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<h1 id="ioan-balan-2349">Ioan Bălan — 2349</h1>
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<p><em>How has this become my life?</em> Ioan thought — as ey always did — when stepping away from home to the now familiar café.</p>
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<p><em>How has this become my life?</em> Ioan thought — as ey always did — when stepping away from home to the now familiar café.</p>
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<p>May had — as she always did — dotted her nose against eir cheek, licked at eir nose a little too wetly, and said, “Good luck, have fun, and do not die,” and then ey stepped from home to arrive in front of the squat wood paneled coffee shop. The same sign proclaiming “Open 24 hours” fading in the sun. The same chipper baristas. The same sparklingly clean espresso machine. The same couch in the corner.</p>
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<p>May had — as she always did — dotted her nose against eir cheek, licked over eir nose a little too wetly, and said, “Good luck, have fun, and do not die,” and then ey stepped from home to arrive in front of the squat wood paneled coffee shop. The same sign proclaiming “Open 24 hours” fading in the sun. The same chipper baristas. The same sparklingly clean espresso machine. The same couch in the corner.</p>
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<p>The same thing, month after month, stepping into the coffee shop to order the same coffee — delicious as always — and wait for the same True Name to arrive.</p>
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<p>The same thing, month after month, stepping into the coffee shop to order the same coffee — delicious as always — and wait for the same True Name to arrive.</p>
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<p>Their standard greeting would be for Ioan to stand and bow — ey was always there too early — set up a cone of silence, and share a bit of chit-chat, however many little nothings felt appropriate for the day, for the month since they’d last seen each other, before settling back down on the L-shaped couch, each to work on their own projects.</p>
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<p>Their standard greeting would be for Ioan to stand and bow — ey was always there too early — set up a cone of silence, and share a bit of chit-chat, however many little nothings felt appropriate for the day, for the month since they’d last seen each other, before settling back down on the L-shaped couch, each to work on their own projects.</p>
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<p>Then, as ever, one or the other of them would call an end to the meeting, if meeting it was, and they’d stand once more, bow as always, and each would step back home.</p>
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<p>Then, as ever, one or the other of them would call an end to the meeting, if meeting it was, and they’d stand once more, bow, and each would step back home.</p>
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<p>Or, at least, ey would always step back home, where May would — as she always did — congratulate em on not dying.</p>
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<p>Or, at least, ey would always step back home, where May would — as she always did — congratulate em on not dying.</p>
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<p>The only thing that seemed to change was the topics they talked about and True Name herself.</p>
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<p>The only thing that seemed to change was the topics they talked about — the this-or-thats of life — and True Name herself.</p>
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<p>She was always smartly dressed, she always smiled brightly to em, always ordered the same mocha with extra whipped cream, and would always seem to get dabs of it on her nose-tip, but over time, the skunk had slowly picked up some ineffable quality about her that Ioan could only ever describe as ‘harried’. It wasn’t in her grooming, for her whiskers were always neat and orderly, the longer fur atop her head well brushed, and her claws neatly trimmed. It wasn’t in the things she talked about, for she always had some interesting bit of news about any of the three — four, if one counted Artemis — Systems out there.</p>
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<p>She was always smartly dressed, she always smiled brightly to em, always ordered the same mocha with extra whipped cream, and would always seem to get dabs of it on her nose-tip, but over time, the skunk had slowly picked up some ineffable quality about her that Ioan could only ever describe as ‘harried’. It wasn’t in her grooming, for her whiskers were always neat and orderly, the longer fur atop her head well brushed, and her claws neatly trimmed. It wasn’t in the things she talked about, for she always had some interesting bit of news about any of the three — four, if one counted Artemis — Systems out there.</p>
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<p>It was, ey decided, something to do with her eyes, her cheeks, the way her hands moved. It was in her voice, in her mien, in her bearing.</p>
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<p>It was, ey decided, something to do with her eyes, her cheeks, the way her hands moved. It was in her voice, in her mien, in her bearing.</p>
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<p>Once a month, ey’d meet True Name for coffee, and each time, she seemed that much more worn down, carrying that much more tension in her features, looking just that much older.</p>
