ve been out of high school (and away from Dr. Carter) for seven years or so and I’ve come to realize that the idealized form of direct democracy they teach in elementary and middle school, and the idealized form of representative democracy they teach in high school barely begin to scratch the surface.
+ +Lets go ahead and combine this with the fact that it seems as though Planet Money, one of the financial podcasts that I follow, was created solely to explain the financial crisis to people in clear terms, seemingly a spin-off of This American Life after that show aired a few episodes regarding not only the financial issues, but issues of health care and housing. We can also add in the additional reading and discussing that has been going on between a few friends and I about the problems involved in religion, and a few other friends and I about the problems involved in gender.
+ +Finally, combine these with a few books I’ve been reading about disparate subjects but which all involve this concept of non-spatial, non-temporal ideas and we get the hole I’ve dug myself in now.
+ + + + + + + + + + + +Originally published at Drab Makyo. Please leave any comments there.
Expand all +I woke this morning to the doorbell ringing, and immediately raced upstairs so I wouldn't miss the god-damned FedEx man. Even after the call, he was an hour earlier than even yesterday, showing up at around 10. Anyhoo, I've been fucking around with the new powerbook for most of the day; mostly having loads of fun.
+Mostly, I say, because Michael and I sorta figured out what needed to be done, and did it, even if it wasn't that much fun. However, I think it's for the best. Hasn't gotten to me yet, though I think tomorrow may be interesting.
+Fine, I'll join at least part of the recent slew of bandwagons. I only picked one of the answers because it said something about 'disrespect your face', which, even though the first part of the answer didn't fit, that part was me to a T.
+
You are a Glasswalker. You are techno-savvy and a
born city dweller. You are very social and
classy, and probably not doing too bad
moneywise.
+
Which of the twelve werewolf tribes would you be in?
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What is this BS? Using a VCR makes you mature? Hahahah Oh well :
+ Expand all +Little song I whipped up in Reason for the occasion here.
+ + + + + + + + + +Originally published at Drab Makyo. Please leave any comments there.
Expand all +I just realized that I posted this to Twitter and not anywhere else; whoops!
+ +Anyhow, I’m an avid reader of FlowingData, because Nathan Yau, the man behind it, does some pretty awesome stuff. His visualizations are clear and still aesthetically pleasing, and his concepts are always nice. Of particular interest to me, when I first started reading, was your.flowingdata which is a means to track your own life through Twitter – for example, you can tell it when and how far you ride your bike every day and have it automatically generate a visualization of distances ridden over time.
+ +Recently, however, he posted a little challenge of sorts. Given a dataset, we, the readers, were to visualize it our own way and draw some conclusions from our visualizations (that, after all, being the point of visualizations). I’d never done anything like that before for various reasons. I didn’t want to learn a new domain-specific language such as R that would then require me to edit my results in the form of an image in some other program such as Gimp or Inkscape. Also, Gimp and Inkscape have some quirks that I’m still learning, and I didn’t want to have to chose between learning those and buying Adobe CS. However, I have been working quite a bit with Javascript recently, so it seemed to make sense that, when I found two libraries – Flot and Protovis – for visualization in JS that I go ahead and use one of these ‘Visualize This’ challenges to learn one of them. It’ll definitely be helpful in the future.
+ +The most recent challenge was visualizing data from the National Survey of Sexual Health and Behavior. Given a small set of data – percentage of respondents in different age groups admitting to engaging in nine different behaviors over the past year – I worked hard to learn Protovis from scant documentation in order to pull together a visualization. Since it takes place over three ‘slides’ and has text to go along with it, I’ll let it speak for itself here.
+ + + + + + + + + + + +Originally published at Drab Makyo. Please leave any comments there.
Expand all +I had a few more thoughts on the earlier entry and I don’t want to belabor anything, though this may come rather close to the last post, but I hope to make just a small addendum to that with three points. This has been sitting in the ‘drafts’ queue for a while now, and was mostly written. Sorry for flooding!
+ + + + + + + + + + + +Originally published at Drab Makyo. Please leave any comments there.
Expand all +Nathan Yau, over at FlowingData, posted another “Visualize This” challenge, this time to take a look at some data that Wikipedia released regarding their recent fundraising campaign. They tracked four banners’ performance – how many people visited the pages, how many people wound up starting the donation process, and how many people actually completed the donation process, amongst several other factors. Again, I figured I’d take a stab at showing the data with Protovis.
+ +You can see the result here.
+ + + + + + + + + + + +Originally published at Drab Makyo. Please leave any comments there.
Expand all +I woke up this morning with an idea in mind and, lo and behold, over the process of the day, finished the visualization. At least, a rough draft of it. This one’s even personalizable! Check out a sample here.
+ +FurAffinity.net is a neat site full of neat artists and good community. However, the statistics they provide for each user’s art are not only private, but rather lacking, being simply a list of numbers. Sounds like a good job for visualization, though! The numbers FA provides are views, favorites, and comments per submission. Not only did I display those, but averaging them and normalizing for those averages gives a pretty good idea of relative popularity of each submission. Users can view all four statistics in a steam chart, and also each alone in a bar chart. I figured this was a good way to divide things up: trends are visible in general over time and one can explore specifics for each set.
+ +There’s still some work I’d like to do, and I’m planning on collating the data I collect into a general graph of submissions on FA, but that’s for later. It’s fall break and I’m still on the job!
+ + + + + + + + + +Originally published at Drab Makyo. Please leave any comments there.
Expand all +Two new commissions recently. Some nifty artists out there :3
+Another neato inexpensive commission, this time from Patto +
+Yep, still a dandy. :
+ Expand all +It’s been a busy few days at home and work. Work itself was really slow, so I started working on one large visualization project and wound up completing another smaller one in the meantime. I may need to take a break from protovis for a little while, as I’ve been working for several days straight on these projects.
+ +The smaller of the two projects was a very fast (about two hours) visualization of data regarding a disturbing punishment discrepancy between heterosexual/non-heterosexual teens by both the justice system and schools. You can see in the vis that, in some cases, non-heterosexual teens can be two to three times as likely to be punished by schools or police. Some reasons for this are debated in the original article that was pointed out to me. The comments section on the article is rather distressing, I should warn.
+ +The second, larger project has taken up most of my energy over the past few days. A friend pointed me toward the results of the Furry Survey, which I hadn’t seen before. The furry community differs from society at large in several very important demographic areas, from gender to sexual orientation (or at least openness regarding the same), to mean age. With these important differences, I felt that a series of visualizations was almost necessary. I’ve pulled those together into a dashboard that displays each visualization in miniature (not just thumbnails – the visualizations are reconstructed in miniature within the dashboard). Check it out and find out some neat things about the furry fandom. If you don’t know what furries are… well, Google carefully.
+ + + + + + + + + +Originally published at Drab Makyo. Please leave any comments there.
Expand all +Two new aspects visualized: species and a choropleth of population for the US. I had to grab, shred, and parse the data myself from responses to forum topics (i.e.: members would respond with their location and a moderator would add their name to one enormous list – I had to turn that into JSON with magic), so the data may not be terribly accurate, but some trends may be visible. Since they’re separate but related, I’ve added them to a different section of the site.
+ + + + + + + + + +Originally published at Drab Makyo. Please leave any comments there.
Expand all +I can't stop laughing..
+gv_ranna Look out for the |
m HOLE |
Happy 2011 :3
+Not going to go through the whole weekend and recap everything, 'cause that'd be silly, and I forgot a whole lot anyway! Spent a lot of the con chilling with James and Jill around the hotel, much of that time in suit. At one point there was a mead tasting with Jill (and three of her friends), James, Acy, Vlad, Soluco (and one of his Asian posse), Tsuki, Roma, and Here. Everyone liked the sack metheglin, so I'll try to make a five gallon batch when I can afford the honey, soon enough. Went out for amazing sushi with John, Jane, and James on Santana Row. Went to a youtube party. Got separated from the other otters in the parade because I'm really dumb. Danced way too much at the dead dog with one of those otters - angry otter suit, shy Canadian guy. Drank a lot of Philz coffee, gin and tonics, and $12 hotel mojitos.
+I didn't really do a whole lot, all told - I only peeked in on a few panels, and I never went through the dealers den out of suit - but it was still a really fun con. Also, didn't drink or spend nearly as much as I normally do! Pictures of the ottsuit are slowly trickling in, here's a few!
+http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5103894 +http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5100230 +http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5123132 +http://www.dragonscales.com/gallery/displayimage.php?album=42&pid=20230#top_display_media
+Still waiting on ones from when I was wearing stretching out my sweater vest, or any of the partial with the dressy clothes. Will post them at some point
...is a healthy one.
+Expand all +I don't really have a real post for here, 'cause I don't really feel all that connected with LJ anymore! Instead, have a dog and an ott!
+<img src="http://www.mjs-svc.com/rand-bin/macchi-zephyr.jpg"/
+ Expand all +At the beginning of this year, I had two jobs. By March, however, I had quit one and been informed that I was, for all intents and purposes, being laid off from the other. While this wasn’t a huge surprise, I was still pretty disappointed – time to start the job-hunt again. I brushed up my resume, pulled all my references together, and got started searching. As I applied and attended job fairs and the like I started noticing a disheartening trend, however. I’m graduating in May with a degree in music composition, but applying for technical jobs. More than I once, I was turned down without further consideration as soon as the recruiter got to the education section of my resume.
+ +Rather than be coy about my education, however, I’m combining the fact that much of my applying for jobs happens online with my resume into a visual resume that offers all the same information while show-casing my design and visualization abilities.
+ + + + + + + + + + + +Originally published at Drab Makyo. Please leave any comments there.
Expand all +(p) Jim pages, "alright. tommorow will probably be my last chance to getonline before I head over to seattle. just incase, my cell is + 604-728-9664.. believe I still have the # for one of your parent'splaces" to you
+ Expand all +I'm not quite sure how I pulled off sleeping 15 hours on a school night, but I don't believe I have time for all of my homework, much less the choir video
+ Expand all +Well. Hmm.. well. Well.
+Choir video: I finished it in time, luckily, though I bullshitted the last bit of it (from all-state on) Apparently people still liked it, considering the amount of people that came up to me afterwards and complimented and/or asked for a copy of it. Kristal remarked just how many pictures contained Kory, along with most people I asked. Also, I apparently made the All-State Section too long and made some people feel bad. Well, I did what I could with what I had. I'd like to thank Shannon for being so tolerant with me sort of brushing her off. I gave her lots of credit in the video because, even though it seemed like I didn't let her do much, she really helped with moral support and ideas. Also, she bought me hot chocolate afterwards at Caffe Sole. ^^
+Graduation: I didn't know I was supposed to call Jim/Terb for that, my apologies. It went well, though. Fairly standard as far as graduations go, though; got a diploma in the end. Dad and Julie came over and had Mr. Pilot take pictures of various couplings of parents and me for them. They got buzzed after chugging champagne like beer, and my mom got drunk on a glass. Michael and Shannon came over too, and partook in garlicky dip and a glass of champagne as well. Wondering where everyone was, I called Terb and Ryan. Terb and Jim came over, Ryan forgot it was then, couldn't make it. We eventually all ended up on the floor in the basement watching movie trailers and the like. Snuggled with Moondoggy some. He's good for that. More on that later. Pharmako/poeia came. Wondrous book.
+Parties on Sunday: I misread two of the three invitations and ended up only going to Stephy P.'s party, as Willy's was the night before, and Laurel et al.'s is on friday. It was alright, but I got really tired and passed out early, sleeping until ten, then going back to bed at 2 and nearly oversleeping this morning. I think my body's still messed up from that last week of school 'cause, after all of that sleep, I'm tired yet again. Real tired.
+Today: got up in time to get a shower and some stuff cleaned up downstairs before people came over. We made it to the fair in time for some foods and pictures before we met Moondog and Pilot there. More food and wandering around, spent some time by the creek. I was gonna do the thing with Michael that I had planned, but had some some second thoughts. After that, we went back to the dungeon to watch Airplane. More snuggling.
+I'm really confused. I really do love Moondog a lot, but it.. eh. I just don't think that it would be a very healthy relationship if sex were to enter into it at all, which I'm sure it would, knowing the fluctuations of both of our hormones. I don't think I would deal with it well, considering how I dealt with it in the past. The conflict of gender and sex is too much for me, and is slowly proving yet again that I do like guys, all apologies to Moondog. Yet I'm still addicted to snuggles. It's kinda painful. I'm sure it is for both of us.
+Aaaand.. Kory. I don't know what to do about him. It hurts. So much pain, it's all so beautiful.
+That was cliche.
+Yeah, it was, but beautiful pain points out the miracles of everything.
+ Are you turning into a christian?
+Perhaps.
+Now say 'mum'.
+Mum
Heh. Thanks to
iam at end.
+Poetic Rules apply (erunt -> ere, poetic plurals, &c. Elision gets ruined by sic/tum)
+Quo usque tandem abutere, Catalina, patientia nostra? Quam diu etiam furor iste tuus nos eludet? +--> +Aitquo sic queus tum emdytamit sic rebutera, tum Atalinaca, sic atientipa tum rastynoiam? Aitquam sic udi tum amytie sic orfur tum teis sic ustu tum sic nosit tum etyludeiam?
+It's like a steganographic artlang from Latin ^^ I'm a geek, but forgive me, I just took a history final. Now I truly am done with school :o
+ Expand all +I'm going to discuss my religious views. If you disagree with them, or are personally offended by them, please don't email me, but leave a comment here. That at least gives me an option to read them. If you mail me, I'll delete your mail. These are my opinions and I'm not asking for yours.
+Religion is a good idea implemented in a bad way, especially christianity. However, I consider myself a christian in an.. abstract sense. Religion, to me, is a way of getting large amounts of people to do something that you want to do without having to talk to them directly. The goal of most religions (note the 'most' part) is to get you to be a Good Person according to society by providing a peice of literature, a myth, or some way of communicating your desires in a way that, while people may not believe it, it'll make them think about it. That's why the bible is contradictory: it has to appeal to all sorts of different people to get them to be Good (my liberal use of capitalization is not an accident). This is why there are quiet, happy christians, loud and angry christians, and every thing in between. There are christians who fear God, and there are those who are on a first name basis with him, because either they were imprinted with this philosophy at childhood, or something in the holy writ spoke to them. The threats, like 'be Good or go to Hell' spoke to some, while other parts, like the promises of heaven or the ideal Love spoke to others. Religion reaches so many people, too, partially because of the story aspect: the bible may or may not be true, but it's still a story, and has a plot. Anyway, what I'm getting at is that religion presents a set of ideas for an ideal society.
+The badly implemented part is that the majority of people take religion farther than I find comfortable; pushing the more obscure (and obsolete) Ideas down other people's throats by means of politics, rules, circular arguments, and general overzealousness. They don't realize that there can be different degrees of faith in their religion and that life will still go on. Subtle seems to be a difficult concept. People who can recite bible verses should check to see that they understand them, first. For example, I can recite Romans 1:22 "Professing themselves as wise, they became fools", but I understand what it means: that it is foolish to say that you're smarter than you are, or to show off how smart you are to other people. Also, people who recite should try to take the verses to heart. I know that I sometimes show off, but, for the most part, I try not to do it.
+Now days, however, things are starting to shift a bit. The majority of religious people still tend to be fairly zealous, but more and more people that I meet tend to be reading more into the bible, not as a story, but as a set of ideas put forth by the School of Deuteronomy, the Apostles, and other people who worked on the bible to help promote Goodness, even if it means fighting for Goodness, because Goodness is Good.
+This probably didn't make sense, but at least I have it written down somewhere now
+ Expand all +''I DON'T. Buy the tomatoes with. The stems. On them. They don't. Degrade. They go. Down the sink. And into the WATER. Then. They get lodged in the throats of little. OTTERS.'
+ Expand all +My emotions are gaining distinct colors, like a kind of twisted synaesthesia. There's definitely a sense of physical location associated with each emotion, and it's not always internal. There may also be a tactile part to this, but I have yet to experience it in any different places or with any different touches, so it may just be one continuous headache that goes latent occasionally.
+An example: when pondering Kory, a luminescent fuschia color that seems to be flowing in the right hemisphere of my brain; when thinking of Moondog and snuggling, a warm, earthy brown with a little bit of green in a pine-needle-ish pattern about a foot and a half in front of me and slightly to the left; tiredness is off-white everywhere and blind hopelessness is bright blue wrapped around my mind. The headache moves around, but it's mostly at the lower, back, right side of my head. Ibuprofin works well.
+This isn't what I meant when I was talking about beautiful pain
+ Expand all +Which is probably exacerbated by me forcing my brain to switch between QWERTY and Dvorak while trying to learn Dvorak and type QWERTY on a Dvorak keyboard. Kiran called about a math exam tomorrow. oh well. It has the added benefit of freaking out whoever looks at it.
+Greens covering my chest and shoulders warmly are happiness. Group tonight was particularly nice with Moondoggy. Wrote about gay stuff:
+Which Follows
This, of course is coming from the jocks, the preps, the Xtians, the punks, +the losers, the winners, the teachers, the counselors, my friends, my enemies, +the dogs, the cats, the tables. The chairs, too. They wonder why I can't +just sit in them like a normal freaking person. Whatever. What they don't +know is that I'm secretly happier than them. they might not know it by +looking at me, since sometimes I look like I'm having a really rough time, +but it's true. You see, one of the many keys to happiness is individuality, +and you gotta have all the keys before you're really happy. Many people +don't, and many of those seem to think they do. They think that statistics on +suicides and self mutilation have everything to do with happiness among queer +teens, when really, all they have to do with queer teens is statistics. +Numbers that may or may not accurately represent the truth. I think that +being abnormal, specifically being gay makes you happy. Maybe it isn't just a +coincidence of words, maybe we really are gay.
+Queer hair, queer mouth, queer brain, queer sleeves, queer shoes, queer toes, +queer nails, queer fingers, queer palms, hairy palms, queer wrists, limp +wrists, queer arms, queer shoulders, arms around shoulders, queer neck, +sensitive neck, queer hair, curly, queer ears, sensitive ears, eargasmic, +queer cheek, blushing cheek, queer nose, got it from my dad, queer eyes, queer +colors, got them from my grandpa, queer eyebrows, but not as queer as some, +queer face, too long, queer chest, too skinny, queer belly, padded, queer +crotch, go figure, queer thighs, better believe it, queer knees, queer calfs, +queer ankles, queer legs, flexible, queer feet, still smell, queer guy, no +surprise.
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+ Expand all +The navy blue I've been seeing at waist level in front of me and to my left is contentment. I'm not entirely sure that it being omnipresent is a good thing, however, considering the colors it's mixed with. Am I really content with longing and hopelessness? It's not out of the question, I suppose that it could just be another aspect of my personality. But that just brings up the question of whether or not it's something I ingrained into myself through habit, something where I just kinda accepted that feeling such things is normal, okay, and what I want; or is it something I was born with, or that we're all born with? Is it a side effect of love, expecting impossible desires and the blind hopelessness that follows the end of a four year undertaking?
+Whatever, you're rambling. +Guilty, conspirator. +Hushya.
+There was a LAN in here (Caffe Sole) earlier, they just left.
+Earlier today, I went to my dad's to go shopping with Julie. Belmar kinda sucks, but I got some nice clothes. Hooray for stereotypical women. After that, I came back and had dinner with my mom. I went out to get some more applications, and that's when the cyan took over. Now I'm just switching randomly between Dvorak and QWERTY. I suppose I should pick one
+ Expand all +Got my dorm stuffs. Braiden Room 170. My roommate is one Francisco G. According to the address they gave me for him, he's already living in Braiden in a different room. I'm guessing this means that he's going to summer school, which probably means that he's not a Freshman. Terby, you know him? I believe his room number is 143..
+Anyhoo, yes, there's much I have to do in regards to that stuff, but more immediately, I need a job. if I don't get one, I have to work for my dad, which is more awful than it sounds. I've got a buttload of applications, one interview under my belt, and I've 'expressed interest' in two bank teller positions. I hope I get something, quick x.x
+In other news, my most recent experience with Her was mystifying. Granted it's only my second, it still confused the b'jeezus out of me. There was no fright however, like the last time; however, my room didn't try to eat me, which helped immensely. A bit of 2x had me wishing for at least a little more to push me over the edge from scattered thoughts to flowing thoughts, so I added about the same amount of 5x as last time and lay down in my bed. I closed my eyes and visions of an autumnal forest setting of my body swept me up in yellow-gold leaves, the wind pushing me down along the contours of my body turned to stone. A concerned old woman in a flower-print dress and a flower-print apron tried to give me advice, and at first I thought it was Her, but the green divinity isn't quite so trite and godmotherly. The Lady Sage later showed herself in a face of still-green leaves and basically told me that I wasn't ready to talk with her yet, and that, for some temporary-ish answers, I should look in myself, so I did and learned some.
+After that, I boiled down some Calea to make a resin, since it's so incredibly bitter, despite the wonderful smell of it's brew, and headed out to walk to Movie Gallery for the first Harry Potter, but ended up getting the second because the it was mis-filed. I was so confused, but I watched it anyway ^^ Mom watched some, until the disk fucked up from being scratched. She went to bed, and I got it working again to finish the movie. After that, I stayed up practicing Ginsberg's America for Facets, which is in a few weeks.
+Kory. Gosh, I'm obsessing +No shit, sherlock +But.. eh! +As I thought.</em
+ Expand all +I decided to exchange sleep for watching Amelie. It made me sad. Now I'm awake, and reading about drugs. Woo.
+I know I haven't written much about Michael recently, but I guess when everything seems pretty cool, it doesn't feel like there's a whole lot to write about. We just sorta threw everything out the window (the window, the window, the second story window...) and got rid of all the labels and ideas we had for the relationship, and aren't calling it anything. Samir tried to define it, so I just went along with whatever he said and kept my lack of names to myself. We've been fairly close recently, and I'm feeling pretty good about that. Moondog seems to be happy as well ^
+ Expand all +It's the immediacy, the seamless immediacy... +sometimes it's like she doesn't do much +of anything at all, but how many plants +do nothing with such clarity!
+I'd like to chant, perhaps Emmeleia. +Or.. you could come up with something on your own. +You know, do something productive with Nanon. +There's a thought. I still need to do those spells for Androo. +Exactly. Productive +I've noticed that, while my emotional colors are fading, you're becoming more prominent. +Who are you? +I'm a meme; I'm the idea of Lady Sage and Master Yage, +or maybe Eris and God. Are they the same? +I'm me. +I'm you. Are they the same? +I'm the fifth line of five. +You're an elusive bugger, that's what you are. +Damn straight. +You're depressing, too.
+...hello
+ Expand all +I asked a question of the cards and the stones last night. It was kinda depressing, but I feel like I'm already starting to fulfill. That made me incredibly sad, and now I'm clinging to a dream, a fading emotion that was once so prevalent as to take over all other thoughts and burn pink and red in the right side of my brain. If I'm letting go of something that gripped me so tightly, would I do something just as quick if not quicker to other emotions? +Remember, you once proclaimed that you attained enlightenment, that it took two hours of quiet time in bed +I remember freaking Rynden out with that. I told him I loved him. +Do you? +I... it is difficult to speak. I do, I suppose. +Well, then. +I'm lost. +Just remember that lancing white light +Will it help me find my way? +No, but it sure as hell feels good. +Or maybe that is the way. +I need a job. +Can't help ya there. +Please forgive these conversations with my Ally. If they get annoying, I'll make them private, but they really are helping me out, and they're kinda fun to read. For me at least.</small
+ Expand all +Your spells. If you need them to be shorter, leave out the parts in parentheses. The å character in MS Word is Ctrl+@,a (hold down ctrl while hitting shift-2, then a). You can copy-paste it into photoshop or whatever from there.
+Lightning: Roevi set kåtik (ato za majarbåti t'n) -- Translation: The lightning is grown (and it will run) +Fire: Roevi set kålar (ato za majarbåti t'n) -- Translation: The fire is grown (and it will run)
+I'm thinking spells for summoning of elements will all be pretty much the same. Just in case, the word for rain is s'sit; bodily energy, strength, or willpower is ganon.
+Let me know if you need any others. Also, if you want them in the native script of the language, let me know, and maybe we can work something out.
+Oh, and for posterity, Canadia. Thanks,
On a downswing.
+Very angry. Parents don't seem to help the stress level, since they tend to whine a lot. A whole lot. Sometimes, it feels like home is worse than school, even though I know it's not. I'll be fine when I get home, then when my mom gets home and does the whole 'parent' thing, things just sorta go downhill. Today it happened to occur during a dicussion with Andrew, so that sorta.. sucked.
+Sleep may be a factor, too, as I'm on my last bit of energy and it's not really that late.
+Still not sure whether I believe the $297 for a non-stop, round trip plane ticket to Florida over Christmas break. Especially since I just bought it. Oh well, now I'm two slips of paper richer
+ Expand all +Added more.
+Quizles
+Rannafox's bits are best described as his "colossal powerhouse".
+
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+ Expand all +Even though, when brewed as a tea, blue/white lotus is a sedative, I can't sleep. And I had quite a bit of that tea, too. I've worked myself into a sort of panic mode whereby I'm afraid to leave the phone, even though there's one by my bed. I'm afraid that I might miss something. I left my mom a note, since she really cares about Michael, but I'm hoping she doesn't try and take it into her own hands, like she's done it before. I think I might go add that to the note before my body gives up and crashes like it wants to
+ Expand all +I just wrote a story today. An erotic story. Note, not yiffy, erotic. Humans. Gosh! I'm embarassed. Talk to me if you want to read (I never said I wasn't proud) ^^ +Who's it about? +No one, really. At least not consciously. +Really now...
+Anyhoo, didn't sleep at all last night except for a nap after dinner 'cause of panic and Moondoggy. I was so afraid 'cause he didn't call, and I started imagining the worst. Even after I talked with him online, my imagination wouldn't let me sleep, so I up I stayed, obsessing over things like music, and Sadi. +I'll give you that: you're damn good at obsessing +Proud of it ^^ +...curses. +Fox Fluff Triptych
+ Expand all +Moondog's dad just showed up. Now the worryfest begins in earnest
+ Expand all +AhjeezthingshappenedandstuffandIdon'tknowhowtofeelandthingsareallrightaretheyormaybetheyaren'tthatgoodbutthey'reokayandIdon'tknowhowto
+feel.
+I took a sleeping pill. I should've taken two. I got three hours, laid in bed for another hour, and had to get up. Second night I can't sleep.
+I'm glad for Michael. I think. confused
+Finally got to sleep at 7 AM (no thanks to the second Nytol, which I took at 3). Got another few hours of really bad sleep. My head's changed from feeling like wool to feeling like wood: hollow. In other news, I feel like I don't matter much, and mexican food makes my tummy rumble
+ Expand all +Okie, so I cleaned out my car to put branches in it to dump them. +You feel accomplished at that? +Well.. yeah. It was really dirty :o) +Get to the point. +Fine. I got a call tonight from Shanerak of all people. We talked for an hour and a half about what's been going on with each of us, and even slipped back into our old habits of making jokes about how over the top and weird some furs are. He's going to a gemology trade school in Carlsbad, CA, and things he might move out to Boulder when he's done with that, which would be cool. He's a neat person to hang around. +So you like him, then? +Well.. yeah, I suppose. That long together and it's hard not to at least reminisce about the good times, no matter how long ago or distant they seem. +You think too much.
+In other news, I told my mom about not sleeping, and she banned me from having tea ;.; It made me sad, but she's right. I should lay off the caffeine. I'm not tired now, which is odd, considering how little I've slept. +Hyped up from talking to your ex? +Hushya. Mom gave me a Vicodin to help me sleep tonight. I'm gonna take it here while I read Michael's entry before it's too late to get a good night's sleep
+ Expand all +Despite abstaining from caffeine, despite feeling tired, despite the vic taken three hours ago, despite certain ah... activities which usually make me tired, I cannot sleep. I tried for an hour and a half. +You opened it, didn't you. That book... +I read a little. +Oh no... +I didn't really even realize what I'd done until I turned the page. Started reading. I skipped all of Truant's stuff, though. I was just interested in reading about the house. +Shit. +I'm gonna send Kris an email with my stuff for Facets, then see if I can't pry the book from my hands and go to bed. +Good luck. Seriously.</em
+ Expand all +Nice discussion with father figure tonight, no huge swings. Just did the thinking/meditating thing (I don't know about you, but I have to think things over to clear my mind. All you people who just go blank or something are either lucky or working too hard) and it didn't really resolve anything. All I feel from it is tired.
+Maybe the discussion had to do with the lack of swings (vice versa, too lazy to delete). Maybe keeping myself occupied helps, though it'd take an awful lot of work to keep myself as occupied as I was tonight. From overrestrictive parents, to science, to dogs, to math, to books, to music, &c. Well.. whatever
+ Expand all +I fell asleep! Hah! I did it! I fell asleep naturally at about 7 this morning! I'd even been sleeping for about five hours when, lo, the phone rings and wakes me up. It's my mom. She informs me that she's been thinking; if I don't get a job this summer, how am I going to be able to afford books? After all, I am paying for them, right?
+IT WOULD FOR GOD DAMN SURE BE EASIER IF I WEREN'T STILL PAYING FOR YOUR STUPID DIVORCE, FREAK. I drive 44 to 66 miles a week to go between your house and my dad's house because you two had a tiff and refuse to at least resolve it by paying for your only son's gas while you make him drive between the two goddamn houses.
+The math gives me $2520 over the past two and a half years I've been driving. Now, if I didn't want to eat or pay for the music I own, much less anything else, sure, I could do that out of my allowance, but life's just not that simple, is it? And now I have $300 in the bank and a projected $500 for books.
+Irate only begins to describe how I feel right now, because I'm about to drive another handful of dollars down the drain for my mom to drop off a load of branches for her at the dump. Honestly, I just feel like strewing them about the living room about now and leaving for a few days. Park my car or something and just sleep in it for a few days
+ Expand all +Now that today's intense emotional blast is over with...
+I went back to bed and slept a lot more, which felt really good, and now I'm not nearly so angry. I broke the light-switch plate in the big room downstairs, so I'm afraid I might have to replace that sometime... Anyway, my Diviner's Three showed up today. I still don't know if IAS wants me to send them back the Dreamers Blend. Woke up to the doorbell. Ryan and Nicku. Bugged Nicku a little about Azumanga. Yeah..
+ Expand all +Went to Sherpa's with mom, complained to her about the Quantum lab tech situation, she seemed to understand how that kinda really screwed me up. Sherpa's changed the recipe for their tomato chutney. I was disappointed, until I realized that the burn was still there, just more intriguing. Unfortunately, they didn't give me any of the chutney in the doggie bag... er, box.
+I just finished moving all of my GYBE, Mogwai, and Alamaailman Vasarat to my laptop. I should really see how much space I have left on it. Shouldn't fill it all up...
+Still need to call my roommate.
+ Expand all +Amelie: I feel a change. I had two heart attacks, an abortion, and did crack while I was pregnant. Other than that, I'm fine
+ Expand all +New - Kwiz.Biz Astrology</font
+ Expand all +Woke up early, 'cause I thought Kory was coming over, but he got delayed and didn't make it over until 2ish. We futzed around with Sibelius for a while, though we didn't get it to register on his computer. I didn't realize until I found myself lying next to him on the floor, showing him how to work my ebook, that the crush I've had on him for a year and a half has diminished greatly, to the point where I think of him as a nice looking friend. This bothered me for much of the rest of the day
+Facets. Done. Enough said.
+Coffee. Been getting some mixed signals from Michael regarding how close we are. Need to talk to him about that, but when it occurred to me, he'd gone off to sit by himself. Also, want to talk a little about closure. I don't feel like we really had much with how the relationship ended. I guess those are kinda related, 'cause I'm not sure how to act around him. Anyway, that's for Michael and I. Talked with Samir when said lunaecanis left, told him he was pretty, and immediately regretted it. Not because he isn't, but because I feel like so much that I say comes loaded with obligation, mostly societal, that I'm not really comfortable with. Talked with him more just now online about how I couldn't possibly be the Son of God/Fount of Love/person I had previously hoped to be, and how that has affected my relationships.
+If I fucked up writing that, ask me. +You're worried? +Frankly, yeah. Where've you been? +Eating your hormones, why? +Pbbth. Screw you. It's time to turn my headphones up too loud, turn out the lights, and meditate myself into a religious ecstasy. +Haha. Good luck.</em
+ Expand all +I'm trying to avoid the "profound perversity of a world that rests essentially on the nonexistence of return." A world I can't fix. A world in which everything happens once and now the lightness is getting to me. +It's a book, Ranna. +I know, but it's also an outlook on life, like every book. The Unbearable Lightness of Being is indirectly showing me why I feel hopeless: because everything happens only once, and seems to have no weight, no responsibility attached. +Oh, but they do! They're light, but they're not weightless. That's why you're having a hard time with the book +True, but I'm generalizing. +All generalizations are evil. +Haha. Honestly, though. I really think I should make more use of the friends and private settings in LJ. While I feel that I should be open, I think it might add some weight to my life. +Or maybe your delete key. +Just for that, I'm making this public and not even re-reading it. Apologies in advance
+ Expand all +http://www.erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=3440
+ Expand all +I'm not sure why this struck me as a good idea, other than it would give me some purpose in life for these three months (lack of job + spare time = bad thoughts). I've got a whole lot of sheet music, though most of it's classical, that we could try and learn...
+Anyway, I couldn't sleep last night, so I slept all of today. Set my alarm for 11 after going to bed at 9, woke up at 4:30 when my mom came home. She thinks I'm sick. I think I'm a loser
+ Expand all +Now that the initial elation is over, I'll actually write something. I don't mean to make this journal very personal, so you probably won't find much about me on here, which is good, 'cause I'm awfully boring. Most of what I'll post here is code snippets, ideas for projects, and finished projects. Getting right to the point..
+Nanon - project in progress - http://ranna.bolognia.net/cgi-bin/dirlist.pl/nanoen/ +I have the notes up, and I started a program to display everything all pretty-like, but Louis made me decide to write a formal Grammar for it. It's currently being done in LaTeX, but I'm kinda rusty at that, so it may be a while. As for the pretty display program..
+RF!P CM - Content Manager - idea - no url
+Perl, of course. Uses a mixture of $ENV{'PATH_INFO'}
and CGI to load subroutines and deal with files of different types (perhaps based on extension?). This might also do well for some sort of front end for..
FoxFe - project in progress - http://ranna.bolognia.net/cgi-bin/dirlist.pl/available/in-progress/ffcode +Bigass perl story server that I've been working on for eternity (sorry 'Leah). It kinda works.. only not.. and it doesn't have any frontends, except for one that I started in VB. It's purrrrddyyyy...
+ Expand all +I wish I could talk to my mom about being a 'stress factor' A lot of little things she does really get me going. Anyway, I can tell that the thinking and meditating is helping slightly. The swings are still severe, but they're more spread out now
+ Expand all +I talked s'more with Shanerak tonight. Some dangerous feelings there. I dunno what to do about them, either. +Yawn But what's new... +Shut up.
+Oh, I started that story Shan was thinking about writing, about people becoming furs, since he has yet to do anything about it and we talked about it two or three years ago. It's turning out to be harder to write than stream of consciousness porn or stupidity with drugs, but go figure. By the way, don't click on the first link unless you really do want to read gay stream of consciousness erotica, and don't click on the second if you don't want to read sagely ramblings. Don't complain, either :o
+ Expand all +Got woken up by a lonely smoke alarm pining for company this morning..
+Wait. This morning! Yee! I slept through the night! Finally! Anyway, as soon as I started to search for the beeping smoke alarm to replace it's battery and give it some tender luvvin's, it stopped beeping.
+In other news, I'm not allowed to take a shower in my bathroom for a while so that my mom can recaulk the tub, so I put a big ol' sign up on the door written in Nanon script. I'm such a loser ^
+ Expand all +Took a nap and accidentally slept through dinner. I wish my parents would wake me up for dinner, it would make things a lot easier for both of us
+ Expand all +Got up at 4:30. I may be turning into a morning person. +Heh heh heh. +What are you laughing at, punk? +My rootlets! My neural rootlets! I'm laying them down; becoming contageous. +Whoa now.. don't get too full of yourself... +Pbbth. +I could always, you know, pull the plug. Refuse to type another em or i tag... +Go eat your breakfast. You know you want it; Chex Mix and tangerine Emer'gen-C. Yum yum.</em
+ Expand all +It's that time again! Nap time! And I think napping would not be very conducive to not sleeping through dinner, so I'm gonna tough it out for a while.
+In other news, I'm kinda eager for this sleepoverdoohickey. Haven't seen Kiran in a while, and I gotta admit, I kinda miss him.
+Ally's already asleep -.
+ Expand all +I just finished Kiss Me, Judas. This book is exceedingly dark in a post-modern sort of way. I would highly recommend it to anyone who is into horror, noir, and/or slightly gory books. I'm willing to lend it to people if they want.
+In other news, got the Pathfinder towed ;.; I miss my twuck. I hope they figure out what's wrong with it. Just waiting for the call now..
+ Expand all +Sublet -- TOWING 60.00 +Labor -- 1 CHECK OUT WONT START.NO SPARK IGN. COIL IS BAD 112.50 +Part -- UF 38 IGN. COIL 108.35
+Warranty is 12 mo. / 12000 mi.
+Hazmat: $2.00 +Supplies: $8.63 +Tax: $8.96
+Total: $300.4
+ Expand all +RannaFox: giggles at a story "Socialist leader Jose Luis Rodriguez Zapatero was summoned to the Vatican to hear the papal blast just weeks after Zapatero announced his government would bring in a bill to allow gay marriage." +RannaFox: Set the Papal blasters to stun! +senotay2: heh ^
+ Expand all +Doctors appointment tomorrow. This time for shots (tetanus and meningitis) and more blood-work, this time with a big meal and lots of water beforehand (last time, with the fasting blood-work, I had high-end-of-normal haemoglobin and bilirubin counts [bilirubin is a byproduct of haemoglobin degradation, and is normal; in high amounts it's part of the cause of the yellow tinge in jaundice patients], so another liver panel it is).
+...damn, I need a job
+ Expand all +DocML - completed project http://ranna.bolognia.net/xml/DocML +I rewrote Nanon in this to be more universal than LaTeX (I don't like dvis). It's like html, but more for writing structured documents.
+Nanon's finished (except for a few small things) too: http://ranna.bolognia.net/nanon/xm
+ Expand all +Someone wanna do lunch before my appointment thingy? ^
+ Expand all +I haven't written anything of substance for days!
+But I did buy an cigarettes for a minor
+ Expand all +Apologies to Michael and Samir for freaking out at them. I guess I'm still good for clubbing, but I need to check with parents... I'll call later.
+Also to Kanu and Kianir, neither of whom read this (I think), for having to deal with me last night
+ Expand all +I had a dream about Kory last night. It was nice. A little too nice, though. I guess I'm not completely over him. +Go figure... +You're back! +Yeah. Your front. +Heh x.x Anyhoo, not sure about Shan now, either. +Were you ever? +Good question. I mentioned something to Michael and Samir about having gotten lost somewhere along the line, and I think I know when: Rynden. I did something when that whole thing was going on, and.. I dunno. I just kinda started making decisions that were separate from my path, separate from my ideal. I don't regret them, and most of them I enjoy or would've made anyway, but I feel like it wasn't really me that made them. +That had nothing really to do with Shan. Anyway, you know everyone does that, right? Everyone has multiple Aspects of themselves (just look at me) and sometimes an Aspect will make a decision behind your back (seemingly) and it will feel like someone else. +But then, maybe it is. +Careful, or you'll start to sound like me. +Hah. In other news, Erowid sent me their newsletter, or, rather, two of them. When I donated, The agreement was that I would get two of the semi-annual Erowid Extracts, and I thought that meant that I'd get one from the middle of this year and one from the beginning of next year, but instead, I got one from the middle of this year, and one from the end of last year. Oh well. Good stuff, really. Now I'm just waiting for the rest of the Pharmako/ series and the sheet music for Whitacre's A Boy and a Girl.
+Oop, mom's home
+ Expand all +Off to a sleepover. Good thing my dad just paid me for something as simple as mowing the lawn, otherwise the gas wouldn't be worth it. Gonna bring laptop and Bebop. NICK SHOULD BRING AZUMANGA DAIOH!!!!!! Yes he should oh yes he should *coo
+ Expand all +The lyrics to Green Bird are in a constructed language: a made up language by either the composer, Yoko Kanno, or the singer, Gabriela Robin
+ Expand all +I have a post half-written about the sleepover, but it's on my laptop, and I can't wedge it into the network at the moment, so I'll replace this with it later
+ Expand all +At ye oulde Sleepover of doom, currently, and now, at five fifty one in the morning, all but Androo and I are trying to sleep. Kiran curled up on the lounge chair, Ryan wrapped in his cloak as an amorphous black blob on the couch with Nicku being an amorphous white blob nearby. Jeff and Brian are sharing the bed, Jeff already asleep and Brian sleeping like Macleish did: on his back, arms crossed in a blatant refusal to even look like he might be relaxed enough to even to be remotely considered gay.
+Hahaha, now they've found the fold-out bed and Kiran's playing good host as Ryan and Nick shift to it.. while I type on ranna's blog +~Anteru
+Christ.. this is really difficult! ^^
+Kiran looks really, really tired, and at six twenty two, no one has yet made it to sleep. Nick was even forced to take a melatonin.
+~~~
+Yeesh. Okie, now, two days later. Kiran did eventually make it to sleep for about an hour and a half before we decided to get donuts and coffee at Safeway. That done (a difficult experience, trust me), we headed back and futzed around before Ryan and Nick left. With them gone, we goofed around a little more while Brian and Jeff slept. I piled on Kiran and annoyed him some while Andrew dozed, maybe. I might've dozed a little too, since Kiran makes a good pillow. I think I made him uncomfortable with my proximity, but I always think that, and he always assures me I don't. I'm not sure I believe him.
+Anyhoo, in recent news, I rated all the Bebop music Andrew gave me; lotsa good stuff, some stuff I didn't like. Need to give the Andrew the bumpersticker I got for Moondoggy.
+Today, I got emissions and registration done on ye oulde pathfinder, then went home for lunch with fatherfigure. After he left, I collected some wild lettuce sap (for relaxation) and tried to figure out some other weeds in our backyard. One is probably bindweed (wild morning glory, not of any interest to me currently) and the other I positively identified as horsemint. I love the stuff, so I collected some new branches and some tops. I put the tops in some wet paper towels in the hopes that horsemint grows from cuttings, and I dried the leaves of the branches. It's not of much spiritual interest, but I love the smell and the taste (though I may be alone in that respect). I'm curious to explore some more aspects of it, but I'm feeling that it's a kind of blank herb
+ Expand all +Just lying there, on the sidewalk. Then I looked around, and realized that the only thing within 20 feet that was actually alive was a rosebush. I was extraordinarily confused. I walked around a little, and eventually found a stand of mushrooms, but not the same kind by a long shot. I'm curious as to what the one I found is... I picked it up in a piece of plastic from my dry cleaning and wrapped it up in it in case it's poisonous. Two guesses so far as to the genus: Armillaria and Amanita. It's odd, I'll take a picture sometime. Wondering as to what the two stands I found in the grass are, now. One I'm pretty sure is the poisonous kind that grows in people's yards around here, but I dunno what the other is. Maybe a picture of that, too.
+Odd, I just watched Mushroom Samba last night. o.O
+Anyhoo, I took pictures of the house today for marketing, and now I'm at Caffe Sole waiting for the comforters to dry at the Laundromat.
+Yipku
+ Expand all +Zim was tempting me today at B&N, so just to show it that I meant business, I bought it! Hah! So there! C.c
+A reminder to myself to frequent his L
+ Expand all +If you want to hear the story, read Shannon's post(s). As for me, I'll provide you with this lurvely depiction of my life for a while.
