D> Well, it is, but that’s not quite where I was going, hah.
K> Sorry. I’ll let you type.
D> I don’t really know what I wanted out of this conversation, to be honest. I wasn’t even intending for it to be a conversation, at least right off the bat. I had a whole email written up that I was going to send you, to be perfectly nerdy about it.
-D> Feelings like this aren’t logical, you know? So I think I just wanted to say that because I don’t know what to do with all of them. They just boil up within me and I just sit there and feel weird and bad but also kind of good at the same time. I just started falling for you, and kept it to myself because it felt like such an imposition to admit that to you.
+D> Feelings like this aren’t logical. At least, they don’t feel logical So I think I just wanted to say that because I don’t know what to do with all of them. They just boil up within me and I just sit there and feel weird and bad but also kind of good at the same time. I just started falling for you, and kept it to myself because it felt like such an imposition to admit that to you.
D> And I should add
-D> The goal is specifically not to do that. It wasn’t to try and rope you into something you don’t want to do, and I don’t want to make it sound like I am trying to do so now.
+D> The goal is specifically NOT to do that. It wasn’t to try and rope you into something you don’t want to do, and I don’t want to make it sound like I am trying to do so now.
D> Guilt you into it or whatever.
D> But I did want to talk about it and get it off my chest.
D> And I guess that’s it.
@@ -57,7 +57,7 @@K> And that’s maybe part of it.
D> How so?
K> How would you feel being in a relationship with someone who doesn’t believe the same stuff?
-K> Doesn’t believe any of it, I mean.
+K> Doesn’t believe ANY of it, I mean.
K> I’m not going to knock it or anything, but I’m not going to try it, either.
K> I’m sorry.
D> Hah.
@@ -69,7 +69,8 @@D> And even if a relationship isn’t in our future, that’s totally okay.
K> Thanks Dee <3
K> I don’t know, it’s weird.
-K> I kind of suspected, now that I think back on it? Not like you were being a weirdo.
+K> I kind of suspected, now that I think back on it?
+K> Not like you were being a weirdo.
K> Or any more than usual ☺
K> Just little things about how you acted when I was over. Nothing bad, just you had a certain distance about you, like you were being extra careful about something or guarding something. Like, every time you came over to my place and wound up sitting in my bed or something, you’d get all quiet.
K> I realize after the fact that that was probably super weird for you. Sorry about that.
@@ -85,7 +86,8 @@D> And honest, I guess.
D> Uh…and to continue being awkward for at least a moment longer, are you okay remaining friends?
K> Dee I swear to god
-K> If you did anything to stop being friends with me a) you would know it because I would kick your ass and b) I’d go fucking nuts. We’re friends, okay? If a friendship can’t take a challenge, what even is it, then? :P
+K> If you did anything to make me not want to be your friend any longer a) you would know it because I would kick your ass and b) I’d go fucking nuts because I wasn’t kidding about you being just about the only friend I have that I can talk to.
+K> We’re friends, okay? If a friendship can’t take a challenge, what even is it, then? :P
D> Haha. Well, good. I’m not keen on getting my ass kicked, and ditto. I’d rather have my nails pulled out that lose you as a friend.
K> Gross
K> ☺
@@ -93,7 +95,7 @@K> Even if it isn’t the outcome you wanted?
D> It’s weird.
D> I’m not sure what outcome it is that I really wanted.
-D> I mean, not gonna lie, if we’d wound up going out or whatever, that would’ve been nice! But I don’t think that was actually my goal. I think I really just wanted to get it off my chest. I wanted to not be holding it in and feeling like an idiot any longer.
+D> I mean, not gonna lie, if we’d wound up going out or whatever, that would’ve been nice! But I don’t think that was ACTUALLY my goal. I think I really just wanted to get it off my chest. I wanted to not be holding it in and feeling like an idiot any longer.
K> I bet!
K> How long has it been, anyway?
K> Shit. If you don’t mind me asking, that is. I don’t want to draw it out if this is just continuing to hurt you or anything ☹
@@ -101,6 +103,7 @@D> Way better than an email would have been, yikes.
D> But it’s been about six months? A bit longer?
K> Can I just say that you writing up a whole-ass email to tell me that you like me is the most Dee possible thing that I can think of?
+D> Listen.
D> I set up an archetype for myself and have no choice but to live up to it.
K> Nerd
K> What was even in the email?
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