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<p>Once a month, ey’d meet True Name for coffee, and each time, she seemed that much more worn down, carrying that much more tension in her features, looking just that much older.</p>
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<p>Ioan had shaken eir head. “It never felt polite to.”</p>
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<p>Ioan had shaken eir head. “It never felt polite to.”</p>
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<p>“Some day you should,” she had said. “Though it is my suspicion that she is, as you have said, losing her easy confidence. She is struggling with the fact that she must constantly dump energy into keeping up the appearance of always being so in control.”</p>
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<p>“Some day you should,” she had said. “Though it is my suspicion that she is, as you have said, losing her easy confidence. She is struggling with the fact that she must constantly dump energy into keeping up the appearance of always being so in control.”</p>
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<p>Ioan had leaned back in eir chair, ey remembered, and stared up at the ceiling. “That certainly tallies with what she’s said in the past.”</p>
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<p>Ioan had leaned back in eir chair, ey remembered, and stared up at the ceiling. “That certainly tallies with what she’s said in the past.”</p>
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<p>“She is the type of person who will always take more upon herself, more and more and more until she cracks,” May had murmured, quiet enough that Ioan had to strain to hear. “That she has been at this for more than two and a quarter centuries and the strain is only now showing is, if anything, a testament to her strength.”</p>
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<p>“She is the type of person who will always take more upon herself, more and more and more until she cracks,” May had murmured, quiet enough that Ioan had to strain to hear. “That she has been at this for more than two and a quarter centuries and the strain is only now showing is, if anything, a testament to her perseverance. Or obstinance, perhaps.”</p>
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<p>Ever since that day, that conversation would rise to the fore of eir memory whenever ey met up with True Name for coffee. They would have their conversation, sip their drinks, and then get down to whatever projects they were working on, and there would always be a small portion of eir mind dedicated to squaring what ey knew of her with just how old she was.</p>
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<p>Ever since that day, that conversation would rise to the fore of eir memory whenever ey met up with True Name for coffee. They would have their conversation, sip their drinks, and then get to whatever projects they were working on, and there would always be a small portion of eir mind dedicated to squaring what ey knew of her and just how old she was.</p>
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<p>What ey’d not managed to bring up in that conversation, however, was that ey seemed plagued with a pathological desire to help. Somehow. Ey wanted to find what it was that was wearing so much on True Name and find a way to ease it. There was a problem there, and problems were made for solving, yes?</p>
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<p>What ey’d not managed to bring up in that conversation with May, however, was that ey seemed plagued with a pathological desire to help. Somehow. Ey wanted to find what it was that was wearing so much on True Name and find a way to ease it. There was a problem there, and problems were made for solving, yes?</p>
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<p>It was something about em that May doubtless knew, but which ey’d never shared with her, because ey knew that her response would either be the gentle teasing that she was so good at heaping on em or the gentle inquisition that she was equally adept at conducting. She’d ask em where the feeling stemmed from; was it from within eir mind, or within eir heart? Was it related to <em>all</em> problems? Was it because True Name looked so much like her, eir partner? When had it started? Launch? Convergence? Never mind if it were a problem that ey could not solve, as was almost certainly the case, what would ey do if it was a problem she did not <em>want</em> solved?</p>
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<p>It was something about em that May doubtless knew, but which ey’d never shared with her, as ey knew that her response would either be the gentle teasing that she was so good at heaping on em or the gentle inquisition that she was equally adept at conducting. She’d ask em where the feeling stemmed from; was it from within eir mind, or within eir heart? Was it related to <em>all</em> problems? Was it because True Name looked so much like her, eir partner? When had it started? Launch? Convergence? Never mind if it were a problem that ey could not solve, as was almost certainly the case, what would ey do if it was a problem she did not <em>want</em> solved?</p>
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<p>Ey knew she’d ask em those questions because whenever ey asked them of emself, ey heard them in her voice. Even when ey’d asked Sarah, eir therapist (or, well, all three of their therapists), there was some subconscious overlay of the skunk’s lilting voice floating above the question, and ey’d find emself dropping contractions and leaning on the anaphora that all Odists seemed stuck with.</p>