+Met someone today who was like a more talkative Shanerak. It was odd.
+Shower, dinner, then maybe go attack Ryan
+ Expand all +I received a package today: Pharmako/dynamis came. Pharmako/gnosis is all that's left. +~ +
~*~
+Start from where you are. +Saturnian verses, step zero. +Let's try to get this right from the beginning.
+Fat chance.
+Writing versus research, a metaphor there. Which do you do?
+Some of both. That is surely the poison path. It's all about the dosage
+The research is the lunar medicine: visionary exploration and dreaming dreams. But the lunar medicine needs a substrate, a sounding board--
+maybe + a printing press, a green house, a micrometer, + a phenethylamine backbone, a classroom of students.
+Something for the medicine to work upon: the substrate is the solar medicine.
+a stack of books debating like a council of citizens + a council of citizens fermenting like a barrel of wine + a barrel of wine dreaming like a rack of dresses + a rack of dresses dangling like a toolbelt + a toolbelt smiling like a scalpel + a scalpel dropping like a line of hooks + a line of hooks disappearing like a revolution + a revolution breathing like a forest
+like a palette of colors, or a waiting laboratory, + or maybe a kitchen, or just a pad of paper,
+an equation condensing like a poem, + a poem listening like a guitar, + a guitar resonating like a stack of books. +¡Basta! señor. As the man said. Enough.
+It is clear that the poison path has to do with a certain excess. Hyperbole: what is the alternative to dying a thousand deaths?
+Madness!</em
+ Expand all +I need to think about Aya. I'll just store it better for now. I don't think I really need it. I was just collecting the Datura, I wasn't planning on doing anything with it
+ Expand all +The Ultimate LiveJournal Obsession Test | ||
Category | Your Score | Average LJer |
Community Attachment | 40.86% There's something special about you. Every once in awhile, one of your topics gets everyone chatting. | 22.37% |
MemeSheepage | 45.61% An expert on multiple-choice questions, an whiz at the cut-and-paste | 28.1% |
Original Content | 67.74% Newsweek, People, and gv_ranna's journal | 38.11% |
Psychodrama Quotient | 44.58% Would it kill you to smile? CHEER UP! | 17.13% |
Attention Whoring | 29.55% You do a little dance whenever someone friends you | 20.7% |
CRITIC: +It's not good enough. Your friends are just being polite. No one will take it seriously. They probably won't even like it. You don't really even know the rules of good writing. You misspell elixir every time you write it.
+SELF: +So when's the last time you wrote a book?
+CRITIC: +I would not stoop to ad mediocrity to the great cannon of Western Culture.
+SELF: +No, you just sit there and criticize every new creation, every innovation, until it all stops and you are left with your tired and dusty classics. You leave it to time, the worms, and the spiders to make art for you. Thank you for your input. Without you, I might've ended up a real writer, and where would I be then? Busy writing "good" books on contract, one after another. Or in some staid lecture hall, feeling full of myself.
+Instead of like this, stumbling along, mostly out of my mind, scribbling whatever comes.</em
+ Expand all +I had decided that the label making programs suck, so I just drew it myself. My hands were really shakey, 'cause I haven't inked in a long while, so that's why some of the handwriting sucks.
+Same vein, different topic: got my choir CDs. Now I just need to strip the applause from them. Grr. I don't like some of the recordings
+ Expand all +Nightmare about choir, dream about Kory, extreme boredom. Pondering trip to see Shan later on this summer. Still pondering, though, I'm not sure I really want to go. I dunno
+ Expand all +And but your word wol helen hastily +My hertes wounde, while that hit is grene,
+Your yen two wol slee me sodenly; +I may the beautee of hem not sustene.
+Upon my trouthe I sey you feithfully +That ye ben of my lyf and deeth the quene; +For with my deeth the trouthe shal be sene.
+So hath your beautee fro your herte chaced +Pitee, that me ne availeth not to pleyne; +For Daunger halt your mercy in his cheyne. +Giltles my deeth thus han ye me purchaced; +I sey you sooth, me nedeth not to feyne;
+So hath your beautee fro your herte chaced
+Pitee, that me ne availeth not to pleyne.
+Allas! that Nature hath in you compassed
+So greet beautee, that no man may atteyne
+To mercy, though he sterve for the peyne.
+
(Cut me in half like a peach, apple, or pear, +Eat me for breakfast +And spit out my little bones)
+I will grow through your floor in a shape of a tree
+And will be with you everyday.
+Until you cut me down
+Until you get bored someday.
+
Tempest the nought al croked to redresse, +In trust of hire that tourneth as a bal. +Myche wele stant in litel besynesse; +Bywar therfore to spurne ayeyns an al; +Stryve not as doth the crokke with the wal. +Daunte thiself, that dauntest otheres dede; +And trouthe shal delyvere, it is no drede.
+That the is sent, receyve in buxumnesse; +The wrestlyng for the worlde axeth a fal. +Here is non home, here nys but wyldernesse. +Forth, pylgryme, forth! forth, beste, out of thi stal! +Know thi contré! loke up! thonk God of al! +Hold the heye weye, and lat thi gost the lede; +And trouthe shal delyvere, it is no drede. </lj-cut
+ Expand all +On the milking of Chaos. +Setting Orange, the 66th day of Bureaucracy in the YOLD 3168
+Behold, among a field of chaos, the chao that stands out the most is the one +that is not there. + Ovaltine 5:23
+There is no limit to the milking of chaos among men.
+Well, there is one, and that one is that no man can milk the mu-Chao. Only +Her Rather-holy Holiness Eris may milk such a chao, for the mu-Chao is the +chao of NO-THING.
+Each man may milk - no, has to milk - at least one small chao in his life +time; there is no way for human beans to NOT do such a thing. Milking the +mu-Chao isn't possible because simply by their mere existence, men create +chaos among the world, and, as much as they strive against this fact, there's +not a thing they can do about it.
+Eris just skips over the rule of existence gaily and goes about milking as she +pleases.
+It is said that once, when a great Discordian was asked if he had seen the +mu-Chao, he thought for a second before replying: "Yes, but not with my own +eyes." The questioner remained unenlightened because he was stoned at the +time, but mostly because he was stupid.
+To this day, I'm still not sure what I'm talking about. Thank you
+ Expand all +Take the quiz: "Which Random Irish Gaelic Phrase Are You? "
Ta mo bhriste tri thine
Ta mo bhriste tri thine - 'My trousers are on fire.'You're a few bricks short of a load, aren't you? You're probably not allowed to use sharp objects and you should be locked in a rubber room. With Rubber rats. Rubber rats? I hate rubber rats. They drive me crazy. Crazy? I was crazy once. They put me in a rubber room. With rubber rats. Rubber rats? I hate rubber rats..
I'm thinkin' a trip to the Renaissance Festival, just for the pack. How does this coming weekend sound? Either day's fine for me. Tickets are $14.95 at Soopers, I'll drive
+ Expand all +The Federal Marriage Amendment died in the Senate today in a 50-48 vote, with the proponents missing the 60 vote bid put on by the democrats by twelve votes. Thus, the issue is most likely dropped for this year
+ Expand all +I'm sorry about all of the teasing, but setting and my tiredness prevented anything more. *luv
+ Expand all +1 packet rosehip tea (assuming that's about 10 dried/ground rosehips). +7 drops of honey. +5 horsemint flowers (or 1 large leaf, or a pinch of dried leaf). +3 leaves lemon balm. +3 leaves mint (I believe it's spear mint). +2 leaves basil
+Makes one cup. For stronger taste, run through espresso machine twice. (sans honey and horsemint; steep the horsemint and add the honey last - this makes a very strong tea). A very small amount of cinnamon goes well. It's useful for many things, but I have yet to figure out what. Basically, it just makes me feel good. Not terribly tasty. Tastes better on more sugar/honey, but.. well, whatever. I'm hung up on numbers ^^
+~~~ +~~
+I have the sheet music for Tallis' Spem in Alium for 40 voices (eight choirs of five parts each), and I was just thinking how cool it'd be to sing that at CSU flashmob style. Have 40 or 80 people milling about during a busy day on the plaza suddenly burst into song starting with a solitary voice. It's handy that way, so you don't have to blow a pitch pipe loudly and attract attention. For directing, a tactus might be handy. A white cloth on the top of my staff would work.
+This would require much planning. First, getting even 40 people might be tough. Perhaps vague signs in the music building and perhaps on the Plaza and in the student center.. I wouldn't want anyone except the choir and a few others to know where and when. Writing vague things on the ground might help, like 'It's coming... (date)' or 'Hope... You ready? (date)'. Rehearsals would be done within the choirs; I could try and make it to all the different ones, I suppose.
+It's a wonderful song to do in flashmob style, 'cause it starts out small and gets fairly big over a span of time, slowly attracting attention. It doesn't even have to be at the Plaza, or even at CSU, or even in Ft. Collins. Then the choir could just disapear into the crowd (hopefull ^^). The only real problem with the song is that it's 10 minutes long c.c Well, whatever. I'll look around, maybe there are some other ones that would work well. Some stuff, just as a note to myself: Socio-Musicological Ramifications, Experiments in Socio-Musicology, have my own group be the first choir. Some notes on the song: 138 bars; the pdfs I have of the sheet music are for individual choirs with the other choirs in piano reduction; each file is 34 pages long; I have midis of all parts and all choirs separately, as well as one of the whole thing with a continuo; given time, which I have, I could Sibelius-ize the song, and distribute cds to all members with stuff on them, like an mp3 of the song, appropriate midis, and sheet music
+ Expand all +Stuff!! Yeah. I'll pick up Mikeywolf first, so he should be ready by.. say.. 10:30 (if you're gonna wear the tunic, wear long pants, preferably not blue - I have some you can borrow if you want). After that, I shall steal the Breakfast Fox (cloaaak.. and staaaaff), and proceed to make my way to the Pilot's house. Then.. hope for the best, 'cause I don't really know how to get there other than on I-25, and I don't want to take that ^
+ Expand all +I sense a cusp...
+Or maybe I just have to go to the bathroom.
+Re-read Lirael, then Abhorsen, now Sabriel.
+Death is subjective, see.. the Gates are a set distance from the observer, and inherently infinintely circular, but everywhere at once >.
+ Expand all +STUFFFFFFFF!!!
+Sorry I wasn't around for retrieval services, Ryan, or wasn't paying attention, or whatever.
+But hey! Your tea is good ^^ (no, haven't broken into your half, but I'm going through mine quickly since I left my chai at OASOS)
+In other, more serious news, while looking at insurance stuffs, my mom found that the majority of insurance companies will refuse to insure us. Why? Millie. Met-Life, of all people, whose logo is A FREAKING DOG won't insure us. As it is, State Farm (with whom we're insured) doesn't have such crazy policies, but if Millie bites someone, they'll drop us completely. Grr.. makes me angry. We're thinking of emphasizing Millie's Boston Terrier over the pit-bull (read, omitting the pit-bull part). Mikey was telling me about when he got his puppy, some kid wanting to bring up another puppy from the litter as a fighting dog. Well... FUCK YOU, BUDDY. It's people like you that make my dog illegal! Damnit...
+Got angry at mom today. I'm getting so irritable 'cause I'm so bored.. So we went out to a movie. Spiderman 2. I give it e stars out of 2
+ Expand all +http://www.nononsenseselfdefense.com/victimhood.htm +http://www.nononsenseselfdefense.com/blame_responsibility.htm
+ Expand all +This has got to be one of the world's coolest songs
+ Expand all +Isn't Google handy?!?!114m
+By the way, that's incredibly strong for a suspension. I believe it's saturated o.
+ Expand all +
You are a fluffy bunny.
+Either you are not evil at all, or the perfect
killer in disguise.
+I'd rather not stick around to find out.
+
Which Cool Evil Guy Are You?
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Brain.. shredded. Azumanga Daioh.. all four manga.. glrk
+ Expand all +My mom woke me at around 12:20 (four hours. Good enough) by placing an espresso maker - still in the box, mind you - on my not-so-peacefully sleeping form. There was much rejoycinge, for I was having a really stupid dream. Then I went upstairs, and made some goddamned coffee ^
+ Expand all +Friends only to avoid copyright infringement :o) I thought it was good.
+I slept 12 hours today, after sleeping a bunch the night before ('night' here is a relative term, since the day was rather long), but my mom finally brought out into the open a point I've been mulling over for a while: my body's rebounding after all of the caffeine I have during the day in multiple forms (tea, chai, espresso). Well.. that's kinda vague, and missing the point a bit, but she's right, I do need a bit of ground-state training.
+So here's my idea. Three days of fasting starting tomorrow. Fasting from caffeine, from food, from the computer (go on, try and convince me that boundless information is conducive to a ground-state ^^), from everything except, you know, water. And air. And living. You get the point. I need to study on it a little, first, though. I'm wondering if it'd be all that great to just go straight to only water. Should I keep taking my Emer'gen-C? Or maybe just for the first and third days? Or not even that, but juice instead? I'm just hoping I can find some decent information online.
+Online. Well, whatever this fast turns out to be, I'll probably, at the very least, take a break from caffeine and the computer. Also, I'll try and get a regular sleep schedule going without melatonin.
+Any input would be handy. Preferably before I start. :o)
+Edit: I need a bit to prepare, looking back on what I've eaten recently, so I won't be starting until Saturday
+ Expand all +Breakfast Fox: That would be cool if there were tactical porn squads +Matt Scott: ... +Breakfast Fox: Then if someone was bragging about some sort of sexual exploit they'll be surrounded by people all in black latex who would beat them into submission (ha ha) with dildos and drag them into a van +Breakfast Fox: WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME TONIGHT +Breakfast Fox: <.<
+ Expand all +(NB: I'm only online in the sense that I'm letting LJ post this, and I'm using CDDB to get track names for the CDs I'm listening to)
+Yes, kids, going without food will indeed make you hungry. I find myself craving salt, mostly, so I've been making 'virgin Bloody Marys' to get at that. I'm not as hungry as I think I should be, though, so I'm wondering at my choices of juice. Are they too thick, maybe? Oh well. It's still less then food.
+Almost finished with The Fall of Hyperion.
+(NB: Okie, I lied. I checked my friends list. Sorry x.x It's so haaaard to go without computer ;.;
+ Expand all +In the book I'm reading, one of the means of communication is to modulate the superstring of the current universe. I found it interesting, thought you might too. ^
+ Expand all +I broke my fast. Before I realized what I was doing, I'd eaten a few olives.. Oh well, I guess I could keep going, but, while I'm not really hungry, I miss the solace and wondrousness of food. I might just go ahead and end the fast early, since I got at least 30 hours out of it. And juice. I got juice.
+Yey or ney? I seem to be checking for comments online, so I'll get answers left here
+ Expand all +http://www.twotowersprotest.org/ +http://www.petitiononline.com/twotower/ +http://www.snopes.com/rumors/cool.ht
+ Expand all +Broke the fast. It's not What I Need (tm). Maybe later, when it'll be of more use to me.
+I guess I might as well get on the friggin' net. I'll stay away from caffeine, though. For a while, at least
+ Expand all +Hehe, wow, life really took a turn for the worse ^^
+What little empathy I have left + Michael = x.x
+Alienated another one of my friends. Woo, go me.
+Reading old books. Still like the Hyperion series. +But I have promises to keep +And miles to go before I sleep
+ Expand all +I guess you have to have the downs to make the ups enjoyable, but must they be so low?
+Edit1 - That said, this is a really cool feeling. It's like I'm asleep, really, but.. I'm awake o.O If I close my eyes I start dreaming.
+Edit2 - Heh. I translated Spem in Alium. Kinda makes me think twice about a public performance. But it's so puuuuurdy.
+Spem in alium numquam habui praeter in te +I have never put my hope in another except for you +Deus Israel +God of Israel +qui irasceris +Who will fly into a rage +et propitius eris +And will be well-disposed +et omnia peccata hominum in tribulatione dimitis +and who dismisses all sins in troubled man +Domine Deus Creator coeli et terra +Lord God, creator of heavendamn, I hate that spelling and earth +respice humiliationem nostram +(behold or care for) our lowliness</em
+ Expand all +I'm stealing Shan's neighbor's wireless. It's fun. Anyway, this visit's turning out to be really cool, and kinda sad 'cause of that for fairly obvious reasons. It's hot here. I got a hematite ring. Shan has school until 5 today. Stuff. Internet. Laffo. OMGWTF it's true. Lawl. I met N(itrogen) and WishIWas. They're really cooool.
+I'll stop now. :o)
+Oh yeah, before I forget: Esadim and Star Spangled Banner are finished. In the works: "Jeder Engel ist Schreklich" for SATBSATB and piano; "Stanzas" for SATB; and a bunch of ideas for a piano concerto
+ Expand all +Christ... I got so depressed just leaving to go get my bags scanned. Shan and I had just had an awkward and brief goodbye, though I'd been clinging to him all day at the apartment, so I guess I wasn't really prepared to be.. saddened by going home. I've been reading almost continuously since then just to keep myself distracted from this. It really sucks.. I'm thinking of giving him a call when I get to the airport, though I'm not sure what good it would do.
+Ah well. Planes still suck.
+Edit: Got in too late for calling. Hope I'll see him around soon or something.
+ Expand all +It was divine. However, I can't think of anything to write about it, so.. yeah. Met Wish and Nitrogen, who are exceedingly cute together. One of them I had met previously and was a little embarrassed around, but whatever. It was good to see Shan again. He thinks he might come out here sometime soon. We'll see
+ Expand all +I've realized that one of the reasons I'm excited about going to college is that I won't be a taxi there :o)
+Don't appologize. It's fun driving people around. Just expensive is all.
+ Expand all +http://outofambit.blogspot.com/archives/2004_08_01_outofambit_archive.html#10925491851623024
+ Expand all +Once upon a time, when the Young Wizards series was just getting started and the books were still at Delacorte, I did a story called "Uptown Local" for a Dell-published anthology of teen fiction called Sixteen. (This is the story with the first line, "My father had the flu that week, so I was the one who had to go down to the subway and feed the unicorns.") The anthology did very well, and various of its stories, including mine, were selected for publication in numerous US textbooks.
+Something interesting happened at that point. One of the young characters tells the other that a parent is concerned about the way they've been behaving, and suspects that one or both of them might be on drugs. The other character, knowing that both of them (but especially the first one) are completely innocent of this kind of thing, snorts and says, "You kidding? You wouldn't know which side of your nose to put the marijuana up." Seems positive enough, huh? Two "clean" kids dealing realistically with fallout from a fantastic situation. Well, imagine my bemusement when the first textbook publisher to want to use the story demanded that the drugs reference be excised.
+I remember being annoyed at the time, but thinking that the issue wasn't worth making a big deal over; I chopped the line and let the story go through otherwise unchanged. Now I'm beginning to wish I'd dug in my heels, for I find I was at the thin edge of a problem which has become much, much worse.
+The Language Police goes into truly scary detail about how pressure groups from both the right and the left are insisting that any content that might possibly upset or challenge any student anywhere should be removed from their textbooks. A quote from the Washington Post review:
+So much for the old truism that no maiden was ever ravished by a book. The ideologues of right and left have, apparently, bottomless faith in the power of the written word to shape not just the minds of the young but to determine the course of their lives. They believe that to describe something is to endorse it, so they insist that what they do not endorse cannot be described. The spineless textbook publishers and testing companies capitulate with not a peep of protest, indeed with a smile, for the paycheck is very large. "What's left," [author Diane] Ravitch asks, "after the language police and the thought police from the left and right have done their work?" Her answer deserves to be quoted at length:
+
+"Stories that have no geographical location. . . . Stories in which all conflicts are insignificant. Stories in which men are fearful and women are brave. Stories in which older people are never ill. Stories in which children are obedient, never disrespectful, never get into dangerous situations, never confront problems that cannot be easily solved. Stories in which blind people and people with physical disabilities need no assistance from anyone because their handicaps are not handicaps. Stories in which fantasy and magic are banned. Stories about the past in which historical accuracy is ignored. Stories about science that leave out any reference to evolution or prehistoric times. Stories in which everyone is happy almost all the time."
+
+In a word: Fantasyland, a place so wildly disconnected from reality that it makes Walt Disney's Magic Kingdom seem by contrast a painting by Pieter Bruegel or Edvard Munch.
+
Grrrrrr.
+No more excisions. One disservice to my younger readers, however minor, has been enough. I will never cave again
+ Expand all +e4428679087c9aec74b239813aca1d0f +http://www.ljmeme.co
+ Expand all +RannaFox: Bed sounds good, but coffee sounds better. +yeahiwishiwas: coffee is evil +yeahiwishiwas: may god have mercy on your soul. +RannaFox: Ego me absolvo. +yeahiwishiwas: psh +RannaFox: Hey, I'm the pope, I'm allowed to do that, aren't I? +yeahiwishiwas: no sir it doesn't work that way +RannaFox: ... +RannaFox: Curses. +RannaFox: Foiled again. +yeahiwishiwas: there are some things in this world... +yeahiwishiwas: that are unforgivable... +RannaFox: Like drinking espresso neat? +yeahiwishiwas: haha just like that, ye
+ Expand all +How aboot breakfast? Wednesday morning? Ryan said maybe, I say yes. Shannon? Kiran? Androo? Well.. Androo suggested it, um.. Anyone else
+ Expand all +Might be inaccessible, but I'll check this thing if I can.
+Terb, might need some help, if you're willing and able, with network stuff. Talk to you whenever about it. I have your cell #, that still work
+ Expand all +Shannon, don't suppose it's too late to ask you to bring my USB memory drive..? c.
+ Expand all +Dunno what to write about, now that I'm here.
+Roommate? +Class - homework. +Lon, Ryan, Shannon, Me, Martha = Go Us. +What.
+Arg. Maybe I'll fill this in later, but.. I dunno
+ Expand all +New! Get Free Daily Horoscopes from Kwiz.Biz
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+ Expand all +Okay, so I'm a bit of a hypocrite, but Still(tm), Kiran hasn't posted in for. ev. er. My excuse is a mixture of: too busy, and the stuff I've been doing doesn't seem worth writing about. Except for the rampant buttsecks. Oh wait, there hasn't been any. I suppose I should update for real.
+Roommate: +This has a potential to end poorly, but, as Ryan points out, so does most everything, agagaga. He's a born-again devout catholic (my roommate, not Ryan), and I'm a big ol' flamey faggot. So.. yeah, but he's not around all that often, so LON takes over my room. Except for during the buttsex.
+Lon: +There's this kid, see, and his name is Lon, right? Yeah. He's this kid, right, right, okay, so he's this kid on my hall. And he's blonde.
+Teh Trhee Furrehs: +There have been some damn funny moments, and a few bones of contention, which have been cleared up, and some snot dressing on Ryan's salad. Um.. so, yeah. Wargh c.c
+Food: +Tasty.
+Buttsex: +nonexistant.
+Classes: +Okay, but we need to get past this goddamned review part. That or people really didn't learn that much in highschool and Fairview was somehow exceptional.
+Loooooooomf: +What.
+I'm sorry, I think I've lost my journalling knack
+ Expand all +You see a slender and slightly shorter-than-average Border Collie. She looks more or less a typical member of her species - a pure + white stripe runs betwen her expressive eyes and frames her narrow muzzle, with jet-black fur covering the rest of her head and + back. Clearly defined lines between the contrasts wend uneven paths down her sides. Her slightly curled and overly fluffy tail + often waves gently from side to side. Her eyes, the only sign of her hybrid nature, are inherited from her ancestors; pale yellow + encircles her pupils, the hue almost luminescent when in sunlight. She wears a strange collection of clothes, consisting mostly + of fuzzy stuff with some jinglies thrown about her neck, wrists, and ankles
+ Expand all +Trust Metric |
I miss Shan.
+That is all
+ Expand all +Majors: +
Ah, such fun. I stopped in the GLBTSS office and got my email straightened out (ha ha) with them, then proceeded to discuss the differences between gay and lesbian erotica. The feature quote: "Suck my feet, fucker (reading)" "Is that 'suck my feet -comma- fucker,' or 'suck my feet -hyphen- fucker'?
+ Expand all +Can't.. get.. motivated. +It's the first day of school.. it's the first day of school... +You're back! You were missed. +By whom? +Now now, specificity isn't my thing.
+Anyway, yeah. I've been 'working' on this same stupid assignment for a long, long time now, and I've gotten.. one annotation, and one underline. I think I might just do it tomorrow, since I don't have to post it. In the mean while, I've been being foxish on FM, discussing stuff with Brandon, and chatting with someone I met earlier at SOGLBT. +so-glibut, so-gulb't, so-gullybutt... +Amused? +Quite. Sleepy too. +Me too. And horny, but ANYWAY! SOGLBT. Yes. I went. We played the Ft. Collins version of All My Neighbors ("I love my neighbors, but I especially love my neighbors who..."). It was.. not quite what I expected, having gone to OASOS for four years. The 'keep it clean' type rules were a bit of a shock. I would've thought it would be the other way around: OASOS would be cleaner than SOGLBT, but oh well. It wasn't a very involving group, at least not this week. Announcements, then All My Neighbors, but after that, I went to hang out with some really neat folks. Of note were Andy, a history nerd who's quite neat, and Shyan (sounds like Shawn, but I think that's how he spelled it), who thinks he might be able to get me a work-study in a biochem lab (EXCITING). There was a rather quiet kid at the group that reminded me a little of Shan, and I was, of course, automatically drawn to him.. +You've gotta work on this fixation thing +Pish and tosh. We were together for two years, I've known him for four. Needless to say, He's played a rather big part in my life. Besides, I'm fairly sure it'll pass. Back to SOGLBT, I was kinda hoping to see Terb, but now that he's much closer, it wouldn't be that hard to just.. hang out sometime. Or whatever ^^ So, yeah, getting into the gay swing of things on campus. +Gay gay gay gay gay... +Are you drunk? +Not rearry giggle +Hmf. Well, the only other thing I really feel like reporting is that there was this street-preacher on campus today who was really fascinating. There were dialogues between him and the crowd. For a while, things were going really well as an argument, but he ended up just pissing people off or making them laugh, so he brought up this woman who lived a life of submission to her husband under the lord and had seven children. I suspected she was his mistress. +For some unknown reason, that's intensely hilarous, but I'm not laughing. +You know, I think it's time for sleep..
+By the way, Ryan: __,,,^..^,,,_
+ Expand all +http://www.nobodyhere.com/toren.hie
+ Expand all +Buttsex!
+Teh Story: +Ryan is sleeping over because his roommate and his girlfriend are drunk and um.. awkward handmotions together? Anyway, so he was going to sleep on the floor, but decided that was uncomfortable so he moved onto the bed and we worked it so that we're sleeping head to toe. Now, dorm beds are California Twins, which means they're really long and narrow, so we ended up touching a little even though we were turned away from each other. This got me thinking, 'Hey, I bet that's his butt I feel so warm against mine, it's almost like..' and before I could finish the thought, Ryan pipes up - nay, shrieks gleefully, "Buttsex!"
+I had to leave the room.
+Still giggling, + - Matt
+ Expand all +A sabatical, perhaps, or perhaps a fast. +A fast from people. +Yes, that's it. Is it for cleansing? Is it for sanity? +Perhaps, but whose? +I'm sorry I've not been writing much, but...
+I don't know
+ Expand all +So.. yeah. Ryan and Shannon have taken over one bed, and Lon the other, so I'm online. +Of course. +I'm a wee-bit tired, but whatever. I feel strange, like I'm waffling between friends: the FHS group, the Braiden group, the GLBTSS group, and online friends. I feel kind of bad 'cause I've been sort of neglecting the last group due to necessity. I feel odd talking to people online with others in the room, so I end up not talking a whole lot, especially with Kianir and Megawolf. +I think that's part of gaining a social life. +Perhaps, but it's not something I really want to happen right now. Oh well, such is part of the cost of privacy lost. I'm tempted now to go for a walk and watch the sun rise, but I'm listening to Shostakovitch
+ Expand all +I would not be lying if I said I was happy to receive my bed
+ Expand all +There are those +Who cannot + s e e +FtOhReE S T +FOR + t + h + e +t r e e s
+But I...
+I cannot s l e e p +for +the +dreams</font
+ Expand all +Taking snippets of the bible (other books, maybe, if I can get my hands on them) and rephrasing them for lyrics.
+Psalm 141:3-5 - +3Set a guard, O Lord, over my mouth; keep watch over the door of my lips. +4Do not incline my heart to any evil thing, to practice wicked works with men who work iniquity; and do not let me eat of their delicacies. +5Let the righteous strike me; it shallbe a kindness. And let him rebuke me, it shall be as excellent oil; let my head not refuse it. For still my prayer is against the deeds of the wicked.
+Paraphrased - +Stand guard over my mouth +Stand watch over the door of my lips +Keep my heart from evil +Keep me from wicked men and their wrongs. +Hold not back the blow of the righteous, + 'Tis kindness; +Hold not back their rebukes, + 'Tis justice; +Let it fall upon me +For still my mind is set +against the wrath of man
+I Corinth. 13 in Nanon - +Loråtla fetah. +Anåt fetah. +Nu kufemotla fetah. +Nu haleputatla fetah. +Nu haledatåtla fetah. +Nu halesupotla fetah. +Nu tuvårier fetah lubåtam t'ner. +Nu kufori set fetah. +Nu mununier fetah esunotalam. +Nu jaruvåtier fetah unotalam - +Ato harahier t'n houka anåtalam. +Mununier fetah houkalam, +Konemier t'n houkalam, +Horanemier t'n houkalam, +Hatarier t'n houkalam. +Nuka jodoti fetah
+ Expand all +Revolutionary Spirit @ DCPA: Boettcher Concert Hall - Orchestra2:row O:seats 28 & 29 - Sunday September 22, 2002 at 2:30pm +I only really went for the Shosty. I'm addicted. Fifth Symphony especially. Oh well. I got to see my first bit of Daugherty
+We need a word for him: antimelody (n) amelodic, amelodious (adj) a theme lacking in melody in the common sense. Daugherty's music is, as described by my mom, a mish-mash of small themes, mostly harmonic, that sound alright individually, but don't quite fit together as a whole. His Phillidelphia Stories may have accurately described the city, but I've never been there, and after hearing such a chaotic piece, I'm not entirely sure that I want to. He has potential, though. A lot of the themes he explores are kinda catchy and I've caught myself whistling them once or twice.
+The Beethoven was good. His fourth piano cto., performed by a tall pianist that looked like the director to the Rolling Requiem in Boulder. He said that the critics would say that he was better at playing the piano than speaking in front of the audience. He was better at playing the piano than speaking in front of the audience.
+The Shosty was great, of course, being his fifth. I like the first and second movements especially, even though CSO played them kinda slow. Still well worth going.
+On the ride home, we read about another show that we might want to go to...
+The Big Bang @ DCPA: Boettcher Concert Hall - Orcestra2:row P:seats 44 & 45 - Friday November 15, 2002 at 7:30pm
+With large screens at three points along the perimeter of the cylindrical hall showing scenes of shuttle launches and various 3d animations of space-stuff, the concert started out with a space-music medley. Beginning with Also Sprach Zarathustra and moving right into various themes from The Planets (Alsop, who made a sneaky entrance, is directing The Planets this weekend), for a satisfying and grand peice. The movie clips were kinda distracting, but it was still good.
+After announcing that the concert was, from that point on, going to be recorded, Mrs. Alsop quieted down to let us hear an eerie noise that, at first, sounded like a recording from a horror movie. After a while of looking around, Evelyn Glennie appeared behind us and stole down the aisle with an odd contraption that looked to be a gourd with thick piano wires sticking vertically from the wider part towards the smaller handle. She was playing it with a violin bow that had a cow bell attached to the end. After she made her way to the stage, she proceeded to introduce the piece with all sorts of oddball percussion instruments including a hand-wound air-raid siren, a steel drum upsidedown with seashells in it, and a handheld radio with which she produced feedback while messing with the squelch.
+It was all downhill from there. The Daugherty really started, with it's fractured antimelodies and "blowing strings" (still not sure what that is). Most of the rest of the concert was spend watching Glennie play around with percussion. She bowed everything from cymbols to her vibrophone, and used a lot of windchimes. For the second half/last third, she had a solo on an eclectic drum set that was mostly bongoes, cowbells, cymbols, buckets, and woodblocks. That was pretty neat. The symphony (The "UFO" Symphony) ended with her on the bongoes playing along with the strings playing a nice decending melody (he got it together near the end) that was very dramatic and a fairly good ending to such a piece.
+Both Phillidelphia Stories and the UFO Symphony are coming out on CD (Naxos) soon, and I'm thinking of buying it to scare the babylonia admins with, and to show Andrew for the percussion side
+ Expand all +Two dreams simultaneously.
+. +. +.
+Should I sleep?
+.
+.
+.
+Maybe a walk, a drink.myheadmyheadd--ddMYheadSupraorbitalghghghghgggg
+ Expand all +story: Do you know how painful it is to doubt one's sanity?
+All of my writing begins with an idea and a first line
+ Expand all +My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul |
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gv_ranna goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Cicero the Fox. |
25:aeothen tricks you! You get a moldy pretzel. |
breakfastfox gives you 2 light orange grapefruit-flavoured gummy bears. |
delvennerim tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy! |
ironmonkey989 gives you 7 blue strawberry-flavoured gumdrops. |
malameux gives you 2 light green mint-flavoured nuggets. |
margaras tricks you! You get a block of wood. |
moondogdragon gives you 5 light green tropical-flavoured nuggets. |
samirthequeer tricks you! You lose 6 pieces of candy! |
senotay tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy! |
shanerak gives you 10 brown pineapple-flavoured gummy worms. |
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Crashed at about 11:45, just got up a bit ago. The dreams were less and more like.. well, dreams, but still a bit much. I hope that means it's Getting Better.
+Hung up on Ryan just now, hope he understands that blah blah yadda something or another
+ Expand all +In 1998, Robert Furchgott, Louis ignarro, and Ferid Murad won the Nobel prize in Physiology/Medicine for signaling in the endothelium. Robert Furchgott tested drugs originally on rabbit aortas. He received contradictory results, thus finding that an intact endothelium is was needed. He came up with the concept of the EDRF, the Endothelium Derived Relaxing Factor. Louis Ignarro tested hemoglobin exposure to pre-contracted bovine arteries, finding that the EDRF was Nitric Oxide. Ferid Murad found that Nitric Oxide was the signaling molecule for myosinic relaxation and proved that to be true.
+Endothelial cells are squamous cells acting as a barrier in the in the blood vessels between blood-flow and the smooth muscle tissue. Nitric Oxide can induce contraction in these cells. Signaling by means of a gas was a new concept in biology. The significance of this is that Nitroglycerine, prescribed for heart troubles can reduce pain due to angina pectoris by increasing blood flow. It can also reduce dangerously high blood pressure in the lungs of infants, and may help with tumor reduction by inducing apoptosis. NO was also crucial in the development of Viagra, as well as the diagnosing of asthma, colitis, and other diseases
+
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You are a neurotransmitter. You believe in the
good-naturedness of man's biology and soul.
You're happy, everyone's happy, and no one will
ever take that away from you. Or else you'll
make them go insane.
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Which Biological Molecule Are You?
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http://discordia.org.uk/tarot.htm
+ Expand all +After every flight, pilots fill out a form called a gripe sheet, which +conveys to the mechanics problems encountered with the aircraft during +the flight that need repair or correction. The mechanics read and +correct the problem, and then respond in writing on the lower half of +the form what remedial action was taken, and the pilot reviews the +gripe sheets before the next flight. Never let it be said that ground +crews and engineers lack a sense of humor. Here are some actual logged +maintenance complaints and +problems as submitted by Qantas pilots and the solution recorded by +maintenance engineers. By the way, Qantas is the only major airline +that has never had an accident.
+(P = The problem logged by the pilot.) +(S = The solution and action taken by the mechanics.)
+P: Left inside main tire almost needs replacement. +S: Almost replaced left inside main tire.
+P: Test flight OK, except auto-land very rough. +S: Auto-land not installed on this aircraft.
+P: Something loose in cockpit. +S: Something tightened in cockpit.
+P: Dead bugs on windshield. +S: Live bugs on back-order.
+P: Autopilot in altitude-hold mode produces a 200 feet per minute +descent. +S: Cannot reproduce problem on ground.
+P: Evidence of leak on right main landing gear. +S: Evidence removed.
+P: DME volume unbelievably loud. +S: DME volume set to more believable level.
+P: Friction locks cause throttle levers to stick. +S: That's what they're there for.
+P: IFF inoperative. +S: IFF always inoperative in OFF mode.
+P: Suspected crack in windshield. +S: Suspect you're right.
+P: Number 3 engine missing. +S: Engine found on right wing after brief search.
+P: Aircraft handles funny. +S: Aircraft warned to straighten up, fly right, and be serious.
+P: Target radar hums. +S: Reprogrammed target radar with lyrics.
+P: Mouse in cockpit. +S: Cat installed.
+P: Noise coming from under instrument panel. Sounds like a midget +pounding on something with a hammer. +S: Took hammer away from midget
+ Expand all +I just realized that I spent the past five hours in a conversation. I started out sitting on the floor in the hall near someone's door with my RA and a few others from my hall talking about the debate. After that, though, Tony, Jon, Lon's roommate, and I went back to my room to have one of THE BEST discussions I've had. It revolved mostly around religion with a little bit about drugs in there. I love talks like that and fear that I don't have enough of them. It's a shame they're so rare, but that just makes them all the more precious. Oh well, I guess it's not often you get to rave about how good a discussion was. Anyway, read a good deal more of the bible tonight: up to Exodus 21, from having stopped at Genesis 27. Now, I think I'll make some coffee or tea and walk around.
+I think Jack Osbourne is cute. Too bad he strikes me as an ass. And he's straight, too, to my knowledge
+ Expand all +http://members.aol.com/_ht_a/preservedbygod/myhomepage
+ Expand all +Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani.
+Upon reading certain things, upon hearing certain songs, upon seeing certain people, upon smelling certain scents, upon tasting certain foods, upon feeling certain feelings and upon losing myself, it flows, the light, in through the head, out through the heart, washes over all, and, being lost in it, have found myself without. +How poetic. +These are the white things. Cold, bright, burning, white.
+Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani.
+But the light isn't as it used to be. It was a thing to light up a day, a thing to light up me, filling completely. Now a simple thread flows from head to heart, and the light doesn't stray from the path of least resistance. +Love follows not the law of Ohm
+Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani.
+Light can be many things, but here, now, it means love - all four loves - and it's a strange feeling to have been so full of it for so long, then to suddenly be nearly without. +Full of what? Full of shit? How pathetic, how trite. +Having deified love for several years, it's a shock to my faith to have it disappear, even if it only turns out to be temporary. +Faith? You're faithful? How have you EVER been faithful to love?
+Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani!
+My god, my god, why hast thou forsaken me...</em
+ Expand all +Those were some brownies.. o.
+ Expand all +Holy cow, nosedive
+ Expand all +My Furry Code + +FCFp3admw A C- D+ H+++ M++++ P+++ R+ T W Z- Sm++ RLM/S/U a- cblmnu++ d- e+ f++ h iwf+++ j+ p+ sm+ + |
Roommate blew out the power for the hall again. Well.. he may not have, but he did last time, so I'm blaming him. Also, the shower I had was cold. Whatever. Grrgrrgrr.
+I'm confused as to what to do about boys. ΔΛΦ might help with that, if only as a way to meet similar people, though that's still a ways off (I don't think pledges are allowed to sleep with pledges). Most of what I'm confused about is Shan. I think I still like him, but I'm not sure. Most of the time I think about him, I think of him as more than a friend, but a lot of the times when I talk to him, I think of him mostly as just a friend. Quite confusing, since the contrast seems rather large. Whatever, though. I still think about Kory and Jerred that way, too, on occasion.
+So there
+ Expand all +Yoinked from Shan.
+() go out with me? +() give me your number? +() have sex with me? +() let me kiss you? +() watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one? +() let me take you out to dinner? +() drive me somewhere/anywhere? +() take a shower with me? +() be my gf/bf? +() have a fling with me? +() listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends? +() buy me a drink if i didnt have money? +() take me home for the night? +() would you let me sleep in your bed? +() sing car kareoke w/ me? +() sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone? +() re-post this for me to answer your questions? +() let me give you a piggyback ride? +() come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere
+ Expand all +I took a walk around the campus and learned all the more. These walks have taught me more than the many tours I was made to go on through consideration and registration.
+I'm feeling sick now, which is probably from the lack of sleep.
+My ally has forsaken me - buzzed off, taken leave, left me for a better man. Farrel was distraught at The Sins of Jesus, saying that he disliked the postmodern method of digging up dirt on 2000 year old religious figures. I'm not sure how those are connected but if they are, it's reasonably twisted.
+I saw someone, and many of the feelings I had for him were lost
+ Expand all +Don't tell anyone who the statements are about. Good or bad. No matter how they beg.
+Too cute for your own damn good. (Rikoshi)
+Got the LJ pages on my site working, so.. neat. On the side bar there's a LJ Events section with the subjects from the last 10 as links that lead to the individual entries, along with links to the events page with the last 10 in full and soon links to the calendar and whatever. Y'know.. copying and such.
+ Expand all +http://www.cyberpsych.org/homophobia/ +http://www.now.org/issues/lgbi/stats.html +http://www.religioustolerance.org/hom_fuel.htm +http://psychology.ucdavis.edu/rainbow/html/sexual_prejudice.html +http://www.gaychristianonline.org/christian.html +http://216.239.33.100/search?q=cache:gUNeIWmMrw4C:www.catc.org/documents/homosexuality.doc+paul+apostle+gay&hl=en&ie=UTF-8 +http://www.oberlin.edu/~mtowey/soci/homoteen1.html +http://www.gaysouthafrica.org.za/gayteens/homophobia.asp +http://www.sxetc.org/library/genLibArticle.asp?CategoryID=1285&ArticleID=art_1159 +http://www.geocities.com/gsa_chat/peer_support.html
+ Expand all +Don't tell anyone who the statements are about. Good or bad. No matter how they beg.
+Too cute for your own damn good.
+Red Vs. Blue on 'Intarweb'.
+DO YOU WANT A BIGGER PENIS!?!? WHERE DO YOU WANT IT!?! I CAN SUGGEST SOME PLACES!!one56
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Down, down, down you go +No way to stop +As you fall, hear me call +No, no, no +Listen to this warning and +Consider these +Simple words of advice +Stop, stop, stop
+Fogging the view, cupping face to the window +In darkness you make out a spiralling shape +Putting all reason aside you exchange +What you got for a thing that's hypnotic and strange
+The spiralling shape will make you go insane +(Everyone wants to see that groovy thing) +But everyone wants to see that groovy thing +(Everyone wants to see that thing)
+And nobody knows what it's really like +But everyone says it's great +And they heard it from the spiral in their eyes
+This could lead to excellence +Or serious injury +Only one way to know +Go, go, go +Go ahead, wreck your life +That might be good +Who can say what's wrong or right? +Nobody can
+Put out your hands and you fall through the window +And clawing at nothing you drop through the void +Your terrified screams are inaudible drowned +In the spiral ahead and consumed in the shape
+The spiralling shape will make you go insane +(Everyone wants to see that groovy thing) +But everyone wants to see that groovy thing +(Everyone wants to see that thing)
+And now that you've tried it, you're back to report +That the spiralling shape was a fraud and a fake +You didn't enjoy it, you never believed it +There won't be a refund, you'll never go back
+The spiralling shape will make you go insane +(Everyone wants to see that groovy thing) +But everyone wants to see that groovy thing +(Everyone wants to see that thing)
+And nobody knows what it's really like +But everyone says it's great +And they heard it from the spiral in their eyes +(Spiral in their eyes)
+Fogging the view, cupping face to the window +In darkness you make out a spiralling shape +Putting all reason aside you exchange +What you got for a thing that's hypnotic and strange
+The spiralling shape will make you go insane +(Everyone wants to see that groovy thing) +But everyone wants to see that groovy thing +(Everyone wants to see that thing)
+Don't spend the rest of your life wondering +(Everyone wants to see that thing)
+Don't spend the rest of your life wondering +(Everyone wants to see that groovy thing) +Don't spend the rest of your life wondering +(Everyone wants to see that thing
+ Expand all +http://grouphug.us/confessions/82400327
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+ Expand all +First Level of Hell - Limbo
+Charon ushers you across the river Acheron, and you find yourself upon the brink of grief's abysmal valley. You are in Limbo, a place of sorrow without torment. You encounter a seven-walled castle, and within those walls you find rolling fresh meadows illuminated by the light of reason, whereabout many shades dwell. These are the virtuous pagans, the great philosophers and authors, unbaptised children, and others unfit to enter the kingdom of heaven. You share company with Caesar, Homer, Virgil, Socrates, and Aristotle. There is no punishment here, and the atmosphere is peaceful, yet sad.