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<p>Ey knew she’d ask em those questions because whenever ey asked them of emself, ey heard them in her voice. Even when ey’d asked Sarah, eir therapist (or, well, all three of their therapists), there was some subconscious overlay of the skunk’s lilting voice floating above the question, and ey’d find emself dropping contractions and leaning on the anaphora that all Odists seemed stuck with.</p>
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<p>“You seem particularly lost in thought today, Ioan.”</p>
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<p>“You seem particularly lost in thought today, Ioan.”</p>
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<p>Ey jolted at the sudden intrusion of a voice on eir thoughts, then smiled sheepishly at True Name. “Sorry about that. I hope I wasn’t mumbling to myself.”</p>
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<p>Ey jolted at the sudden intrusion of a voice on eir thoughts, then smiled sheepishly at True Name. “Sorry about that. I hope I wasn’t mumbling to myself.”</p>
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<p>Ey hesitated, considering eir options. The desire to fix, to help, to aid and assist, still hung around em, but it’d be impertinent for em to just offer that out of nowhere. Instead, ey said, “Something May said. About you, I mean. Hopefully that’s not weird.”</p>
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<p>Ey hesitated, considering eir options. The desire to fix, to help, to aid and assist, still hung around em, but it’d be impertinent for em to just offer that out of nowhere. Instead, ey said, “Something May said. About you, I mean. Hopefully that’s not weird.”</p>
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<p>The skunk laughed. “It depends on what she said, does it not? Though I am flattered to have been in your thoughts. What did she have to say?”</p>
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<p>The skunk laughed. “It depends on what she said, does it not? Though I am flattered to have been in your thoughts. What did she have to say?”</p>
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<p>“That you’re the type of person to take on whatever’s in front of you, even if your docket’s already full. I was trying to piece together how much of that applies to the rest of the clade, too.” After a moment, ey shrugged and added, “And myself, for that matter.”</p>
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<p>“That you’re the type of person to take on whatever’s in front of you, even if your docket’s already full. I was trying to piece together how much of that applies to the rest of the clade, too.” After a moment, ey shrugged and added, “And myself, for that matter.”</p>
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<p>True Name looked up to the ceiling, head tilted thoughtfully. “I do not think there is any disputing that I will load myself up with responsibility to the point of overloading. I remember some of that from before I was forked, though I do not think Michelle was of quite the same temperament. She took on more than she could handle more out of a sense of social obligation than…whatever it is that drives me.”</p>
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<p>True Name looked up to the ceiling, head tilted thoughtfully. “I do not think there is any disputing that I will load myself up with responsibility, often to the point of overloading. I remember some of that from before I was forked, though I do not think Michelle was of quite the same temperament. She took on more than she could handle more out of a sense of social obligation than…whatever it is that drives me.”</p>
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<p>“Determination? Persistence?”</p>
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<p>“Determination? Persistence?”</p>
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<p>She shrugged. “Perhaps. What is it that Dear says so often? “I do not make art because I know why; if I knew why, I would not need to make art”? It is like that for me. I do not strive because I know what drives me. If I knew what that was, who knows if I would continue to strive?”</p>
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<p>She shrugged. “Perhaps. What is it that Dear says so often? “I do not make art because I know why; if I knew why, I would not need to make art”? It is like that for me. I do not strive because I know what drives me. If I knew what that was, who knows if I would continue to strive?”</p>
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<p>Ey marveled, as ey so often did, at just how many of the Odists seem to speak in well structured paragraphs. Thesis, hypothesis, synthesis.</p>
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<p>Ey marveled, as ey so often did, at just how many of the Odists seem to speak in well structured paragraphs. Thesis, hypothesis, synthesis.</p>
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<p>“Or curse.”</p>
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<p>“Or curse.”</p>
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<p>She chuckled. “Your words, not mine. But, well…with the understanding that I cannot tell you everything that I am working on, I will say that there is much to be done when it comes to shaping sys-side sentiment around all of the various new tech.”</p>
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<p>She chuckled. “Your words, not mine. But, well…with the understanding that I cannot tell you everything that I am working on, I will say that there is much to be done when it comes to shaping sys-side sentiment around all of the various new tech.”</p>
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<p>“Oh?”</p>
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<p>“Oh?”</p>
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<p>“The expanded ACLs on cones of silence, for example. It is nice to be able to obscure the occupants, yes? No more hiding one’s mouth or expression. Limiting sensorium messages into or out of them by individual or clade is also quite nice for guaranteeing information security. Your interlocutor cannot be used to spy on you, yes? But how does one pass on the knowledge of the upgrades to the System? There are various feeds, yes, but even something as small as that requires some thought put into how to announce it. Do we hail it as a technological advancement, or do we put a tone of resignation on it, as though we have been given something no one wanted? Perhaps we announce it with a resounding chorus of “fucking <em>finally</em>”.”</p>
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<p>“The expanded ACLs on cones of silence, for example. It is nice to be able to obscure the occupants, yes? No more hiding one’s mouth or expression. Limiting sensorium messages into or out of them by individual or clade is also quite nice for guaranteeing information security. Your interlocutor cannot be used to spy on you, yes? Ditto the refinements on sweeping unwanted occupants. We may shape our interactions more exactly with this tech. But how does one pass on the knowledge of the upgrades to the System? There are various feeds, yes, but even something as small as that requires some thought put into how to announce it. Do we hail it as a technological advancement, or do we put a tone of resignation on it, as though we have been given something no one wanted? Perhaps we announce it with a resounding chorus of “fucking <em>finally</em>”.”</p>
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<p>“It seems to have gone over well, at least.”</p>
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<p>“It seems to have gone over well, at least.”</p>
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<p>“It did, yes.” Then, with a tilt of her head, ey felt the ACL-scape of the cone they were within shift, and there was a subtle blurring to the world around them as she opaqued the cone from the outside. “Now consider the effects of audio/visual transmission between sys- and phys-side.”</p>
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<p>“It did, yes.” Then, with a tilt of her head, ey felt the ACL-scape of the cone they were within shift, and there was a subtle blurring to the world around them as she opaqued the cone from the outside. “Now consider the effects of audio/visual transmission between sys- and phys-side.”</p>
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<p>Ey blinked and sat up straighter. “Wait, what?”</p>
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<p>Ey blinked and sat up straighter. “Wait, what?”</p>
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<p>“You see? Much thought must be put into managing expectations.”</p>
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<p>“You see? Much thought must be put into managing expectations.”</p>
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<p>“Back up a moment. Are we going to actually get that?”</p>
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<p>“Back up a moment. Are we going to actually get that?”</p>
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<p>“It is already enabled in a select few locked-down sims, yes. AVEC, we are calling it. Audio/Visual Extrasystem Communication.”</p>
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<p>“It is already enabled in a select few locked-down sims, yes. AVEC, we are calling it. Audio/Visual Extrasystem Communication. A faint hope to foster a sense of connection between our two worlds with a pithy name.”</p>
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<p>“Holy shit.”</p>
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<p>“Holy shit.”</p>
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<p>She laughed. “Holy shit, indeed. I have no clue as to the tech that goes into it, which is made all the more complicated from it being inspired by our dear Artemisian friends, but what I do know is that this will shift many of the plans in place around stability. When I sit here in silence, drinking my coffee and looking deep in thought, I am working on that. I write my speeches or talk with my cocladists or other versions of myself, and fill out the exo I have dedicated to the topic.”</p>
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<p>She laughed. “Holy shit, indeed. I have no clue as to the tech that goes into it, which is made all the more complicated from it being inspired by our dear Artemisian friends, but what I do know is that this will shift many of the plans in place around stability. When I sit here in silence, drinking my coffee and looking deep in thought, I am working on that. I write my speeches or talk with my cocladists or other versions of myself, and fill out the exo I have dedicated to the topic.”</p>
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<p>“And that wears you out?” Ey hastened to add, “Not to say that it isn’t work, of course.”</p>
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<p>“And that wears you out?” Ey hastened to add, “Not to say that it isn’t work, of course.”</p>
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<p>“I remember that, yes. Even just standing backstage, waiting for one’s moment to enter felt exhausting sometimes. I would get all worn out and want nothing more than to go home and fall over, afterwards.”</p>