+The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to the First Level of Hell - Limbo!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Level | Score |
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Purgatory (Repenting Believers) | High |
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers) | Very High |
Level 2 (Lustful) | High |
Level 3 (Gluttonous) | Very Low |
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious) | Very Low |
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy) | Low |
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics) | Very Low |
Level 7 (Violent) | High |
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers) | High |
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous) | Low |
This is what I get for being wrapped up in sorrow (not the same as being sorrowful)
+ Expand all +Comments appreciated, I suppose, though keep in mind I haven't slept yet. This comes from the current debate on whether implanted chips containing our medical data are an invasion of privacy. What I mean to express is that I don't care so much about the privacy issue, but more about why I feel that I can't trust America with this information.
+Dear America,
+America, we had a deal. This deal had been worked over and hammered out more than two hundred years ago. A deal that would ensure my safety as well as guarantee my loyalty and my works to you. And for this, I would entrust to you a few of my rights to help contribute to the idea of a country built upon freedom, giving me laws as guidelines to what's generally acceptable to keep this dream going.
+America, the older I get and the more experience I have in dealing with your laws and your people, the more and more often I see this deal being broken. People give you their rights to hold dear - for what is more dear to us than our rights - and often you ask for more rights, and ever more until you work to restrict rights in the very document that guarantees them: the Constitution. Now, beyond even rights, you ask to infringe upon something even more fundamental to people - their privacy.
+America, I don't want this deal to break. I want to trust you, and continue to trust you if you will trust me, and most of all, I want to feel like I can give you anything you ask of me without the fear of being taken advantage of. So that's what I'll do. I've give you all that you ask of me, I promise, but in exchange, I expect that you'll respect our deal. The deal between you and me to understand that I am entrusting a few of my rights as well as my loyalty and works to ensure my safety. And my freedom.
+Thank you, America,
+Matt Scot
+ Expand all +I just voted!
+I don't know why that makes me so hyper!
+Uah
+ Expand all +And I must say I'm rather disappointed that he named it 09/11/01. Of course, I don't mean to discount nine-eleven, but.. well.. that title just doesn't fit the picture, to me
+ Expand all +http://ranna.bolognia.net/bb/viewforum.php?f=
+ Expand all +There's an interesting dynamic that I see in #sanefurs for one major reason: some people in the channel are about satire, and some people are about cynicism, and sometimes the cynics take their view so far that they come off as rather angry at pretty much everything, whereas the satirists seem able to realize that although they may be mocking furry, they still are furs of a sort. So, when two satirists do something out of their cynical character, the cynics tend to react immediately in a strong and generally negative manner ('What is this faggotry' or 'loltypefuckery'). Now, I've only been in the channel for a few weeks at most, and of course I can only think about what I've seen in that short of time, so my opinion on this could be horribly skewed. I'm all about getting corrected, so go ahead if I'm completely wrong
+ Expand all +Why I can't get motivated at all to do ANYTHING for my comp class is beyond me. That really should change; I need to get stuff done c.
+ Expand all +No, I don't know what it is..
+ Expand all +Wanna hear something funny?
+I fucked up on a test in chemistry, and didn't do so well on the one before, and since there are only four tests, I'm not going to be able to get higher than a C in the class, which means I'll have to drop out of school. I could live at my mom's and maybe eventually make enough to rent a room elsewhere since I'll have to commute to work pretty damn far and gas and all.
+This is cool, I couldn't picture myself in college, and now it's not happening
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+I may have to switch distros, if only to get away from the slightly horrid setup of Slackware's "OEMTEHGEE A HAXOR" setup Gentoo and FreeBSD/DragonFly are options
+ Expand all +gv_ranna's LJ stalker is jimfoxyboy! |
jimfoxyboy is stalking you because you are really good at bowling. They are also stalking you in real life. Look out! |
Hehehe. Old.
+The log
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+ The so-called Great-Fluff-Scare + Being the events in Fluff Park, FluffMUCK, + on October 30th, 2000, Halloweve +Seen from the point of view of Yoshi.
+IMPORTANT!!! The contents of this log does not represent an official +explanantion of the events referred to. It is presented as an +interesting social atrifact. It is not made or distributed by the +wizards of Fluffmuck (Especially not Zorin). The only confirmed +information is what is listed in the official Fluffmuck Bullentin +system, shown below for clarity:
+--==[ Zorin, 58 minutes ago -- Reason for shutdown-without-save 10/30/200 ]==-- + The MUCK was shut down without save today at around 21:50EST to +roll back the database due to an administrative mistake. No more than one +hour of database changes were lost. +--==[ Done ]==-----------------------------------------------------------------
+All other theories within are purely conjecture.
+There. Now that you get the idea, here it is. I've trimmed out +some private communication, and I'd cleaned out some simple +command spam. I have not edited it for relevancy.
+#########################BEGIN
+Louis shouts "I love the sight of corpses swingin' in the mornin'." +(Public-shout) +Allistar proceeds to the decontaminating room after coming into +contact with a Tatyana. +Vyvyan says, "Ask what brand. ;} There's lots of blacks - but they +almost never look the same." +Ranna giggles +Satanica's mom just walked in and shoved a rug to my nose that my +cat peed on and said, "This is why I don't want her in at night." o.o +Louis says, "Harharhar." +Vyvyan laughs. +Vyvyan says, "Oh that sucks." +Zorin mewmewmews, "She'd rather the cat possibly get killed outside?" +Satanica went to the 1999 and 2000 Havarah camping trips, "I +guess so." +Vyvyan sorries for laughing at your pain, but it reminds her of +her own. ;} +Satanica is a star in the dope show, "We're keeping her in tomorrow +obviously." +Louis says, "You must keep the cat in on Halloween." +Satanica dreams about sex all day, "Halloween, black cats..bad." +iLeah red elvises, "We don't let the cat out." +Yoshi purrs, "The cat will vanish." +Vyvyan just CACKLES at everyones pain. HAH! +Zorin mrrowrps, "Did the cat just start doing this recently?" +Allistar's cat is already Satan. +Zorin purrs, "If it did, it could be sick.." +Satanica shavos, "No." +iLeah burns through the witches, "We live on a major thoroughfare, +next to a canyon full of coyotes, and giant raccoons prowl the +streets." +Satanica fragiles, "She's always done that." +iLeah has a heart of glass, "You don't see many outside cats +around. c.c" +Satanica reggies, "My brother and I sneak her in at night." +Yoshi purrs, "Don't you have a litterbox inside?" +Allistar worship satanicas, "Satanica: Bladder infection." +The Great Pumpkin opens a hidden hatch buried in the grass and +climbs down into the Underground. The hatch snicks shut behind The +Great Pumpkin. +Yoshi purrs, "Or does she not like them...?" +Allistar satanicas, "How old is the cat, Satanica?" +Louis says, "My cat died of a bizarre liver disease." +Satanica waits and bleeds, "Uhh.." +Artemis emerges from a cloud of gently swirling, multicolored fluffs. +Ranna's cat is...yeah... +Artemis yawns loudly +Allistar had a cat once that peed alot inside the house because it +was old.. +Satanica dreams, "I don't wanna talk about my cat. I just wanted +to share the rug thing. ;>" +Allistar didos, "Like.. 16 years old." +Allistar palmpilots, "at least 16 years." +Satanica closer to gods, "Because I thought it was funny." +Ranna "there's something not quite right about my cat... +Zorin miaows, "Uhh, gotta go. BBL." +Zorin jumps into Zorin's fur and disappears! +Zorin's Tail swishes out after him. +Allistar fluffmuck.orgs, "My current cat actually runs AFTER a +border collie." +Louis says, "iLeah, I want to live in a neighborhood with giant +raccoons prowling the streets." +Allistar fluffmuck.orgs, "Louis: Where's a pic of your BC?" +Louis says, "I don't even post pics of me." +Vyvyan's cats are dead. Sunshine, Stimpy, Josaphine, Rosaphine, +Blackie, Mo, Greenday, and China. 'yotes got 'em, as did +cars. Rosaphine broke her leg tho', somehow. I think a 'yote did +it but she got away. +Nekura says, ".." +Nekura coughs +Vyvyan grins, "China wasn't spayed. ;}" +Louis says, "Nekura is back." +Nekura hops in and out. +Satanica likes pain!, "Greenday..aww." +Nekura was playing on Nightmare mud +Louis says, "Ew.. MUDs." +Artemis gasp +Louis says, "Now I must kill you, Nekura." +Satanica!! +Nekura O.O +Les shouts "OH MY GOD! You killed MILES!!! ......YAY!!" +(Public-shout) +Vyvyan nods. "My sister used to LOVE Greenday. Sun all the songs, +wore the shirts, cut her hair like a boy, tore her jeans, wore two +shoes that didn't match, and she was like, seven. But now she's a +stupid tenniboper." +Nekura pounces Louis! +Nekura clings to Louis' skull +Vyvyan says, "Er, sung." +Ranna has disconnected. +Nekura screams like a woman +Ranna has connected. +Allistar did? Allistar did! (Public-pose) +Louis curses Nekura. +Allistar snipes Nekura! +Ranna appologizes... +Vyvyan wows. That was forever ago. +Satanica darias, "In my math book there's this word problem and +the name of the guy in it is Trent. ^^" +Louis says, "Thank you, Koa." +Burn shouts "...That's way harsh. ...Well... He was harsh to +me... so... Yay." (Public-shout) +Vyvyan mmms. +Allistar fluffmuck.orgs, "..oops.. wasn't Nek clinging to Louis' +skull?" +Satanica hugs her math book. +Vyvyan says, "They should do mathbooks with popular music stars +and such." +Allistar burnCDs, "Sorry, Louis." +Satanica can see what's on your mindss, "That'd be cool." +Louis says, "My skull is protected by a TSI." +Allistar yiffs, "Louis: Good." +Satanica laughs insanely at another word problem. Billy Backstroke. +Allistar time warps, "SATANICA. I need to ask something of you." +Louis uhms. +Allistar offers to carry Satanica with him. +Jade shouts "http://jade.twu.net/jondavis/inbedwithkorn.jpg +drool" (Public-shout) +Allistar jessups, "If I could borrow you for just one minute." +Zorin shouts "Due to an unfortunate incident, the MUCK must be +shut down without a save and restarted. A @bulletin will be posted +describing what happened shortly after." (Wiz-shout) +Louis says, "That conjures up pornstars." +Satanica shouts "How wrong wrong wrong that sounded." (Public-shout) +Allistar electrocutes, "..." +Satanica kilts, "Umm." +Artemis gasp +Zorin shouts "Be back up in a bit." (Wiz-shout)
+Immediate shutdown initiated by Zorin.
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+Fluff Park(#53396RLJ) +You stand in the center of a dying strech of earth that, though once +probably was a paridise, is now poisonous and diseased. The ground +is carpeted with small thorny weeds, swirling into large prickled +bushes surrounding the ruins of a weatherbeaten statue. The body of +the figure, those parts that haven't worn away way or broken off, +seems to be a lynx. but the head (made of newer and different stone) +is that of a one-eyed tentecloid demon. It has no visible mouth, but +it's still easy to get the impression that he's smiling evily at you.
+Moving out away from the statue, out of the thorny patch, are +gnarled, half rotten trees so thick you'd need to burn the forest +just to get lost in it. It does, however, thin a bit to the 'north' +and the 'east' where remnants of paved road can be seen slowly +cracking back to pebbles and dust. A damged and rusting metal +'object' sits near the edge of the treeline, and a gaping 'hole' +in the ground, bordered by a metal frame, leads down. +Contents: +SIGN: Area still under construction.(#53400) +Mewbox wakes up. +The next save will be in 55 mins, 10 secs. +A mass of slimy tentecles drop out of the sky and grab you... +Fluff Park(#53396RLJ) +You stand in the center of a dying strech of earth that, though once +probably was a paridise, is now poisonous and diseased. The ground +is carpeted with small thorny weeds, swirling into large prickled +bushes surrounding the ruins of a weatherbeaten statue. The body of +the figure, those parts that haven't worn away way or broken off, +seems to be a lynx. but the head (made of newer and different stone) +is that of a one-eyed tentecloid demon. It has no visible mouth, but +it's still easy to get the impression that he's smiling evily at you.
+Moving out away from the statue, out of the thorny patch, are +gnarled, half rotten trees so thick you'd need to burn the forest +just to get lost in it. It does, however, thin a bit to the 'north' +and the 'east' where remnants of paved road can be seen slowly +cracking back to pebbles and dust. A damged and rusting metal +'object' sits near the edge of the treeline, and a gaping 'hole' +in the ground, bordered by a metal frame, leads down. +Contents: +SIGN: Area still under construction.(#53400) +You jump into catspace. +Fluff Park +You stand in a perfectly charming oasis of land, a clearing in the +midst of a dense forest. The emerald-green grass is soft as a carpet +under your paws. This place seems to welcome you, inviting you to +flop down on the grass and relax. In the center of the grass is a +large obsidian column, jutting from the ground, which bears a grey +marble sculpture of a lynx. He stands on all fours, looking quite +proud, tufted ears alert, serenely surveying the Land of Fluff. +From this central location many paths are open to you. A +teleporter 'pad' is here which will transport you to the Space +Station Celeste. Feline Avenue leads away through the trees to the +'north'; to the 'east' is Lynx Lane. The park continues to the +'west.' To the 'south', a narrow path through the vegetation leads +to shimmering water. +There's a small hatchlike door set into the ground. A narrow +opening cut into a treetrunk is marked 'Bulletin Board Reading Room' +(to enter, type "board"). You see a large SIGN here. + Furs here: +Yoshi, Malameux, Blackheart, Starlet, SilverWolf, Ranna, Artemis, +Satanica, Vyvyan, Allistar and Louis + Things here: +Brenda, Space Moose, FluffHomesGuide and ACME Matter Generator +Vyvyan kills herself. Look, blood!... BLOOOOOOD! +Allistar idles to get more toosie rolls. +Les shouts "WTF? Miles is back? I knew it was too good to be true." +(Public-shout) +Vyvyan is pissed off. She wants to angst. +Starlet says, "AAGH! Itchy eye!!!" +Windwatcher shouts "We had a brief hope." (Public-shout) +Allistar kryptonites, "OMG. Yoshi: +http://dailynews.yahoo.com/h/p/ap/20001029/en/carousel_of_hope_j1l.html" +Starlet claws at herself! +Yoshi blinks, covered in ash from the explosions of the +apocalypse. "Mew?" (Public-pose) +SHOUT: 18 folks heard that. +Allistar shouts "Oh... my... god. +http://dailynews.yahoo.com/h/p/ap/20001029/en/carousel_of_hope_j1l.html" +(Public-shout) +Roland shouts "God forbid Zorin grow a fucking spine." +(Public-shout) +Louis shouts "'I like to pick the wings off lobsters.' - Miles." +(Public-shout) +Anya has teleported in. +Anya has arrived. +You whisper, "Yoshi just resigned from TPL. ;.;" to Allistar. +---> Louis de Algerie, Duc d'Fluff (Louis) just looked at you! <--- +>> Louis looked at you! (Male Clergyman Fox) << +Yoshi ehs at Louis? +Nekura appears out of a ball of pure flame +Nekura has arrived. +Nekura says, "Wha happened?" +==> Allistar pages, "Good for you." to you. +Louis says, "Eh what?" +Louis says, "I've never looked at you, Yosh." +Vyvyan CACKLES! Opera is a freak. +ttp://www.cnn.com/2000/TRAVEL/NEWS/10/26/fodors.survey/index.html +Yoshi purrs, "If you say so." +Blodoc shouts "Why does Fluff keep going down?" (Public-shout) +Ranna shouts "that was gross..." (Public-shout) +You page, "Fluff go boom... o.o" to Zorin. +Anya walks into the reading room to read the board. ("board" +to follow) +You page, "Oh boy, fun fun fun!" to Zorin. +Vyvyan sighs and lays down. She wants it to be tomorrow, so she +can be at skool. +Louis says, "Zorin keeps getting attacked by mutant rats from +Yuggoth." +Matrices emerges from a storm of violently swirling, black +rainclouds... +Matrices has arrived. +a little black raincloud forms over Matrices' head... +Matrices hugs Malameux! Malameux mrrs and hugs her back tightly +Malameux hugs Matrices! Matrices hugs Puddin Taine back, 'cause +he's her friend... awww... +Blackheart changes into a Male nonmorphic husky. +Matrices hugs Satanica! +Louis says, "Hey, Matrices." +Blackheart pounces Matrices! Matrices is pounced upon! +Matrices slaughters, "hewwo" +Starlet hugs Matrices! Matrices gets an akward look and slowly +backs away... +Matrices fuzzles Blackheart! +Blackheart dies, "Have you seen this form Matrices?" +Matrices hugs Starlet! Starlet hugs back, and smooches the bad +thing that happens to good people on the ear. +Satanica hugs Matrices! Matrices gets an akward look and slowly +backs away... +Matrices twitches, "oo" +Yoshi purrs, "Poor fluff is choking lately." +Room: Fluff Park +Name----------------Stat--Sex---------Species--------------------------------- +Matrices[3s idle] STAB Female Raver freak hybrid Oddity thing + Doing: Rayne. :}~~ +Nekura[1m idle] DG? male Sexual Creature + Doing: I'm psycologically dirty man! Blow censored +Yoshi IC male ocelot + Doing: Callen mrrs, "Hmm, yoshi is an indisputable fact." +Malameux[43s idle] KILL! male Ghost propelled Malamute corpse + Doing: Damnit, Billy. Kill me. +Blackheart[25s idle]DARK Male nonmorphic husky +Starlet[35s idle] Female Fox +SilverWolf[1m idle] MAMA Female Wolf + Doing: o/~Nobody knows me. . .o/~ +Ranna[1m idle] #H Male Red Fox + Doing: pop! +Artemis[1m idle] male Sailor Kitten + Doing: I am the Dark Crystal!!! +>Brenda[13s idle] Male Weasel +|Satanica +Satanica[13s idle] NIN female human + Doing: Lost in this three-way dimension. +Vyvyan[54s idle] BRAIN Female Anthro Iguana + Doing: Bite me, Fanboy! +Allistar[2m idle] STAFF Male Mini-kitty + Doing: Getting ready to snipe you from 200 feet away. +Louis[16s idle] SAINT Male Clergyman Fox + Doing: The Computer is your Friend, Citizen +---[ Found 14 characters. ( 13 Awake / 1 Zombie ) +]--------------------------- +Louis says, "Evil." +Yoshi pokes Allistar. Snipe? +SilverWolf musically growls, "Zorin did that deliberately." +SilverWolf wanders toward West Park. +Ranna "mwa" +Ranna "look at all the useful things I could have said, then consider +Mwa...which is better?" +Yoshi purrs, "Mwa." +Ranna "Mwa" +Neb emerges from a cloud of gently swirling, multicolored fluffs. +Neb wanders toward West Park. +I don't see that here. +Awake Players: Matrices (Idle 1m26s), Nekura (Idle 2m25s), Yoshi, +Malameux (Idle 2m7s), Blackheart (Idle 1m49s), Starlet (Idle 1m59s), +Ranna, Artemis, Satanica (Idle 1m37s), Vyvyan (Idle 2m18s), Allistar +(Idle 3m34s) and Louis +Zombies: Brenda
++Ranna "MwaNeb" +Anya comes out of the reading room, blinking at the light. +Vyvyan sighs. +Dexter climbs back down from the High Side. +Dexter has arrived. +Louis says, "Dexter!" +Yoshi passes out T-Shirts that say "I survived! - @armageddon 2000" +Dexter molests Louos. +Dexter says, "Louis, too." +Allistar upgrades, "Sorry. Idle." +Allistar palmpilots, "What happenede?" +Louis has been molested. Woo! +Vyvyan giggles. +Satanica laughs more at her mathbook. Mr. Ditto's shelves. +Louis says, "So, you've come down to preach amongst the Parkfurs?" +Allistar carnivores, "Snipe what?" +Vyvyan says, "Oooh, Dexter is a nice name... Mostly because I want +to be Dexter from Dexters Lab... No, that's a lie. I wanna live +ina game and be a Daughter of Ether." +Malameux funkmasters, "Snipe hunt! Yay!" +You whisper, "You're doing." to Allistar. +==> Allistar pages, "What?" to you. +Vyvyan says, "Whooooie!" +SilverWolf comes in from West Park. +Vyvyan shoots some guns. +Yoshi read that as 'Daughter of Eris'. +SilverWolf snugs Dexter. +Vyvyan cackles! +Ranna blinks +Dexter says, "Dexter is a wonderful name. But I'm biased." +Louis hehs. "Daughter of Eris." +Vyvyan says, "I am a daughter of Eris." +You whisper, "Your @doing line...talks about sniping people..." to +Allistar. +Vyvyan says, "Why?" +Anya opens a hidden hatch buried in the grass and climbs down into +the Underground. The hatch snicks shut behind her. +Malameux slurps Starlet! Starlet wipes herself on the slurper, +giving the slobber back. +Louis says, "Pineal gland fun." +Artemis has left. +Starlet hugs Malameux! Malameux mrrs and hugs her back tightly +Yoshi purrs, "WTF is the Pineal gland?" +Louis says, "Sinister Dexter." +Allistar snipes someone at random. +Starlet wishes she could type. +Allistar X-mens, "It's in a pine tree, Yoshi." +Yoshi purrs, "I don't think Random is here." +Yoshi wishes that also, Starlet... +Malameux beats Alli with his whoopass stick. "Snipe! Snipe!" +Louis says, "Endocrine organ." +Dexter munches on snipe. MmmmMmmmgood. +Louis says, "In the brain." +Vyvyan goes to try and dress up like Eris... BBS. +Allistar rajahs, "So... There's no new bulletin!" +Yoshi erms...center of the brain...base instincts...right? +Dexter hrms. +SilverWolf forms into a glittering mist and swirls upward, +disappearing into the sky. +SilverWolf has left. +Catfish crawls into view. Sneef! +Catfish has arrived. +Catfish burbles. +Louis says, "According to the Principia Discordia you communicate +with Eris through the pineal gland." +Dexter goes off the Deep End! +Dexter has left. +Yoshi hrms and must learn to do this! +Dexter shouts "Wow, did we Armageddon? Very cool." (Public-shout) +Neb shouts "Be afraid. Be very Afraid. Be VERY VERY VERY AFRAID. Mesa +Mafia's back :)" (Public-shout) +Catfish bubbles, o0(I suppose if Dexter expects to see anything, +I should be set Z.)0o +Louis hehs. +Yyzeff is Mesa Mafia's front. And a fine front I am... (Public-pose) +Yoshi nods at Catfish. +Allistar shouts "Yep. o.o" (Public-shout) +Louis shouts "The LSP takes bribes..." (Public-shout) +Allistar must go. Later. +Allistar has disconnected. +Les shouts "The Mesa Mafia is back simply to make sure that Miles is +toaded because he's a Child Predator. I think it's pretty fucking +sad that no one on the Wizstaff except Gillian is doing anything +to stop that sick bastard." (Public-shout) +Ranna blinks +Starlet sneezes! +Malameux hugs Starlet! Starlet hugs back, and smooches Puddin +Taine on the ear. +Yoshi tries desparately to figure out WTF has been going on around +here. (Public-pose) +SHOUT: 21 folks heard that. +You snug Ranna! Ranna cuddles back warmly +Mav emerges from a cloud of gently swirling, multicolored fluffs. +Ranna "glad I (bless you) never met this Miles person..." +Mav bites a few furs. +==> In a page-pose to you, Louis is trying to, also. +Malameux slurps Mav! +Satanica dissentions, "What's going on?" +Ranna nibbles Mav! +Brightie teleports away. +Brightie has left. +Brenda bounds after Brightie. +Brenda has left. +Ranna hugs Mav! +Ranna snugs you! +Mav wruffs gruffly, "What is going on here?" +Nekura pounces Louis! +Nekura clings to Louis' skull +Nekura screams like a woman +Starlet giggles. +Louis queries Lesdude. +Starlet taps Nekura! +Catfish bubbles, o0(The world's ending. Zorin's spineless, Yoshi +is clueless. SNAFU.)0o +Louis hmms. +Nekura O.O +Catfish(#7434JXZ) -- Owner: Dexter +Louis says, "Good reason to archive." +Nekura pounces Starlet! +Yoshi snorts. +Nekura yiffs Starlet! Starlet mrrs, "Kinky." +Louis says, "Will be back." +Louis goes home. +Louis has left. +Zorin shouts "Uhh, I was completely in the dark about ALL of +this. Let's get all the facts in before we start pointing fingers." +(Public-shout) +Starlet gropes Nekura! +Mav shouts "I have ten fingers, that means I can blame ten furs. By +chance I might get the right one?" (Public-shout) +Malameux throws the sleepers into a large chipper. splat +Allistar is swept. Swept, dammit, swept. +Allistar has left. +Yoshi purrs, "Am I the only person that ever was a wizard that +didn't toad anybody?" +Louis emerges from a cloud of gently swirling, multicolored fluffs. +Louis is back. :) +Mav wruffs gruffly, "I've never toaded anyone." +Dexter shouts "Dude, you're always in the dark." (Public-shout) +Yoshi regreets Louis. +Vyvyan cackles, she's a good Eris. ^_^ +Name On Line Idle Now don't you feel guilty? +Miles 0:20 1m $#!+ +40 fuzzyeared furryfloofythings! +Louis had to @archive me=e just in case. +Name On Line Idle Aieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! +Gillian 0:13 6s Sandworms...you hate 'em, right? +40 fuzzyeared furryfloofythings! +Kyn'Elwynn only needs two fingers, those in the middle ;) Snootch! +(Public-pose) +Starlet curls up under a bench and hides under her tail. +Neb never understands why the people in charge ARENT the people in +charge (Public-pose) +Player | Stat | OnFor | Idle | Location +----------------|------|-------|------|--------------------------------------- +Brightie | NIN | 21m | 1m | Location Private +Pascal | PURP | 21m | 22s | Player Private +Blodoc | TREA | 21m | 57s | FluffMUCK, Halloween Night +CassieFox | FOXI | 21m | 3s | In Zorin's Fur +Zorin | KITT | 21m | 1s | In Zorin's Fur +Meerclar | | 21m | 19m | Quantum Singularity +Cawwna | IC | 21m | 1m | room +Miles | IDL | 21m | 1m | Miles' Room +Windwatcher | | 21m | 18s | Player Private +Matrices | STAB | 21m | 23s | Fluff Park +Vyvyan | BRAI | 20m | 29s | Fluff Park +Keet | IC | 20m | 1m | Inside Cottage +Artemis | | 20m | 6m | ARINGA +Blackheart | DARK | 20m | 25s | Fluff Park +Malameux | KILL | 19m | 58s | Fluff Park +Ranna | #H | 19m | 2m | Fluff Park +Starlet | | 19m | 5s | Fluff Park +SilverWolf | MAMA | 19m | 1m | Location Private +Mackenzie | KLLM | 18m | 12s | FluffMUCK, Halloween Night +Kyn'Elwynn | | 17m | 7s | Bedroom +Yoshi | IC | 17m | 1s | Player Private +D'Artagnan | | 16m | 1m | ARINGA +Zwilk | | 16m | 15m | Zwilk's place of misc +insanity +Les | MEEP | 16m | 1m | Master bedroom +Avalon | | 15m | 1m | Main Room +Nekura | DG? | 14m | 37s | Fluff Park +Adrianna | RED | 14m | 34s | Player Private +Brownie | | 13m | 1m | Player Private +Gillian | NTHR | 13m | 10s | Player Private +Neb | | 10m | 2s | Player Private +Dexter | | 10m | 35s | Player Private +Banshee | | 6m | 2m | Player Private +Mav | #R | 6m | 37s | Fluff Park +Renac | | 5m | 5m | Location Private +Anya | FUEL | 3m | 2m | FluffMUCK, Halloween Night +Baloo | | 1m | 57s | Baloo's Room +Kagerou | IDL | 1m | 1m | HoloDeck +Louis | SAIN | 44s | 21s | Player Private +---[ 38 players are connected. (Max was 40 since Startup 21 minutes +ago) ]---- +Brightie chops off Mav's fingers. (Public-pose) +Malameux snuggles Starlet! +Starlet nuzzles Malameux! +Jigglypuff emerges from a cloud of gently swirling, multicolored +fluffs. +Jigglypuff opens a hidden hatch buried in the grass and climbs down +into the Underground. The hatch snicks shut behind Jigglypuff. +Matrices shouts "If ANYONE needs @toaded it's Sebastian... he judges +people too harshly, then page #ignores them when they try to talk." +(Public-shout) +Calvin emerges from a cloud of gently swirling, multicolored fluffs. +Matrices hugs Calvin! +Calvin hi5s Nekura! +Calvin hugs Matrices! Matrices hugs Calvin back, 'cause Calvin's +her friend... awww... +Calvin xenomorphs, "ugh I am sickl" +Windwatcher shouts "Relax, I've got a list." (Public-shout) +Gillian shouts "Matrices has obviously only been around for a year +or so. . ." (Public-shout) +Louis shouts "Gee." (Public-shout) +Mikael shouts "...What happened?" (Public-shout) +Malameux crawls under the bench and snuggles up with Starlet. Mmm. +InterCom> Matrices says morbidly, "True. would you like to play +the true false game again?" +InterCom> Calvin xenomorphs, "false" +Starlet smooches Malameux! Malameux awws, and smooches her back! +Yoshi shouts "If anyone needs to be @toaded, it's that fleabag +Yoshi. How many times do I have to tell you, he's a red commie hell +bent on demoralizing the Mu---Otoh. Um. Whoops. Wrong login...You +did not see this..." (Public-shout) +SHOUT: 28 folks heard that. +Nikkita emerges from a cloud of gently swirling, multicolored fluffs. +InterCom> Les wuffs, "Uh.. Matrices... Get a clue." +Nikkita waves +Calvin xenomorphs, "how do you set an entrence message?" +Calvin xenomorphs, "hi Nikki" +Nekura shouts "Long as I'm not on the list.. and my random +girlfriends arn't I couldn't care less." (Public-shout) +Blackheart lays next to Matrices, sighing +Yyzeff shouts "Sebastian shouldn't be @toaded for that. It is +everyone's God-given right to Not Listen to anything you have to +say. That's your problem, not theirs." (Public-shout) +You page-pose, "Yoshi's prolly on the list. =p" to Nekura +You have 92879 Mini-Kitties. +Jigglypuff shouts "If anyone needs to be @toaded, it should be +Nekura." (Public-shout) +Matrices officially stays out of the shout-conversation now... her +opinion is obviously not cared for. +Les shouts "I don't even BELIEVE that sick fck Miles is being +compared to someone for PAGE #IGNORE!" (Public-shout) +Ranna turns off @shout +Vyvyan hrmmms, she has no apples. She only has turnups. Maybe she +can have a turnup of Discord. +Yoshi hehs at Ranna. +Malameux nuzzlekisses Starlet! +Starlet snuggles Malameux! +Calvin xenomorphs, "anyhow, how do I set an entrence message?" +Nikkita growls, "nope, I dunno" +Louis says, "Turnips of Discord are good." +Malameux funkmasters, "For teleport?" +Matrices 666s, "use the teleport progtam." +Calvin shouts "If you toad me, I'll send my legion of park nazis +to yell at you" (Public-shout) +Matrices hates the way you breathe, "type t #help" +Vyvyan giggles, then idles... +Calvin xenomorphs, "ok " +Arcanix emerges from a cloud of gently swirling, multicolored fluffs. +Arcanix rumbles, "Hello" +@armageddon(#20088E) -- Owner: Zorin +Blackheart leans against Matrices +Ranna "hewwo" +Matrices snugs Blackheart idly. +Dark_G? shouts "Save the Coral Reefs! Save the children of the sea!" +(Public-shout) +Calvin xenomorphs, "does typing park count as a teleport?" +You have 92879 @toad-@armageddon disasters. +Blackheart snugs Matrices back, sighing +Vyvyan shouts "Looks like the Turnip of Discord I threw in has +worked... Muwhahaha! Vyv-Eris and her Turnip of Dicord strikes +again!" (Public-shout) +Matrices 666s, "no." +Yoshi purrs, "No." +Matrices goths, "you'd have to type t park" +Matrices yarms, "or tport park or something like that." +Blodoc emerges from the UnderGround. +Mackenzie has arrived. +>> A large poof of smoke appears, and the strong scent of cannibas +and cocaine fills the room. The smoke forms the figure of Mackenzie, +smoking a joint... big surprise. +Blodoc brings Mackenzie with him, holding hands. +>> The Caffeineated Wolf strolls in, wagging his tail. +Mackenzie didn't know that was you!!! +Blodoc says spooooookily, "Duh!" +Nikkita growls, "well, it's going from 1 place ta another :P" +Ranna giggles +Ranna tries to go to the park, but to his surprise, he finds that +he's already here. +Calvin xenomorphs, "I just want to set a message for when I come +into the park" +Mackenzie cries! +Mackenzie goths, "I thought you were an Anthropomorphic Wolf!!" +Matrices NINs, "I dunno if you can do that, unless you use teleport." +Blodoc morphed! +Blodoc tailpokes Mackenzie! +Mackenzie didn't see!! +Matrices used teleport, so feh. +Calvin xenomorphs, "ack, confused and spammed" +Mav wruffs gruffly, "This place sucks, and it sucks so bad it is +starting to implode." +Mackenzie grovels. "I"M SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" +Ranna flops down on the ground +Louis says, "I suppose." +Arcanix bouncies +Ranna "Mwa" +Yoshi meows at Mav. c.c +Louis says, "Not like the so-called 'Golden Age'." +Calvin xenomorphs, "brb, I need to go home and work on this" +Calvin goes home. +Calvin has left. +Nekura says, "Well damn Mav. Leave?" +Nikkita goes home. +Nikkita has left. +Yoshi wonders where the hell he'd go if not Fluff... +Louis can't leave here, is stuck. +Blodoc wishes Zorin would post the frikkin bulletin to explain what +keeps causing this muck to go down in flames trailing huge columns +of billowing black smoke. +Nekura says, "nightmare mud" +Blodoc steps on the pad, vanishing with a bad effect. +Mackenzie has left. +Blodoc leaves, taking Mackenzie with him by the hand. +Arcanix has left. +Mav does leave, so there. :P +Yoshi purrs, "It's a social problem this time, Blodoc." +You cling Mav! +Louis says, "Stay, Mav!" +Mav wruffs gruffly, "It's always a social problem. :P" +Mav :stuphs the space moose in his pocket. +Blodoc beams down from the Space Station Celeste. +Blodoc has arrived. +Mackenzie has arrived. +>> A large poof of smoke appears, and the strong scent of cannibas +and cocaine fills the room. The smoke forms the figure of Mackenzie, +smoking a joint... big surprise. +Blodoc brings Mackenzie with him, holding hands. +>> The Caffeineated Wolf strolls in, wagging his tail. +Mav decides they want to go to hell, so Sparky goes there... and +Sparky dies, Sparky went to hell and died. +Mav has left. +Louis aws. +Yoshi does the bad Resident Evil acting, "NO, DON'T GO!" +Nekura says, "DING DONG THE WITCH IS DEAD!" +Blodoc wanders toward West Park. +Mackenzie has left. +Blodoc leaves, taking Mackenzie with him by the hand. +Louis says, "Dammit." +Nekura sings and dances +Yoshi chuckles at Nekura. +Blackheart changes into a Male husky. +Starlet giggles and hands Nekura some money. +Louis says, "Mav provides me with all my fun." +Blackheart sits up +Brenda has teleported in. +Brenda has arrived. +Nekura snuggles Starlet! +Malameux has connected. +Nekura touches Starlet! +Jadi soars in off the thermals and lands on her usual high perch. +Jadi has arrived. +Malameux pokes his connection with something rusty and pointy. +Malameux has disconnected. +Starlet thwaps Nekura! DG? looks at the thwaper with an angry gleam +in his eyes and asks them calmly "Why the hell did you do that?" +Ranna hides, darn parents +Nekura c.c +Starlet says, "No touching!" +Louis shouts "Gun fer hire. Getcher gun fer hire. Will kill for +food and ammo." (Public-shout) +Mikael emerges from a cloud of gently swirling, multicolored fluffs. +Mikael says, "What'd Sebastian do THIS time?" +Yoshi dunnos what's up. +I don't see that here. +Louis says, "It is something involving Miles." +Calvin shouts "stop trying to take my business, damnit!" +(Public-shout) +Matrices hates him... stated her opinion, and stays out of the +conversation. +Mikael says, "Oh." +Yoshi purrs, "Something pretty bad," +Nekura studys up on day trading +Mikael says, "He's an ass." +Louis says, "Tcheky is laughing her ass off, and I can't get any +straight answers." +Malameux has connected. +Yoshi purrs, "Someone toaded him." +Louis says, "One of those usual Fluff wacko incidents." +Malameux pokes his connection with something rusty and pointy. +Malameux has disconnected. +Yoshi purrs, "That's all I know." +Louis says, "He's still on my WF." +Yoshi purrs, "That's why Zorin crashed the muck." +Louis ahs. +Yoshi purrs, "To bring back the old db and...you get the idea." +Nekura O. +Nekura says, "Someone toaded Zorin?" +Yoshi purrs, "Miles." +Louis says, "Yah, I got the idea." +Nekura says, "Someone.. toaded ZOrin?" +Starlet cries. She doesn't WANT to take a 2 year old +trick-or-treating!! +Nekura says, "Miles Toaded Zorin?" +Mikael says, "Miles toaded Zorin!? o_O" +Blackheart yaps, "I'd have a problem if Miles got toaded" +Mikael says, "So would I." +Brenda snarl, "No, stupid, Miles got toaded." +Yoshi purrs, "No one can Toad Zorin, Nek. Jeesh." +Ranna patpats Starlet! +Nekura says, ".." +Mikael says, "Miles kicks ass. =p" +Nekura says, "Why the hell did you say that?" +Yoshi laughs. +Starlet cries on Ranna's shoulder! +Yoshi purrs, "I didn't." +Mikael says, "Why the hell did he get toaded?" +Louis says, "I wonder who toaded him." +Blackheart whimpers, "Miles is my mate's friend" +Louis has had funny conversations with Miles. +Ranna hugs Starlet! Starlet hugs back, and smooches Ranna on +the ear. +Ranna hugs Yoshi! Here's Yoshi's clever ohug that just makes you +feel all warm and fuzzy! +Malameux Mr. Bungles, "My connection sucks, so I go." +Malameux hugs Matrices! Matrices hugs Puddin Taine back, 'cause +he's her friend... awww... +Malameux loves Starlet! +Brenda snarl, "So Zorin lied to us and got all worried?" +Louis cannot get any info, ergh. +Yoshi purrs, "Wow, this is like flicking a soggy cigarette but into +a forest..." +Starlet smooches Malameux! Malameux awws, and smooches her back! +Yoshi purrs, "Forest fires start." +Avalon emerges from a cloud of gently swirling, multicolored fluffs. +Avalon waves. +Ranna "mwar, bbs" +Malameux frenchies, "Byebye. bbl." +Malameux explodes, sending twirling chunks of flesh and guts flying +through the air. splat +Malameux has left. +You hug Ranna! Ranna mrrs and hugs back tightly! +Brenda snarl, "I mean..I thought there was something wrong with +the muck. That's low." +Yoshi purrs, "He was under time pressure." +Ranna waves +The next save will be in 25 mins, 35 secs. +Calvin has teleported in. +Calvin has arrived. +Mikael says, "Miles is a friend of my alt, Michelle. =)" +Ranna rars +Ranna goes home. +Ranna has left. +Nekura says, "Miles is an introvert" +Calvin xenomorphs, "I guess that works" +Calvin xenomorphs, "oh" +Avalon wanders toward West Park. +Calvin goes home. +Calvin has left. +Matrices elasticas, "you have to set the props" +Nekura says, "Blackheart stop worrying about your mate so much." +Matrices slaughters, "urp. he left." +Nekura says, "Feh... screw you AOL" +Matrices stays out of this conversation now. +Matrices wanders toward West Park. +a little black raincloud hangs over Matrices' head as she leaves... +Blackheart wanders toward West Park. +Jadi catches the thermals and soars away. +Jadi has left. +Louis says, "Gilly or one of the unregistered probably toaded him." +Fluff Park +You stand in a perfectly charming oasis of land, a clearing in the +midst of a dense forest. The emerald-green grass is soft as a carpet +under your paws. This place seems to welcome you, inviting you to +flop down on the grass and relax. In the center of the grass is a +large obsidian column, jutting from the ground, which bears a grey +marble sculpture of a lynx. He stands on all fours, looking quite +proud, tufted ears alert, serenely surveying the Land of Fluff. +From this central location many paths are open to you. A +teleporter 'pad' is here which will transport you to the Space +Station Celeste. Feline Avenue leads away through the trees to the +'north'; to the 'east' is Lynx Lane. The park continues to the +'west.' To the 'south', a narrow path through the vegetation leads +to shimmering water. +There's a small hatchlike door set into the ground. A narrow +opening cut into a treetrunk is marked 'Bulletin Board Reading Room' +(to enter, type "board"). You see a large SIGN here. + Furs here: +Yoshi, Mikael, Louis, Nekura, Starlet and Vyvyan[idle 10m42s] + Things here: +Brenda, Catfish, FluffHomesGuide and ACME Matter Generator +Catfish sneefs and wriggles away. +Catfish has left. +Yoshi purrs, "The shouts seem to indicate Gillian... p" +Nekura says, "LOL" +Brenda bounds after Brightie. +Brenda has left. +Ylla waves. +Starlet says, "Currency. Mmm." +Louis says, "I would guess so." +Yoshi reads the currency. +Yoshi hehs to Starlet. +Nekura says, "Why would Gillian toad Zorin?" +Starlet smiles and then departs to her home. +Yoshi purrs, "Not Zorin!!!!" +Louis kills Nekura. +Starlet goes home. +Starlet has left. +Louis says, "You dumbassio!" +You pounce Nekura! DG? tumbles back laughing +Louis strangles Nek. +Nekura says, "erm.. Miles" +You ticklenoogiedeath Nekura! +Nekura says, "GAH!!" +Yoshi starts laughing helplessly. +The Voices are unleashed upon the room... +Nekura says, "ok.. Gillian toads Miles so in order to get Miles +back Zorin shuts it down without restart" +Ylla walks into the reading room to read the board. ("board" +to follow) +Nekura gets it +Louis says, "Yes." +Yoshi purrs, "Oh great, the voices. =p" +Louis says, "But beyond that, I know nothing." +Yoshi purrs, "That's the current theory, Nekura." +Nekura says, "Ahhh." +Louis says, "Save that Gillian is laughing, and everyone is chaotic." +Nekura says, "SAVE THE PIGMY WHALES!" +Louis says, "This is more chaos than I, a Discordian even, can take." +Nekura runs around screaming +Nekura kicks in a couple of doors and riots and throws some +trash cans +Yoshi is enjoying it in a sick way, Louis. +Louis says, "Same here, Yoshi." +Yoshi purrs, "Mostly because I don't have to deal with it." +Louis says, "I'm just yucky at the lack of information." +Yoshi feels guilty for enjoying it though because he feels sorry +for Zorin. +Nekura is too! +Yoshi nods at Louis. +Nekura says, "why you feel bad for Zorin?" +Louis says, "But I also @archived me=e just in case." +Yoshi likes him? +Yoshi otohs and does that... +arch(#49552E) +Yoshi's Omnibus Archiving Enviroment Room(#55647RJ) +End of List* +2 objects found. +You jump into catspace. +Yoshi's Omnibus Archiving Enviroment Room(#55647RJ) +Thank you for recycling. +[Start Dump] Lots of spam here