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<p>“I remember that, yes. Even just standing backstage, waiting for one’s moment to enter felt exhausting sometimes. I would get all worn out and want nothing more than to go home and fall over, afterwards.”</p>
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<p>“Didn’t you go get shitty diner food or whatever?”</p>
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<p>“Didn’t you go get shitty diner food or whatever?”</p>
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<p>“Oh, nearly every time,” she said, grinning. “I would never let so sacred a ritual be spoiled by something as silly as sleep.”</p>
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<p>“Oh, nearly every time,” she said, grinning. “I would never let so sacred a ritual be spoiled by something as silly as sleep.”</p>
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<p>Ey nodded. “A Finger Pointing holds to it like a ritual, yeah. It’s a toss up whether or not she drinks us all under the table.”</p>
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<p>Ey nodded. “A Finger Pointing certainly holds to it like a ritual, yeah. It’s a toss up whether or not she drinks us all under the table.”</p>
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<p>“Of course.” The skunk grinned and finished her coffee before setting it down on the table. “We studied long and hard to build up such a tolerance.”</p>
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<p>“Of course.” The skunk grinned and finished her coffee, setting the mug down on the table. “We studied long and hard to build up such a tolerance.”</p>
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<p>“Doesn’t sound super healthy.”</p>
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<p>“Doesn’t sound super healthy.”</p>
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<p>“I suppose not. At least, not back phys-side.”</p>
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<p>“I suppose not. At least, not back phys-side.”</p>
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<p>“I noticed that seems to be unevenly distributed,” ey said. “May and I rarely drink unless it’s with someone else, but Dear and its partners seem to drink quite a bit.”</p>
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<p>“I noticed that seems to be unevenly distributed,” ey said. “May and I rarely drink unless it’s with someone else, but Dear and its partners seem to drink quite a bit.”</p>
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<p>“So I have heard. There are a few aspects of our past life that wound up only picked up by a few of us, beyond the obvious interests. Drinking, theatre and art, furry, that sort of thing. I have never figured out whether there is any rhyme or reason to it.”</p>
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<p>“So I have heard. There are a few aspects of our past life that were only picked up by a few of us, beyond the obvious interests. Drinking, theatre and art, furry, that sort of thing. I have never figured out whether there is any rhyme or reason to it.”</p>
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<p>Ey nodded. “Makes me wonder if I might’ve done the same, if I were more of a dispersionista.”</p>
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<p>Ey nodded. “Makes me wonder if I might’ve done the same if I were more of a dispersionista.”</p>
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<p>“Perhaps,” she said, shrugging. “Codrin has diverged quite a bit from you. They both have. You can put at least some of that on us, though. May Then My Name and Dear, at least.”</p>
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<p>“Perhaps,” she said, shrugging. “Codrin has diverged quite a bit from you. They both have. You can put at least some of that on us, though. May Then My Name and Dear, I mean.”</p>
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<p>“Right,” ey said, laughing. “May’s fond of saying that it’s the Odists’ job to fuck with us until we loosen up.”</p>
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<p>“Right,” ey said, laughing. “May’s fond of saying that it’s the Odists’ job to fuck with us until we loosen up.”</p>
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<p>True Name folded her paws in her lap primly, grinning to em.</p>
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<p><em>This is it,</em> ey thought. <em>This is why I keep coming back. Even if she is consciously turning up the friendliness to maintain some weird status quo, or even if she is only doing it subconsciously, she’s still nice to be around.</em></p>
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<p>Ey considered letting the topic continue, but the thought was intriguing enough to voice out loud. “Why do you do this, True Name? Get coffee with me, I mean.”</p>
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<p>Ey considered letting the topic continue, but the thought was intriguing enough to voice out loud. “Why do you do this, True Name? Get coffee with me, I mean.”</p>
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<p>“There is nothing nefarious about it, if that is what you are asking,” she said, bowing her head briefly. “In confidence?”</p>
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<p>“Of course. I imagine most of what you say is in confidence.”</p>
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<p>“Of course. I imagine most of what you say is in confidence.”</p>
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<p>“Indeed. I trust that you will not share the news about the A/V advancements yet.”</p>