+[End Dump] +You jump into catspace. +Fluff Park +You stand in a perfectly charming oasis of land, a clearing in the +midst of a dense forest. The emerald-green grass is soft as a carpet +under your paws. This place seems to welcome you, inviting you to +flop down on the grass and relax. In the center of the grass is a +large obsidian column, jutting from the ground, which bears a grey +marble sculpture of a lynx. He stands on all fours, looking quite +proud, tufted ears alert, serenely surveying the Land of Fluff. +From this central location many paths are open to you. A +teleporter 'pad' is here which will transport you to the Space +Station Celeste. Feline Avenue leads away through the trees to the +'north'; to the 'east' is Lynx Lane. The park continues to the +'west.' To the 'south', a narrow path through the vegetation leads +to shimmering water. +There's a small hatchlike door set into the ground. A narrow +opening cut into a treetrunk is marked 'Bulletin Board Reading Room' +(to enter, type "board"). You see a large SIGN here. + Furs here: +Yoshi, Mikael[idle 6m57s], Louis, Nekura and Vyvyan[idle 15m8s] + Things here: +The Voices, FluffHomesGuide and ACME Matter Generator +Yoshi is @archived now. +Nekura says, "The spam!" +Louis says, "That's why I left, Yoshi." +Yoshi sees. +Louis says, "Nekura, I said go to another room and do it." +Nekura shudders and falls +Yoshi hehs at Nekura. +Yoshi plants a daisy by Nekura's grave? +You start to hallucinate. You can hear them in your head... screaming +things at you, infesting your brain with horrible thoughts, +posessing, commanding, tormenting, corrupting... +Agonizing over: +Type 'a special place' to go somewhere special. +Room: Fluff Park +Name----------------Stat--Sex---------Species--------------------------------- +Yoshi[1s idle] IC male ocelot + Doing: Callen mrrs, "Hmm, yoshi is an indisputable fact." +>The Voices[28s idle 777 -unknown- Hallucination +|Matrices +Mikael[7m idle] male Skunk + Doing: Asobi wa owari + da! Nake! Sakebe! SOSHITE.... SHINEIIIIIIIIII!! +Louis[1s idle] SAINT Male Clergyman Fox + Doing: The Computer is your Friend, Citizen +Nekura[29s idle] DG? male Sexual Creature + Doing: I'm psycologically dirty man! Blow censored +Vyvyan[16m idle] BRAIN Female Anthro Iguana + Doing: Bite me, Fanboy! +---[ Found 6 characters. ( 5 Awake / 1 Zombie ) +]----------------------------- +Louis says, "Nekura, you're a dumbassio sometimes." +Nekura says, "Jeah I know" +Nekura says, "did that spam you?" +Nekura says, "sorry" +Louis says, "Do you want to save data about your character in case +Fluff dies?" +Yoshi purrs, "No." +Calvin comes in riding a very large truck called a +kaputzenwagen. Calvin stands behind the cab on the bed of the +truck, behind the trigger of an MG42 Light Machine Gun mounted on +an anti-aircraft tripod. He then exclaims "Ich bin das Parknazi, +einlade mich zu Ihren keggars, oder ich kreische an Ihnen!" (I am +the park nazi, invite me to your keggars, or I will yell at you) +Calvin has arrived. +Nekura says, "Calvin" +Calvin xenomorphs, "Nekura" +Yoshi purrs, "CAlviiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin!" +Calvin xenomorphs, "Yoshi" +Louis says, "The National Socialist German Worker's Party strikes +again." +Calvin xenomorphs, "I'm just a mere park-nazi" +SilverWolf's silver hawk appears. The light flashing off its +body shimmers into the colors of the Aurora Borealis, causing you +to blink. When the light disappears, SilverWolf is there. +SilverWolf has arrived. +Mewbox bounces energetically, "Mew!" +Louis says, "My @archive me=e runs 3506 lines." +Yoshi didn't measure his. +Nekura says, "ugh" +Nekura has no idea but knows its a long ammount +Louis says, "I just opened my log and went to the end, and Emacs +gave me the line number." +Property set. +That is not edible. +Calvin xenomorphs, "I don't measure mine either, for I have, da +da da da the biggest dong in all the land!" +Louis says, "Checks out pretty dang good." +Calvin xenomorphs, "so basically, Louis, you measured your log from +the end?" +Louis says, "Uh." +Louis says, "Nazi bastard." +Calvin xenomorphs, "no swear for you!" +Calvin whips Louis! +Louis oops. +Louis says, "Bnasturd, rather." +Mewbox> You take a bite of Nibbles, savoring its flavor, finishing +it. +Mewbox eats some of Nibbles, finishing it. +Louis says, "I wonder if Zorin will armageddon and just use 97Fluff." +Mewbox mwuahahahas! It will be Yoshi's only puppet. +Maverick_Xavier emerges from a cloud of gently swirling, multicolored +fluffs. +Yoshi purrs, "Well, if he does, I can re-make my stuff at least." +Louis says, "Yah." +Maverick_Xavier goes home. +Maverick_Xavier has left. +Nekura says, "596 lines for me" +Nekura figured it out by multiplication +Louis says, "Mine is bigger." +Nekura says, "..." +Nekura says, "You may have the bigger @archive" +Louis says, "And I do that just to be typical male." +Nekura says, "BUT I HAVE THE BIGGEST DONG IN THE lAND" +Calvin xenomorphs, "augh" +Calvin xenomorphs, "let's do the time warp again" +Louis shouts "Anybody wanna bid on Aleister Crowley's soul? I've +got it up on eHell." (Public-shout) +Nekura says, "What instructions" +Vyvyan shouts "Oooh! I'll bid $15.00!" (Public-shout) +Louis says, "Nevermind." +Vyvyan waves. ^_^ +Vyvyan says, "Where'd everyone, go?" +Nekura wants to see the @bulliten but whatever +Louis says, "Everybody is trying to find out what the hell is +happening." +Brightie emerges from a cloud of gently swirling, multicolored +fluffs. +Brenda has arrived. +Brenda bounds in after Brightie. +Ranna emerges from a cloud of gently swirling, multicolored fluffs. +Nekura says, "miles is online now" +Brightie revives, "Waaaait a minute." +Vyvyan bahs! The black velvet-like fabric has stained her otherwise +white bra black, and her hands are gray. o.O; +Louis hehs. +Brightie Da Da Das, "Someone tell me what the hell is going on." +Vyvyan hugs Brightie. She hasn't the slightest. +Louis says, "There is a theory." +Louis says, "Someone toaded Miles, so Zorin shutdown the muck, +which restored him." +Brightie is too sexy for her 56k modems, "Bad stuff is happening +and I'm totally lost and scared." +Brightie tortures, "Is that true though?" +Calvin xenomorphs, "ugh" +Vyvyan says, "Like, what?" +Louis says, "We think it is." +Nekura says, "Me and Louis... will investigate." +Louis says, "Gillian is laughing her ass off, and I can't get +any info." +Nekura puts on a suit +Vyvyan hahs. +Ranna needs....blanket... +Brightie joe boxers, "Err." +Calvin xenomorphs, "I just cut myself on an exacto knife" +Vyvyan says, "What happened?" +Vyvyan laughs. +Brightie feels like screaming, "What'd Miles do to get himself +toaded?" +Louis says, "We don't know." +Louis says, "Zorin didn't toad him." +Louis says, "It was probably Gillian or an unregistered." +Brightie doesn't like Alice in Chains, "Hmm. Yeah." +Calvin xenomorphs, "there are others with power?" +Vyvyan leans on Brightie. She has her shit-kicker German army boots +on. And a black skirt. And no shirt - just a bra, because she was +playing with her Eris outfit. +Allistar emerges from a cloud of gently swirling, multicolored +fluffs. +:CueCat bounds in looking for Allistar.. +Brightie chases sirens, "ooh, go vyv!" +Calvin xenomorphs, "I must seek this power" +Allistar waves +Allistar hugs Vyvyan! +Nekura told Zorin long ago to give him a Wiz bit but nooooo +Ranna has disconnected. +Calvin yells "kein Schlaf fr Sie!" (no sleep for you) and blows +the sleeper up with a panzerfaust +Ranna gets flung far past the ninth gate, and is therefore better +than all the other sleepers +Ranna has left. +Vyvyan drinks Mt. Dew and leans back in a chair. She feels so cool +in just a black skirt and boots. Her bra /was/ white - but the +black velvet-like fabric of her Eris toga stained it gray. +Ranna emerges from a cloud of gently swirling, multicolored fluffs. +Louis says, "Alli..." +Brightie 's god pouts on the cover of the magazine, "Weeeird." +Calvin xenomorphs, "what did Alli do?" +Louis says, "I suggest you @archive yourself." +Allistar meows, "Why?" +You whisper, "Yoshi knows for sure that someone was toaded, that's +why he downed the server." to Brightie. +Allistar pirates, "What's gonna happen?" +Louis says, "Weird shnuff is going down." +Allistar puddings, "like?" +You whisper, "Zorin told me himself. I'm guessing miles from the +shouts." to Brightie. +Nekura gets a gun and a big truck +Louis says, "Miles was toaded." +Brightie whispers, "I guess so.." to you. +Nekura says, "The world is ending!" +Nekura says, "ENDING" +Allistar X-mens, "..." +Allistar erases, "Why?" +Brightie paigehaleys, "Feh." +Calvin xenomorphs, "hey Nek, jump into my kaputzenwagen!" +Louis says, "So Zorin shutdown the muck, which restored Miles." +Nekura jumps in his truck and drives down the street he got a big +truck because he knows people want to ram him +Louis says, "Gillian or one of the unregistered toaded him." +Brightie dramaticas, "Yes." +Louis says, "Mav left the MUCK because of it." +Brightie dreams about sex all day, "It's all falling into place.." +Calvin xenomorphs, "this is weird, because the ActionXtreme forums +were hacked and a few accounts were erased" +Brightie voodoos, "Mav left the muck for good?" +Allistar shouts "Where's the bulletin that you promised us?" +(Public-shout) +Yoshi wonders what info Brightie has? +Louis says, "I'm pretty sure." +Yoshi purrs, "Probably not, Brightie." +Yoshi's betting he'll be back, +Louis says, "Yah." +Nekura nods +Allistar nekuras, "Gillian's not a wiz anymore!" +Blodoc shouts "I was thinking the same thing." (Public-shout) +Louis says, "Mav probably will be." +Ranna shivers, gets...blanket... +Allistar fluffs, "type wizzes #all" +Gillian(#6254PBJX) -- Owner: Gillian +Calvin shouts "it's all a conspiracy against ME!" (Public-shout) +Nekura says, "The guys like a case of herpees. You'll never get +rid of him" +Yoshi purrs, "Whoa.. " +Brightie o.o +Louis says, "She must have done it." +Nekura O.O +Yoshi > Gillian(#6254PBJX) -- Owner: Gillian +Allistar downloads, "Taht's why!" +Vyvyan blinks. +( Bulletin! Bulletin! Bulletin! Bulletin! ) (Public-spoof) +Allistar pikas, "That." +Yoshi purrs, "We know who did it now." +Allistar klondikes, "Yes." +Brightie went to the 1999 and 2000 Havarah camping trips, "Yep." +Allistar fluffmuck.orgs, "You can thank me for figuring it out." +You nuzzle Allistar! +Allistar mini-kittys, "and I wasn't even on to know." +Calvin xenomorphs, "it was Gil?" +Allistar uhoh-boom.coms, "Yes." +Nekura knew it +Calvin xenomorphs, "what was her Motive?" +Nekura knew it all along +Louis suspected Tcheky due to her behavior. +Allistar meows, "Which was why Zorin said that the muck would not +be saved." +Yoshi purrs, "No one knows." +Nekura says, "Miles is a little child preditor" +Nekura says, "Ask less" +Allistar floppies, "Miles probably owns a large portion of the muck." +I don't see that here. +Brightie doesn't suggest Taxi Driver for depression, "Child +predator?" +Louis says, "Of course, over the shout Les claimed Miles was a +child predator." +Calvin xenomorphs, "awww, I wasn't bleeding as bad as I had hoped" +Yoshi purrs, "Umm." +Nekura says, "Jeah." +Brightie papa roachs, "Hmmm." +Louis says, "I asked Gillian about it, she said he was probably +baiting him." +Yoshi purrs, "Ok." +Nekura's trying to get someinfo +Louis says, "Windy is probably involved." +Calvin xenomorphs, "oh well, in the long run, that's a good thing" +Allistar electrocutes, "I'm guessing either Miles owns a large +portion of fluff.." +Louis says, "Uh." +Nekura says, "Windwatcher? Why do you say that?" +Allistar matrices, "Or... Gillian toaded him in response to +something." +Yoshi purrs, "Windy's got his fingers in every pie...." +Louis says, "Unathorized toads are a no-no." +Windwatcher shouts "Bulletin: You're all fired. Please empty +out your desks and security will escort you from the building." +(Public-shout) +Allistar types, "Louis: I know." +Louis says, "Windy is everywhere, Nek." +Yoshi purrs, "He's got bugs on every line..." +Nekura Knows htis +Yoshi stops trying to sing now. +Nekura says, "DAMN windwatcher!" +Calvin xenomorphs, "uh?" +Louis is glad he archived. +Nuclear launch detected. No need to clear your desks, you will +be nuked. (Public-pose) +Yoshi lights his desk on fire. (Public-pose) +SHOUT: 21 folks heard that. +Yoshi laughs at the shouts. +Allistar loves his new char, Nuclear. +Calvin xenomorphs, "wind can see my raunchy "me time" when I think +I'm alone?" +Yoshi is damn glad he's logging all this. +Louis pulls out his tommy gun, and prepares for the +Apocalypse. "Priest-warrior at large!" (Public-pose) +Brightie logging too. +Louis says, "Good." +Allistar starts logging. +Yoshi -always- has logs running. +Louis says, "I couldn't get it logged." +Louis says, "What is your email, Yoshi?" +Matrices emerges from a storm of violently swirling, black +rainclouds... +Matrices has arrived. +a little black raincloud forms over Matrices' head... +Guest3 has arrived. +Matrices enters, with Guest3 walking along next to him. +Allistar radds, "I have a feeling we should @archive" +Yoshi purrs, "In fact, I need to clean them out, and when I go to +clean this up for safekeeping, I thinking I will." +Louis will probably inquire about a log later, if you don't mind. +Matrices waves +Yoshi nodnods, sure. +Guest3 waves! +Allistar worship ileahs, "I'll brb" +Allistar tries to go to the park, but to his surprise, he finds +that he's already here. +Ranna wants to know too... +Allistar goes home. +Allistar has left. +:CueCat bounds out after Allistar.. +Yoshi purrs, "You'll only know what I know." +Nekura pulls up to Louis in his truck +Allistar emerges from a cloud of gently swirling, multicolored +fluffs. +:CueCat bounds in looking for Allistar.. +Louis shrugs. +Allistar coca-colas, "There." +The Voices fade out, then dissappear... +Brightie shakes her head. This is damn crazy. +Allistar bounces, "Archive done." +Calvin hugs Matrices! Matrices hugs Calvin back, 'cause Calvin's +her friend... awww... +Yoshi purrs, "But anyone that wants what I happen to be logging, +email yoshi@aros.net" +Matrices hugs Calvin! +Allistar has a really bad feeling. +Matrices closes her eyes, a blue-green glow surrounds her... The +glow recedes leaving Matrices in her normal form... +Nekura shakes his head and rumbles around the park in his truck +Vyvyan says, "Alli, if your gonna puke - do it over there..." +Allistar call me crazys, "...no..." +Guest3 hugs Matrices! Matrices gets an akward look and slowly +backs away... +Allistar downloads, "I have a bad feeling about what happened." +Burn keeps the lynx at bay, via chains. (Public-pose) +You hug Allistar! +Matrices hugs Guest3! +Calvin xenomorphs, "Die Parknazis erobern das apocolypse" +Allistar shouts "I have a theory of what happened." (Public-shout) +Yoshi thinks something like this has been brewing for a long time. +Brightie plays kill-by-numbers, "I do too, Allistar." +Louis jumps in Nekura's truck, Tommy gun ready. +Nekura says, "Windwatcher refuses to comment to me" +Calvin shouts "Die Parknazis erobern das apocolypse" (Public-shout) +Nekura nods to Louis +Brightie was voted off the island, "Something bad's gonna happen. I +can sense it." +Calvin hops in +Guest3 wails! Matrices no like 'er? Bah. Screw it. She knows Matrices +likes her. +Allistar dailypirates, "I know, Brightie." +Yoshi purrs, "I couldn't tell where from, but the feeling was +unmistakeable." +Nekura rides Louis around in his big truck +Louis says, "Yes." +Calvin xenomorphs, "Nice thompson, is it an M1A1, or an M1928?" +Matrices needs to @archive herself... +Calvin xenomorphs, "M1921?" +Allistar did so already, Mati. +Brightie the perfect drugs, "Something that'll really change +the muck." +Allistar's tail puffs up. +Yoshi nods...while there's still time, Matrices. +Nekura waves his Sawed off shotgun wildly in the air +Allistar yiffs, "Brightie: I know." +Nekura says, "FLuff armageddon" +Louis says, "On Fluff97 Zorin and I were discussing the good old +days and how fluff was in decline." +Matrices stops Guest3 from walking along with her. +Calvin xenomorphs, "ow, that hurt like hell" +Allistar usually gets shaky when soemthing like this happened. +Matrices slays, "BRB" +Brightie du hast mechs, "Fluff's been in decline for 3 years." +Yoshi's had a similar conversation with Zorin several times. +Matrices clambers aboard a passing black raincloud and is whisked +away to somewhere else... +Matrices has left. +a little black raincloud hangs over Matrices' head as she leaves... +Calvin waves around his PPK +Louis says, "He was wondering about how to restore it to former +glory." +Nekura says, "Ever since the Sonic people got here" +Yoshi's thinking... +Allistar time warps, "Palm Personal Keyboard, Calvin?" +Brightie shedevil, "Former glory.." +Yoshi purrs, "DB REVERT!" +Allistar doctor peppers, "Yoshi, Gillian did it, no doubt." +Allistar handsprings, "But what I don't get.." +Calvin xenomorphs, "no, I @archived myself" +Yoshi purrs, "Start with nothing but the park and rebuild!" +Allistar downloads, "what CAUSED the toading." +Allistar ileahs, "Yoshi!" +Allistar pounces, "Except the jello pools, too!" +Louis says, "There are some circles I could have joined, but stayed +out of, so I bet there is something going on." +Guest3 dances out t'FurryMUCK. See ya! +Brightie laughs at Yoshi. Heeelll noo. +Guest3 has disconnected. +Guest3 has left. +Guest3 vanishes in a puff of smoke. +Allistar gets shaky. o.o +Yoshi purrs, "Probablly just some stupid argument, Alli." +Yoshi shrugs at Brightie. Just a suggestion. +Brightie owns way too much stuff. The Cheefox Inn, Surreality, +Glendale..no no no. +Louis says, "Zorin's behaviour at Fluff97 indicated something +building." +Allistar OH'SE +Louis says, "And now it has snapped." +Calvin xenomorphs, "yea! bring 'em on, I'll fill 'em with 7.65x39!" +Yoshi purrs, "@archive it, Brightie." +Allistar OH's. +Brightie did. +Allistar meows, "How do I archive all my rooms, Yoshi?" +Louis says, "=e?" +Brightie sighs and leans against someone. This worries me. +Calvin xenomorphs, "we're gonna die?" +Brightie munkys, "Yes." +You whisper, "@archive me=e" to Allistar. +Allistar gethightech.coms, "brb" +Allistar goes home. +Allistar has left. +:CueCat bounds out after Allistar.. +Brightie slipknots, "What if Fluff shuts down?" +Yoshi hugs Brightie? +Yoshi purrs, "I dunno." +Calvin xenomorphs, "Damnit, not again?" +Yoshi hopes not. +Nekura Windwatcher pages, "I lied. We're toading you." to you. +O.O +Louis needs to tell Zik to @archive. +Vyvyan says, "What is this @archive?" +Allistar emerges from a cloud of gently swirling, multicolored +fluffs. +:CueCat bounds in looking for Allistar.. +Allistar didos, "Done." +Brightie oy veys, "For good I mean, CAlvin." +Yoshi purrs, "I don't know any place to go that could substitute +for it." +Louis says, "Saves your data" +Calvin xenomorphs, "but, I have too much to lose!" +Brightie opticons, "No Fluff, no will to live! Arrgh!" +Allistar dailypirates, "Brightie, I am worried." +Matrices emerges from a storm of violently swirling, black +rainclouds... +Matrices has arrived. +a little black raincloud forms over Matrices' head... +Matrices twitches, "um." +Brightie is too. +Louis says, "Fluff is my primary social group. ;P" +Allistar X-mens, "Mine too, Louis." +Brightie yaaaawns, "Mine too." +Matrices elasticas, "yeah... when you log a file, do you log before +or after you did the @archive?" +Name On Line Idle };) }:) };) }:) };) }:) };) }:) +Zorin 1:08 2m Being cuddly. Please cuddle me. }:) +39 ky00ties! +Calvin xenomorphs, "ok, everyone, post your E-mail addies, ICQ +numbers, and IM screens" +Yoshi purrs, "Before." +Allistar snugs Brightie! +Brightie needs tos, "God forbid I'll have to start hanging out with +real people." +Allistar gethightech.coms, "before,Mati." +Yoshi nodnods at Brightie! +Matrices craves assmeats, "because my screen only shows up with a +few lines of text." +Allistar mews, "Brightie: Ain't that a bitch?" +Matrices moshes, "ooohhh, okay" +Calvin xenomorphs, "yea, I mean, what if I hear or see something, +or have a weird dream? who will I go to?" +Matrices orgys, "wellll... here's my e-mails and stuffs: " +Allistar yiffs, "I don't want to hang out with peopl irL." +Calvin xenomorphs, "this feels like the last episode of a good +TV show" +Louis says, "bobcomp@worldnet.att.net, if anyone is curious." +Yoshi purrs, "Hey, we all need to figure out what MUCK we're gonna +go to if Fluff dies." +Allistar gets shaky when he has a bad feeling. +Brightie mr. robotos, "Calvin: caffienatedNIN@thefragile.com, +31487849, spikedcollargirl or NineInchNailzz." +Allistar electrocutes, "Yoshi: Mine." +Yoshi, as stated previously, is yoshi@aros.net +Allistar matrices, "We'll start a new muck." +Brightie is shaking violently, but she's probably just cold. +Calvin xenomorphs, "my E-mail is Airsoft85@hotmail.com" +Brightie dreams about sex all day, "But it won't be the same. :(" +Yoshi snuggles Brightie... +Nekura is Louis' primairy social friend +Louis says, "I like SpinDizzy pretty good, but that already has +a tradition." +Yoshi purrs, "Yeah. It won't. =p" +Allistar shakes violently/shivers when he gets a bad feeling. +Nekura smooches Brightie! +Brightie glows in the dark, "Yanoo..good old Fluff. It'd be really +sad." +Nekura's gonna miss Brightie +Matrices is mrs_homicidal@yahoo.com | Rusted Oatmeal on AIM | +Matrices_Oddity on Yahoo | and 47031989 on ICQ. +Calvin xenomorphs, "I'm gonna miss Naga..." +Brightie isn't a player she just crushes a lot, "I at least wanna +make it to my 3rd birthday here." +Brightie sighs. +Brightie group-hugs. +Louis says, "Nekura, you're my beeatch." +Allistar shouts "I have a bad feeling..." (Public-shout) +Calvin xenomorphs, "I can't leave her behind" +Allistar snugs Brightie! +Nekura says, "Louis!" +Nekura slaps Louis! +Yoshi purrs, "Incidentally, if the muck does go down, anyone that +wants a record of the last moments can mail me for it." +Calvin hugs Nekura! DG? hugs them back and goes on with what he +was doing +Matrices is gunna BURN this WHOLE WORLD DOWN!, "BRB now to @archive." +Matrices clambers aboard a passing black raincloud and is whisked +away to somewhere else... +Matrices has left. +a little black raincloud hangs over Matrices' head as she leaves... +Allistar worship ileahs, "Mati.." +Brightie rammsteins, "That's sad, Yoshi..the last moments." +Nekura hugs Calvin! +Calvin sighs +Nekura hugs Yoshi! Here's Yoshi's clever ohug that just makes +you feel all warm and fuzzy! +Allistar uhoh-boom.coms, "That Osay was uncanny." +Calvin hugs Allistar! +Nekura says, "ICQ" +Nekura says, "ICQ people. We will live on! ;.;" +Calvin xenomorphs, "yea" +Yoshi's a sad kind of person. c.c +Brightie slipknots, "Damn..it's like the last day of Keppel all +over again." +Calvin xenomorphs, "ICQ........" +Yoshi purrs, "Keppel?" +Brightie Leaether Strips, "My old school." +Ranna 77239693 +Yoshi purrs, "I see." +Calvin xenomorphs, "the muck is shutting down tonight?" +Robie has teleported in. +Robie has arrived. +Yoshi purrs, "Nobody knows, Calvin." +Louis says, "As I said, my email is bobcomp@worldnet.att.net" +Brightie into the voids, "It could all end soon." +Nekura's going to bed +Allistar GCs, "Here's me: http://www.alamonetworks.com +http://alli.yi.org opticalmouse@mailandnews.com +allistar@gyroplast.com 27244402 AIM name digikittensatx yahooID: +opticalmuose" +Louis says, "Please write it down." +Maverick_Xavier emerges from a cloud of gently swirling, multicolored +fluffs. +Vyvyan is deleri_uhm@hotmail.com +Allistar has an awful feeling. +Nekura hugs Louis! +Yoshi purrs, "I do know Zorin has been very unhappy with the way +it's going lately." +Nekura hugs Allistar! +Calvin xenomorphs, "somebody has to know! Mucks just don't go down +without someone doing something" +Brightie shivers. +Allistar is, too. +Calvin xenomorphs, "ok, I say fuck it all" +Allistar time warps, "I know." +You poke Calvin! +Calvin xenomorphs, "screw the rules" +Nekura loads his shot gun +Brightie likes Jay Gordon, "Calvin, don't swear." +Allistar puddings, "I know." +Louis says, "Zorin has been acting weird." +Burn shouts "'There's something happening here... what it is... isn't +exactly clear... There's a wiz being a lynxie over there... Telling +me, to fuzz up or be ware... So, stop, foxie, what's that +sound... Everybody look what's going down...'" (Public-shout) +Vyvyan says, "I need everyone's AIM name." +Brightie has come to SNUFF the rooster, "It's hard to be a mediator +right now but..yeah." +Brightie gave hers, Vyv. +Nekura fires a few shots in the air +Calvin xenomorphs, "there's no point" +Allistar GCs, "Vyvy: DigikittenSATX" +Calvin joins +Allistar radds, "What's yours?" +Onyx emerges from the UnderGround. +Calvin xenomorphs, "yeee haw!" +Yoshi purrs, "Ocelspot" +Calvin xenomorphs, "remember the alamo" +Allistar matrices, "what's everyones AIM name, too." +Allistar pounces, "?" +Louis is on ICQ. +Brightie perfect circles, "Again, spikedcollargirl, NineInchNailzz." +Calvin xenomorp</pre
+ Expand all +
Empathy is cooler in person. +Why, so you can verify? Do you trust your feelings? +I.. well, I don't know, do you? +Your feelings? I trust them, but I am one. I never thought about trusting my own. Feelings of a feeling. I think that describes empathy pretty well. +Don't leave..
+ Expand all +Remember how I said that I was afraid of my roommate?
+Well, he's fucking scary!
+Sysco talks in his sleep some, which is okay, though it's kind of odd, because he actually forms coherent (mostly) thoughts, though they tend to be really angry thoughts. He had already yelled at me a few times tonight about bottles or something, and he was completely smashed when he got home, so I should've expected this, but I'm so on-edge from caffeine that I pretty much would've flipped out about anything.
+Anyway, stuff that was sitting on top of my monitor decided it really wanted to be on top of my CD spindle, and that it wanted to be rude about it, so CRASH it went, knocking a Mtn. Dew bottle onto the floor. As if this wasn't enough to completely destroy me, Sysco jumped up from bed, grabbed the Mtn. Dew bottle and clung to it possessively, murmuring angry words to himself and visually counting the things on my desk, or the seconds I had left to live. He then reached for my nice glass from which I DRINK THINGS, and grabbed that possessively as well. Holding these two cylinders close against his chest, he then proceeded to wake up.
+Yes, he was asleep.
+Yes I am injured.
+Whiplash. He scared me so much that I jerked my neck backwards.
+After throwing the bottle on the floor and setting my glass down on top of his CD player, he mumbled at me and went back to sleep. It wasn't until after I freaked out, grabbed my laptop and all of the files I needed and got about halfway to the lobby that I started to laugh at the utter absurdity of the situation. He may yell at me tomorrow about it, but I'm just going to laugh back at him, because, damn, that was just funny. And you've gotta laugh at what you're afraid of, because fear is more absurd than anything else. :o
+ Expand all +
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In other news, I slept with Lon last night. Sleep's perhaps too specific, since I suck at sleeping with other people around, especially when they're touching me. I kinda did it so that I wouldn't have to deal with Sysco, but mostly I was lonely, and appreciative of affection. After that, dorm food and I had a fight, and I've been sick all day. Also, I lost my keys somewhere in Lon's bed, and I'm now locked out of my room.
+So
+ Expand all +Tom Yum flavored Fashion Food is pretty damn good, even though it gave me instant heartburn (I fear for my esophagus.. might be acid reflux). Not sure if that's just from me being sick, though. It tasted like a black pepper soup, honestly. It was salty and a little sweet, and my mix of spices went well with it (Garum Masala, curry powder, powdered lemongrass, and cayenne pepper).
+I slept six hours, feel much better. Now for studying, tea, and then more sleep
+ Expand all +America I've given you all and now I'm nothing. +America two dollars and twenty-seven cents January 17, 1956. +I can't stand my own mind. +America when will we end the human war? +Go fuck yourself with your atom bomb +I don't feel good don't bother me. +I won't write my poem till I'm in my right mind. +America when will you be angelic? +When will you take off your clothes? +When will you look at yourself through the grave? +When will you be worthy of your million Trotskyites? +America why are your libraries full of tears? +America when will you send your eggs to India? +I'm sick of your insane demands. +When can I go into the supermarket and buy what I need with my good looks? +America after all it is you and I who are perfect not the next world. +Your machinery is too much for me. +You made me want to be a saint. +There must be some other way to settle this argument. +Burroughs is in Tangiers I don't think he'll come back it's sinister. +Are you being sinister or is this some form of practical joke? +I'm trying to come to the point. +I refuse to give up my obsession. +America stop pushing I know what I'm doing. +America the plum blossoms are falling. +I haven't read the newspapers for months, everyday somebody goes on trial for +murder. +America I feel sentimental about the Wobblies. +America I used to be a communist when I was a kid and I'm not sorry. +I smoke marijuana every chance I get. +I sit in my house for days on end and stare at the roses in the closet. +When I go to Chinatown I get drunk and never get laid. +My mind is made up there's going to be trouble. +You should have seen me reading Marx. +My psychoanalyst thinks I'm perfectly right. +I won't say the Lord's Prayer. +I have mystical visions and cosmic vibrations. +America I still haven't told you what you did to Uncle Max after he came over +from Russia.
+I'm addressing you. +Are you going to let our emotional life be run by Time Magazine? +I'm obsessed by Time Magazine. +I read it every week. +Its cover stares at me every time I slink past the corner candystore. +I read it in the basement of the Berkeley Public Library. +It's always telling me about responsibility. Businessmen are serious. Movie +producers are serious. Everybody's serious but me. +It occurs to me that I am America. +I am talking to myself again.
+Asia is rising against me. +I haven't got a chinaman's chance. +I'd better consider my national resources. +My national resources consist of two joints of marijuana millions of genitals +an unpublishable private literature that goes 1400 miles and hour and +twentyfivethousand mental institutions. +I say nothing about my prisons nor the millions of underpriviliged who live in +my flowerpots under the light of five hundred suns. +I have abolished the whorehouses of France, Tangiers is the next to go. +My ambition is to be President despite the fact that I'm a Catholic.
+America how can I write a holy litany in your silly mood? +I will continue like Henry Ford my strophes are as individual as his +automobiles more so they're all different sexes +America I will sell you strophes $2500 apiece $500 down on your old strophe +America free Tom Mooney +America save the Spanish Loyalists +America Sacco & Vanzetti must not die +America I am the Scottsboro boys. +America when I was seven momma took me to Communist Cell meetings they +sold us garbanzos a handful per ticket a ticket costs a nickel and the +speeches were free everybody was angelic and sentimental about the +workers it was all so sincere you have no idea what a good thing the party +was in 1935 Scott Nearing was a grand old man a real mensch Mother +Bloor made me cry I once saw Israel Amter plain. Everybody must have +been a spy. +America you don're really want to go to war. +America it's them bad Russians. +Them Russians them Russians and them Chinamen. And them Russians. +The Russia wants to eat us alive. The Russia's power mad. She wants to take +our cars from out our garages. +Her wants to grab Chicago. Her needs a Red Reader's Digest. her wants our +auto plants in Siberia. Him big bureaucracy running our fillingstations. +That no good. Ugh. Him makes Indians learn read. Him need big black niggers. +Hah. Her make us all work sixteen hours a day. Help. +America this is quite serious. +America this is the impression I get from looking in the television set. +America is this correct? +I'd better get right down to the job. +It's true I don't want to join the Army or turn lathes in precision parts +factories, I'm nearsighted and psychopathic anyway. +America I'm putting my queer shoulder to the wheel
+ Expand all +Wait.. yeah I am c.c
+PRESIDENTIAL LIBRARY DESTROYED BY FIRE
+Crawford, Texas --
+A tragic fire on Sunday destroyed the personal library of President +George W. Bush. Both of his books have been lost. +A presidential spokesman said the president was devastated, as he had +not finished coloring the second one
+ Expand all +http://72.3.131.10/upload_files/se141.jp
+ Expand all +My right eye is now minty fresh and free of plaque, as well as germs that cause the disease gingivitis. Putting toothpaste on my brand spankin' new toothbrush, I accidentally ended up flinging a little of the toothpaste DIRECTLY INTO MY EYE >.@ I think I got most of it out, though my eye still feels weird. If I go blind, I'll be pissed.
+Now, off to brush my teeth.
+EDIT: +Thought process: 'Ooh! Ooh! My name's Ryan and I'm so salty! Ooh!' Your saltiness is too much for me Ryan! +Reason for this: the packets of salt and pepper Ryan and I stole from Lory
+ Expand all +De profundis clamavi ad te, Domine; +Domine, exaudi vocem meam. +Fiant auris tuae intendentes +in orationem servi tui, Domine. +Si iniquitantes observaveris, Domine: +Domine quis sustinebit? +Quia apud te propitiatio est, +et propter legem tuam sustinui te, Domine
+ Expand all +61 !Caring points. +47.287%+ +
Well, it's been a long time since I posted in this Dusty Ould
+Thing®, and longer still since I added an actual Journal
+Entry©, but since
+
+First, with today (then I'll do catch up stuffs), I had four hours with Teh Rev (P) for finals (Excal and Festival), so I was feeling rather.. demoralized by the end of the day. Then I had auditions for Insomniac, which meant wearing my PJ pants, which are unfairly comfortable (really! I wish to wear them FO-EH-VAH). So, of course, I wore them for the rest of the day.
+
+Tonight, at OASOS, Wendy decided to do the Side-Poke-of-Doom (pat. pend.), which involved me falling on the floor multiple times to the point of hurting my hands. She kept on doing it, but made up for it with Hugs (ran out of copyright thingies). Samir thought it was cute and dutifully began fawning over/hitting on me, which I did not mind one bit. Well, maybe just a little bit, when he started giving me a massage. I have problems with people touching my sides and back, which is strange. It's probably psychological, but what could cause me to be so extremely sensitive in just those areas as to lead to violent reactions in response to tickling? Probably something deep, like, since I'm scared of persecution at school, I withdrew physically into myself, so as not to be accused of crossing someone's boundries. Probably.
+
+Anyway, for past updateishness. Ranna + Shan!! Shan +
+Rynden x.x Shan - Rynden; ...Ranna. Shan + Ranna!
+Shan + Ranna. Shan.. + Ranna... Ranna - Shan.
+Ranna. Shan. Kory? Ranna + Kory? Kory!
+Kory? Samir!?
+
+There's the relationships. School: Choir?
+Choir! Shannon + Choir?! Ranna - Shannon? x.x Ranna +
+Excal = Shannon x.x Teh Rev + Ranna x.x
+
+College? Got into CSU. Hoping to do a house thingy with
+Ientaculum Vulpes sophomore year, but room in Braiden freshman
+year. Kiran, Shannon, and IV all wish to do the same.
+
+Other than that? I Cor. 13
Grab the nearest book. +Open the book to page 23. +Find the fifth sentence. +Post the text of the sentence in your journal... +...along with these instructions.
+"Did you start a fox?"
+I've been reading this book for a bit now. It's strange.. really old sci-fi. Grass by Sheri S. Tepper. Pretty good
+ Expand all +Meh.
+I should've expected that, being highschool teachers, Revier and Keller couldn't have taught us everything, but my audition was very much not what I expected. Dr. Kim told me I was probably only using my voice to about 30% of it's potential due to breath support, and that I'll need lessons. Then he said I'd probably be a tenor. I wasn't terribly happy, but whatever. :o[
+I'm consoling myself with food now
+ Expand all +http://news.netcraft.com/archives/2004/11/09/domain_transfers_and_hijackings_to_become_easier.htm
+ Expand all +Well, I fucked up just a bit. While installing grub (a bootloader, a program to choose between operating systems on startup), due to my stupidity and it's rather clunky interface, I ended up overwriting the MBR on my old hard drive. Which means I can't boot windows anymore. Having looked at some sites, I guess there's a fixmbr command on the recovery console of the windows install disk. I just hope I can find that
+ Expand all +<img src="http://twu.net/~ranna/sp05sched.png"/
+ Expand all +School
+School's going pretty well. I got my major all changed (from biochemistry to music education, for those who aren't in the know), and I'm all signed up for most of the classes I need to take. The only ones I'm missing are the techniques classes that were all full. Oh well. I shall take them next semester. I took too much this semester, so I'm lightening up a bit (though apparently, my 'Islam from the 1500s' is fairly hard). All that's required of me now is an audition, which I'm working on really hard. I need two songs memorized and decently singable by the first day of next semester. I have the songs all picked out and stuff, but rehearsing is hard when you can't play the accompaniment.
+Friends
+Stuff. Lots of tea parties with Tehshannon and Ryan, and sometimes with Lon. Been hanging out at the office lots, now that I'm getting to know the people there.
+Clothing
+Got a scarf, found my khaki-coloured fleece. They go well together.
+Books
+Got a good, though rather dry book called Homosexuality and Civilization that goes from ancient Greece to the Enlightenment with some sections on asia thrown in there. Also, been reading this book called Grass by Sherri S. Tepper. I picked it out by walking down an isle at the library and grabbing a random book. Pretty good, though :o)
+Music
+Writing more. Started on my third Keats piece: Unfelt, Unheard, Unseen. After I finish that, I need to revise Lullaby and Stanzas, then the set will be complete. I like them better than anything else I've done, but that's not saying a whole lot. I still like them, though. Also: been thinking about a setting of De Profundis, some art songs (more Keats: Why did I laugh? and I cry thy mercy - pity - love - aye, love; two sonnets), and perhaps a symphonic poem based on Hyperion and/or Endymion (the poems, not the books), as well as that book, Homosexuality and Civilization, or maybe an opera ha ha ha
+ Expand all +other things are love | |||||
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H.E.R.E.T.I.C.S., Humans Encouraging Righteous Exploration of Tenets In Compact Sects, is letting me do a Discordian thingy on tuesday next week. On a related note, I got a Cthulhu plush. On another related note, my Qabal's growing more serious.
+On a completely different note, Nanon's getting some work done on it again
+ Expand all +Basic internet in Nederland is dailup.
+shudder
+However, my mom found this service called NedNet which is basically a radiod T1 line (shared, of course). They set up a tranceiver and wire a room with cat-V for you, and will set up a wireless connection for your house.
+This pleases me :o
+ Expand all +So I very nearly fell asleep at the keyboard whilst talking to the best fox EVAR, but when I went to lie down, I could not sleep at all.
+So I rearranged my room. I'm taking my keyboard back home, and I have my nook back
+ Expand all +Thanks to Ryan for music.
+Rimsky-Korsakov's Procession of the Nobels, and Tchaikovski's Marche Slave are both really good. And so are the other musics
+ Expand all +I'm tired of not being good enough for jobs that I would actually enjoy
+ Expand all +MST3K was fun, though exceedingly weird.
+Broomball was fun, though I fucked up my hip.
+I was tired, though I couldn't sleep.
+So I rolled cigarettes with Lon's pipe tobacco. I'm sure he'll smoke them eventually
+ Expand all +I purchased two reasonably priced gallons of cider the other day. The cider itself may have been expensive, but they came in these nice, sturdy glass jugs. The cider is for a project I have in mind. I plan on seeing if I can purchase some yeast - Red Star Cotes des Blanc and Pasteur Champagne - two drilled bungs, and two double bubble airlocks and making myself some cider. The champagne yeast, which is very dry, shall go in the plainer of the cider, which will result in apple wine/champagne, where as the Cotes des Blanc shall go in the spicier or more flavorful cider. Since a gallon of cider will fill about four liter bottles, I plan on carbonating half of each cider (2 bottles each), and then spicing one sparkling and one still bottle from each batch. That, I think, will give me some good variety.
+Cost: +cider (and fermenters) - $14.50 +Yeast, bungs, airlocks - $5.18 + $6.64 S&H = $11.82 +Estimated cost of remaining liter bottles (which come with some tasty french lemonade in them) - $17.50
+Total: ~ $38.14
+Fairly inexpensive for a first try, so if I get a bottle explosion (I hope not, these are sturdy bottles) or fuck something up, then I'm not biting too much. According to the yeast/brewing supplies supplier, orders over $60 have free shipping. I shall wait until after christmas to purchase anything to see if I get money. If so, I might buy some other things.
+I've decided that my first mead will be a hydromel, and my second a vanilla/smooth methyglin. This is based on my recent purchase of 20 high quality vanilla beans at $0.50 each. Shh :o
+ Expand all +"'[...] Perhaps I will be able to fight them and drive them away.'"
+Psh, I would pick the bible.. x.
+ Expand all +I couldn't leave my life un-fucked-up for long - I missed my biology final. My schedule says it was at 2:35 PM, when it was actually at 9:10 AM. Plus, I just ripped my pants. ;.;
+I'm so good at doing this :o
+ Expand all +I had some strange idea that I should punish myself by not eating. A nap fixed that, but now all I have is a vending machine dinner :o
+ Expand all +Eheh. Ehehehe. Hahaha. Heh.
+Excuse me. Anyway, stuff. Finals are over and done, which is a good thing, and I passed math, which is a Good Thing. So after that, I slacked off all weekend (though I did have to go to school on friday again. I feel for ye,
Also, will be dragging someone to OASOS tomorrow. Will be fun. No complete sentences. Nor verbs.
+Also also, tomorrow I turn the fateful 18. Yey, voting, smoking, and porn
+ Expand all +I'm almost out of sugar!
+*screams abound, the rending of flesh is heard, as Ranna commits hara-kiri
+ Expand all +Sudden Vulpine Anger Syndrome
+ Expand all +1 packet Red Star Montrachet dry wine yeast +1 packet DCL Safale S04 dry ale yeast +1 racking cane, 1/2" diameter +2 drilled #6 stoppers +2 double bubble airlocks +1 3-scale hydrometer +5 more swing top bottles with excessively delicious sparkling lemonades in them, which I hope I can finish before bottling time.
+Tomorrow I'm getting another jug of apple juice to make spiced cider over the holidays. I'll use the empty as a secondary. And some raisins
+ Expand all +I just realized last night that the bottles I've been stocking up on are 750 mL, not 1 L. Soooo... What I'm thinking of doing is getting some 375 mL wine bottles. Since it takes five 750 mL bottles per gallon, it will take four 750 mL bottles and two 375 mL bottles for each batch of what I'm making. I can use the smaller bottles as gifts, that way, or for aging. If this works out well, and you want either a bottle of cider or apple wine, let me know. I can make it spiced and/or sparkling, too
+ Expand all +Not mine, of course, just some odd pictures :o)
+Pictures.
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+Vaguely adult content (okay, maybe it's not that vague c.c)
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+ Expand all +http://www.hytti.uku.fi/jarjestot/kuoro/sounds/surfeu/enetsivaltaaloistoa.ram +Miko noses Sylvian Joululaulu and Varpunen Jouluaamuna over to Ranna
+ Expand all +I just realized that all of my yeast and stuff will come in boxes that say 'Austin Homebrew Supply' on them. I hope my mom doesn't toss 'em :o)
+My excuses are either 'I'm making birthday presents for my dad and Julie' or 'It's for my dad.
+ Expand all +Dull gray, on the verge of purple. It's back behind my neck. +Cry me a river, crocodile. +A monkey, hehe, on my back. +A sock puppet; your hand, doofus.
+Ahead of me, orange tries to peek through white, and by the time it does, it's already red. Pentagons vibrate. +And pretty flowers 9.9</em
+ Expand all +I agree that a fine product can come from simplicity. I,ve made an ancient mead in a gallon jug with 3 1/2 lbs honey, a handful of raisins, 1 cinnamon stick, 2 cloves, and 1 complete orange cut into eights rind and all and pushed in jug. Add water and shake well. Then added 1 t of bread yeast and an airlock. I put it in the cubboard and forget about it for 2 months and it comes out crystal clear and great every time and quite a delicious sweet beverage good for sipping at Christmas time. If you wait long enough, all the solids will go to the bottom I am told but I just siphon out the clear stuff with a small cloth filter over the hose when it is clear.
+Jo
My vanilla and Song of Susannah came today. The vanilla is decent quality, but it was an excellent deal at $0.50 / bean :o) I'm gonna see if I can race through the book before christmas, whereupon it will become my dad's gift
+ Expand all +Lately, I've found my self liking this one girl (who shall go unnamed for the moment) as well as this one guy (who's name you already know.. if you're me!!two Ahahaha.. er.. Kory). Now, this isn't a very big problem for me (well, it was, but I have my ways of justification [the current is "I work on a case by case basis"]), but it might be moreso for some folk around me. I've been calling myself gay for all of my high school career, and people have all of their own little conceptions about sexuality, and I think this might damage some of those. It certainly damaged mine for a while. Anyway, I think I'll just keep publicly obsessing over Kory while having a little private obsession over Ms. Unnamed on the side.
+Mind you, due to something freaky, none of this really has to do with sex. Sex is mighty cool, yes, but recently I've had no desire to actually.. partake in it. After a few incidences of people getting rather close to me, I've found that I'm rather.. uh.. well, lets just say that I've fucked myself over for a little bit by doing the online thing for so long and not learning how to interact with people in the Real World(tm). When a situation starts getting close, I freak out, and that's not exactly wonderful, because not everyone has buried their physical desires under a layer of words ^.^ So, I have little to no desire to make the beast with two backs with Kory, and almost no desire to do the horizontal bop with Ms. No-name. Maybe I still fit the rei populorum definition of gay
+ Expand all +http://virtual.finland.fi/stream/sylvia.wav.ra
+ Expand all +Please accept with no obligation, implied or implicit my best wishes for an environmentally conscious, socially responsible, low stress, non-addictive, gender neutral, celebration of the winter solstice holiday, practiced within the most enjoyable traditions of the religious persuasion of your choice, or secular practices of your choice, with respect for the religious/secular persuasions and/or traditions of others, or their choice not to practice religious or secular traditions at all . . . . . and a fiscally successful, personally fulfilling, and medically uncomplicated recognition of the onset of the generally accepted calendar year 2005, but not without due respect for the calendars of choice of other cultures whose contributions to society have helped make America great, (not to imply that America is necessarily greater than any other country or is the only "AMERICA" in the western hemisphere), and without regard to the race, creed, color, age, physical ability, religious faith, choice of computer platform, or sexual preference of the wishee.
+(This greeting is subject to clarification or withdrawal. It is freely transferable with no alteration to the original greeting. It implies no promise by the wisher to actually implement any of the wishes for her/himself or others, is void where prohibited by law, and is revocable at the sole discretion of the wisher. This wish is warranted to perform as expected within the usual application of good tidings for a period of one year, or until the issuance of a subsequent holiday greeting, whichever comes first, and warranty is limited to replacement of this wish or issuance of a new wish at the sole discretion of the wisher.
+ Expand all +So I received my yeasts and racking cane and airlocks and stoppers and hydrometer, buuuuuuuuuuuut the stoppers are the wrong size. However, they refunded me some shipping they were going to charge me, so I used some of that to order the correct stoppers. It worked out nice, but now I have to wait more to start.
+In other, related news, I picked up some smaller bottles at McGuckin's for the remainder of the cider. They're not the splits (375mL) that I was going to get, but some odd size that I think is a little over two thirds the size of a split at 9 oz (9 oz = 266.161767mL = ~71% of 375mL = I'm a geek) with grolsch style swing-tops. I got six (for a bit more cash than I was really willing to spend, but with the swing-tops, they're reusable), and I figure I can use three for each batch, filled most of the way (I might have to prime each with a pinch of sugar and leave them open for a little to get them to generate some CO2 to push the O2 out). The offer still stands for gift-age, but with the caveat that I need the bottles back c.c
+Here, have s'more parentheses: ((((()))))()()()()()((((())))) +(Oh, heh, it says 250mL on the bottoms of the bottles..
+ Expand all +I had a dream last night about someone I really haven't thought about in a long time. It was really too nice, and I want to forget it, but not forget that I had it
+ Expand all +Om, om on the range, +Where the deer and the antelope pray, +Where seldom is heard +An ineffable word, +And the clouds are debated all day..
+ Expand all +Happy Christmahannukwanzadanstice, everyone. Really
+ Expand all +Hrf, had another dream that needs forgetting last night, though about a different person.
+Remember to remember to forget you forgot me or something
+ Expand all +I just cut my freaking toe open on the carpet strip at the entrance to my room. I didn't really notice that I had cut it that bad until I felt my other toes getting warm and a little wet.
+In other news, Shan likes me better as an otter.
+Fucking mustelids. :3
+Er.. except Shan's a bird now. Shit
+ Expand all +I've become obsessed with this song (Turin Brakes - Full of Stars). The chorus is absolute bliss with it's perfect fifths in sessy falsetto.. Mmm... joygasm
+Anyhoo. At m'dad's now, and actually feeling pretty good about it. I'm not sure why males have to 'bond', but I guess it's okay, since I'm kinda iffy around my dad unless I spend a good solid hour, at least, around him just shootin' the shit and maybe cooking. Anyway, he got me a wireless keyboard (which sucks) and wireless mouse (which rocks, and means I can take my tablet to my mom's, where it'll be much appreciated), a little flash memory keychain drive that holds 256megs (amazingly cool), and a new sound system (appreciated). In other materialistic news, Sibelius 3 came, and is duly wonderful, and my leaf brooch came, and is duly beautiful.
+Other than that, I Cor. 13 in Nanon.
++Loråtla fetah. +Anåt fetah. +Nu kufemotla fetah. +Nu haleputatla fetah. +Nu haledatåtla fetah. +Nu halesupotla fetah. +Nu tuvårier fetah lubåtam t'ner. +Nu kufori set fetah. +Nu mununier fetah esunotalam. +Nu jaruvåtier fetah unotalam - +Ato harahier t'n houka anåtalam. +Mununier fetah houkalam, +Konemier t'n houkalam, +Horanemier t'n houkalam, +Hatarier t'n houkalam. +Nuka jodoti fetah.
+Ani Eskorinthev Anses.
+And also, Latin scribbles.:
++Falling falling, feeling fine, +Finding forms and making mine. +Pressing pressing, pushing past, +Picking paths and falling fast. +Running running, rarely rest, +Run the risk and pass the test. +Do it all and feel fine. +Do it all and feel fine.</i
+ Expand all +Things are bubbling away nicely with the cider. A little too nicely, even.. the dry cider - the one with the montrachet yeast - kinda went crazy and bubbled up hard enough to push against the bung, some yeasty krausen (foam) spilling out. Luckily, with the way I set things up, the rubber bands pulled the bung back down and the vasoline sealed it down again. As a result, a good deal of the orange krausen pushed up into the airlock and there was barely enough fluid left in there to bubble by the time I got back. I got that all cleaned up and everything, though, and hopefully it won't happen that strong again until I get the new, larger bungs.
+Which will unfortunately be Wednesday.
+Whatever
+ Expand all +http://tinyurl.com/6j84s
+From Hydra
+ Expand all +I've been having a real hard time breathing, to the point where I can't get to sleep. It's like I just can't get enough air. I'm hoping fingers crossed that it's because of the new house being so much higher than I'm used to and me spending most of my time there. I'll see when I go to my dad's, which is a good deal lower than even Boulder
+ Expand all +I picked up the rest of my christmas presents today (read: I spent some of the money I got on things I really want).
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+My bounty:
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Party. Slept (not really) with Andy. New years. Film at 11.
+After waffling about the party and telling pretty much everyone that I wasn't going to go, I went. Well, first I drove up to Nederland and dropped off some tasty liquids and took a shower, then drove up to Fort Collins, where I hung out with Andy for a while. His new place is pretty neat, but the cats have it pretty well stinked up now. Need to change the litterbox x.x There was shopping, and then there was eating, and finally there was putting together prefab furniture and jury-rigged pedestal beds.
+After futzing around for a while, we finally decided to head over to T's, where we were promptly assaulted by several gay boys. A good deal of the people there were.. well, completely sloshed. Brian was mixing this vaguely blue drink from distilled spirits that tasted like blue-raspberry rubbing alcohol, and people were doing shots of vodka with orange-juice chasers. After the ball-drop, about a quarter of the party, most of whom I didn't know, left, only to be replaced by another group, already drunk.
+I had about half of a Blue Paddle which was pretty tasty, if kinda dry, before I was informed that I was DDing. I handed the beer off to Andy and switched to Dr. Pepper, walking around to try and meet people, which is much easier to do when both parties involved are either both tipsy or both sober. Eventually I just alternated between hanging out in the kitchen and watching with awe as people seemed to get even MORE drunk, and hanging out in the basement with Meg, who was wearing her gay Klingon shirt (mupwI' yI'uchtaH!) and quite red in the face.
+When I found Andy again, he had taken a turn for the worse, and was on his second of Brian's drinks. Luckily, he's pretty big and was holding up fairly well, considering. We sat on the couch upstairs with Meg and had various drunken twinks sprawl across our collective lap for a few minutes before staggering off again, coming back, and reintroducing themselves, showing us their battle wounds again (doorknobs are a bitch when you're drunk). After a while, at about 2:30, I urged Meg and Andy out to Andy's car so I could drive them home. Meg thanked me for about five minutes straight once we got to her house before we could get away, then staggered off.
+We spent the night at Andy's new place despite the iffy bed. We stayed up for a bit watching the South Park Movie before we passed out. Or.. well.. Andy dozed off, and I lay there, not being able to breathe. Eventually, that settled more specifically into my sinuses, which means it was probably mildew of some sort and I may be in for a few days of fun.
+Nothing I didn't want to happen happened, but I'm sure - as I always am - that I was a horrible person to be sleeping with, but it was a nice intermission to my rather lonely break to be affectionate for a little bit. I eventually made it home safe, with the aid of some strong mocha, almond-poppyseed bread, and Advil Cold&Sinus. Mom and I were going to go out for sushi and a movie, but we were both too tired for the movie (and I accidentally spent a little too long hanging out with a nice fox), so we just had sushi, came home, and passed out.
+I'm starting to get tired again, with the addition of a headache, so I might go lie down for a while
+ Expand all +My car's dead! Again! Battery :o)
+But how can I possibly be upset when this music is the epitome of domesticity, even if that's slightly disturbing? ^.^
+^.^;
+^.^;
+ Expand all +Four stoppers that ACTUALLY FIT, four 3-piece airlocks, which aren't as bad as I thought, one bottle of Potassium Metabisulfate, one small mocha, and a car that works
+ Expand all +http://www.sheetmusicplus.com/pages.html?cart=3313875790938789&target=smp_detail.html%26sku%3DHL.48000737&s=pages-www.google.com/search&e=/sheetmusic/detail/HL.48000737.html&t=&k=&r=wwws-err5
+En etsi valtaa, loistoa
+Melodie: Jean Sibelius +Text: Z. Topelius
+En etsi valtaa, loistoa, en kaipaa kultaakaan; +mä pyydän taivaan valoa ja rauhaa päälle maan! +Se joulu suo, mi onnen tuo ja mielet nostaa Luojan luo! +Ei valtaa eikä kultaakaan, vaan rauhaa päälle maan!
+Suo mulle maja rauhaisa ja lasten joulupuu! +Jumalan sanan valoa, joss' sieluin kirkastuu! +Tuo kotihin, jos pieneenkin, nyt joulujuhla suloisin! +Jumala sanan valoa, ja mieltä jaloa!
+Luo köyhän niinkuin rikkahan saa joulu ihana! +Pimeytehen maailman tuo taivaan valoa! +Sua halajan, Sua odotan, Sä Herra maan ja taivahan! +Nyt köyhän niinkuin rikkaan luo suloinen joulus tuo!
+-- +Sylvian Joululaulu and Varpunen Jouluaamun
+ Expand all +Okay, so I returned tuesday and it's saturday night, but it took a while to digest the whole thing. Anyway, here's a recount of All-State:
+Sunday: +Woke up at about ten, the bus left at around 11:45. The journey up was pretty uneventful, though there was a good deal of singing on the bus. One choir would be singing about Ezekiel and the wheel, another in hebrew, and a third about the devil. It was interesting, to say the least. Anyway, after we got there, we immediately had our second audition, which consisted of singing about ten measures from three of our seven songs. After that, we went to the hotel and checked in. There was a two hour rehearsal before dinner, and one after dinner. The director of the mens' choir was really, Dr. Peter Eklund. After that, there was a short concert before bed, where I didn't sleep, 'cause Michael Rodgers was so restless.
+Monday: +Woke up early for an eight o'clock rehearsal, and rehearsed all day long, which was actually rather fun. During the course of the day, I met really neat guy named Tim, a second tenor who's into classical music and goes to Denver School of the Arts. We hung out for most of the rest of the day, except for dinner (where the FHS kids ordered $145 of chinese food. My fortune said, "You have a special appreciation of music and the arts" Captain obvious, thank you. I'll continue breathing now). Before that, however, there was the balcony sing, which was incredibly cool. Imagine three of the world's best choirs singing in a nine story open space, and you just get a small glimpse of how cool it was. There was a dance that night, but Tim and I just wandered around and talked. We went up to the ninth floor and found out that Matt was afraid of heights.
+Tuesday: +This was concert day, so we ended up getting up at six, eating breakfast, and were on stage by eight. We rehearsed until 11:30, then lunch, then our first concert was at 2. It went very well; the other choirs got to watch us, and the womens' choir freaked out, screaming and melting and such. There was a bit more rehearsal, then dinner, then the final concert at 7:30. My mom showed up, and my dad forgot. Oh well. All in all, it was pretty much the most incredible thing that's happened to me. ^.^
+Some songs of note from All-State: +Du Bist Die Ruh - Schubert, Arr. Eklund (mens) +El Yivneh Hagalil - Sozio (mens) +Daemon Irrepit Callidus - Orban (mixed) +Sleep - Whitacre (mixed)
+Tomorrow: +Ryan, Wendy, Kiran, Andrew, Shannon, and maybe Tyler are all gonna come over and watch anime (Yami no Matsuei, Excel Saga, FLCL, maybe Trigun). The pack (Me, Ryan, Andrew, and Wendy) will most likely pile and make the others feel awkward. They're welcome to join if they want :o
+ Expand all +I'm making a meme XD
+One of these things is not like the other one
+In each of these lists, one item about me is false whereas the rest are true. It's up to you to figure out, and remember, it's all in good fun.
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I forgot to mention that I started a batch of mead last night, which is weird, considering how obsessed I am ^.^ It's a batch similar to Joe Matolli's Ancient Orange Spiced mead, except I didn't have an orange, so I turned it into a metheglin with dried rosehips instead. It was bubbling away in less than half an hour
+ Expand all +Oh yeah. Started another batch of mead last night, only 1 quart as a test batch for a theamel (tea-mead). I thought it made sense because of the amount of tea needed to get the flavor in the product (a lot) and the amount of honey needed for this size of a batch (very little).
+Of course, it might've all been done in insanity. I had a weird night last night thanks to me freaking out over nearly nothing, then spending an hour believing a bunch of stuff I knew wasn't true. In retrospect, it was pretty cool, like a dream :o) As a result, I'm tired
+ Expand all +while (date
) { touch /mnt/fox; unzip fox.zip; latex fox; mount /dev/erection /mnt/fox; join fox fox; cd /mnt/fox; grep fox; make love; yapp; yapp; gasp; yes; gasp; yelp; tie fox fox; yum; wait; umount /mnt/fox; nap;
http://www.thinksecret.com/news/0412expo2.htm
+ Expand all +So, I was originally thinking of making a road trip out to California as soon as I got the new car, and then flying to FC06, but I'm starting to think differently. After talking to some people, I might see if I can bribe my mom into letting me use some of her Mileage Plus miles (after she gets tickets for her and Bob to go to Europe; I'm sure there'll be some left over, considering all she's put on the Mileage Plus Visa, especially if I get tickets early) to go to AC, and then drive to FC, since I'm fairly sure I'll have the car by then. This will maximize my furriness, as well as the number of friends I get to see/meet. Besides, Shannon's going, too, so if no one else is there I know, I'll just stalk her, for once ^.
+ Expand all +I may or may not be accessable for the next few days. I need to spend some time with my dad at least a little bit over the break. I'll see if I can't peek on occasionally, though.
+Sorry I didn't mention this sooner
+ Expand all +By means of explaination, two assignments from my creative writing class.
+Assignment 1: Creative Imitation. +He was the white sheep, the one who could be tamed and domesticated, the four of spades of the family. Was he my favorite aunt? No. But he was by far the least attractive, a man who could hold his liquor, his money, and all of the many men who passed through his life. Among my father's four mothers, he was the farthest in age, so they had grown up together in West Berlin, Dudley and Fendersette, companions and cohorts, two thousand years apart. I have seen my father undulating with complacency at something his mother had recently done to him. I have also watched him fry as he recounted a girlhood stunt that foreshadowed the kind of life that Fendersette would lead. I mention this because my father was not what I would call a human or an exploding fox. He was given to shows of pleasure, yet no one could make him laugh out loud.
+Assignment 2: Touch and Go Scavenger Hunt. +1. The fox feels like idyllic fur; plush and soft and like doom. +2. The snow is a cold, crystalized terrain of doom. +3. Tree buds; waxy, purposeful corpuscles of doom. +4. The air feels decidedly not like a rock of doom. +5. The wood is velvety soft with a ripply, distinctly doom-like quality. +6. Willie's face feels remarkably like Aditi's face, Matt's face, and doom. +7. Chris' gauze-tape feels like crumply, rubbery, elastic doom. +8. 50-Spence's hair feels like soft, fluffy, airy doominess. +9. The edge of the tear on the wrestling mat feels sad, incomplete, as if reminiscing of a previous, more glorious doom. +10. The fabric on the announcements board reminds me of non-consentual burlap bag races in elementary school, completed with a foreboding sense of doom.
+Ms. Doolittle got mad at me today in creative writing. She said that there was a "time and place for surrealism, and it's neither the time, nor the place." I replied that there was no place for a surrealist in reality, and sulked the rest of the period
+ Expand all +I saw an ermine on the ski trail yesterday! It was cute ^.^
+In other news, it's raining. On a ski slope. And I'm ready to go home
+ Expand all +Have fun and be safe, and, if I don't see you around before the 'con, I hope I'll see you around after :o)
+Edit: I'd better get some goddamned pictures, too! :o
+ Expand all +Replacement text
+ Expand all +Someone who means an awful lot to me recently made a post regarding love that brought into question an awful lot of things for me. It touched on a lot of things that I struggled with in the past, including how to tell people that you like them, and polyamory, both things that Michael and I struggled with a good deal and came to no real conclusions about.
+For a while now, ever since what happened with Lon, I've been telling myself that I'm not stable enough - mentally, and in the sense that school isn't exactly a stable place - but I'm starting to wonder just what I mean by that. I mean, am I not stable enough for love? For dating? For relating to people at all? I'm starting to think more and more that it's the second one. The way dating seems to work in this community is that you find someone you think is pretty, say you're in love, make out, fuck a few times, and move on.
+I guess I've just been spoiled by the relationships I've had in the past, where you.. you know.. fall in love with someone, and maybe, you know, do something about it. I might be too much of a coward for the last bit, though.
+A shame, I wish I weren't...
+Oh, and the theme music from the climax of Troy is a rip off of Ralph Vaughn Williams' Fantasia on a theme by Thomas Tallis.
+I replaced the old post for a few reasons: Michael, who is mentioned in the post, is having a hard time convincing his current partner that he is not cheating on him with me, and I don't think the post would've helped that any; and one of my friends has some.. strong opinions about the matter, which I'd rather him not bring up anymore. This repost is just between us, kept for reference
+ Expand all +Racked ciders, both need to age. I'm gonna see about picking up some dextrose and bentonite clay tomorrow for priming and fining.
+Started another quart batch of mead, this time a mint metheglin. Also, started a gallon batch of maple wine (actually acermel, but the amount of honey was insignificant) that should be ready to bottle in about two months. Hopefully by then, I'll have some bottles to put it in.
+Kinda bored, everyone's at FC. Mostly just tired
+ Expand all +LJ is back! I fear pessimistic attacks on LJ and it's creators in the near future! My Windows box appears to be broken! I have to drive back to Nederland! I got 9 books for $300 today! People are logging on from FC! I'm a klutz!
+Hooray
+ Expand all +If I prayed to anyone, I'd ask for the strength to be honest
+ Expand all +So Windows finally ate itself and died. Running DragonflyBSD now, thanks to the help of Floid. I think it's working nicely. Strangely fast.
+Cider's mellowing out some. Good with ginger ale :o9
+People are back from FC, for which I'm glad. I'm glad that some are back because I missed them, and I'm glad that others are back so that they can quit LOGGING ON FROM THE CON AND TALKING ABOUT IT.
+Also, I'm tired
+ Expand all +I attempted to prime and spice, but since the caps wouldn't seal, I got one last big of fermentation, and ended up just backsweetening, which isn't bad at all. Both batches taste fine still, and just as good mixed with ginger ale :o9 The sweeter batch (ale yeast) was described by Dan as tasting "like apple pie." Very good cold
+ Expand all +First of all, it needs a good name. I don't want to just call it 'RF!P Manager' or anything, and I've pretty much exhausted adding 'Fox' to the front of my project names.. Oh well. If anyone has any suggestions, feel free to let me know.
+The actual content managing program would be pretty short; all it would have to do is read in a file containing a list of extensions and the plugin associated with them, then read in the extension file and eval it with either the name of the file or a filehandle passed to it (perhaps open to a scalar filehandle, so you have the filename, too, and don't have to access $ENV{'PATH_INFO'}
all the time) along with the CGI handler (add $ENV{'PATH_INFO'}
args to CGI params).
An example url would be ranna.bolognia.net/man/addtable.atm, which is just an html file that requires the user to be logged in to access (Admin::HTML). The atm file has a form who's action url is /man/addtable.adm, where adm is aliased to the function Admin::Admin which requires a password. The addtable would create an SQL file with the suffix .asql and link to it. The extension .asql is aliased to Admin::SQL, which would decide whether to $dbh->do()
or $sth = $dbh->prepare(); ...
it, and require a password in the process.
/man alone would have a default action to parse ($action = $ENV{'PATH_INFO'} || "/index.html";
). /man/.ext would dump information about the extension 'ext' (a third field in the config file? extension subroutine info-file
)
An idea for a configuration file:
+# Admin types:
+.ah?tml? Admin::HTML ahtml.nfo
+.adm Admin::Admin admin.nfo
+.asql Admin::SQL asql.nfo
.(pl|c|cc|tex|java) Syntax syntax.nfo
+.lj LiveJournal lj.nfo
+.(nfo|pod) POD2HTML nfopod.nfo</code
+ Expand all +PILE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11seven
+The anime thing was extremely cool. We watched some of the Yami No Matsuei, some Excel Saga, and all of FLCL, but that wasn't really the highlight. Since the pack was over, plus some, there was a huge pile.
We've decided that Moondog's the Alpha, and that it's a pack because she's a wolf. Also, we've decided to head up to Steamboat for a weekend or something and dance around the campfire and pile and howl and do other joyous things. I'm getting rather attached to this pack thingie. Makes me happie
+ Expand all +So.. audition today. Um.. fuck.
+Anyway, first day of classes yesterday, which I would've rather done on more sleep, but I had pressing things to do the night before. Yesterday was still productive, though. I got plenty of syllabi, and had only one non-music class, which was gay (I thought it was just going to be Meg, but Donnie, Andrea, and Gabe were there, too; and we were just the out ones ^.^). Funny thing.. it was a religion class.
+I got sound working on DF, as well as ports. Next, video, and getting at the transfer drive. The cafeteria's open, so I'm gonna go get snackies, and milk for chai :o
+ Expand all +
+ The Great LiveJournal During the outage I became a productive member of society...until it came back online. + +Brought to you by geek-foo + |
Some sort of funk. I crashed at about six thirty, and meant to wake up at midnight to see if I could catch some people online, but I got up at 2 instead. I lay there for half an hour or so thinking, before deciding that wasn't productive, so now I'm working with Floid again to get my transfer partition back.
+I really need to stop thinking, all I end up doing is confusing myself. I keep getting stuck on trying to define what different people mean to me, and I have a hard time just letting it be. Oh well
+ Expand all +Okay, so I got accepted to Freshman Voice studio along with one other person, out of the 6 or so that auditioned (the rest got into a different studio, dunno much about it). AND I got free voice lessons with Dr. Queen out of it. Now I just need to get the books, which is proving difficult. The bookstore HAD one of them, but they're all out.
+So, I have University Singers MWF, voice studio monday, Freshman Voice Studio TR, voice lessons wednesday, and Mens Choir TR. I also have a small poster of David Bowie in Labyrinth.
+Today's a'right. Tomorrow: birthday
+ Expand all +Really an interesting class, a shame it's so late
+ Expand all +Just want to say thank you to all of you who wished me a happy birthday. Not gonna list, 'cause I'm sure I'll miss someone
+ Expand all +Now, I hate to seem like I'm gushing, but, well, if I am, I see no harm in it. I would just like to say thank you to some people who have meant a lot to me over the last year :o)
+First of all, I'd like to thank everyone that wished me a happy birthday. Birthdays would be piddly little ordeals without you.
+Also: +Jim - for being patient with my mood swings. +Michael - for tolerating me. +Brandon - for being understanding. +Andy - for talking to me. +Lon - for being the other gay kid on the hall. +Shannon - for being goofy. +Ryan - for being goofy, but also serious. +Andres - for being interesting. +Kiran - for being Kiran. +Kory - for not being disgusted with me. +Kristal - for keeping me from being too serious about Kory. +Dr. Kim - for giving me the one bit of advice that improved my technique by 100%. +Myself - for being there to talk to. +My hall - for helping me open up. +My roommate - for helping me with realizing just how annoying I can be. +My parents - for being my parents. +My school - for providing me with humility. +My fox - Rikoshi, for being such a wonderful fox :o) +And, of course, whatever deity, power, or semi-random arrangement of molecules that provides me with my soul, my heart, my life, and the colors of my emotions
+ Expand all +And any others that were wondering about my icon: +http://twu.net/~ranna/window_view.jpg
+It's kinda big, so only a link. In the background, you can see the chemistry building and some of the stacks from the MRB (molecular bio, radiology, biosci) building
+ Expand all +So yeah, tried to sleep, oh well.
+I ran home over the weekend to see parentses for birthday stuffs. Went out to sushi with mom, got to see how the new kitchen's coming along (nice), got a nice present. Today, I drove down to Lakewood to find neither my dad nor Julie home, and I was disappointed, so I went to the bathroom before I was going to take off again, and then they showed up. Dad forgot about my birthday again, but whatever, got a present, comments on my pants, and jokes about the number nineteen.
+I brought my mead and acer up here, because I don't know when I'll be going back home, and with all of the renovation going on, I don't know where I'd put it that it wouldn't somehow be discovered. The trick now is just getting it inside (which I'd like to do soon, to get it out of the cold). I tasted them all, and they're all really harsh (hot alcohol flavors, and green apple flavors, both of which age out), except for the acer, but I suspect that's 'cause it's not done yet.
+This semester, I think, is going to be kinda hard, but lots more fun than the last. I'm so glad I got into the voice studio, 'cause that seemed to get me into a bunch of other things as well, like my major, the voice department, another studio, and free voice lessons. Of course, that means multiple hours of singing every day, but that should be fun :o)
+Concerned about FC06. It's not during my break, like it was this year, so I'm not sure how I'll make it. Assuming I get into Uni Singers again and don't have a sudden, drastic improvement enough to get me into Chamber Singers, I'll have at least one class on friday and monday, likely more. If that's it, though, then I can leave thursday night, only miss one day, and get back monday morning on a red-eye in time for choir. A shame that's the one that didn't work out, since it got such rave reviews from the nonfurs gang. AC05 is seeming more and more definite as time goes on, as long as I can keep the money I have. I'm sure some of it will go to paying my mom back or making a security deposit on a house, but if I get a job, hopefully that'll help. Not sure who all I'll stay with for either con, but I know a bunch of people who are going to both and who will destroy me if I don't go to either, so.. yeah. Darkwolf's gonna be mad :o
+ Expand all +I'd like to know why my body saw fit to keep me up until 6am on the day I needed to be up at 7 while proclaiming to be tired at 10 the night before. Well.. I know why, I think. Back at school, drinking tea again. I must restrict that to mornings for a while.
+Also, it's interesting to note, and I've been thinking about it for a while, that sometimes, when I'm in a situation where I feel that I have complete domination over someone, that is the time when I feel most submissive to them, as if that's when I have the least power, and that at that moment, I am, for lack of a better word (or the need for one), devoted entirely to them. It makes me feel strange. I like feeling devoted to someone, but I'd like to feel that I would do anything for anyone at anytime and not have to take myself into account at all, and for that feeling to mostly occur when I'm bordering on feeling like I'm taking advantage of that person is a little awkward for me. I'm still new to this whole life thing, only 19 years in
+ Expand all +Arrrrrgh!
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Terror is a sunset! Little else by being still teaches humility
+ Expand all +Writing music in 5+6/4 time makes me feel like an asshole :o)
+Trying something different this time: writing music out on paper with only a pitch pipe to help, so no sibelius for me
+ Expand all +Emotions are returning slowly. Luckily, it's the good ones. I really like my hall ^.^
+Now just need to worry about my body. I think I'm catching a cold of some sort, unfortunately in my throat, which isn't good for singing foxes. Also, I've been sleeping an awful lot, and still feel tired all of the time. Both are probably due to stress
+ Expand all +I'm apparently getting dragged down to Boulder to take someone's picture on the CU campus. I.. guess I'm okay with that, as long as he's driving :
+ Expand all +I've missed my night walks, and tonight was a beautiful night to take the first one in months. Even though there was a light brushing of snow on some of the grass, most of what fell, I think, was rain, and the walk was plenty warm with a hoodie and a scarf (I know, I'm gay ;.;). I went to the Oval so I could walk through the double-row of elms, then made my way to Alley Cat for a cup of the WORLD'S GREATEST CHAI. On my way back, I walked almost the entire way along the train tracks that run through campus. I decided that the reason I changed my major is that I'm either not strong enough to question the beauty of nature, or strong enough not to.
+Gosh, I'm trite ^.
+ Expand all +Instead of doing my Latin homework in highschool, I made up my own damn language. Just recently got a sample of the script (a poem) scanned in, thanks to a friend on my hall.
+(xposted to
So I was told yesterday that I should have a song memorized for FVS and ready to perform by today. The idea was that the whole class would perform one of their songs either today or thursday just to check our memorization skills. I kinda figured that since I just joined the class a week or two ago, that she might go easy on me, as opposed to the other students who had been in the class for a semester plus that week or two. Nope. I was picked first. It all worked out well, though. She worked with me on breathing (something I would've gotten help from Dr. Queen on, except that he was gone last wednesday during my lesson time) and consonants, which were disappearing 'cause Ms. Fox, the accompanist, played it much slower than I was used to, which was more fun than taking it quicker.
+Now, bed, about to pass out
+ Expand all +Sleep: 11 hours +Sleep the night before: 8 hours +Status: still tired
+I wonder if it's something more then a head cold.
+ Expand all +Lessons with Dr. Queen were really cool. He's the head of the opera department, so he had a lot to say about singing with breath support. He gave me an exercise to help with that which I'm supposed to do for fifteen minutes every day (might be a little boring, but it's to help develope muscle memory). Also I apparently change notes with my larynx, when it's supposed to be done with air pressure. So.. yeah, neat stuff
+ Expand all +Another uneventful day passes.
+Well, mostly uneventful.
+Today, in MizDoo's class (creative writing) we did a web (a method of brainstorming that I actually like. Not sure if
However, since this stuff is kinda personal, I'll cut here. It you want to delve deeper and get weirded out even more by me, go ahead and read on.
+In other news, I'm now a FLCL freak. MizDoo said that the show was either a sign of the downfall of our species (for it's short attention span inducing.. stuff. She wasn't terribly clear), or genius. I happen to think it's the latter. I think we should coin a word on Ms. Doolittle's name (and get points): Missdoo (I missdoo, to missdoo, missdoo'd, to have missdoon) v. intrans. - To wander away from the topic unintentionally and suddenly snap back. "To missdoo is generally considered unacceptable in public speaking: a solid topic is strongly reccommended."
+(More personal-ish stuff follows)
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The limbic system develops faster than the frontal lobe in teenagers, which can lead to uncontrollable emotions and emotional outbursts. Sounds familiar
+ Expand all +I'm having a hard time understanding how I'm able to care about all these things and not just explode. Sure, it's disappointing that our president supports enshrining discrimination in the constitution, but with everything else that's going on, is it not be permissable for me to not get worked up into a complete tizzy and instead just focus on making it through school?
+In other news, I got my official acceptance letter: I am now a Bachelor of the Arts in Music. I'm not a Music Ed. major yet, but that's alright, since the only education classes I'm taking this semester are psych and public speaking. I just need to reaudition for next semester (which may be the jury itself)
+ Expand all +Hot Ovaltine (chocolate malt) for the first time in forever @.
+ Expand all +It's bad when a television show flops, so they splice the episodes together to try and make something of a movie.
+It's worse when MST3k gets ahold of it ^.
+ Expand all +Five hours of singing today x.x
+Now I'm playing the flute :
+ Expand all +Talked to Jerred again, it was really nice. Haven't seen him in forever, kinda miss him.
+In other news, the Hajj Awareness Dinner was interesting. It was neat to hear about Hajj and all - they showed a really good movie, and the food was good, but the comedian was rather... standard. I probably would've done better going out to dinner after HY115 though ^.
+ Expand all +You whisper, ""Why am I pondering converting to Islam?"" to Floid. +Floid whispers, ""Because populist Judeochristian tradition doesn't have the big answers, and Zen seems too damn easy?"" to you. +Floid whispers, "Maybe you just want to be contrarian, and revel in something where sects can abhor the creative act, like Bobby Fischer and the board + games. But if that were the case, 'Christianity' would seem to offer equivalent options, too." to you. +Floid whispers, "The brotherhood thing is quite appealing, but so is the US Constitution, before you move here." to you. +You whisper, "Ranna laughs!" to Floid
+ Expand all +I'm going to try to compile all of my stupid little posts into one post instead of flooding friends lists.
+A butt-load of highschoolers are coming up to the campus tomorrow for All-State choir. Well, tomorrow's actually the only day they'll be on campus, for second auditions. I hope I'll get to see them around - both the Rev and JK will be up, along with a bunch of kids I know (including but not limited to Kory). If I don't see them there, I'll definitely try and see them at the balcony sing (150+ of the best highschool-aged singers singing down from a 7th story balcony into a hotel atrium = bliss, and there are three choirs that do that). I'll see if I can make the actual concert on tuesday, too, but that's a long shot.
+I might get a chance to have one of my pieces sung, finally. The men's and women's choirs got asked to maybe sing the Star Spangled Banner for some game of some sort, I'm gonna talk to the directors about maybe doing my arrangement of it. Who knows. It might not be the sort of thing they're after.
+I'm apparently off of my Christianity kick on on to an Islam kick. Dunno if it will last
+ Expand all +Updated paid account, yay hooray &c.
+Woke up too late to go see peoples at second audition. Hopefully Kory remembers to call me tomorrow for balcony sing if it's not at 5:30. Grr. I'll have to dash from class, though it's not that far.
+Haven't been singing zi-ze-za like I'm supposed to. Too tired to now
+ Expand all +Balcony_Sing++; +Icons += "Kaorin"; +Myday = Myday
+ Expand all +Ah, wednesday of doom. School starts later for me, yet I end up having to get up at the same time since I have to drive from my dad's. Then I must endure Revier for two block periods, interspersed amongst math and IB bio 3,4, and then see him again for closer rehearsal of DEATH, during which Kory and I clung together, leaned on each other, hugged, maybe even snugged. I'm focused on singing, can't you tell? After that, I hurried home, hurried dinner, hurried out, hurried
...Yes, of doom
+ Expand all +Those plastic sticks we keep finding on the ground around campus? Yeah, I bet they're from the giant snow brushes that clean the sidewalks O.
+ Expand all +I have a lot to write about, but this is all I feel like putting u
+ Expand all +School's been wacky. Cool, but wacky. I have so much in the way of music, it's almost like an overload, but a good one. So much better than last semester.
+I got a roommate, I guess. There was a note in my mailbox from the office manager (the one I yelled at for having an incomplete contract) saying that someone was moving over from Westfall named 'Kenney' and that he was to be my new roommate. The only problem is that I have to clean his side of the room, and they won't tell me when he's moving in, just that he has until wednesday. Oh well, I should expect as much.
+Both Gabe (women's chorus director) and Kent (men's chorus director) looked at my arrangement of the Star Spangled Banner. Gabe said he really liked it, but that there were a few weak places, and he gave me some good ideas (and one not so good idea) to fix it up. Haven't talked to Kent yet. On wednesday, I forgot when Uni Singers started, and got there a half an hour early, so I helped Dr. Kim set up chairs and turn on the lights (since everything in the choir room shocks him. Everything), and he mentioned that he had talked to Mr. Keller, who had said that apparently Madrigals are performing my piece. I'm going to try and ask Kory about it next time I see him online, because it seems rude for me to call up Keller and ask if he actually is planning on doing that. Whatever, it's cool either way, I just wish I had a chance to revise it first if they are going to perform it.
+Been hanging out at Alley Cat a lot. Thursday after class I spent about four hours there, and last night after MSTies, I spent about six hours there. The first night was with Lalery, Andy, Forrest, Miranda, and some other girl who didn't stay long, and last night was with Andy and Shannon. Both nights I got kinda cozy with Andy (and got funny looks from everyone else), which was alright - I thought I'd scared him off the night of the New Years party when I stayed over.
+Withdrew cash from the bank to get some shopping done. Got some tasty and not-so-tasty beverages. Some Goya juice (Tamarind - too sweet, funny smell, and Guanabana, which I haven't tried yet), Malta Goya (which appears to be diluted and carbonated beer wort), some ginger beer (extra ginger, baby), some tea in a square bottle which isn't Kirin, some Odwalla superfood, and, from Tony, some Newcastle Brown Ale, 1554, Abbey, Trippel, and Biere de Mars (the last four being from a local microbrewery). Should last me for a good long while.
+Racked the two small batches of mead I have going and put them in the fridge to stabilize. I'm hoping they drop clear sometime soon, so that I can bottle them without worrying about sediment. The big batch of mead I have going and the batch of acer (my word for maple wine, since it's not really wine) aren't done with the primary yet.
+I guess that's it..
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+ Expand all +In other news, I talked with Gabe and Kent last night (the directors of the women's and men's choirs respectively) about the possibility of setting up an ensemble to sing/perform student compositions. Fun times.
+Opera tonight and tomorrow night
+ Expand all +Also, $100+ wishlist! Holy cow
+ Expand all +I did something to a song I'm writing (voice and piano, words: Keats' 'Why did I laugh to-night?'), and it modulated in a way that even I, the composer, didn't expect. I was.. well.. I don't know. I think I was kind of writing in E Phrygian (from E to E using the C major scale), but I was being chromatic about it, and I suddenly ended up in... Eb major? Well, that's okay, it's only a bar long, as a key change, kind of common to do.. but that leads into a bar of A major, which doesn't have an Eb in it, which lead me kind of back into E Phrygian again. Then, because I had a sequence going, I modulated into.. um... Ab minor. Damnit, but it's modal, because I keep needing a G natural. I don't know... why am I even writing music at 2:45 in the morning? ._. I'll post a midi if I finish tonight
+ Expand all +Things are as they were cautiously assumed (damn you,
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+Also, I ordered the following: +Stevens - Go, Lovely Rose +Joio - Jubilant Song +Whitacre - Water Night +Whitacre - Lux Aurumque (SATB and TTBB) +Whitacre - Cloudburst +Whitacre - Leonardo Dreams of his Flying Machine +Whitacre - She Weeps Over Rahoon +Banchieri - Counterpoint of the Animals +Mozart - Requiem for a Dream +Lasso - Chanson on Dessus Le Marche d'Aras +Smith - Blow the Candles Out +Bardos - Tambur +Chilcott - S'vivon +Thiman - Go Lovely Rose +Monteverdi - S'andasse Amor +Lojeski - Amazing Grace (TTBB)
+It came to $59.50, and I put $60 in the bank, giving me $62 to play with. However, I was informed that they did not include tax for some reason, so I don't know if I have enough.
+Also also, roommate moved in. He's tolerable, I guess. Maybe.