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<p>“Right. Then I suppose it is just nice to have a friend, for lack of a better term.”</p>
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<p>“Right. Then I suppose it is just nice to have a friend, for lack of a better term.”</p>
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<p>A conversation from years back wafted up through eir memory. “You said back during the convergence, “We will never be close, you and I”. Has that changed?”</p>
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<p>“Well, that can be good, right?”</p>
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<p>“Yeah, comfort in familiarity. She did at least confirm your hypothesis that she’s just been overloading herself.”</p>
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<p>“I don’t think the Artemis dump is helping out, there. They’re pulling all sorts of stuff from it.”</p>
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<p>“I don’t think the Artemis dump is helping out, there. They’re pulling all sorts of stuff from it.”</p>
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<p>“You are as well, are you not?”</p>
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<p>“You are as well, are you not?”</p>
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<p>Ey laughed. “I suppose I am, at that.”</p>
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<p>Ey laughed. “I suppose I am, at that.”</p>
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<p>The skunk reached out and snagged one of eir hands, pulling em down onto the beanbag beside her. Ey lay back and let her rest her head against eir shoulder before settling eir arm around her.</p>
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<p>She reached out and snagged one of eir hands, pulling em down onto the beanbag beside her. Ey lay back and let her rest her head against eir shoulder before settling eir arm around her. Comfortable, familiar.</p>
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<p>“She said something else that was interesting I’d like to discuss, but I don’t want to keep talking about her if you’re uncomfortable with it. It can be later.”</p>
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<p>“She said something else that was interesting I’d like to discuss, but I don’t want to keep talking about her if you’re uncomfortable with it. It can be later.”</p>
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<p>She shrugged, doodling a dull claw lazily over eir stomach through eir shirt and vest, sitting just shy of ticklish. “I do not mind, my dear. You know that I have been working on it.”</p>
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<p>She shrugged, doodling a dull claw lazily over eir stomach through eir shirt and vest, sitting just shy of ticklish. “I do not mind. You know that I have been working on it.”</p>
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<p>“Sure, I just didn’t want to–“</p>
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<p>“I will tell you if I would like to drop the topic, I promise,” she said, then laughed. “Sorry, my dear. I did not mean to interrupt.”</p>
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<p>“I will tell you if I would like to drop the topic, I promise,” she said, then laughed. “Sorry, Ioan. I did not mean to interrupt.”</p>
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<p>“No, it’s okay. She actually did that quite well today.” Ey leaned eir head back on the beanbag. “I asked why she kept up with me with the coffee meetings, and she said that it’s just nice to have a friend.”</p>
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<p>“No, it’s okay. She actually did that quite well today.” Ey leaned eir head back on the beanbag. “I asked why she kept up with me with the coffee meetings, and she said that it’s just nice to have a friend.”</p>
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<p>May tilted her head up, enough to bump eir nose against the underside of eir chin. “Are you? Friends, I mean.”</p>
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<p>May tilted her head up, enough to bump eir nose against the underside of eir chin. “Are you? Friends, I mean.”</p>
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<p>“That’s what we talked about. Neither of us could really decide on anything beyond ‘friends for lack of a better term’.” Ey hesitated, feeling incredibly conscious of eir partner resting against em, her stated resentment of her down-tree instance, how that had bordered for so long on hatred. Ey continued, speaking carefully, “I like having interesting people to talk to and she’s been pretty good company. She likes having someone to just be around and talk with that isn’t herself or Jonas.”</p>
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<p>“That’s what we talked about. Neither of us could really decide on anything beyond ‘friends for lack of a better term’.” Ey hesitated, feeling incredibly conscious of eir partner resting against em, her stated resentment of her down-tree instance, how that had veered for so long into hatred. Ey continued, speaking carefully, “I like having interesting people to talk to and she’s been pretty good company. She likes having someone to just be around and talk with that isn’t herself or Jonas.”</p>
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<p>“Are they still not getting along?”</p>
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<p>“Are they still not getting along?”</p>