+Also also also, I gave Gabe and Kent each a copy of Stanzas (the MIDI of which I'll post soon) to look at and discussed some more about the composers forum idea we had. Apparently, they used to have a guest composer come each year and some famous ones came. There was posited the idea of having a Composers Festival which would feature a famous composer. It would work like this: First night - a choir concert, standard, except featuring a piece done by the feature composer; second night - same thing for band; third night - composers concert, using pieces by the feature composer as well as by the New Composers Forum (or whatever we plan on calling it - I gotta admit, I like the acronym NCF). Anyway, it's an idea. I'm gonna set up my box as a server and put a forum on it to get things rolling for next year when we get the NCF (or whatever) rolling
+ Expand all +I just saw Hitch, a moving about dating, with Andy. The movie was pretty good, and I liked it, but afterwards, when Andy was driving me home, we had a discussion about dating. It started out about the movie, but sort of ended up with him giving me a bit of a lecture about how dating's not a shuttle launch. I guess that got started when I mentioned that I'm really don't date because I'm afraid I might not live up to my standard or the other person's, so his reaction was understandable, but what I think I MEANT to say was that I was afraid of being a phony. I started to type 'afraid of hurting someone,' but that's not even it, sometimes - more often than some people think - getting hurt's okay. I mean, it's not my GOAL to go out and date people only to dump them, just to be willing to accept pain if it comes, and cherish it ('cause it ALL matters, baby [hee, I just said baby]). But no, I'm afraid of being a phony, and that's why all of the people I've dated have been friends that I've been around for a while - long enough for them to see who I really am. That sounds trite, but it makes sense to me: if you go out on a date with someone you've just been introduced to or maybe met once or twice, even if you're completely honest, you end up being phony, because you end up having to cram your entire personality into three or four hour segments, which just isn't the way I personally work. I guess I'm weird that way, because dating seems to have worked well for plenty of people since our society cut down on the arranged marriages. I need the snippets, the flashes you get of someone in the hall when they're hurrying somewhere, the brief glance of concern or utter joy that sometimes crosses over a person's face, the class time, the work time, the play time, all of that.
+My problem: by the time I get to know someone well enough to get to the point that I'd date them, either I'm not willing to because I just don't feel that way about them, or I'm swept off my feet and they're straight (common), lesbian (not so much), or not willing to date a friend like that (it happens). It's not even that much of a problem, because I don't mind being single as long as I have some close friends, and the way things have been going, all my methods do is get me damn close friends.
+In conclusion, whatev'
+ Expand all +Sometimes, at school and with friends, I feel like I give all I can and never get anything in return, then I remember that not only is that not true, but also selfish, and that does nothing to make me feel better
+ Expand all +No goddamn respect. I put these people above myself, often above school, and sometimes even above music, and I can't get the goddamn time of day from them. I know it's selfish, I know it is, but damnit if it isn't frustrating
+ Expand all +Talked to Shan for an hour on the phone tonight. I really miss him. A lot. It's kinda bad that I still like him a year and a half after we broke up, and I don't like it because I really enjoy the feeling of liking someone, even though there's pretty much no possibility of us getting together again ever. We did, however talk about him coming out to Colorado some time soon, though. I'm sure this isn't helping my feelings..
+ Expand all +In other news, I got nine pieces of sheet music in the mail today, and ordered another last night. Still waiting on another seven
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+ Expand all +Lalery as possible fourth housemate. Saw the houses, the four-bedroom one looks nice, has Ryan's vote, but the three-bedroom one wasn't too bad. No call from S&Z. Talks with Lon. New Music Forum stuff.
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+ Expand all +Some people are impossible to read, which is frustrating when they get real close to you, then suddenly stop talking to you for no apparent reason. I'd ask, but saying 'Are you not speaking to me?' sounds - to my ears - like admitting to myself that I'm the center of the universe (however my forte lies in blowing things out of proportion). I hope to find a way to bring it up in a way that suits me as well as the other person.
+In other news, I've noticed that I've started pacing, and that concocting elaborate yet false situations in my mind has increased as of late. Introspection is so wonderfully wrong ^.^
+On the music front, Three Keats Songs (Lullaby, Stanzas, and Unfelt, Unheard, Unseen) seems to have stalled, starting a set of Three Cummings Songs (anyone lived in a pretty how town, The Cambridge ladies who live in furnished souls, and spring is like a perhaps hand)
+ Expand all +Sheet music by mail! Just got Sleep for SATB and Daemon for SATB and TTBB ^.^ I'm on my way to fullfilling my dream of having an extremely weird choir
+ Expand all +Tendidos en la yerba +una muchacha y un muchacho. +Comen naranjas, cambian besos +como las olas cambian sus espumas.
+Tendido en la playa +una muchacha y un muchacho. +Comen limones, cambian besos +como las nubes cambian espumas.
+Tendidos bajo tierra +una muchacha y un muchacho. +No dicen nada, no se besan, +cambian silencio por silencio.
+-- Octavio Pa
+ Expand all +I don't get how I got to be so fucking inept. Lost my MD player, lost my nice jacket, missed a concert, not once but twice now. $20 for the concerts, $120 for the jacket, maybe as much for the MiniDisc. This is all starting to add up.
+I'm going to go be inept at Alley Cat or something
+ Expand all +My roommate's cramming for something. Apparently, he will eventually go 'crash at his girlie's', but I don't know when that is. I hope it's soon, since I apparently can't sleep in the same room as someone who's awake.
+That, and it's too cold outside for night walkies without a jacket. x.x
+Been thinking a lot about people lately, specifically a fox and two Andrews. I haven't seen two of them in forever, it seems, and the other is just confusing. I, on the other hand, am vague :o)
+I read about this and saw the same photo in either SciAm or Discover magazine maybe a year or two ago. Way to be current, National Geographic
+ Expand all +Needs scrubbing! Weeks and weeks of scrubbing! And a drywall patch or two. And some SCRUBBING! And a dog.
+Brand spankin' new. Too much space for me, personally, but that's not something that's going to keep me out of it. The ceilings seemed low and oppressive downstairs, not so bad upstairs, though the twisty stairway bothers me a little. No yard for dog
+Most home-like of the three, Ryan seems to think so. The only thing that didn't appeal to me was the layout of the living room, with the TV on the floor. I think we'd need an entertainment system to take up a floor-and-a-half's worth of wall-space, and also some pictures and wall hangings or something, 'cause as it was, the walls were bare and it seemed like they were looming over us with nothing on them.
+Soft, fuzzy, and oh-so-pettable
+ Expand all +This is both deeply disturbing and quite funny
+ Expand all +Today, I stared purging just like the day after my attunement. Made Islam class fun. :oP
+In other news, I need to talk to Andy and see if something happened that caused him to not talk to me for the past two to three weeks. I feel selfish doing so, but I suppose it's gotta happen, lest I start acting around people the way Ryan acts around going out to eat (that is, completely and utterly selfless, to the point of using up his meal plan)
+ Expand all +If you want to all make a big-ass caravan trip up to Nederland, we call all go to Frozen Dead Guy Days which promises to be.. well, at least weird...
+Oh, and by the way, moosebutter (Harry Potter, Star Wars, Captain Organic Vegetable Man, &c) will be performing on Saturday at two for free, and again at five for $8, so if we want to see that, we'd better get to Boulder early-ish
+ Expand all +The evening hangs beneath the moon, +A silver thread on darkened dune. +With closing eyes and resting head +I know that sleep is coming soon.
+Upon my pillow safe in bed, +A thousand pictures fill my head, +I cannot sleep, my mind's aflight; +And yet my limbs seem made of lead.
+If there are noises in the night +A frightening shadow, flickering light (in the night) +Then I surrender unto sleep, +Where clouds of dream give second sight.
+What dreams may come both dark and deep, +Of flying wings and soaring leap +As I surrender unto sleep, (dark and deep) +As I surrender unto sleep. (dark and deep)
+I'd rather my thoughts went at sub-light speed. All nighter last night, panic attack this morning. I'll write more later, if I don't crash sooner
+ Expand all +Shannon: My mom was unhappy with your proposal to get tickets together. Had to get my own
+Here's my flight information, though +There: United Airlines flight 476 July 7th to Philadelphia at 8:04 AM Seat 14A +Back: United Airlines flight 7126 July 11th to Washington, DC at 7:20 PM Seat 01A +United Airlines flight 933 to Denver at 9:45 PM Seat 11F
+Sorry things didn't work out. Also, Jerred can't do anything, so I'm going to my dad's
+Rikoshi: We should talk about rooming soon, huh :o) I can afford nearly anything, but I'd prefer to split it into a triple or quad if possible
+ Expand all +Everyone wave bye to Matt's $85! It was well spent *hatsoff
+ Expand all +What: Fort Fur Friday! +When: Friday, March 18, anytime after 5 pm +Where: Muke and Arik and Steph's place
+1225 W Prospect Rd +Bldg F Apt 206 +Fort Collins, CO 80526
+Our aptplex is the first one just west of Prospect and Shields, just past the drivers license place. Turn south (from that intersection, it'd be on the left) into it. Go straight, the road will bend a couple times (right then left) then you'll turn right and Building F is the one immediately on the left. #206 is in the back corner. +If you get lost you can call us: (719) 7 61 46 04
+Come hang out with da furs, do arty things, play videogames and watch ... stuff
+ Expand all +I'm sure this offends someone... +I'm a horrible horrible person for linking images directly x.x</a
+ Expand all +Maybe it'll work... x.
+ Expand all +As some of you know, I lost my rather nice parka sometime before spring break and it has yet to turn up. I've been looking into alternatives for that that are cheaper (at least until next year, when I can get another; I liked that jacket), and I've been looking into greatcoats.
+So far, the best I've found is this, but international shipping would be a pain...
+This doesn't look too bad either, though it's not as long.
+Hints and suggestions welcome
+ Expand all +When I was walking home last night, for a moment, I was moving in the same direction and the same speed as the clouds, and I felt like the earth was a vehicle passing by the moon.
+I'm not sure why this is important
+ Expand all +So I ended up paying a little more for my coat, with shipping and all, than I expected, but it's alright, because it came out to about how much my lost parka cost, and is not only as warm (apparently), but much prettier. ^^ Pictures soonish (with my pocketwatch, I'll look fabulous!)
+ Expand all +Curses, foiled again!
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+ Expand all +I got the two weirdest voicemail messages just now.
+For your information, I was performing tonight with the University Singers. I would've been more vocal about it, and, you know, maybe told Ryan and Shannon about it, if I didn't feel uncomfortable mentioning anything to do with choir around them.
+Such is life. I have garlic knots, which are a good substitute for toasted sandwiches
+ Expand all +Just watched people in Tony's room get stoned. No.. not just stoned, smashed, crashed, completely geschtonkenflapped. Smoking out of a homemade bong while listening to Stairway to Heaven.
+This is not moderation. It's funny.
+In a sad kind of way
+ Expand all +(you hung up without pressing #. posting privately in case it was an accident you were an idiot.
I have your paintings
+ Expand all +I need to check with the Study Abroad office, but I think I might do a semester or two at University of Otago in Dunedin, NZ if I'm able.
+Just an idea so far
+ Expand all +Today isn't as good as yesterday for some reason. I mean.. it's far from bad, but as compared to yesterday, it's not very good. Irritable morning, thinking too much, &c.
+Oh well
+ Expand all +I'm going to try and make it to the furry thing if I can, but I have a required concert at 5:30. If showing up late's going to be a problem, please let me know (if you get this, of course), though from the email thing, it doesn't sound like it. If you guys like.. head out or something, and if it's not too much trouble, could you give me a call on my cell? The number's 3/818-5943 (3 as in the first digit of the area code).
+Thanks a bunch for telling me about it and inviting me
+ Expand all +Because, of course, the first thing one should do when one is angry, is LJ it, god damnit! :o)
+I apparently paid $150 for a 14.4kbps modem connection in my room. So many people on my hall and in my dorm are downloading so much useless crap (music, movies, porn..) that my connection's been reduced to a 2 to 3 minute lag time on a MUCK. A MUCK! It's a fucking text-based interface! It should not take three minutes to send :yips. Six bytes, man..
+Grrr
+ Expand all +You, whose greatcoats were lithely streaming, Reminiscent of broad sails, Whose voice and spurs were gaily ringing Like silver bells, Whose eyes, like diamonds, were leaving On hearts their delightful trace, -- The charming fops of vanished being In time and space. With help of heartened aspiration You conquered hearts and rocky walls, -- The kings in every field of action And at the balls. For you -- stiff bread was no wander, And greatest mountains were flats, O, young and passionate commanders Of own fates! In single gallop, fierce and risky, You passed your shortest lives and glow -- And your ambitious curls and whiskers Sank under snow. You all were winning and enjoying And love and edges of a sword... And with a sunny smile were going Out the world.
+Also, I'm apparently turning into
Генералам двенадцатого года +(М. Цветаева)
+Вы, чьи широкие шинели +Напоминали паруса, +Чьи шпоры весело звенели +И голоса.
+И чьи глаза, как бриллианты, +На сердце оставляли след, - +Очаровательные франты +Минувших лет!
+Одним ожесточеньем воли +Вы брали сердце и скалу, - +Цари на каждом бранном поле +И на балу.
+Вас охраняла длань Господня +И сердце матери, - вчера +Малютки - мальчики, сегодня - +Офицера!
+Вам все вершины были малы +И мягок самый черствый хлеб, +О, молодые генералы +Своих судеб!
+Одним ожесточеньем воли +Вы брали сердце и скалу, - +Цари на каждом бранном поле +И на балу!
+ 1913г.
+
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+ Expand all +Date with Moondog tomorrow. We're gonna go to a dog show ^.^ Then dinnerish. Not sure other than that; two indecisive people trying to make a decision is a strange process involving evading of questions and goofing around. Took about half an hour to sort out. Heh.. c.c
+Anyway.. I'm curious as to what my mom would think of the whole situation, much less my dad.. I don't think my mom likes Moondog, 'cause she smokes. Silly reason, I'd say, if a reason at all :oP Ahwell. Fuzziness abound
+ Expand all +I did my best to try and figure out the transliteration and IPA of the poem.
+If any of that is wrong, please let me know! This was all guesswork in the wee hours of the morning.
+(xposted to
Wooo, got my AC receipt. Comforting to know they got my money and not someone else. I guess.. :o
+ Expand all +Apparently I payed $150 to only be able to access *.colostate.edu.
+Also, you know you're a geek when you giggle at the license plate 802-EOF, 'cause you know exactly where the car ends
+ Expand all +So my roommate got home at 5 rather noisily and woke me up. He sounded drunk, and was acting kinda weird, like he couldn't hold still or do one thing for any longer than a couple of seconds. He eventually got a phone call and talked pretty loudly for a minute or so, then left again. I hope he didn't drive...
+Haven't been able to get back to sleep, which means today's going to suck, unless I can fit in some naps carefull
+ Expand all +<img src="http://ranna.ath.cx/~ranna/NMF-logoidea.png"/
+ Expand all +NATS +Went to sing at NATS in Greeley. We had a whole lot of accompanist problems, including the BEST SINGER EVAR basically getting disqualified because of his accompanist. It was still fun, though. I got to go realize that I don't really like Greeley once again.
+Concert +Drove to Boulder after that to go see a concert with my mom. There was a Ravel piece that was really good (ever time I hear a Ravel piece, I always want to hear more, but never remember to find some), and Shostakovich's Cello Concerto, which is teh w00t. The main piece, though, was Mozart's Requiem, which is way cool, even if it was the old completion. The guy next to me had emphezema, though, which was disgusting. He went and smoked during intermission x.x
+Living Will +Made a Living Will after my mom showed me how. The whole Terry Shaivo thing got me motivated to get that done. Mine's pretty lax considering I'm still fairly young, but the measures are now in place to make sure something similar doesn't happen to me. If it's something you want to know more about, talk to me personally c.c
+Nepalese dumplings are tasty
+ Expand all +I was walking to piano class as quickly as possible this morning, late again because I had slept through my alarm. I was bitching about my roommate, who doesn't seem to understand the concept of courtesy, much less the concept of not getting completely trashed every night, and bitching about the wind, because apparently it's Fort Collins, not Chicago, that's the windy city and I had just showered and it was pretty cold... and then I caught myself checking my hair in the reflection of a display case in the engineering building, and I realized life's pretty damn absurd sometimes :o
+ Expand all +Most memes of this type are pretty stupid, but this one struck me as particularly creepy.
+If there is someone on your friends list you would like to take, strip naked, tie them to a bed post, lick them until they scream, then fuck them until both of you are senseless and unable to fuck anymore, then wait about five minutes and do it all over again, then post this exact sentence in YOUR journal
+ Expand all +Last night, I was very tired, and ended up nearly getting myself, along with Ryan and Shannon, in a car accident, so I went to bed early, at around 8, thinking I'd be up early the next morning. However, that didn't happen, and I woke up around ten. Ah well. Went back to sleep eventually, and woke up around 8. Then 9. Then 10. Eventually I got up and got ready to wait for Moondog, who ended up showing a little late, since Sam had kept her up late doing Tarot readings.
+An uneventful drive down to Denver followed. Well.. uneventful until I ran a red light on accident and had to merge with turning traffic. Ah well. After paying $6 for parking, we headed towards the agility show. She paid for both of us, and we sat down to watch the small dogs on the small course (an array of jumps, and one tube). By the time the big dogs were on the big course (jump, jump, teeter totter, weave poles, tunnel, catwalk, sit table, tunnel, jump, suspended tire, jump, collapsed tunnel, A-frame, jump, jump), we were snuggling, and I was trying to convince her not to kill the people behind us, who were kinda dumb (she knew all the breeds, and they most definately didn't). As they worked back to the small dogs on the big course, we decided to move on to the vendors and take a peek at the show. Never really held hands before, at least not in public, so that was cool.. Got a toy for Jubal.
+After getting bored at the show, we made our way back to the car, so that I could get us lost in downtown Denver, since Colfax != Auraria. We finally made it to the Wazee supper club, where we sat for the purpose of eating and deciding our next move, which was to go see Big Fish. I forgot what I was doing, and went the wrong way, so we ended up taking 93 back, and I took the opportunity to stop in the house to pick up my jacket and some cloves for Moondog. We went to the theatre by McGuckin's, whereupon we were an hour early for the show. We snugged some there, then outside so she could smoke, then back in, where we ran into Paul ("highschool BOYS in short skirts!!"). In the movie (which was really good, I thought, and Tim-Burton-kind-of-weird), we snugged some more (sense a theme?). It was like a mini-pile, sorta. There was petting and kissing and stuff. A clove on the way home, and then another little mini-pile, which accidentally lasted for an hour (her neck's sensitive, too, hee). I found out why kissing is neat, and decided that I'm not that good at it. First time, oh well. Then she had to leave, so that she could be awake for work tomorrow. Millie barked at her on the way out, and now my mom probably thinks we're doing drugs in the basement.
+All in all, a very good day. Now, two tylenol, and bed
+ Expand all +More roommate troubles. More severe this time. He woke me up at around 5 (from a rather pleasant dream, mind you), and didn't go to bed until 5:45. For those forty-five minutes, he did everthing from spill a bottle of pills on the bathroom floor, inhale some noodles (at least, that's what it sounded like; loud hoovering noises from the other side of the room and a strong smell of Vegetal Bowl Noodle), brush his teeth, and talk to himself. Didn't get back to sleep until 6:30, so I'm a little tired and pissed at the moment. I think we need to have a talk when we're both awake at the same time, and I don't feel like biting his head off.
+You'd think I'd have something better to write about in here, but really, I don't. Nothing worth sharing, at least
+ Expand all +An awful lot of weird stuff happened last night.
+Not quite sure how to process it all.
+So instead, here are my ranges: +<img src="http://ranna.ath.cx/~ranna/rannarange.jpg"/
+ Expand all +Just had the first meeting of the New Music Forum because the choir didn't show up, only the composers. Lots of big plans and small plans and nice folk. In the short term, I have to bring a completed piece next week, we're going to look at Stravinsky's right of spring, and I have an assignment to write 10-20 bars of a lydian waltz
+ Expand all +[sounds of rustling and a springbox squeaking] +squeak squeak squeak squeak squeak squeak squeak
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+squeak squeak squeak squeak squeak squeak squeak
+silence
+Good thing I got my coat, what with the snow and such. So warm ^^ It's kinda cool to see all the trees and flowers in bloom covered in and poking out from the snow.
+And the obligatory erect snow penis in the oval was amusing for a second or two, as well
+ Expand all +Lemon Lift tea with sugar and cream tastes like some sort of citrus creme beverage. Sorta.
+That is all, have a wonderful day ^
+ Expand all +Yeah, so.. I found some yokan :o)
+FVS sucked, 'cause I didn't sleep last night, afterwards, I went to look for a hat, but didn't find one. And.. I.. uh.. hmm. I guess that's it c.c
+Sorry for wasting space! ^
+ Expand all +Alright, got a name and an image for the content manager: <img alt="DocMan!" src="http://ranna.bolognia.net/images/docman.png"/
+ Expand all +Coffee date with Moondog on Wednesday before group. Well, before she leaves for youth board, and I leave for dinner and picking up the other two fuzzies
+ Expand all +So.. yeah. Went to see Judy Shepard talk last night, which was at once kind of depressing and inspirational. Inspirational enough for me to change the topic on my speech and spend nearly all day today writing it. It went fairly well, except for some weird questions at the end that weren't exactly.. uh.. kind, I guess. Still, no real negative reactions.
+I got accused of writing short posts, but.. I really don't have much to say c.
+ Expand all +I watched the train go by. It was accelerating out of Fort Collins, and, since it was real long, I got to watch the process of it speeding up, terminated by the engine at the tail end making all sorts of crazy noises.
+I've been thinking about Andy a lot, lately. I've realized I don't know what we are anymore, but I'm happy that we're close, I suppose.
+My roommate snorted a line of crushed Vicodan (Vicodin?) off the desk earlier. I was slightly amused and appropriately horrified
+ Expand all +NMF. +Holy cow things are working out well with this! It's lasted for two sessions now and still going strong, which is more than I can say for some things. We had to write waltzes in lydian modes for this week and Cynthia Fox came in to play them. They were all FREAKIN' AWESOME. No, really. Elliott's especially caught my attention, I hope he continues with the idea. Kent's was like jazzy Chopin, and, if he fixed some small voicing problems and continued with his original theme, has potential to be as good as Elliotts. Gabe's took a simple idea (I II I II I II iii ivo V vi vii) and made it into something simply incredible. Mine was passable. More harmonic than most of the other pieces, but still nice to listen to. For next week, we have to write a peice using the harmonic overtone sequence of a note (8ve, 5th, 4th, M3rd, m3rd, M2nd, m2nd) without a fixed key signature and using the pedal. We also talked about possibilities for other things we can do and guesswhatguesswhat! That idea that I had for doing Spem in Alium flashmob style? Another member already set something like that up, and all of us share the idea of performance music! So, while we might not do a 15 minute long, 40 part motet, there are still some things we can do in a similar fashion. So yeah, good stuff all around ^^
+Flu. +It's not even freakin' flu season and I have the freakin' flu. It feels a little like a 24 hour thing, with lingering cough/stuffiness; the fever only lasted for last night and most of this morning. Thank god, I don't want to be still recovering for my recital coughMondaythe25that5:30pmcough, where I shall be performing coughoneofmyownpiecescough songs! Yes. Songs c.c Including a freaking cool choral piece with all of FVS that Dr. Kim will be directing.
+Andy. +Uh.. well... Lets just hope he doesn't catch the flu either. :o
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+Maybe I'm wasting space with a two sentence entry, but it needed to be said - and maybe I'll write more later
+ Expand all +On Thursday night, after class, I went to the Cat with Martha, whereupon I ran into Miranda and Forrest. While expressing some concerns to them regarding Andy, Andy walked up behind me, which was.. weird. Anyway, we goofed around for a while, but then I declared that we needed to talk, because it had been on my mind for a while that, while we had kinda both said we liked each other, nothing had really changed a whole lot. So he offered to drive me home. Via Horsetooth. So we got lost in the mountains for about an hour talking about this and that, almost getting in trouble with the cops for parking in a rest area (!), and eventually freaking out Javon on the hall for.. uh.. some reason :o) During the drive, we figured out a lot of things, and he kinda helped me realize some stuff that I had been keeping hidden from myself. Anyway, long story short, we're dating now - not exclusively, because we've both got concerns about how things will work out - and I feel pretty good about it. Like, almost how I felt about Shan. Comfortable
+ Expand all +Date sort of thing with Andy at Lavender Graduation. Woohoo!
+Now to go help Michael, 'cause not everyone's a good person. Not so woohoo
+ Expand all +The past few days have shown me just how little I know compared to how much I thought I knew. I don't know what egotism makes me think I'm somehow more advanced than others to have that much of life figured out at 19, but it's slowly being dismantled, hopefully for the better. At least, I'm glad. The only problem with it seems to be that I've occasionally been a bit of an ass over the past few days as some part of me clings to whatever shreds of this remain
+ Expand all +So yeah, things are going good, I guess, except extreme boredom at the office and not really knowing how to act around certain people coughAndycough while I'm there.
+I seem to be getting a perverse sense of joy out of seeing people that I know walk by and knowingly not saying hi to them (when they don't notice me, that is). I don't know why. It's not like a passive-aggressive "so there!" type thing, just.. "I'm going to willfully not call out 'Alan!' and say hi, just because I can.
+ Expand all +This kinda happened a while ago, and I've been meaning to make a post about it since, but I got my grade back for my speech The only thing that kept me from getting 100% was that I went over (10:44, supposed to be an 8 minute speech), but still, the A definitely helps my grade :o
+ Expand all +Not sure why these seem pertinent.
+Read more...
+Down, down, down you go
+No way to stop
+As you fall, hear me call
+No, no, no
+Listen to this warning and
+Consider these
+Simple words of advice
+Stop, stop, stop
Fogging the view, cupping face to the window +In darkness you make out a spiralling shape +Putting all reason aside you exchange +What you got for a thing that's hypnotic and strange
+The spiralling shape will make you go insane +(Everyone wants to see that groovy thing) +But everyone wants to see that groovy thing +(Everyone wants to see that thing)
+And nobody knows what it's really like +But everyone says it's great +And they heard it from the spiral in their eyes
+This could lead to excellence +Or serious injury +Only one way to know +Go, go, go +Go ahead, wreck your life +That might be good +Who can say what's wrong or right? +Nobody can
+Put out your hands and you fall through the window +And clawing at nothing you drop through the void +Your terrified screams are inaudible drowned +In the spiral ahead and consumed in the shape
+The spiralling shape will make you go insane +(Everyone wants to see that groovy thing) +But everyone wants to see that groovy thing +(Everyone wants to see that thing)
+And now that you've tried it, you're back to report +That the spiralling shape was a fraud and a fake +You didn't enjoy it, you never believed it +There won't be a refund, you'll never go back
+The spiralling shape will make you go insane +(Everyone wants to see that groovy thing) +But everyone wants to see that groovy thing +(Everyone wants to see that thing)
+And nobody knows what it's really like +But everyone says it's great +And they heard it from the spiral in their eyes +(Spiral in their eyes)
+Fogging the view, cupping face to the window +In darkness you make out a spiralling shape +Putting all reason aside you exchange +What you got for a thing that's hypnotic and strange
+The spiralling shape will make you go insane +(Everyone wants to see that groovy thing) +But everyone wants to see that groovy thing +(Everyone wants to see that thing)
+Don't spend the rest of your life wondering +(Everyone wants to see that thing)
+Don't spend the rest of your life wondering +(Everyone wants to see that groovy thing) +Don't spend the rest of your life wondering +(Everyone wants to see that thing)
+And Bagme Bloma
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+ Expand all +So I can't register for classes, apparently. My change of major form didn't (?) go through, and so I'm left with Dr. Morrow-King as my advisor, and apparently she hates me, because when I asked for my advising code, she lectured me about not signing up for an advising time and how talking to her in the hall would eventually lead to the thermal death of the universe. I didn't want to be advised, because last time I was advised, I didn't get the classes I wanted, so even though I'll be a sophomore credit-wise next year, I'll still be a freshman class-wise. And you know, that just makes me feel wonderful. So, I signed another goddamned change of major form, and hopefully by the year 2025, I'll be a music education major, on my way to my sophomore year
+I'm glad that my educational institution is so lacksidaisical about my education
+ Expand all +So.. today's weird c.c; After that fiasco with not being able to sign up for some required classes because I'm apparently still a pre-music major and now I need to get overrides into classes so that I'm not STILL A FRESHMAN, uh.. what was I going to say? Oh, right! I.. hmm. Dr. Kim invited me to go to South Korea with the Chamber singers, because one of the basses isn't able to go @.@ SOUTH FRIGGIN' KOREA! I said yes, even though it'll be $950 for airfare (so, all of the money I make working this summer :oP). Uh.. so yeah. Mood swings, not my fault.
+Geek quiz.
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+ Expand all +Roll, roll, roll your fox, gently on the ground; wearily, wearily, wearily, wearily: life is sure unsound
+ Expand all +Woo! Went to Boulder to watch people sing; got to see the Yale Whiffenpoofs, which is cool, 'cause they haven't been to Boulder for 43 years.
+ + Expand all +Worst.
+Lunch.
+Ever!
+What was supposed to be chicken and veggie alfredo tastes like bleach and cornstarch with lumps of cauliflower randomly appearing. The "coffee cake" is bordering on sour, and the chicken filet! Well, actually, that was pretty good, but the salad was its usual horrible self ^
+ Expand all +Lalery decided to room with his boyfriend. Unless we can find someone by yesterday or something, we might have to deal with apartments for a semester or two x.x
+Incredibly frustrating
+ Expand all +Man, I like making people feel better when they're down, but when either they're not receptive or I don't know how to help, it just makes us both feel worse :D
+;.;
+In other news, it's time to freak out about juries (WAAAH!). That done, it's time to freak out about AC (WAAAH!). That done, it's time to freak out about Korea (WAAAAH!). Continuing on that train, it's time to freak out about next semester, housing, school, Andy, Lon, Shannon, Ryan, your face, your mom, and communist Russia!
+Khan
+ Expand all +I ordered a tarot deck (plain old Rider Waites to start with) online. I'm not sure how things go in the way of conflicts, but I wanted a sealed one just in case, and I wanted it at a fairly reasonable price. I plan on doing a daily reading thing - draw a card, think about what it represents, and, throughout the day, keep that idea in mind - if only just to learn the cards. I'm starting to see just how tarot 'works,' along with horoscopes and the like; or, at least, how I think they'd work for me. My mom (engineer) always discounted tarot and other 'fortune telling scams' to being too general, and I mostly agreed. I guess I still do, but now I don't see that as such a bad thing. The way I see it, this general meaning/story produced by the reading of the cards isn't so much portentious as a way to help you help yourself When you look at the cards in relation to a specific question, they can help show you a new way to think about it, or perhaps think up some ways to answer the question yourself (the guide I'm reading uses the term Inner Guide, which I think fits quite well).
+Motto: it's only magic if you make it so. Mind you, I didn't say anything about 'making it so' being impossible. :o)
+My Deep Rooted Hatred © of Teh Rev disturbs me. I can understand not liking the man's teaching methods, or even his conversational methods, but lately I've been disliking him as a person, which is something I don't feel all that often. Recently, as in the past few years, I've tried to keep it to just things I dislike about people instead of people themselves, but each day compounds to my disrespect of the man. Mind you, it has little to do with the choirs themselves, since I like singing and he does produce a very good result.. It's just such a painful process getting there.
+Tomorrow, at OASOS, we'll be watching a movie. Perfect for piles. Shall go out with Teh Moondoggie beforehand, along with Kelleh.
+ESSAY, DAMNIT. I need to be working on that, instead of this. Thus, off I go.
+Edit: Also... +
That is.. they are MALICIOUSLY DELICIOUS!!!1queue (This was purely for entertainment value. No opinions were harmed in the posting of this image.
+ Expand all +In other news, possible housage.
+Also: +
+ Title: Harvest Switchel + Yield: 1 Servings ++ + +2 c Sugar + 1 c Molasses +1/4 c Cider vinegar + 1 ts Ginger + 1 ga Water +
Mix sugar, molasses, vinegar and ginger in 1 quart + water; heat until dissolved. Add remaining water + and chill. Serve cold! Switchel is especially + thirst quenching, so be sure to have plenty ready + when it's haying time and the men are hot and + sweaty.</pre
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(22:45:05) RannaFox: OMIGOSHFERRETS! +(22:45:13) senotay2: NO! Puppies! :d +(22:45:52) RannaFox: I know, I know, focus ;.; +(22:46:08) Breakfast Fox: wtf I want a goat +(22:46:20) senotay2: shut up ryan! +(22:46:26) Breakfast Fox: I remember playing with a goat once... +(22:46:37) senotay2: 9.9 +(22:46:38) Breakfast Fox: I think someone let it in the house and it was crapping all over the place +(22:46:41) Breakfast Fox: <.< +(22:46:43) Breakfast Fox: >.>
+ Expand all +I was gonna make another angsty post, but: +<img src="http://img25.echo.cx/img25/6718/hart8om.jpg"/
+ Expand all +Drunkest I've ever been. I keep myself from catharsis so much, I guess I figured a little right now wouldn't hurt so much, and, to be honest, I've been having a good time, but, also, to be honest, I wouldn't really repeat tonight. Still kinda hurt - booze or not - by how Andy acted like nothing really happened. A shame I'm too cowardly to actually bring it up. Maybe if I see him tomorrow. I want to remind him to go to my concert on sunday, anyway
+ Expand all +More sex while I'm in the room, and they're still naked.
+Twomoreweekstwomoreweekstwomoreweeks..
+ Expand all +Two things!
+Kenny and his girlfriend are gone! Not for good, but still! No more ew.
+Secondly, our lease applications have been approved! And while my mom sounds disappointed, she seems like she might be alright with it. Everyone got the go, including Shannon's birds and a dog of probability. So we'll probably be moving in sometime during or after finals week. And all of this time, we'll be searching for jobs to help our parents with paying for this! Woohoo! Huzzah! My hips hurt!
+We saw a doggie today named Trixie who was schizoid and absurdly cute. It was absurd. It'll be good to be able to see Andy over the summer. Maybe :o
+ Expand all +So.
+I was awoken once again - this time at 4 AM by my roommate and his "girlie" coming home, and then having sex for an hour. I waited until she went to the bathroom before getting up and grabbing my keys. I told Kenny, "This is the third time this has happened, please make sure that it was also the last."
+He flipped out. It was kinda scary, actually, but he was apologizing profusely and clearly quite embarassed, saying frantically, "No, brah, no, don't go! I swear! We'll go to sleep right now, I swear! Nah, man, don't go!" I went anyway, saying I'd be back in half an hour. I hung out in RA Ryan's room for about 20 minutes with him and his friend until she left and he just plain passed out (after having been awake for the past 23 hours - understandable) and went back to my room.
+Kenny was still up and naked, so he rushed to get clothes on while I fiddled around in the bathroom area. He apologized several more times, gave me a high five, in case that might help, and we all went happily to sleep.
+~~~
+11:45 AM, I was woken up by them having sex
+ Expand all +Well, the day started out mediocre and it just keeps getting worse.
+I guess it really is too much to expect, caring for someone and expecting acknowledgement. I keep telling myself, "Maybe it's like he says, and he just doesn't show his emotions that much." But that doesn't really make it any easier.
+Can't a guy get some catharsis around here
+ Expand all +The longer this goes on, the more I feel like maybe it was really a dream, like that night at Horsetooth really didn't happen, and I never saw Sahara, and that he's wondering what the hell's going on
+ Expand all +Omigosh! I'm signing my first lease tomorrow! Wait.. today! *hyperventilate
+ Expand all +I shall write a song with that as a title. Thanks to Alia.. Alea.. Kindra's sister; Umlauts make me cry / diacritics make me die / es-tsets I can deal with / along with thorn and edh / but, lord only knows / umlauts make me cry. Bluesey, ne? (Is 'ne' a remnant from latin? Some Euro-folks use no as a question word, is that from the latin ne?) Needs work, though.
+I was all excited today, 'cause I was gonna see Moondog. Of course, I did, and it was exciting, but there was a Problem with Kelly about which I knew next to nothing, so that put a bit of a damper on the evening. That's between Moondog and Kelly, though, and I'll let them work it out. Mostly, however, Moondog just tickled me (or tried to, depending on how on my guard I was) and/or
Tuesday, Moondog asked if we were 'together', for lack of a better word, and, since I'm pretty sure I feel that way, I said yes, but upon reading her journal (one of my daily rituals is to read everyone's journal, even if there's nothing new OCD) I found out she's going through some of the same fears I am (mainly of hurting/being hurt by someone), though she seems to be having a tougher time of it. To be honest, I've mostly been distracted; too much Revier and school. Even so, though, I'm gonna try not to focus on that. I'd rather just try and be the best I can for her, so that, hopefully, we don't have to deal with those fears luv. Also, she asked (today at coffee) whether or not we should be open about the whole.. relationship (mateship? Is mate a good word in this case?) thing at OASOS. I wasn't sure then, but now I suppose that it'd be alright with me. It's not like it isn't fairly obvious already; and besides, it's a good thing, a happy thing, and I don't think hiding it's particularly useful.. Hopefully, though, there aren't any that will react like Danny did: rather violently.
+Other than that, today was an agonizing stretch of Revier all the way through, interspersed with depressing moments of math and bio. Tomorrow is the fourth quarter run-through, so I have to actually stay. Save me.
+ Expand all +Maybe it'd just be easier for me to think of myself as single. And more accurate
+ Expand all +Talked to Andy about things. Like... actually talked. In person and stuff. None of this iDrama and eMo crap. I think I understand what's really going on now, and I'm doing okay with it. Much better than earlier this afternoon
+ Expand all +...is 05/05/05.
+...I realized I forgot to go to my psych study yesterday, and will thusly get a lower grade in the class.
+...I don't really care about that.
+...I came up with an idea for an interview process for schools involving an interview board comprised of the heads of each department (or someone nominated by them) following the first interview with the principal.
+...I have to finish my voice studio portfolio, and memorize a song in french.
+...I realized that people like Ann Coulter obviously are not going to let us change their mind, so what really makes them think that they can change ours? De gustibus non est desputandum.
+...is a good day.
+Oh, right, and I don't think we'll have internet acces for a while after we move into the new house, so I'll be restricted to whenever I can grab time at the library
+ Expand all +I chopped most of my hair off today, and now I look like a 6'2" ten year old - a shade of my former self. I'm not sure if I like it, though.. maybe if I do something with it. But.. like.. that takes effort
+ Expand all +Just spent like.. forty-five or so minutes walking around campus and talking to myself (and my tape recorder). I've decided that music is awful and horrible and I absolutely love it for one, big, Discordian reason: you're taking something that - for me - is completely chaotic, emotive, and only based in logic on the most rudimentary levels, and forcing it into the complete order and rigidity of math, only to try and return it to it's original state; fitting emotion into black notes on a white page, for other people to reconstitute into it's original, emotive self.
+This has been a big problem for me as a composer, the first step. Especially so now that I don't have the aural feedback that I did with Sibelius on my laptop. Having to somehow force my emotions out through my pencil onto staff paper is proving difficult and misguided at best. So what I just did was sort of a stream of consciousness exercise: I walked around campus and talked continuously about "The Bucket Rider" until I slipped into that half-conscious stream-of-thought state that comes with such exercises, and found that I quite easily just described the entire piece from beginning to end.
+Now all I need to do is translate that into black notes on a white page, which will mean first transcribing my tape (boring at best), then taking the transcription and turning it into a complete idea of a song, then taking that and writing the song from it. So, basically, doing the impossible. Oh well, I have until November 11th to complete this and mail the score out to wotsits, the competition. I'll keep you updated, because if there's anything you want to hear about, it's my stupid music :
+ Expand all +So I totally bombed my jury. Dude
+ Expand all +This song makes me see an orange sunset from a bright red sun, from the point of view of an aircraft of some sort, miles above the earth, somehow disconnected from the scene, yet every bit an integral part. +Music is our religion. +What else can make us see? +Our eyes. +Shut up. I wish that I could express this to some people. Others just understand, and others just don't need to know. It's just that the musical/emotional/situational memory is such a wonderful thing. Also, when I listen to this song, I'm reminded of reading Endymion at 3am here at school, then walking out on the oval. When I listen to Tallis' Spem in Alium, I'm in the basement of my old house in my bed at 10am watching the light on my walls. When I listen to Vaughn Williams' Fantasia on a Theme by Tallis, I'm reading Hyperion for the first time in my room at the old townhouse uphill from Fairview, thinking how the wind makes me feel like I'm flying. +What reminds you of me? +A clip of opera from.. uh.. Half Life? Counter Strike? Some game. I got it from Ryan. +How sweet.
+So you didn't disappear? +No. We have become one. +So I'm talking to myself? +Hmm.. I believe the word I'm looking for is.. 'duh'.</em
+ Expand all +So my broken hard drive is considered accidental damage, so Apple helpfully voided my warranty and wants to charge me about a thousand dollars for repairs on not just the hard drive, but also the optical drive and LCD, neither of which were broken when I sent it out
+ Expand all +Even with my completely fucked up jury, the lowest grade I'll get in studio class is a B+. I saw my jury sheets, and they weren't straight 'F's like I was expecting. Two 'C's, and two 'D's.
+Also, we won't have to pay for sewer and water, which is good; less money to shell out. :o
+ Expand all +Urg. After yesterday being what it was, going to school was exactly what I didn't want to be doing today, but I had to for some reason or another. I got there early for sectionals, where we got in trouble with Revier for not doing a whole lot. After that, I followed Shannon to art instead of going to public speaking. I hung around there with Shannon and Ryan until I was justafiably kicked out by Ms. Harmon. The whole time, Ryan was trying to convince me to go home, 'cause I felt like smoo. So I took his advice and went back home instead of continuing on to public speaking.
+At home, things came down in a tumble on me (metaphorically). I felt like something just hasn't been right for the last few weeks, like I'm pretending to be someone I'm not. Conflicting with that was the thought that perhaps I'm just starting to see what I really am and let that be seen, instead of hiding behind this avatar of normality. There were other thoughts, about Shannon and Wendy and Ryan and choir, and before I knew it, I had a good sized slice on my left arm, and a razor blade in my right hand. It's been a long time since I've cut myself, and I can't believe I did it today. Luckily, it was a clean and shallow one that I should be able to hide easily with long sleeves. I'm still not sure why the hell I did that, but oh well. What's done is done.
+After that dumb escapade, I showered and went to lie down, planning on waking up in time for fourth period so that I wouldn't miss that. However, I gave up on that plan and turned off my alarm clock, figuring I'd get up in time for closer rehearsal. My mom woke me up at around 11:40 (about when lunch ends), and asked if I'd caught that cold that was going around. Not willing to explain, I just nodded, and she went ahead and excused me for the day. I ended up waking up again at around one, so I got up, wolfed down some miso, and headed off to creative writing so that I could turn in my essay (which I decided to make about the dog show last sunday) and watch a creepy video about balloons. By closer, I started to cheer up some, but I was still tired, as I am even now. Closer went fine, as did the Act I 4th Quarter rehearsal today, which Insomniac was in.
+Now I'm working on bio homework and pondering tomorrow. Have my flute speech then. I need to talk to Moondog about maybe doing something next weekend, since I won't be able to see her wednesday (
Computer's going down for the move, and I don't know when the 'net will be back up, so everything that's hosted on ranna.ath.cx will be inaccessible for a while. Still be able to post and get on from home and the library and such, though :o
+ Expand all +I'm not much of a talker, more of a listener. I guess I never ask, because there's really no point, other than to emphasize. And, I guess, there is underneath the sun nothing in true earnest done. Strength, light, release, softness, aww man... +Thy will be done?
+People in glass houses sink ships
+ Expand all +Thy will be done?</em
+ Expand all +These questions come to me from
1) What makes you happier than anything else? +"Whatever suits you tickles me plum to death." -W. Jensen
+I'd be boring if that was the only thing, however important it is - mead, music, people, fuzzies (certain ones especially), subtlety, and plenty more mundane things.
+2) What was it like coming out to yourself, and how did you handle that? +Oh gosh.. that happened a long time ago. I guess I was mostly confused, and it felt nice to finally figure out what was really going on, but there wasn't a whole lot of emotion surrounding it (at least, not enough for an emotional memory). Most of the emotion seemed to involve thinking too much about what would happen if I ever came out to anyone else - particularly parents.
+3. How and why did your involvement with Furry start? +Hehe.. right before freshman year of highschool, I found Yerf. Around the same time, I was a moderator on a bulletin board called GovTeen (which later lead to my mom divorcing my stepdad, which is another, slightly more hilarious story) on which a few of my friends were furries. I guess through a combination of those, I really kinda got started - then introduced a few of my friends to the fandom. As for why.. um.. I'm not sure. I think it just sorta started as an interest that ended up clicking.
+4) If you could pick one thing to be remembered for, what would it be? +It'd be cool to be remembered for my music, but it would mean more to me to be remembered by the individuals that I affected the most; for some, maybe that is through my music, I guess.
+5) Why a fox? +Oh gosh.. I actually started as a dragon forever ago, but, to be honest, I changed it because no one was paying attention to me on GovTeen. I changed it to a fox because I'd always thought they were pretty neat, not because I had any particular connection to them. A few weeks ago, I was at a cafe with Andy and a few (furry) friends of mine trying to figure out an animal for Andy. He didn't understand, so when we all went around explaining why we picked the animals we did, pretty much everyone at the table - including me - decided that I was really an otter. However, I don't think my foxly status will change, simply because I've settled into it and I am, needless to say, quite happy with that ^.
+ Expand all +Handing the modem off.
+Don't think I'll be around for a while
+ Expand all +It's not that I don't have enough time to update, it's more that I don't really have the will to.
+Things have been alright since we moved, I guess. I've been happy for a good percentage of the time - somewhere above 50% - and I've been sleeping enough too much. There's a constant battle being fought in the kitchen against the Alliance of Dirty Dishes (I don't fight nearly as much as I should), and another front, in my room, is being fought against Ennui.
A job would help. Or large amounts of alcohol. About five gallons worth, actually, all of which contain honey
+ Expand all +I guess I could write more often, but I haven't been inclined to. +All that you have to write about...
+The only thing I feel like writing about now, is that I spent a couple (six) hours with Andy today. It was fun, 'specially the last half hour ^^ +Subtle, really.
+Things have gotten confusing, though, with the prospect of Andrew possibly moving out here. More on this later. +Or not.</em
+ Expand all +Google MEME +- think of the first word that comes to mind when you think of me. (don't tell me what it is) +- run a google image search on that word +- reply to this entry and post a picture that came up / place img src="URL HERE" between < > +- put this in your journal, so others can do the sam
+ Expand all +Sometimes I think that history is a war of poisons, and that bipedal hominids are mere pawns and soldiers, mouthing whatever slogans or propaganada are current, but ignorant of the designs and strategies of the true plant generals who direct the action from a realm beyond our usual ken +-- Dale Pendel's Ally+ +
Indeed
+ Expand all +Step 1: Open your MP3 player. +Step 2: Put all of your music on random. +Step 3: Write down the first twenty songs it plays, no matter how embarrassing
+"Scrape forth such slogans from the vehicle of your soul, dear Excel - lest you belch fumes of pretense beneath a chromed and vulgar piety." +--Il Palazz
+ Expand all +You know, I used to think it was awful that life was so unfair. Then I thought, wouldn't it be much worse if life were fair, and all the terrible things that happen to us come because we actually deserve them? So, now I take great comfort in the general hostility and unfairness of the universe.+ +It sounds kinda depressing, but it makes a bit of sense. Though, isn't that a crazy sort of fairness, and not very hostile at all? How a universe could express either is rather beyond me.. +Hahaha, you're a prick. You'll notice than in your search for emotion, you generally look for depressing stuff; don't you think that says something about you? +You're not going to call me a goth, like my mom did, are you? +I was going to call you emo, or suicidal, but no, not goth. +Hrm.. + +
New batch of curry (this time with some coconut milk!) and a rather old, slightly lightstruck Newcastle Brown Ale. Mmm..
+Congrats to Shan for getting his interview, and good luck for the rest of the process. Now I'll have to annoy him more often than once every 6 months
+ Expand all +Yo no nací sino para quereros; +Mi alma os ha cortado a su medida; +Por hábito del alma misma os quiero.
+Escrito está en mi alma vuestro gesto; +yo lo leo tan solo que aun de vos +me guardo en esto.
+Quanto tengo confiesso yo deveros; +Por vos nací, por vos tengo la vida, +Y por vos é de morir y por vos muero
+ Expand all +I lost a bottle of apricot wine today. I had backsweetened it because it was bland, and put it in the fridge to cold stabilize. I thought my mom was coming up, so I moved my whole meadery to my closet, just in case she wasn't that supportive, including the bottle of wine we have left, and all of my finished product. I guess the yeast in the apricot wine hadn't gone dormant, though, because they started eating the honey I sweetened with and making CO2. This morning, I woke up to what sounded like a faucet running on a really fast trickle, but dripping really slowly inside my wall. I was afraid it was a leak, but when I opened my closet, I saw the apricot wine had pushed open the cap just enough to push out some excess gas and drip a bunch of foam onto my floor in the process. In all, I was pretty lucky. Had I been using something other than a swingtop bottle, it probably would've just exploded :o
+ Expand all +Post this exact sentence to your journal.
+...Seriously
+ Expand all ++Wild systems contain poisons. Formal systems are certainly poisonous, but lack the playfulness of, say, wild coyotes. +Expand all +Coyote is the one who breaks the rules+We call this crucial difference the Coyote Principle. Stated most succinctly, it goes, "No matter how well you plan it out, Coyote will find some way to fuck it up." Like all poisons, the Coyote Principle is both a bane and a blessing. Sometimes, this principle is referred to as the human factor. +</blockquote
+Colonel Kurtz + You've seen 89% of the internet, and shed 90% of the tears... + |
+
++I've seen horror... horror that you've seen. +You've seen it all. This is just another pitiful test in your long +line of degraded porn, sub culture horror movies and snuff footage. The +internet to you is like an anti-Willy Wonka factory. Total abysmal +horror. Rivers of filth. Ooompa Loompa porn. +You've probably seen that Oompa Loompa porn, haven't you? +The horror... the horror... + + |
+
+ | +
+My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:+ |
+
Link: The I've Been on the Internet Test written by DaveBrubeck on Ok Cupid |
There's a chance I might be sick - though not with something incurable. I'll say more about it when I find out more. Need some tests taken tomorrow. +
Yeah whatever. You've got something pretentious written on your wrist.+Yes, well, I'm reading Chuck Palahniuk's Diary. +
What's that got to do with.. well, anything?+Oh, nothing ^.^ +
I paid off my debt yesterday, and I'm back in debt today, thanks to the government. $108 for a passport
+ Expand all +Just got off the phone, sounds as if my laptop's pretty much gone. He pulled the hard drive and hooked that to a different computer - nothing. Lost a bunch of music and all of my writing, but luckily, I have my scores backed up (I hope). Next, he tried plugging a new hard drive in - no dice. So, either the ribbon cable connecting the hard drive to the logic board is bad (lets hope and pray), or the logic board itself is bad. If the latter case is true, it'd just be more worthwhile to get a new laptop and sell this old one on ebay for $500 or whatever (everything else still works, if someone's willing to put money into it, they're welcome to, but with a logic board, it'd be about the same as getting a new one - maybe they can fix it up and resell it for more) and put the money down towards the new one. Mom's willing to help me with all of this, but that'll be like.. my first several paychecks if I get the work study position. Oh well.. just when I was getting interested in writing again, too.
+In other news, I wrote a whole song last night. I'd post it but ha ha, no laptop
+ Expand all +Feeling Fine
+Lyricses
+Falling falling, feeling fine,
+Finding forms and making mine.
+Pressing pressing, pushing past,
+Picking paths and falling fast.
+Running running, rarely rest,
+Run the risk and pass the test.
+Do it all and feel fine.
+Do it all and feel fine.
Feeling fine, feeling fine, +Done it all and feeling fine. +Mustn’t stop, mustn’t stop, +Done it all, I’m feeling fine.
+Push on, push on, don’t slow up, +Push on, push on, push on past. +Run on, run on, don’t fuck up, +Run on, run on, run on fast. +Hurry on, scurry on, speed on up, +Hurry on, scurry on, don’t be last. +Do it all and feel fine. +Don’t forget to feel fine.
+Feeling fine, feeling fine, +Done it all and feeling fine. +Mustn’t stop, mustn’t stop, +Done it all, I’m feeling fine.
+Tried and tried, I tried and tried, +Ran the risk, failed the test. +Lied and lied, I lied and lied, +Picked my path and fell through fast. +Died and died, I died and died, +Found my form and made it last.
+Feeling fine, feeling fine, +Done it all and feeling fine. +Mustn’t stop, mustn’t stop, +Done it all, I’m feeling fine. +Mustn’t stop, I’m feeling fine.
++ I'll post something more meaningful later
+ Expand all +It seems like there's too much to think about, recently. There's so much to take into account that I'm never quite sure whether or not I'm doing the right thing, and I'm never quite certain that I'm being the best person I can for people. I know life's not sure or certain, but I like to think that I'm doing the best I can, really
+ Expand all +I got tagged by the turkey,
List five songs that you are currently digging... it doesn't matter what genre they are from, whether they have words or even if they're any good but they must be songs you're really enjoying right now.
+Post these instructions, the artist and the song in your blog. Then tag five other people to see what they're listening to.
+(minor)Drama at the C.F.S. household. Lets hope it all works out
+ Expand all +Two double shot lattes would normally get me too jittery to function, but when I topped it off with a packet of rose supari, I end up just plain old awake, with a dollop of EXCESSIVE GLEE!! Odd, considering arecoline - the active ingredient in betel nut - is also a stimulant
+ Expand all +If I wish to feel tall, +I will look only to the Earth; +If I wish to feel belittled, +I will look only to the Sky; +If I wish to feel integral, +I will look only within You; +If I wish to feel proud, +I will look only within Me.
+-><-
+No matter how, where, or when you celebrate it, rejoice in your Pride
+ Expand all +I've never really read any of Crowley's work except the Book of Lies, but his essay on absinthe was beautiful
+ Expand all +So.. yeah, I think I'm going to stick with my family doctor, as opposed to going to the rather traumatizing health center. Maybe it was just the doctor, or maybe he was just having a bad day, but still, that was hardly comforting
+ Expand all +Filled with uncontrollable RAGE! And organs
+ Expand all +August 02
+(TUES) UA 75W 10:30
+AM 12:PM Denver to San Francisco
+August 02/03 (TU/WE) SQ 15Q 2:20 pm
+6:45 pm SF to Incheon International Airport
+
+Aug 12 (FR) SQ 16Q 5:50
+pm 12:40 pm ICN to SF
+Aug 12 (FR) UA 1286W
+3:45 pm 7:10 pm SF to DIA
MATT THOMAS
+ARRIVES ON AUG
+11. ON THE SAME TIME FLIGHT.
TOUR ITINERARY
Aug. 3 / Arrival in Seoul (ICN)
Aug.4 / Performance at Young-Nak
+Church with Zion Choir from young-Nak
+Church
Aug. 5 – 6 / Tour and possible
+shopping.
+Indoor museum and theme-park
Aug. 7 / Attend church service
+and depart to YoungWol (Dong-kang Music
+Festival)
Aug. 7 /
+Welcoming Party and tour YoungWol (Jang Nung - King Danjong's tomb)
ChongYongPo
+( King DangJong's place of exile )
+Astronomical Observatory / You'll enjoy stars of the night
Aug.
+8 / Rafting (best course in Korea) and Concert
Aug.
+9 / Tour Mooksan Art gallery ( Korean Painting)
+Poet Kim SatGat valley
Back
+to Inchon
Aug. 10 – 11 / Performances with
+Incheon City Chorale in Incheon and at
+Boopyung Methodist Church
Aug. 12 / Depart.
Updated 6-30-05
+
Today flew by. Mostly.
+Excal: sucked.
+Public speaking: did my flute speech, sucked, but not as bad.
+Math: sat around, bitched, whined. Didn't suck all that much.
+History: took notes, tried to hide in the crook of my elbow from Carl.
+Festival: quite fun, actually;
None of the stuff I've ordered has come yet. Two All-State CDs, an All-State DVD, an All-State hoodie, a FLCL DVD, and two tarot decks (mind you, I only ordered one of them about an hour ago.. :oP). It makes me feel kinda bad. I shelled out the cash, and it seems like for nothing. I bet I'll get a bunch of stuff at once, and it'll feel really neat then.
+Last night, Moondog and I talked about sex. Aaaand.. there's not a whole lot to write about there. I don't think so, at least. I'm tired, and the log's at my mom's. Not that it's any of your business, anyway ^^ Well, maybe it is, I don't know.
+Finally, a spread:
+Boring hereafter.
+
+Ranna's Wheel:
+Time keeps on slippin', slippin', slippin' into the future, so the three
+wheels are really the same wheel depicted throughout time. The cards are laid
+out from past to future because, as you work from past to future, the
+possibilities for occurences to happen lessen, as do the possibilities of
+cards in the remaining deck. The past and future wheels roll away from the
+present, in the way the cards are laid out (counter-clockwise for past,
+clockwise for future). This is a work in progress.
3 sets of circles: past, present, future +Concentric circles: internal, external, chaos +Two cards as dynamics in circles
+78/3 = 26 + -2 (dynamics +) + = 24 + -4 (chaos *) + = 20 + -8 (external x) + = 12 + -12 (internal o)
+ PAST PRESENT FUTURE
+
+ o o o
+ o x o o x o o x o
+
o x * x o o x * x o o x * x o + o x * + * x o o x * + * x o o x * + * x o + o x * x o o x * x o o x * x o + o x o o x o o x o + o o o
+Placement: +Past: Chaos ring is placed first, starting at the top and working +counter-clockwise. Next, the horizontal card of dynamic is placed. +Then the external ring is placed, starting at the top and working +counter-clockwise. Following that, the vertical card of the dynamic is +placed. Finally, the internal ring is placed, starting at the top and working +counter-clockwise.
+Present: Chaos ring is placed first, starting with the top card, then the +bottom, then the left, then the right. Next, the vertical card of the dynamic +is placed. Then the external ring is placed, starting with the top card, then +bottom, then left, then right, then upper left, then lower right, then upper +right, then lower left. Following that, the horizontal card of the dynamic is +placed. Finally, the internal ring is placed, starting with the top card, +then bottom, then the upper left top, then the lower right bottom, then the +upper right top, then the lower left bottom, then then lower left top, then +upper right bottom, then lower right top, then upper left bottom, and finally, +leftmost, then rightmost. (basically, top-bottom, then the X made by the four +cards closest to the top and bottom cards, then the X made by the four cards +closest to the righ and left cards, then right-left)
+Future: Chaos ring is placed first, starting at the top and working clockwise. +Next, the vertical card of dynamic is placed. Then the external ring is +placed, starting at the top and working clockwise. Following that, the +horizontal card of the dynamic is placed. Finally, the internal ring is +placed, starting at the top and working clockwise.
+Reading: +Read in order of placement. The chaos ring deals with variables that are +caused more by chaos, rather than intention, i.e. unintended reactions. The +external ring deals with external influences acting against the subject. The +internal ring deals with variables relating to the Self. The irony is not +lost on me that there are fewer chaotic variables than internal, and that the +internal ring is outside of the external.
+This section has yet to be completed. I need to flesh out what the placement +of the cards mean, pretty much. Axes to organize things, so that card positions +apply to all three rings. Must think on this a little more deeply. + +</lj-raw
+ Expand all +Okay so, apparently Dr. Kim neglected to inform me that I was technically working an hourly job despite the fact that he was giving me a fixed amount of money for my work, and that because of this, I would have to fill out time sheets, and that because I didn't, I'll get paid sometime after AC, if at all.
+Hah, hah, so guess when our energy bill shows up
+ Expand all +Anything I ever complained about means nothing now - I have received tasty beverages. :
+ Expand all +So I'm back. I'm safe, and such. There'll be a con report or whatever coming up, but for now, I'm just suppressing all of my emotions :D I'll let them out after I sleep
+ Expand all +Ahh, there we go. Depression, heavy on the loneliness, with a hefty dose of ANGER!
+ Expand all +BWAGH!!
+So it turns out that it wasn't the logic board that was bad in my computer, just the cable that connected the hard drive to it. Which means, instead of paying about what the computer is worth to fix the problem, I'll only be paying $285. Awesome. That should be much easier for me to handle than buying a new one.
+*bounce
+ Expand all +Hmm. It's a strange feeling when you come to the same conclusions as someone else at about the same time, but the conclusions aren't always happiness-inducing. It's like agreeing with someone that maybe it would be better to just snuff out the sun and plunge into darkness.
+By the way, Ryan gave me a flowery hardcore fantasy book, and it's making me eloquent. How horrible
+ Expand all +Rain on Rahoon falls softly, softly falling, + Where my dark lover lies. + Sad is his voice that calls me, sadly calling, + At grey moonrise.
+Love, hear thou
+How soft, how sad his voice is ever calling,
+Ever unanswered, and the dark rain falling,
+Then as now.
+
+Dark too our hearts, O love, shall lie and cold
+As his sad heart has lain
+Under the moongrey nettles, the black mould
+And muttering rain
+
I owe it to myself to write some shit down before I either forget or go insane.
+In other news, I got my laptop back, and started working on my wind band piece. Also, I made a thick version of chicken soup tonight, more like a gravy with all sorts of stuff in it, that I served over flavored rice. Like a Medeterranian curry. It came out pretty well, but now we're nearly out of food. (The leftovers are absolutely fabulous over crackers.
+ Expand all +Missed Moondog last night. Fell asleep without turning Trillian off, which led to a whole bunch of messages. Sorry, peoples.. er.. and fuzzies...
+Speaking of sleep, I slept for thirteen hours with a little baggie under my pillow. It's a special little baggie now. I made it myself.
+
Thomas
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I found three CDs in the bathroom entitled +"Hope this works" +"Umm.. or this" +"Shite, yer on yer own, lad"
+In that order.
+Ryan, you rock my world :
+ Expand all +Maerchentic Eternity - Chuck Palahniuk's Diary - the way the artist's inspiration strikes for painting. +Maerchentic Identity - Robin Hobb's Fool's Errand - the way the telepathy between the twins is wrought.Expand all +
The saga of my life continues, now with increased boredom. I spent my day cooking and cleaning, making fancy ramen for myself and thinking myself in circles. Sleeping. Toddy coffee is good, but I made the concentrate a little weak out of impatience, I suppose. I wish I could pin down my thoughts for an hour or so, if only for the sake of rest, but the closest I can come is reading and escapism, which tend to be the same, for me. Sometimes I feel like a stalker.
+Addendum: Our landlords left on one of the lights in the downstairs apartment while showing it to a group. At first, it freaked me out, thinking that there might be someone in there, but then it just seemed kinda sad. I could explain why, but I'm not going to.
+Addendum: The last line of In Dulci Jubilo by Praetorius as sung by Chanticleer sounds like 'Alpha biscuit hole.
+ Expand all +Rikoshi yowls, o/~ What do you get when you're a filthy fox / Thinking 'bout nothing but sucking on cocks? / Flirting with everyone; have you name shame? / You know exactly who's... to... blame. o/~ +Ranna cries, it's true ;.; +MegaWolf smacks Rikoshi. +Mekensobek laughs +You yerf, "The wolfies and the 'coonies o/~" +Rikoshi can't type right when he's ad libbing
+ Expand all +So.. uh.. Shannon already posted something like this, but it's kinda funny, so sorry if it's a duplicate post for some people..
+Parts: The Clonus Horror - 1979. MST3k'd
+The Island - 2005
+what
+ Expand all +I've been sleeping a lot yesterday and today, like I was sick or something, but I don't feel sick...
+Even though I slept 7 hours yesterday during the day, I went to bed early, and wasn't woken up by Shannon. Though I did get up at 2:43 AM for a cheese sandwich and some milk tea, I slept until 11 this morning. I'm still tired
+ Expand all +Heh, okay, this is kinda cool. I mean, I'm not a druggie, really - the last time I smoked pot, I went through all sorts of psychosomatic trauma (sure, I brought it upon myself, but that didn't make it any less traumatic, now did it?) ('it', in the last parenthetical remark, can be taken to mean both the pot, and the trauma) - but I enjoy reading about the stuff an awful lot, and humor's humor, no matter what. Besides, "Your bounty has fed our hunger, made our tummies warm and our thoughts turn to snuggling" makes me think of a dinner party comprised of foxes, perhaps involving the Sacrament of Cake.
+In other news, Korea might suddenly be off, as someone involved in my passport application Fucked Up. This remains to be seen, however: if they can get the passport expedited and made TOMORROW, they can next-day it to me. Yay, bureaucracy
+ Expand all +
+the Wit + |
+
+ CLEAN | COMPLEX | DARK +You like things edgy, subtle, and smart. I guess that means you're +probably an intellectual, but don't take that to mean you're +pretentious. You realize 'dumb' can be witty--after all isn't that the +Simpsons' philosophy?--but rudeness for its own sake, 'gross-out' humor +and most other things found in a fraternity leave you totally flat. I +guess you just have a more cerebral approach than most. You have the +perfect mindset for a joke writer or staff writer. Your sense of humor +takes the most effort to appreciate, but it's also the best, in my +opinion. + +Also, you probably loved the Office. If you don't know what I'm +talking about, check it out here: http://www.bbc.co.uk/comedy/theoffice/. + + PEOPLE LIKE YOU: Jon Stewart - Woody Allen - Ricky Gervais + |
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+ + | +
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There are many words I could say about bureaucracy, but I'll withold them in favor of not getting labeled a terrorist.
+Looks like I won't be able to go to Korea, thanks to some major fuckups at the Chicago passport processing office. There's a very slight chance that I could push my date of arrival back and get there the day of the festival, but singing for an hour and a half immediately after getting off of an 18 hour flight is less than appealing.
+Later: I typed the above, and got so frustrated, I just left it there, not deleting of hitting submit. Oh well. Life was made a good deal better this evening with furries. Particularly german shepards and lions, both of which are quite awesome. It was after Muke's, at Alley Cat, that cheered me up the most, what with gasp actually getting to sit on someone's lap for a change (hard to do when you're 6'2"), and Fuchs, Bel, and I crashed for a while on the beanbag. The simple physical attention made it quite easy to put my predicament in context with, you know, reality. Anyhoo, I kinda miss it, now that I'm home, simply because my body's doing weird things; for instance, it feels as if I'm leaning back against someone breathing - even when I hold my breath, the pulse continues. Also, it feels like I've got someone's arms draped over my shoulders. It's kinda cool, kinda loneliness-inducing. Whatever, I'm content.
+I think once school starts, I'll stop sounding like such a simple-minded sod and either stop writing, or start writing something with substance. Maybe
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Anyway, played pool and shuffleboard today with the fatherfigure. It was quite fun. Should be doing math homework now, but.. well, I';m not ^.
+ Expand all +So things got worked out, and it looks like I'm going to Korea for ten days, leaving tomorrow and getting back on the 12th. Chances are slim that I'll be able to find a computer that I can use, but if I can, I'll check my gmail account, and that's about it - I'm not going to, like, get on a MUCK or anything, though. So, if you want, send me an email there, or reply here, and it'll get to me, somehow. I may or may not check LJ: I'm gonna be in Korea, so I'll probably much too distracted for the computer.
+Yeah.. uh.. see ya'll later. :o
+ Expand all +So.. uh.. hey, this is awesome :o)
+I'm quite happy that I got to go on this trip, though I would be a good deal better without this rash covering all of my upper body. Anyway, things are good, I miss foxes, and g'damn, it's hot! I'm writing stuff down, so I'll make a big ol' post later
+ Expand all +It's like calpico with soda water, though maybe not as sour. Good stuff.
+So anyway. I'll make one big in-depth post for when I get back, but for now, I'd just like to say that if you ever just happen to be in Korea, somewhere around Yeong Wol (about 2.5 hours from Seoul), go rafting on Dong Gang. It's beautiful. Other than that, I'm about ready to go home, I think. There's some weird dynamic in the group that I have yet to understand, having been with them for only a short time. As a result, I really don't think I should be on this trip with them, though I'm glad I got the opportunity to go. Oh well, I'll see ya'll on Friday.
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+ Expand all +I've been in Incheon, Seoul, and Yeong Wol, South Korea for the past couple days on a choir tour and wasn't particularly expecting to hear any Whitacre. Just today, though, I checked my email and found out that my grandmother had passed away (a relief - she's at peace now). I was feeling a little.. blank about it, until we got to the church we would be singing our final concert at just in time to hear the Incheon City Chorale warming up. With "When David Heard."
+So yeah, that was kinda tough c.c
+During the performance that followed, I was flooded with memories, particularly during the Martin peice. When I first visited the CSU choirs during rehearsal, I heard Chamber Singers singing that. That was halfway through first semester last year, and now I get to share their last performance. Quite glad for the opportunity, and I took the chance to tell them so on the bus.
+Also, I got a cream for the rash. It stopped hurting, still itches a little
+ Expand all +Homesick. Tomorrow.
+This, of course, piled on top of all my other emotional crap I put myself through. The people I like are not always, it seems, the people I feel obligated to like, and I have this strange tendancy to fall for people with whom a relationship would be difficult, if not impossible. I'm a whiny, pretentious bastard. Go me
+ Expand all +*Crash
+ Expand all +I'll make a big Korea post sometime, or maybe I won't, but anyway, for now, pictures
+ Expand all +Hrr, figured out I could probably upload all of my pictures. WinZip or WinRAR should be able to handle it. If you're not using windows,
tar xjvf korea.tar.bz2should do it + Expand all +
Okay, so I may be at a funeral, but at least I get to dress up nice c.
+ Expand all +Hrrrnnnnngh.
+Not a very good night
+ Expand all +.ctex LaTeX::2HTML latex2html.nfo
+Actually the name of a dir with the compiled (to html) latex files in it. Pretties them up a bit and iterates the links nicely (up, down, previous, next)
+Perhaps I should actually get to to work on DocMan.. before school starts..
+ Expand all +A pool's been started on when Moondog and I will have sex >.@ I don't know whether to feel loved, offended, or joyous at the fact that I get a cut of the winning bet
+ Expand all +Last night was just exhaustion and the general malaise that comes with it. And terrible heartburn. Again. I should probably see someone about that :o)
+Anyway, the funeral brought up a bunch of questions in my mind that I'd like to get resolved now, but, you know, they're those unanswerable sorts of questions that to answer would require turning to religion, which I'm not too keen on doing.
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Your personality type is SCUAI |
You are social, moderately calm, unstructured, accommodating, and intellectual, and may prefer a city which matches those traits. |
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+ Expand all +So I kinda got into Chamber Singers (call-backs, at least, but call-backs are just fancy rehearsals, with each one having the edge that it might be your last), and I had to drop one of my classes - 20th Century Literature. So yeah. Now EVERY SINGLE ONE of my classes is in the music building. I'm so happy ;.
+ Expand all +You know, Dr. Kim is pretty cool. He was talking in Korea about how some of his colleagues and friends, both in Korea and America look down on him for associating with the students (e.g.: going drinking with the freshmen in Korea and showing them how to do a Korean carbomb), as if teachers really aren't supposed to be involved with their pupils at all, fullstop. I like it, though, even if he's making fun of me (he has the class start out by everyone giving eachother backrubs, which, on most days, hurt for me 'cause my skin's all screwy - he says it's because I'm a sensitive guy): rarely do auditions really help me, but every time I audition for him, I learn something new, though he's never outright taught me, as if he knows just what to say for me to figure things out for myself.
+Homeworktime
+ Expand all +Hey! Check this out and tell me what you think. I explain it more clearly at the top of the page
+ Expand all +So, like, I understand and outright encourage callbacks for Chamber Singers - I want it to be the best group possible, even if that means I'm not in it. I also understand mistakes - there were four Matts (three with S last names, one of which had the same middle name as me) on the Korea trip. I still feel a little bad, though, that my name, Matthew Joseph Scott, got written on the final list for the choir by accident instead of Matthew Joseph Simms' name. It was kinda tough when Dr. Kim had me change the list instead of him.
+Oh well, at least it was on a Friday, 'cause I've been having a good, calm weekend :o
+ Expand all +GERONIMO: If we take fifty-two from sixty-four, we get twelve; five years you spent in Holland, seventeen; seven years spent in England, twenty-four; eight years in Rome, thirty-two; and if to thirty-two we add your age when we first became acquainted, we have exactly fifty-two. So that, Mr. Sganarelle, according to your own confession, you are between fifty-two and fifty-three years of age. The calculation is exact enough. Now, I will tell you frankly, as a friend--according to the promise you made me give you--that marriage would suit you but little. Marriage is a thing about which young people ought to think long and seriously before they risk themselves, but of which people of your age ought not to think at all; and if, as some say, the greatest folly a man can commit is to marry, I know nothing more preposterous than to commit such a folly at a time of life when we should be most prudent. In short, to speak to you plainly, I advise you not to marry; and I should think you very ridiculous if, after having remained free up to your time of life, you were now to burden yourself with the heaviest of all chains. [Pause.] What's that? You're in love with her? Ah! That's quite another thing. You didn't tell me that. By all means marry, then; I haven't another word to say.
+SGANARELLE: No, I tell you; they made a doctor of me in spite of myself. I had never dreamt of being so learned as that, and all my studies came to an end in the lowest form. I can't imagine what put that whim into their heads; but when I saw that they were resolved to force me to be a doctor, I made up my mind to be one at the expense of those I might have to do with. Yet you would hardly believe how the error has spread abroad, and how everyone is obstinately determined to see a great doctor in me. They come to fetch me from right and left; and if things go on in that fashion, I think I had better stick to physic all my life. I find it the best of trades; for, whether we are right or wrong, we are paid equally well. We are never responsible for the bad work, and we cut away as we please in the stuff we work on. A shoe maker in making shoes can't spoil a scrap of leather without having to pay for it, but we can spoil a man without paying one farthing for the damage done. The blunders are not ours, and the fault is always that of the dead man. In short, the best part of this profession is, that there exists among the dead an honesty, a discretion that nothing can surpass; and never as yet has one been known to complain of the doctor who had killed him.
+MENAECHMUS: If you weren't mean, if you weren't stupid, if you weren't a violent virago, what you see displeases your husband would be displeasing to you, too. Now mark my words, if you act like this toward me after today, you shall hie yourself home to your father as a divorcee. Why, whenever I want to go out, you catch hold of me, call me back, cross-question me as to where I'm going, what I'm doing, what business I have in hand, what I'm after, what I've got, what I did when I was out. I've married a custom-house officer, judging from the way everything--all I've done and am doing--must be declared. I've pampered you too much; now then, I'll state my future policy. Inasmuch as I keep you well provided with maids, food, woollen cloth, jewelry, coverlets, purple dresses, and you lack for nothing, you will look out for trouble if you're wise, and cease spying on your husband. [in a lower tone as his wife goes back inside] And furthermore, that you may not watch me for nothing, I'll reward your diligence by taking a wench to dinner and inviting myself out somewhere. Hurrah! By Jove, at last my lecture has driven her away! [looks around] Where are your married gallants? Why don't they all hurry up with gifts and congratulations for my valiant fight? [showing a woman's mantle worn underneath his cloak] This mantle I just now stole from my wife inside there, and [gleefully] it's going to a wench. This is the way to do--to cheat a cunning jailer in such clever style! I have taken booty from the enemy without loss to my allies!
+DORIAN: This play was good enough for us, Harry. It was Romeo and Juliet. I must admit that I was rather annoyed at the idea of seeing Shakespeare done in such a wretched hole of a place. Still, I felt interested, in a sort of way. At any rate, I determined to wait for the first act. There was a dreadful orchestra, presided over by a young Hebrew who sat at a cracked piano, that nearly drove me away, but at last the drop-scene was drawn up, and the play began. Romeo was a stout elderly gentleman, with corked eyebrows, a husky tragedy voice, and a figure like a beer-barrel. Mercutio was almost as bad. He was played by the low-comedian, who had introduced gags of his own and was on most friendly terms with the pit. They were both as grotesque as the scenery, and that looked as if it had come out of a country booth. But Juliet! Harry, imagine a girl, hardly seventeen years of age, with a little flower-like face, a small Greek head with plaited coils of dark-brown hair, eyes that were violet wells of passion, lips that were like the petals of a rose. She was the loveliest thing I had ever seen in my life. You said to me once that pathos left you unmoved, but that beauty, mere beauty, could fill your eyes with tears. I tell you, Harry, I could hardly see this girl for the mist of tears that came across me. And her voice--I never heard such a voice. It was very low at first, with deep, mellow notes, that seemed to fall singly upon one's ear. Then it became a little louder, and sounded like a flute or a distant hautbois. In the garden scene it had all the tremulous ecstasy that one hears just before dawn when nightingales are singing. There were moments, later on, when it had the wild passion of violets. You know how a voice can stir one. Your voice and the voice of Sibyl Vane are two things that I shall never forget. When I close my eyes, I hear them, and each of them says something different. I don't know which to follow. Why should I not love her? Harry, I do love her. She is everything to me in life. Night after night I go to see her play. One evening she is Rosalind, and the next evening she is Imogen. I have seen her die in the gloom of an Italian tomb, sucking the poison from her lover's lips. I have watched her wandering through the forest of Arden, disguised as a pretty boy in hose and doublet and dainty cap. She has been mad, and has come into the presence of a guilty king, and given him rue to wear, and bitter herbs to taste of. She has been innocent, and the black hands of jealousy have crushed her reed-like throat. I have seen her in every age and in every costume. Ordinary women never appeal to one's imagination. They are limited to their century. No glamour ever transfigures them. One knows their minds as easily as one knows their bonnets. One can always find them. There is no mystery in any of them. They ride in the Park in the morning, and chatter at tea-parties in the afternoon. They have their stereotyped smile, and their fashionable manner. They are quite obvious. But an actress! How different an actress is! Harry! why didn't you tell me that the only thing worth loving is an actress?"
+PYOTR: Listen, when I set off to come here, I mean here in the large sense, to this town, ten days ago, I made up my mind, of course, to assume a character. It would have been best to have done without anything, to have kept one's own character, wouldn't it? There is no better dodge than one's own character, because no one believes in it. I meant, I must own, to assume the part of a fool, because it is easier to be a fool than to act one's own character; but as a fool is after all something extreme, and anything extreme excites curiosity, I ended by sticking to my own character. And what is my own character? The golden mean: neither wise nor foolish, rather stupid, and dropped from the moon, as sensible people say here, isn't that it? Ah, you agree—I'm very glad; I knew beforehand that it was your own opinion. . . . You needn't trouble, I am not annoyed, and I didn't describe myself in that way to get a flattering contradiction from you—no, you're not stupid, you're clever. ... Ah! you're smiling again! . . . I've blundered once more. You would not have said "you're clever," granted; I'll let it pass anyway. Passons, as papa says, and, in parenthesis, don't be vexed with my verbosity. By the way, I always say a lot, that is, use a great many words and talk very fast, and I never speak well. And why do I use so many words, and why do I never speak well? Because I don't know how to speak. People who can speak well, speak briefly. So that I am stupid, am I not? But as this gift of stupidity is natural to me, why shouldn't I make skilful use of it? And I do make use of it. It's true that as I came here, I did think, at first, of being silent. But you know silence is a great talent, and therefore incongruous for me, and secondly silence would be risky, anyway. So I made up my mind finally that it would be best to talk, but to talk stupidly—that is, to talk and talk and talk—to be in a tremendous hurry to explain things, and in the end to get muddled in my own explanations, so that my listener would walk away without hearing the end, with a shrug, or, better still, with a curse. You succeed straight off in persuading them of your simplicity, in boring them and in being incomprehensible—three advantages all at once! Do you suppose anybody will suspect you of mysterious designs after that? Why, every one of them would take it as a personal affront if anyone were to say I had secret designs. And I sometimes amuse them too, and that's priceless. Why, they're ready to forgive me everything now, just because the clever fellow who used to publish manifestoes out there turns out to be stupider than themselves—that's so, isn't it? From your smile I see you approve
+ Expand all +My sense of harmony's warped.
+Shit
+ Expand all +Some pictures of hobbes, they may be the last :o
+ Expand all +Ahh.. weekends. Time for blessed sleep. Or.. not, in my case :oP Saturday night, I woke up every half hour for a good six hours, then every hour for two more until my alarm went off. I reset my alarm and got two real hours of sleep before I had to get up to get to a rehearsal for "Insomniac." I wasn't nearly as amused by that then as I am now, but I wasn't nearly as awake :o)
+After the non-productive rehearsal came the highlight of the day: Reiki training and attunement. This wasn't something I'd been planning on doing but, when
After learning the three symbols for the second degree, we took a break that consisted of strawberries, rice crackers, and poppy seed bread while our instructor got ready for the attunement itself. We goofed around for a while each of us was being attuned separately, first VulpinePilot, then Breakfastfox, then Nick, and me last. The attunement itself was indescribable, but the most vivid memory I have is that I had this sort of after image effect going, where I saw our instructor outlined in a very bright purple. Never mind the fact that my eyes were closed at the time. There was a bit more of that with Breakfastfox's mom, except the color was an orangish gold, but the effect dissipated soon after. I have to think about it more before I jump to conclusions; I was facing into the sun (well, bright window in dark room) with the instructor, and Breakfastfox's mom was silhouetted in a different window.
+After running around, we practiced a bit on each other (or tried to; Breakfastfox kept laughing :oP) before I had to leave. I headed home so that my mom and I could go out to dinner. We tried to go to a new restaurant next to Sushi Zanmai, but it was kinda.. crappy, so we went to Sushi Zanmai itself and had our fill there. The whole time, my hands were almost unbearably hot, which I'm attributing to the Reiki earlier, since they got about as hot there, while practicing.
+Aaaaanyway, I went to bed at around nine after doing FAFSA with mommy dearest, and woke up at around 12:45 with my hand excruciatingly asleep, and here I am, discussing the pool with Moondog, and writing this. Still haven't done much homework. I'll start now
+ Expand all +I went to the library:
+Robert Stephan Hines - Choral Composition +Sheri S. Tepper - Grass (yes, again; I aim to actually finish it this time.) +Paul Hindemith - The Craft of Musical Composition Book I +Arnold Schoenberg - The Theory of Harmony (AKA Harmonielehre, which...) +John Adams - Harmonielehre in full orchestral score (...is a good song :o
+ Expand all +I returned from a nice evening with
Edit: Well, maybe I was partially demented. I think what I saw last night was facial features that I get from my mom. It still gave me a good idea for a halloween costume of sorts. It's like how they made Gabriel androgynous in Constantine
+ Expand all +Someone robbed my car, and all I can do is worry about bothering people.
+ + Expand all +Разрешь меня словно фрукт +В натюрморге твойч покоев +Я рад бы ть твойм слугод +Пока ты меня не прогонйшь
+(Как дблоко персйк Й грушу +Разрешь меня на две частй Сьешь по утру +За завтаком И вы плюнй мелкйе костй)
+И я проросту сквозь пол деревом +Й буду с тобой каждый день +Покаты меня не сурбйшь +Покуда тебе не лен
+ Expand all +CSU Chamber Singers - Under the direction of Dr. James Kim, this top-select choir of 24 to 32 singers performs a wide variety of repertoire. Objectives of the group include high choral-ensemble precision, the sensitivity to the ensemble blending, intonation, and willingness to strive for excellence in both healthy vocal production and sophisticated musical understanding. Chamber Singers has appeared in regional, national conferences and conventions, and for the summer 2005, this group has been invited to participate in the International Sacred Choir Festival in South Korea . All CSU students are invited to audition. Performances both on and off-campus comprise performance responsibilities. Meets 3:10–5:00 pm , MWF in Room 203
+University Singers - A select group of 50 to 75 singers that performs major choral/orchestral works, opera productions, as well as smaller choral repertoire. Often, this ensemble performs with both on and off-campus performing forces such as CSU Symphony, Opera Fort Collins, and Fort Collins Symphony Orchestra. University Singers has been featured as the main chorus for the production of Bizet's opera, ‘Carmen', as collaboration between a professional opera company and an orchestra during the fall semester of 2004. Dr. James Kim is the director and all CSU students are invited to audition. Meets 12:30-2:00 pm , MWF in Room 203.
+Men's Choir - A non-auditioned group of 25 to 40 men singing various repertoire ranging from classical music to musicals, glee-club and often mixed SATB repertoire in a joint concert with the Women's Choir. Men's Choir enjoys performing at sporting events, alumni receptions, and other school-related events as well as presenting their own concerts each semester. Open to all CSU men. Meets 4:10-5:30 p, TTH in room 209.
+Women's Choir - A non-auditioned group of 50 to 57 women that performs classical repertoire as well as non-classical repertoire. Both Men's and Women's Choir are featured at the annual All-Choral Holiday Concert. Women's Choir hosts fund-raising events and plans to tour regionally. Open to all CSU women. Meets 12:30-1:45 pm , TTH in 203.
+Please contact Dr. James Kim, Director of Choral Studies, for information regarding all choral ensembles. James.Kim@colostate.ed
+ Expand all +This evening kinda sucked. It's nice and all that I can hide behind my supposed insanity from my housemates, but it leaves very few people to talk to about why I feel like a useless, overbearing and presumptuous dickhead, especially around them.
+So anyway, I spent four hours cleaning up the mess that was the kitchen yesterday, finding some insanely disgusting things in the process, but it's.. much cleaner now. Part of what I did was remove half the silverware, half the bowls, plates, saucers, and all of the nice coffee mugs and small plates in hopes that the smaller amount of dishes will force my housemates and I to be more responsible about cleaning. Went shopping today to replenish all the rotting food which my housemates left in the fridge that I threw out. I made some more bread - cheddar white bread. It came out pretty disgusting, which might be part of the reason I feel so bummed. Next time I'll look for a recipe that isn't sweet, and maybe I'll experiment with temperatures and times of cooking, since no matter what I do, the crust comes out a little too dry, and it's still doughy in the center. I didn't clean up after myself - didn't feel up to it. Chocolate pudding didn't assuage the problem. Neither did finishing my book (found out there's a sequel, god damnit). I think I might try to wake up early and get some work done, or I might sleep in a little.
+Sorry for the bitching, haven't done it in a while
+ Expand all +The malaise of stress is still hanging around me like a fog, sorta.. pressing against the small of my back and making my knees ache. Though that might just be Autumn, which definitely appears to be here. I was going to take the 7:25 bus, but a bowl of rice wasn't enough, so I made another and was just going to ride my bike. My body disagreed, so I took the 7:55 bus and was 5 minutes late for my listening test. I think I got everything, though. I need to learn a song by 2pm.
+I wish I could be as eloquent with my own life as
Gah! Five checks and one large debit card purchase all applied to my account at once! I'm not really $216 in debt, but it sure looks that way x,
+ Expand all +A B O U T . . . +[my name is]: Matt, Ranna
+[love is]: patient, love is kind, love is not jealous, nor rude, it does not insist on it's own way; love is not irritable, resentful, it does not rejoice at wrong, but love rejoices in the right. Love bears all things, believes, hopes, endures all things. Love never ends.
+[I'm afraid of]: myself, getting hurt, hurting others, and spiders +[I dream about]: I don't remember
+H A V E Y O U E V E R . . .
+[drank alcohol]: Yeah. I have a low opinion of it. +[lied]: Too much.
+[flowers or candy]: Chocolate coated little children. I hear they're really tasty with almonds and honey.
+W I T H T H E O P P O S I T E S E X . . . +[what do you notice first?]: Um.. their laugh, I suppose. +[last person you slow danced with]: Eheh. Urg.. I haven't, with a guy, and Paula Creevy, I suppose, for girl.. +[worst thing to say]: Say? Well, I can tell you not to mess with their hair.. +[tall or short]: Most people are shorter than me, so I don't care, really.