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<p>“Worse, maybe. That’s where she requested that I drop the topic. She said that they made good coworkers, but not necessarily friends, and I asked if that was always the case, and she said she wasn’t comfortable having that conversation. Very politely, of course, but it looked like it took a lot of effort.”</p>
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<p>“Worse, maybe. That’s where she requested that I drop the topic. She said that they made good coworkers, but not necessarily friends, and I asked if that was always the case, and she said she wasn’t comfortable having that conversation. Very politely, of course, but it looked like it took a lot of effort.”</p>
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<p>“Mm.” The skunk lowered her muzzle again, letting em peek down at her again. “I have been working on how I define myself in relation to True Name. I do not like that I spent so long hating her. I do not want that to be a part of who I am. I hold no such compunctions about Jonas, though, and I am sorry that she still feels she must engage with him. He was a piece of shit then and he is far worse now.”</p>
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<p>“Mm.” The skunk lowered her muzzle again, letting em peek down at her again. “I have been working on how I define myself in relation to True Name. I do not like that I spent so long hating her. I do not want that to be a part of who I am. I am May, who loves. I hold no such compunctions about Jonas, though, and I am sorry that she still feels she must engage with him. He was a piece of shit then and he is far worse now.”</p>
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<p>“Huh?” Ey shook eir head as ey pieced together what she meant. “Oh right, sorry. I guess you were forked off after he and True Name started working together.”</p>
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<p>“Huh?” Ey shook eir head as ey pieced together what she meant. “Oh right, sorry. I guess you were forked off after he and True Name started working together.”</p>
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<p>“Yes. I remember that from when I was her. We were not friends then, and I am glad that she is not his friend, now.”</p>
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<p>“Yes. I remember that from when I was her. We were not friends then, and I am glad that she is not his friend, now.”</p>
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<p>“I only met him those few times years back, and yeah, I’m glad she isn’t, either. He was definitely a piece of shit.”</p>
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<p>“I only met him those few times years back, and yeah, I’m glad she isn’t, either. He was definitely a piece of shit.”</p>
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<p>She laughed and poked em in the belly. “Mx. Ioan Bălan, you watch your language.”</p>
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<p>She laughed and poked em in the belly. “Mx. Ioan Bălan, you watch your language.”</p>
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<p>“Hey, I curse!”</p>
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<p>“Hey, I curse!”</p>
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<p>“Not well, Ionuț.”</p>
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<p>“Not well, Ionuț.”</p>
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<p>“Yeah, well, fuck you too,” ey said, smirking at the diminutive form of eir name.</p>
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<p>“Yeah, well, fuck you too,” ey said, smirking at the teasingly diminutive form of eir name.</p>
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<p>The skunk sat up and gave em an exaggerated frown. “I am warning you, young man.”</p>
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<p>The skunk sat up and gave em an exaggerated frown. “I am warning you, young man.”</p>
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<p>Ey rolled eir eyes. “‘Young man?’“</p>
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<p>Ey rolled eir eyes. “‘Young man?’“</p>
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<p>“Little miss?”</p>
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<p>“Little miss?”</p>
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<p>“It is an art we have perfected. It increases the impact when they do show up. Even True Name does it, I am sure.”</p>
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<p>“It is an art we have perfected. It increases the impact when they do show up. Even True Name does it, I am sure.”</p>
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<p>“She has once or twice, yeah. You two still sound similar enough in terms of your voices, so I feel like I’m used to it.”</p>
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<p>“She has once or twice, yeah. You two still sound similar enough in terms of your voices, so I feel like I’m used to it.”</p>
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<p>May nodded, leaned down, and licked em squarely across the nose before settling down on eir front again. “Yes, I suppose we do. Here is where we drop the topic, however.”</p>
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<p>May nodded, leaned down, and licked em squarely across the nose before settling down on eir front again. “Yes, I suppose we do. Here is where we drop the topic, however.”</p>
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<p>“Alright,” ey said, wiping eir face. “Want dinner?”</p>
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<p>“Alright,” ey said, wiping eir face. “What should we do for dinner?”</p>
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