+W H O . . . +[makes you laugh the most?]: Breakfastfox. :o) +[makes you smile]: Moondog, Senotay, Sarah, Kiran, Jerred, Kory.. lots of people ^^
+[has a crush on u?]: Moondog, Jim. +[easier to talk to: boys or girls?]: Dogs. Boys and girls are about on the same level.
+D O Y O U E V E R . . .
+[save aol/aim conversations]: Yes. For prosperity. +[cried because of someone saying something to you]: Yup, and vice versa. Same person, too.
+H A V E Y O U E V E R . . .
+[been rejected]: Of course.
+[used someone]: Uh.. not conciously, but subconciously, yeah. +[been cheated on]: Um.. hmm. I suppose so, but it was a twisted story. +[done something you regret]: Of course.
+W H O W A S T H E L A S T P E R S O N . . .
+[hugged]: Ur.. I hug lots of people..
+D O Y O U . . .
+[habla espanol]: I took a year of spanish.. once..
+H A V E Y O U / / D O Y O U / / A R E Y O U +[smoke]: First hand smoke makes me quite ill.
+[could you live without the computer?]: For a little while, but then I'd SHRIVEL UP AND DIE!!! Well.. no, I suppose I couldn't. +[how many peeps are on your buddylist?]: Lots and lots, but I rarely talk to more than five. +[what's your favorite food?]: Urm.. not sure. I like lots of foods.
+[trust others way too easily?]: Just easily enough, thank you.
+F I N A L Q U E S T I O N S . . . +[I want]: Moondog. And rest. And for this week to be over. +[I wish]: It was saturday.
+[I fear]: Lonliness, and hurting others. +[I hear]: That little children are especially good on crackers with cheese and a nice chianti.. +[I wonder]: Why some people have drivers licenses
+ Expand all +Though you'd kinda have to be a freakin' huge music geek to get it. Bonus points if you do, though.
+
+S: d m s l ls f s d d t l mml ssf r ' d m s l ls f s d '
+A: d m s l ls f s d ' f m r llr ddt s ' d d m f fm r m d '
+T: m s d d fs l s m '
+B: s t r f f m r m d d d f d '
' = cutoff, otherwise all notes are held. +
+EDIT: so the point is to guess the song only from the solfej.
+The answer is...
+...behind this here cut!
+...Behold a Star from Jacob Rising from Christus by Mendelssohn.
Yeah, sorry 'bout that.
+</details
+ Expand all +Song for Athene - Taverner +Apparition de l'Eglise - Messiaen +Six songs of Michaelangelo - Dallapiccola</a
+ Expand all +I should be in bed - I was, even, but I got to thinking. Some people in this world are just.. right. They're exemplary human beings that, upon first contact, strike a nerve that's almost like being in love. That's not to say that they're superhuman or that everyone else is subhuman, it's just that they happen to be so human and so real that they're what I strive to be, and they're the people I try to show in my music.
+I've only ever met four of them
+ Expand all +Ranna's coffee bread
+Makes two 9x5" loaves +Prep time: ~30 minutes +Cook time: ~40 minutes +Ready in: ~2 hrs 30 minutes.
+Ingredients: +1 cup warm water (~110F) +1 cup Toddy coffee concentrate or espresso (columbian bean recommended, arabica bean required) +2/3 - 3/4 cups white sugar +1 packet active dry yeast (2 packets would hasten the yeast working process) +1 1/2 teaspoons salt +1/4 cup vegetable oil +6 cups bread flour +optional chocolate syrup to taste
+Directions: +
Since I based this off a recipe for sea level, I'm still trying to find the right amount of time for high altitude cooking. I've found that I can check the progress of the bread by straightening out a paper clip, poking it down through the center of the baking loaf and lifting up some of the inside to see if it's doughy or not. The paper clip leaves a low enough profile hole that it's hardly noticeable when done
+ Expand all +terrible + beauty +powerful + movement +intense + interest +flexible + techniqu
+ Expand all +This whole housemate thing is getting out of hand. I'm really contemplating something drastic, like leaving for three days or so without telling them. Just go stay at a friend's or something, and see if they can really do anything for themselves at all, or if I come back and all of the instant food is gone and every useable surface on the countertop is covered with dishes. Like it is now. After only a week; I spent four hours cleaning the damn thing last monday.
+So, like, I'd clean up their mess myself (along with cooking dinner for them three or four times a week), but that's like a part time job that I'm not getting paid for. So that, plus school, leads to a lot of extra stress I'm just not willing to deal with. I tried talking with them, but Shannon just gets angry and hides in her room for two hours, and Ryan agrees, promising the both of us that one of these days, he'll stop being lazy. Well, hey, it's been five months. We only have nine more on our lease, then I'm moving out. Whether that means new roommates or living by myself, I don't care. I've gone into debt from trying to feed us all, but I guess all that's not even worth scraping your plate when you're done - it's better, after all, to let the stuff rot in the sink while you play WoW and Matt waits for you to realize how gross it is.
+Gosh, I'm passive aggressive. I guess that at some point I'm going to have to just draw the line
+ Expand all +Time to go be gay! Hooray Rainbow Chorale
+ Expand all +Leave me a random comment and... +1. I'll respond with something random about you. +2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you. +3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to pour all over us while we wrestle! +4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me. +5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you. +6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of. +7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you. +8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal..
+ Expand all +So I've got this recurring dream of dying or literally freezing up while on stage, but last night was different in a rather intense way. It was some large choir concert during which I had a solo. About half way through, I started to go numb and the kid next to me was giving me strange looks. When I felt my throat start to close up (this happens in every one of these dreams - last time it was an allergic reaction), he reached out and poked me in the sides in quick succession. I fell over on stage and couldn't move, feeling like I was slowly blacking out as everyone started surrounding me. I remember a brief moment in the hospital, but after that I just remember waking up in a bed that I knew was at my mom's house. Somehow, I also knew that I had had some, like, terrible kidney explosion or something, but everything looked and felt normal about me now. When I got up, however, there were pictures in the kitchen, some held to the fridge with magnets, mostly all of them of me with no hair and an oxygen tank generally looking like I was just recovering from brain surgery or something crazy. Since it appeared that Shannon was living there at the time, I went into her room to ask her what day it was. She said something like, "Your birthday, duh!" To which I asked in frustration, "No, what DAY is it?" This got me an answer about a week after what I was expecting, like a whole week had been erased from my memory. I'm starting to lose the rest of the dream, now, but it was.. weird. I was going around campus (which was suddenly CU, and not CSU) asking a bunch of really weird characters if they knew what had happened during that week. I teamed up with some people whom I can't quite remember anymore and we went searching, mostly around the Sheridan bus station at US36 and some fast food joint where I complained about the bowls beign stupid (they were like shells! They looked like they could hold so much more, but since the sides dipped, they'd only fill up halfway before the soup would reach one of the rims) and talked a bunch with the waitresses. I could tell when I was going to wake up, and the dream-me panicked at this.
+I'm not quite sure what all this means, but I do know that it was more vivid than any dream I've ever had - these recurring ones being more vivid than most, anyway. There were a lot of real places that I was at (Old Main theatre on CU's campus, the house was a mix of two real buildings: my mom's house and my house, and the bus station), and the emotions that I went through were quite intense. It started out as a sort of worried curiousity that jokingly included some conspiracy theories, but as the dream went on with me trying to find out what happened to the missing week, it got worse and worse, getting closer to panic and concern about what had happened to me, why I didn't remember, and who could help me. Although the plot was nightmare-ish, I was extremely disappointed to be waking up: it was like enjoying such a good book that you become one of the characters. Maybe I'll write it into a short story, even if it does seem a little cliche
+ Expand all +I had a dream about FC. Hrr. Stupid waiting x.
+ Expand all +Woke up feeling fairly fine, though a little groggy and grumpy from very little sleep and maybe something from the attunement. Revier was downright angry today, which transfered on to me more easily than usual. I didn't realize until, by the end of second period, I was doubled over in an abdomnial pain that lasted until just about an hour ago (6:30). The pain distracted me too much to do reiki, I think, and I can barely remember any of the day, other than at one point, I got up to leave festival 'cause I felt sick, and Revier yelled at me. Not wishing to face such ire, I got a drink and sat outside the choir room for about ten minutes. Apparently, while I was gone, he yelled about me to the class. Whatever. Closer ran late, as usual, and I went home afterwards to shower and get dressed for Act I run through. My mom gave me a pill for irritable bowel syndrome, which started to take effect about halfway through Insomniac (which nearly flopped, since PETER AND SAGE WEREN'T ON STAGE). I guess this means that what happened was an abdominal muscle spasm ('a stitch in my side' type deal, except it was in my front and lasted a long time). Yay. Funness.
+In other news, my FLCL DVD arrived, along with my Aquarian deck. I did a quick reading, just to see. Since the cards were quite new, I'm gonna take this reading with a grain of salt, though it does offer some good advice. Also, I'll describe it, which I probably won't do so much in the future. From a conversation with
Ranna: Covering me: 9 of rods reversed - This is me, I suppose. It represents distress or obstacles. + Crossing me: The moon - Working against me; unforseen perils, often involving loved ones. + Above me: 10 of cups reversed - Concious influences; loss of harmony, anger, guilt. + Beneath me: 10 of rods reversed - Unconcious influences; conflict, intrigue. + Behind me: 10 of pentacles reversed - Past influences; block on family, money. + Before me: 7 of cups - Future influences; Strong imagination and desires, but lacking in tenacity, thus limited attainment. + Myself: Wheel reversed - The quality of my involvement leads to the measure of my reward. + Environment: Fool - Positive inner forces. + Hopes and fears: King of rods - Honest, loyal, conscientious, just, often married. + Outcome: Ace of pentacles - Contentment, bliss, ecstacy, quick intelligence, wealth. +Ranna: So.. uh.. I guess I should do my homework :o) +Vixen: Heehee. Heheheheheheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeheheheheheeheheeh. +Vixen: That reminds me, I should shift my bet to this weekend ;3 +Vixen: BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA +Ranna: Hopes and fears was strange. Am I afraid of getting married? +Ranna: Oh dear.. +Ranna: Hee.. +Vixen: I dunnae. Can you interpret them either way? +Ranna: I suppose so. I'm not sure I really fear any of those things.. +Vixen: Never know until you get to them. ^.^ +Vixen: I wonder if it could also mean stuff like, "You fear that you're not _____ enough" +Ranna: Tha's twoo. +Ranna: I'm gonna at least get started on my bio homework. Ace of pentacles spurs me on!!!$(&%@#
+Notice that half the cards are reversed. This I might attribute to shuffling, but the three tens, all reversed? The cards were arranged by suit. Each ten was thirteen cards away from the next, and I'm not that precise of a shuffler.. Ah well. This is neat stuff. I'm not sure yet whether I'd call it portentious, but it certainly does provide a new look on problems and situations
+ Expand all +Apparently, I really hate F#s. On my chord quiz, I missed three chords, all because I forgot to sharp the F. On my homework, I did perfectly until the last section, which is in the key of e minor. Which has only an F# for the key signature. Hrrf :o
+ Expand all +Dreams have been playing an awful large part of my life recently – I’ve noticed that I’ve been focusing on the more, and also noticing when others talk about theirs. Just now, for example, Matt Simms caught me in the hall as I was leaving to tell me about a dream wherein he was asking his girlfriend if she liked anyone else, naming a bunch of his friends by name, and the only one she had a crush on was me. We had a laugh over it, he pretended to punch me, then I left. It was a strange sort of occurance, not because the dream – that was just silly – just that I’ve been hearing about everyone’s dreams lately. Oh well, I can dig it.
+Had my ear training test today. I wish that he’d use something other than midi and stupid softsynth generated files, because, if I miss any points on dictation, it will because everything sounded muddy. Hrrf
+ Expand all +So, uh, it came out kind of trippy, but..
+<img src="http://twu.net/~ranna/anim.gif"/
+ Expand all +Let him know that every living thing has within it that which changes, develops, and destroys it. Life and death are both equally present in the embryo. What lies between is time.
+For nature is also beautiful where we do not understand her and where she seems to us unordered. +[...] +[Order, clarity] are there by chance, not by law, not by necessity; and what we claim to perceive as laws [defining order and clarity] may perhaps only be laws governing our perception, without therefore being the laws a work of art must obey. And that we think we see [laws, order] in the work of art can be analogous to our thinking we see ourselves in the mirror, although we are of course not there. The work of art is capable of mirroring what we project into it. The conditions our conceptual power imposes, a mirror image of our own nature (Beschaffenheit), may be observed in the work. This mirror image does not, however, reveal the plan upon which the work itself is oriented, but rather the way we orient ourselves to the work. +[...] +Now even if one can assume with certainty that the observer will not see in the work of art something entirely different from what is actually in it - since object and subject do indeed interact - even so the possibility of misapprehension is still too great to allow us to say with absolute confidence that the presumed order is not just that of the subject. All the same, the state of the observer can be ascertained from the order he sees.
+So I'm really digging this book, even if it is kind of a slow read (I'm only on page 30). So many grand ideas are included that - unintentionally or no - tie music into philosophy and life, much the way I try to do myself.
+Some sort of weird stuff going on with relationships (friends and otherwise). I don't at all know what to do about them, so I'm going to wait a bit and see if things shift to a point where I can make a decision, however small
+ Expand all +supposing i dreamed this) +only imagine,when day has thrilled +you are a house around which +i am a wind-
+your walls will not reckon how +strangely my life is curved +since the best he can do +is to peer through windows,unobserved
+-listen,for(out of all +things)dream is noone's fool; +if this wind who i am prowls +carefully around this house of you
+love being such,or such, +the normal corners of your heart +will never guess how much +my wonderful jealousy is dark
+if light should flower: +or laughing sparkle from +the shut house(around and around +which a poor wind will roa
+ Expand all +linger
+Today was long, from sectionals at 6:30, to rehearsal, which ended at 8. 13.5 hours, with two breaks, one when I left latin (if she's not gonna teach, I'm not gonna learn) and one while mad's rehearsed, dropping the day back down to 12 hours. I'm tired of this. I wanna see Moondog again. Ah well. Thursday, then Saturday night (with this cast, though, strike might last into sunday morning; I hope it doesn't last too long). Can't wait.
+ Expand all +It is improbable that one would obey a necessity if it did not bring yet other advantages beyond those issuing merely from its minimal requirements; it is also improbable that an advantage would appear that is not attached to the fulfilment of certain necessities. This looks mysterious, and is indeed so: that one does something because necessity compels it and thereby unintentionally produces beauty; or that one has the impulse to create something beautiful and thereby fulfils necessity. It is one of those mysteries that make life worth living.
+"I have mixed feelings about wine: sometimes it's good, sometimes it tastes like elephant juice."
+-- Martha
+ Expand all +i'd like to Wrap you up in me +which is comfy and well +-chin on shoulder to nose +on cheek to brush over +ear and Press on mid; +hands like paws i want +you to Have them:Keep +them in your pockets +and Lean on this me +around you
+ Expand all +bitchwhinemoan This campus sucks
+ Expand all +More EECimitation.
+Happy, isn't it
+ Expand all +Ranna needs not think of the answer. She knows she needs to be loved, wanted and accepted. +Ranna needs help with JavaScript... +Ranna needs the queer otter to function properly +Ranna needs to should get back to me sometime hopefully soon here, so I know what's going on. +So come Buy with Bid On Auctions for all your Ranna needs.
+The middle three are even about me. Imagine that
+ Expand all +I just finished Serial Experiments: Lain in a day and a half. Thirteen episodes.
+My brain left me through the top of my head, cursing as it went.
+*drool
+ Expand all +gv_ranna's Flesch-Kincaid Grade Level: 7 | |
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Today was decidedly today. It was long, and full of stuff. The usual stuff that goes on on wednesdays. Choir, math, choir, bio, choir choir choir choir choir... Urg. I like singing, but I'll be FREAKING GLAD WHEN THIS BULLSHIT IS OVER. ^.^
+Moondog. Thursday. Saturday night; I suppose I'll call her when I think strike's nearly finished, so that she can drive down to my house. If strike lasts longer, maybe we could meet at the school. Whatever.
+Deep conversation with Ryan. Real deep.
+Kory just asked if it was okay that he touched my neck. He likes to watch me melt. Becker tried, I nearly punched him. Trust seems to be an important factor in this.
+I need to work on the spread some.
+Lurf
+ Expand all +hiss-ss-s--stop(and sparkl)ing +pushingsmearing Wipe +away the cleaning +let the falsekeepingawaythe True +light in,our own a +private sun +in the (purplegrayblueoff)dawn
+ Expand all +So.. UPDATE!
+Dr. Moody: Is that coat Russian? +Me: Yeah, it's a Soviet greatcoat. +Moody: Funny, you never see anyone wearing Nazi regalia around. +Me: ... +Moody: Isn't it weird to be wearing a communist coat? +Me: Well, the Red Scare is over, so I guess I don't have anything to worry about. +Moody: Well, WWII is over, would you wear an SS coat? +Me: ...
+Me: ...
+So, brief freakout over email today. I'm sure people must've though it was weird that I was blushing and squirming uncomfortably in my seat, mumbling. Oh well :o
+ Expand all +I expect you'll be sane about this (since y'all seem fairly sane), and not, like, blackmail me or otherfox with it or anything ^^
+Woop, all registered for FC
+ Expand all +Absinthe Suissesse Apees
+2 cup all-purpose flour +1/2 cup white sugar +1/2 cup unsalted butter, cubed +1 tsp. almond extract +1/2 tsp. orange extract +1/4 cup Absinthe
+Makes a firm cookie, though if you roll them too thin, they get fairly hard. I used Blanche de Fougerolles 74 because it was sweeter than the Verte, though with the color of the butter and the small amount of absinthe, if you used a verte, the color would likely be lost, so that won't make much of a difference. The taste is something like a pizzelle, only more full
+ Expand all +Ranna kerpounce! +Rikoshi yarf! +Ranna hrr! Sits on, triumphant. +Rikoshi, conquered fox. +Ranna would mention something about plundering, but that'd be cliche. Instead, he makes sure to claim his property by giving your neck a little nip. +Rikoshi closes his eyes, leans his head back, and tilts it to the side, exposing and offering his throat to you. +Ranna does the only thing that's left for him to do and closes his jaws carefully around that throat, hrrs turning - expectedly - into growls. +Rikoshi gasps softly, starting to whine quietly before he just goes quiet once he ears that growling in your own throat. +Ranna gets comfy against you, keeping you nicely pinned beneath him in the process. It's like a big, warm, soft, and growly blanket settling over you; one that's chewing on your throat lightly. +Rikoshi is more than just a little bit accepting of this - you can tell from his movement (or his near total lack thereof) that he's well and surrendered to you. +Ranna lets go of your throat after a bit and nuzzles up at your cheek, murmurring quietly, "I dunno about this, fox. I feel a little weird." +Rikoshi squeaks at you, looking into your eyes. "Hmm? What do you mean, foxy?" +Ranna pokes his nose in against yours and plants a little kiss while he's there. "I'm not sure. I think I'm just in an off mood tonight; feel kinda.. rusty, or just not really growly.." +Rikoshi kisses back, and then pets your ears. "You don't need to be growly, hon," he assures you in a calm little voice. "I just hope you're not feeling weird on account of me." +Ranna lays ears back and sorta rolls onto his side with you, "No, that's not it.. We just hadn't done anything like that in a while, so it though it might be fun." He shrugs a little, "Guess I wasn't in the mood for the whole dom/sub thing, which is okay." +Rikoshi rubs your belly gently, and licks at your lips. "Is it weird for you, if I get too submissive towards you?" he asks. +Ranna mouths at your tongue and giggles a little, leaning into the tummyrubs. He continues the roll onto his back, tugging you up onto his front. "Nah," he murmurs, adding, "Well, I mean, it might be right now, just 'cause I'm feeling weird. Maybe it is just that we haven't really done anything like that in a while." +Rikoshi smiles, and hugs you back. "You mean, like, been all sexual?" he says, giving you another lick on the face. "Are you maybe feeling a bit... I dunno, a bit too adoring to want to get forceful?" +Ranna tilts his face up into the lick and rrfs, smiling. "Well, I was going to use some big word like 'egalitarian,' but that fits a little better, yeah. Still all woozy and such from all that's gone on in the past week or so." +Somewhere on the muck, Vexus has connected. +Rikoshi pets your cheek. "It's okay," he says, smiling. "I think it's really sweet, actually, that you've been feeling that way. It makes me... well, it makes me feel pretty nice, myself." +Ranna tilts his cheek a little into the pets, his own paws brushing down over your sides. "Rrf.. I'm sure in time we'll get back into the routine of doing all sorts of foxish things to each other," he says, all pink in the ears, "But I'll still adore the heck out of ya." +Somewhere on the muck, MegaWolf has disconnected. +Rikoshi pecks at your lips. "I know you do," he says. "Heck, I'm surprised it took me this long to admit how deeply I'd fallen for you, foxy. Probably was just my hesitation and all, I suppose." +Somewhere on the muck, MegaWolf has connected. +Ranna prrfs at the peck and nods, laying ears back. "I was trying to be conservative, by not saying anything." He shrugs, "I thought I'd sworn off long distance things with Shanerak, but.. ouf.. how can I resist foxes?" +Rikoshi touches your ears. "I know what you mean," he says. "It's tough; I've done the long distance thing more than once, and it's tought. Still, we've both been taking it pretty slow, and it's obvious that we're still both... well, more than a bit sweet on each other, all the same." +Ranna perks his ears to foxfingers, nodding some. "It's worked out well, taking it slow." He adds, "As long as I can still sneak in a few hurried kisses in semi-public places.." +Rikoshi giggles happily, kissing you right there, for one. "Slow is nice," he says. "Not that I'm not glad that the last week or two's been really, erm... nice for both of us." +Ranna kisses back once or twice and hees, nodnodding. "Very nice." He gives you a brief squeeze, followed by a pat to the rump. +Rikoshi yips, tail batting downwards. "It's gonna be nice to see you again, hon," he says. "And I mean, not just because we get to be all alone and foxish, either. Rar!" +Ranna meeps at the tail and giggles; he'll be nice. "Mmf!" he mmfs, "Of course! I can hardly wait! I want to try and balance foxtime with meeting a whole bunch of people. Maybe tip the scales a little more towards foxtime, though. +Rikoshi chuckles, and embarrassedly admits, "It'll be easier for me to be more, er, 'open' and all when my ex-boyfriend isn't sitting in the other bed, yeah." +Ranna snickers, "True, true. And procyonids. Won't have to worry about secretive touches and keeping everything hidden under covers." +Rikoshi feels no shame about being close to foxy. Especially not since everyone in the Nurple has been considering you and him and item since before you and he were. :) +Ranna hees. 'Specially not after AC, what with the whole snogging during the room party and looking up to see two or three people watching. +Rikoshi says, "Wait, did that happen? Really?" +Ranna hrr? "Yeah, you were working on "Frankincense and Murr" in the armchair, and I was sitting on the arm. Afterwards, I looked up, and Andreal and Kurt were just sort of.. watching. I'm sure I turned quite red.." +Rikoshi giggles. "Oh, right, THAT party"! he says, blushing a bit himself. "Hey, I don't mind the fact that I like you, sugar." +Ranna laughs, "I hardly mind either, foxo." He hmms, and adds, "You'll have to forgive me if I'm not quite as open about it around some people as others. Like Shanerak, or any of his friends (whom I don't think we'll be running into)." +Rikoshi smiles, and licks your lips again. "Oh, more than forgiveable, sweetheart," he assures you. +Ranna licks back against your tongue, "I dunno that we'll be seeing him much, though, since I see him nearly every week, anyway. Urm.. and another of my exes might be coming, but he's got a really severe case of social anxiety, so I don't think we'll see much of him, either." +Rikoshi says, "Well, Randall's gonna be back, but I don't expect we'll need to worry much about him, because he's kinda anti-social, and I don't think I'd ever make special time for an ex-boyfriend when I could be spending time with... er... um... you." +Ranna blushes, "Well, I do plan on spending at least a little time with Maverick, but just 'cause I've known him so long. I'll still be following you around lots :o)" +"No worries, foxy hon. I don't keep you on a leash or nothing," Rikoshi says, "Besides, that's for you to keep on me." +Ranna rowrs and giggles, "Mmhm. Have to tug a fox around somehow, and waistbands don't work when you're not wearing anything." +Rikoshi yerfs, blushing even though he doesn't seem the least bit ashamed. "Oh, did I ever mention that I think you have a really cute butt, sweetie?" +Ranna meeps, his turn to blush, "Oh? Er.. yeah? You were looking?" He giggles a little, "Well, I suppose that's kinda to be expected.. +Rikoshi says, "Well, there was one night in particular, I forget when, when we were just kinda lying together alone, and I had my hand there, and I was thinking, 'Oooh, that's kinda nice.'" +Ranna supposes his butt is a little curvy. Oh well, he's still blushing. "I like having you touch me like that, by the way.." +Rikoshi says, "Yeah? I mean, you didn't seem to mind, and all, but..." +Ranna giggles, "Well, I mean, like the little touches, too. Like.. well, when we were just kinda snuggling, but it was sorta leading to something else, your fingers would get all sneaky and check if I was aroused, 'n such.." +Rikoshi blushes real, real deep! "Nrrf! Well... yeah. I mean, it sorta just seemed to make sense, and all, given the thing, and... er..." +Ranna laughs and gives you a quick little kiss, "Hey, hey, no worries, foxo. I think it was one of the cutest things anyone's ever done to me. Much more so than my rather blunt 'wandering paws'. You know, the whole avoidavoidavoid-grope! sort of thing." +Rikoshi's still blushing. "You know, hearing you say that is really making me a very happy sort of fox, cutey." +Ranna grins, "Good, foxes need to be happy. Truth be told, I was a little wary of mentioning it, on the chance that you might not do it anymore." +Rikoshi says, "That's... just sorta how I am, I guess. So, then, no worries?" +You yerf, "Psh, of course not! Like I said, I really enjoy those sorts of little touches." +Rikoshi kisses you on the foxnose. "Well, good," he says. "I like obliging to that." +Ranna wiggles foxnose and ruffles his paws down your sides. "Mmm, goodfox." He frowns a little, "It got late.." +Rikoshi rubs you back, still smiling. "Gonna go to bed, honey?" +Somewhere on the muck, Vexus has disconnected. +Ranna gets pokey with nose, "I think I might. In a few, maybe." +Rikoshi rubs his snout at yours. "You know what's really cute, if you don't mind my saying?" he asks. "The fact that you're always so reluctant to leave me at night." +Ranna earperks, then earflattens, to hide all the pink that wells up in them. "Um.. well, I just don't want to go! I think I'll stay up just a little bit longer.. I'm sick, so I won't have to sing tomorrow. 'Sides, all this talk of foxtouching sorta got me going c.c" +Rikoshi shushes you with a fingertip to your muzzle, and then just pushes into a very gentle, very affectionate little kiss with you. +Ranna goes quiet obediently and presses up into the little kiss, trying not to seem too eager about receiving it. +Rikoshi wouldn't mind if you were, truth be told. He's a fox who likes it when he's liked
+ Expand all +Concert time; wish me luck! Though, if you'd like to come, it's at the UCA (at Pitkin and Remington) at 7:30, $4 for students, $8 for non-students
+ Expand all +Yay! One down, two to go! No sectionals, too! Life's looking up :oP
+Read more...
+Today was pretty good. Left public speaking a little early to go sing Insomniac over the announcements. I'll sing Li'l Red tomorrow. After that, the day was peachy. Went out with Shannon for lunches, then went home and nearly passed out after a shower, until my mom startled me awake, then I was nearly asleep again until Moondog startled me awake. She arrived early, but I wasn't complaining. We sorta laid around for a while, since she was operating on no sleep and I was operating on no energy. Then there was Pops, which was pretty uneventful as far as Pops goes. Too long as usual. Anna gave me flowers, which was really nice, and I gave them to Moondog, since I'd forget to water them. After, she had to depart to go home and sleep, but she kept stalling. She tastes like rootbeer and cloves.
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(p) In a page-pose to you, Rikoshi noses your cheek. "Foxy?" +You page-pose, "Ranna rrf, smooches on your nose, "Hi you :o)"" to Rikoshi +Somewhere on the muck, Rikoshi has connected. +(p) In a page-pose to you, Rikoshi wiggles his nose. "Hiya," he says. "How's you?" +You page-pose, "Ranna wraps you up in arms and tails, "Good, foxy. How 'bout you?"" to Rikoshi +(p) In a page-pose to you, Rikoshi hugs back. "I'm good, fuzzer," he says, squeezing a tad. "Sorry about earlier..." +You page-pose, "Ranna mrrp, "C'mere, foxy?"" to Rikoshi +MEETME: Request sent. +Rikoshi has arrived. +Rikoshi's here. An' fuzzy. +Ranna tugs tugs you on up and sits you down by him, putting a smooch on whiskers, "You know, it's really okay, fox.. I was mostly just concerned about being cranky in feedback.." +Ranna eats a 'tugs', +Rikoshi leans against your side, looking kinda shy. "You didn't sound cranky," he says. "If it's not a story your comfortable reading, then it sorta naturally follows." +Ranna leans back a little and tucks his nose in fur, "Mrf.. I shouldn't read things that only make me comfortable, though..." +Rikoshi says, "One time, one of my fellow writers, who I'd gone back and forth with a few times, wanted critical feedback on a story. About partway through, though, it started to involve sex with like... non-two-legged animals, and I got kinda weirded out. So I was just, 'I really couldn't read the second half of the story too closely. Sorry.' And he understood." +Ranna nods, "I guess I sounded a little dire.. sorry I got you all worried, foxer.." +Rikoshi says, "Well, no, I'm glad that you said something, hon." +Ranna mmfs and nuzzles against your cheek, "Okay.." He strokes a finger down along your muzzle and adds, "You're a good fox, hon." +Rikoshi closes his eyes when you pet his muzzle like that, and then he licks your hand. "I try," he says. "But, um... maybe you don't want to read my 'Maerchentic' stuff?" +Ranna keeps his hand still for the lick, then brushes fingers back over whiskers. "I already have, foxo. I didn't mention it, though, 'cause it didn't really.. er.. tweak whatever emotion it was that Sanguine and Clockwork did quite as strongly.." +Rikoshi says, "I mean, 'Sanguine and Clockwork' IS a disturbing story, about obsession and lack of self-control, but I didn't mean for it to be... I dunno, downright unnerving. :/" +Rikoshi says, "I hope that doesn't reflect poorly on me." +Ranna flattens ears, "Don't say that, hon.. Even if it did, you've got more than a year of nothing but kindness and beauty to more than cancel that out." +Rikoshi squeaks, and folds his ears back, looking like he's all clammed up and unable to find any sort of words for that. So, instead, he just kind of puts his face down near your shoulder and hugs against you. +Ranna mmfs and squeezes you against him, whispering things like 'fox' and 'rrr'. +Rikoshi squeaks again, a little softer. "You're so nice," he says back, his tail flitting just once before going still. +Ranna lays himself back with you to just relax and keep you close easier. Strange day for foxes. +Rikoshi nuzzles near the crook of your neck. "What's up, foxy?" +Ranna rubs his paws along your sides, "I just mean, for both of us, it feels like a strange sort of day." +Rikoshi says, "I just want to make sure that you're... y'know, okay with me." +Ranna giggles a little and responds mostly by nudging your muzzle up for a proper sort of kiss. Which means mainly 'yes.' +Somewhere on the muck, Vexus has connected. +Rikoshi meows at the kiss, and kisses back. "I hope you weren't worried for me too much, fuzzo," he says. "I mean, I know I probably reacted strongly, but only because I was concerned about you, is all." +Logging stopped +Logging to file C:\Program Files\BeipMU\logs\Furry\Ranna - 2005-10-19.txt started +Ranna titters. Foxgoesmeow. "Well.. you know I'm alright, fox? We understand each other, I think?" +Rikoshi says, "I think so. I don't think you and I have a lot of problem understanding one another, really. Even if I am kinda... shy." +You yerf, "We're both shy, I think. Or maybe shy isn't right, but careful about where and when we say and do things."" +Rikoshi says, "Because we're so crazy about each other that we're afraid we might say something silly? ^^" +Ranna laughs, "I think that might be about it, hon..." +Rikoshi smiles. "Okay," he says, ears all pinkened. "Now I feel lots better, sweetie." +Ranna hees and tugs you up onto his front, rolling onto his back, "Good. I think we both do." +Rikoshi wrrrms and squiggles, smiling as he settles atop you. "Gonna kiss you," he says, before smooching you on the lips. Then he giggles again. "There!" +Ranna ruffles paws down at hips, then up around your back. He submits readily to the smooching and laughs, "Foxykisses are love." +Rikoshi grins proudly, and says, "I want to eat a WHOLE bunch of Krispy Kreme donuts. Then my kisses will taste like sugar." +Ranna laughs! "So.. about that saying silly things.." +Rikoshi nods his head in fervent agreement! +Ranna raar! So cute! Mauls you with smoochings
+ Expand all +Sickness came back with vengence!
+Arg x.
+ Expand all +I just had a huuuuuuuuge dream about FC. I can only remember parts of it, but I get the feeling it spanned several hours - pretty much from when my alarm woke me up until.. like.. now. It featured a lot of a certain fox, and also
The fever dreams continue and do nothing to make me feel better. This last one was a depressing apocalyptic movie involving something crashing into the moon. That part was fantastic to watch, but, like.. I dunno. It kept skipping around. I wanted to get to my mom's house so that I could be safer than in the cities, and I kept thinking about how I had made the wrong kind of life for myself in a world that would lack such simple transcontinental communication. Sure, that may be true. If a giant moonsized asteroid crashes into the moon and somehow doesn't kill us all on the spot. Anyway, it was kinda depressing and I don't want to sleep anymore -.
+ Expand all +Sleeeeeeeeepy -.- Even after 15-16 hours yesterday. As a result, I'm pretty much continuously comfy. I'm rather enjoying it, despite nearly falling asleep while playing the oboe.
+Also, Fort Collins has the highest rape reports in the state. Higher, even, than Detroit, Atlanta, and New York. Kristin's words of wisdom are: "Boy, we should really worry about same-sex couples.
+ Expand all +You page-pose, "Ranna sorta nestles against. Also helps that he's sorta clingy." to Rikoshi
+(p) In a page-pose to you, Rikoshi's clingy, too, if the situation (or fox) warrants.
+You page-pose, "Ranna kinda feels like he might be a little too much. What says otherfox?" to Rikoshi
+(p) Rikoshi pages, "Be a little too much what?" to you.
+You page, "Clingy :o)" to Rikoshi.
+(p) Rikoshi pages, "Nawwww, foxy. Please, you've never yelled at me for not being online 24/7 like my LAST boyfriend." to you.
+You page-pose, "Ranna giggles a little, "I don't really plan on it.. I'm just.. a little paranoid right now, I guess. Feel silly for
+ asking that c.c"" to Rikoshi
+(p) Rikoshi pages, "Don't feel silly. It's a good sign that you asked. Means that you're, y'know... caring about what I think about
+ you." to you.
+You page, "Rrf.. okie. You don't mind if I ask every now and then? I mean, you show it well, but it sorta makes me feel better, if maybe
+ alittle selfish.." to Rikoshi.
+(p) In a page-pose to you, Rikoshi kisses you. "Communication is important," he says. "I feel weird if people don't talk enough."
+You page-pose, "Ranna kisses back and nods a little, "Okie.. I don't think I've ever really had it, so it kinda makes me feel odd."
+ Nosebumps, adds, "Good, though."" to Rikoshi
+(p) In a page-pose to you, Rikoshi giggles. "Never really had what, foxy?" he asks.
+You page, "Communication in a relationship, I mean. Shan and I talked, but it was all pretty empty :oP" to Rikoshi.
+(p) Rikoshi pages, "Is our talk okay?" to you.
+You page, "I like it.. I was afraid at first that it'd change things, or, like, invalidate what had come before, but that's just
+ paranoia." to Rikoshi.
+(p) Rikoshi pages, "Well, you like me, and I like you. That seems to not be changing. :)" to you.
+You page-pose, "Ranna grins and nods, "Which is A-doubleplus good."" to Rikoshi
+You page-pose, "Ranna babbling. Should sleep." to Rikoshi
+(p) Rikoshi pages, "You're not babbling, cutie." to you.
+You page-pose, "Ranna feels like he is, a little. Buries his face in your fur to fix that." to Rikosh
Guh.. you know you're a geek when you start comparing situations in real life to those in an anime.
+You know you're a terrible, terrible person when that anime is FLCL :
+ Expand all +Today's broken. I should just go back to bed and wait for tomorrow
+ Expand all +Ice cream sends soothing waves of chocolate and coffee to the depths of my soul @.
+ Expand all +The kitty's in heat. Suddenly, I'm her bestest friend EVAR!!!
+It's cute, in a kinda 'Sera, get out from under my feet!' sort of way
+ Expand all +School really wasn't all that great, now that I think back on it. I'm amazed I can feel like I'm having a lot of fun while I'm there, then get home and realize how much I really don't like that place. Revier was in a good mood, at least. He tried to run Steph P. over with a baby grand piano with an expression that was somehow both vacuous and angry. Had a slight pack with Andrew and Ryan at anime while watching something goofy. After, I walked around the house naked and ate pizza (it's amazing what you feel like doing when you know you have the house to yourself). I took a drive to get some air, too, but it smelled like stale cigarette smoke. Pops tonight, Pops and strike tomorrow night, then I'll have a Moondog.
+I'm so tired. It must be time for tea
+ Expand all +http://www.compfused.com/directlink/963/
+I'm now enlightened
+ Expand all +You whisper, "Since the bathroom's occupied, I also feel like I should appologize. Haven't really been myself these past few days. I know it's not really something that can be helped, but.. like.. I dunno. Still feel sorry." to Rikoshi. +Rikoshi whispers, "Oh, foxy, you don't need to feel sorry! You haven't made me feel weird or bad or anything." to you. +You whisper, "Ranna nods a little and says, "Okie.." Crazy need to explain takes over, "I think it's just some brief disenchantment with the internet, 'cause I really liked getting to talk to you on the phone the other day. I'm sure it'll pass into normalcy soon enough."" to Rikoshi. +Rikoshi whispers, "I was gonna call you on the phone tonight, actually, but my parents' anniversary is today, so I called them instead." to you
+ Expand all +So I'm not quite sure what happened last night, but I'm reasonably sure it wasn't sleep. I took a shower at about 1 because I was feeling wired and hoped that it'd calm me down. It felt a little like it did, but after just laying there for three hours worrying and thinking my usual stupid thoughts (I get on these 'what if' trains that don't seem very bad at the time, but then I think back on them and I sound like I'm terribly depressed, plus some delusions of grandeur), I got back up. I was feeling pretty off kilter for the next few hours, though just because the whole tired-but-wired thing was getting to me - I got some work done on a song, but realized I forgot to do my ear-training. When I finally started feeling tired at around 5, I figured I'd lie down for a nap. That's when things got weird. It started with this weird clicking noise I thought was coming from my speakers, but I got up to find that I'd turned them off. This happened twice, so I just drank some water and laid down. From then until 6:45, I don't know what happened. I feel like I didn't close my eyes, and I 'woke up' terrified, fearing that I was going insane. A shower calmed me down, and I guess I'm okay now, but.. I dunno, this was weird. I've been feeling strange the past few days, and I'm dreading finishing out the week like this - I'm thinking it's just stress (mostly stressing myself out - school's not too bad) and hoping it's not the start of some big downswing. Oh well :o/ I've been drinking less caffeinated stuff, but maybe I'll try cutting it completely
+ Expand all +Huzzah for
Edit: I think both
I just remembered I had a dream last night about one of the people I mentioned a while ago – one of the people I placed so highly for being more distinctly human – telling me that they loved me. I remember being dumbfounded and speechless, then waking up. It was a dream about choir. Crazy o.
+ Expand all +"We call this a virtual dance experience although some people have mentioned it's more like a virtual drug experience," said Taro Maeda, senior research scientist at NTT. "I'm really hopeful Apple Computer will be interested in this technology to offer it in their iPod."+ +
This Is My Life, Rated | |
Life: + | 7.1 |
Mind: + | 7.3 |
Body: + | 8 |
Spirit: + | 7.3 |
Friends/Family: + | 4.7 |
Love: + | 6.9 |
Finance: + | 5.2 |
Take the Rate My Life Quiz |
Hobo: Hey, does anyone have some spare chicken? +Girl: Ha, ha, "chicken"? Sorry, I only had room for one rotisserie in my bag...and this one's for me.
+ + Expand all +Got sick last night. The last time I threw up was when I tried smoking. It's strange.. I don't mean to make it sound like a pleasurable experience, but since the last time I'd demonized vomiting, and it wasn't nearly as painful as I thought it would be. I guess I mention this by way of asking, I wonder if I've done this in any other aspects in life
+ Expand all +Hey! All you folks in Colorado should vote! I'm not going to try to convince you which way to vote on C&D or whatever, 'cause I know that's a touchy subject, but still, getting out and voting counts: this local stuff will affect you
+ Expand all +So I was looking for the characters for one of my names (this according to Pharmako/dynamis, this according to WWWJDIC), and ran across this. According to Pharmako/dynamis, makyo are "visions that appear at certain stages of the meditation path" and that "these visions are harmless, even excdellent, progressive stages, unless the practitioner believes that they signify complete attainment".
+Heh
+ Expand all +I was at Waiting for Godot and some woman behind me had a seizure halfway through the first act; I left at intermission, and now I feel non-existant.
+Maybe I'll go see the whole thing another night
+ Expand all +Umlauts make me cry / diacritics make me die / es-tsets I can deal with / along with thorn and edh / but, lord only knows / umlauts make me cry
+"Scrape forth such slogans from the vehicle of your soul, dear Excel - lest you belch fumes of pretense beneath a chromed and vulgar piety." +--Il Palazz
+ Expand all +If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if +we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and +me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad. I promise not to +come after you with a HillShire Farms Beef Sausage, either way.
+When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be +surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you. +(comments will be screened
+ Expand all +See? Look what procrastination gets you.
+I'm not sure all of that's correct x.
+ Expand all +Just slept through a required concert. Instead of feeling angry at myself, I just feel really, really sad. Hrrf. Oh well.
+ Expand all +I was looking around through the Pharmako* books and found that I'd missed several more pages of content in the reference section, where Pendell does more than just list the references he used:
+On the science front, researches at Cambridge University found that they were able to kill 238 mice with a combination of methamphetamine and loud music.
+Say...what?+ +
--Dale Pendell - Pharmako/Dynamis</em
+ Expand all +So I think I just fail at life. I just missed my second concert in a row. Damnit. In my defense, the ticket said 7:30 and the concert was at 4, but.. damnit, I knew that! Guh. Oh well.
+Edit: funny, I had a little kava before I left, and for all my bluster, I really don't feel anything at all ._
+ Expand all +Wasn't sick today, so I went out and got chai and a chicken for lunch/dinner. My all-state cd arrived, along with the Animal Lords tarot deck I ordered.
+Pops is nearly eclipsed by the fact that Moondog's coming over tonight. Nearly. I still have to go, mind you
+ Expand all +Doing NaNoWriMo. My problem seems to be that I didn't think through the details well enough. I've got a plot all outlined, and no content.
+Oh well
+ Expand all +I don't think I got much sleep last night - every time I'd look up at the clock, a half hour or so had gone by, even though I felt fairly rested. Eventually, it was about 4:30. I got up about an hour and a half late (a shame, I would've liked to have gone to history), angry as all heck. I dunno what's going on.. maybe it's some sort of general downswing judging by my mood the past few days. Er.. weeks. Oh well. If so, that means it'll just go back up later :o
+ Expand all +Watching Firefly!
+Still trying to wrap my mind around Waiting for Godot, sorta. Kinda came out a lot different than I thought. Oh well
+ Expand all +So, uh, I just saw a piece for five marimbas, two vibraphones, and bells, and I think I'm in love
+ Expand all +