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writing/sawtooth/limerent-object.html

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 <li>When last we spoke, you mentioned that you weren&rsquo;t sure that these feelings were &ldquo;real&rdquo;. What do &ldquo;real feelings&rdquo; mean to you? What quality keeps these feelings from being &ldquo;real&rdquo;?</li>
 <li>From the outside, you seem stuck. You don&rsquo;t seem to want to push for something more between you and Kay, and you certainly don&rsquo;t want to pull back from her. The next step in this project should be to find actionable paths forward. Why don&rsquo;t you start by simply enumerating options. What could moving forward look like? What might stepping back look like?</li>
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-<p>Seriously buddy, this is really great stuff, but you&rsquo;ve always been a fantastic writer.</p>
+<p>Seriously buddy, this is really great stuff. Not usually what I see in journals, but you&rsquo;ve always been a heck of a writer.</p>
 <p>Remember to breathe!</p>
 <p>Jeremy</p>
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 <p>But there&rsquo;s no real basis for these feelings. All of those things were true when we met. They were all true when we hugged after her senior recital. They remain true today. Nothing has changed in our communications other than them moving primarily online and occasionally over voice or video, and yet out of nowhere I suddenly have this enormous desire for her. Not physical desire, though I would not turn down the intimacy, but a desire for her presence. A longing.</p>
 <p>There is a concept that I think touches on this set of feelings, which is that of limerence. As long as I am to work on my emotional literacy, it is best that I start trying to name what I feel. To call what I feel a &lsquo;crush&rsquo; feels inexact. It is not puppy love. It is not new relationship energy. It is not lust. It is an uncontrollable romantic desire.</p>
 <p>It is not grounded in our friendship or my attraction to her. It is more of an obsession. A desperate need for her to feel the same way about me. A craving. A pang. A wildness of the heart that is as frightening as it is pleasant.</p>
-<p>It is an unmoored, unmooring thing, drawing me ever upwards in lazy, undirected arcs almost against my will, ever closer to the sun.</p>
+<p>It is an unmoored, unmooring thing, drawing me ever upwards in lazy, undirected arcs almost &mdash; <em>almost</em> &mdash; against my will, ever closer to the sun.</p>
 <p>These are things that I am thinking now that I am in my quiet, liminal bench. I didn&rsquo;t have the words then, on the spot in the middle of therapy, but I will have to bring them up next session.</p>
 <p>We talked for a bit longer on the subject, but as the time drew to a close, Jeremy suggested, &ldquo;I think you should talk to Kay soon. Why don&rsquo;t you see if you can bring up how you feel about her some time before we meet next? It doesn&rsquo;t have to be an attempt to start a relationship or anything. Even just telling her that you&rsquo;ve been thinking about her would be a good step forward.&rdquo;</p>
 <p>So I suppose that is what is on my plate. She and I talk every day, these days, and so I will have plenty of opportunity to do so. Perhaps I will aim to do so tomorrow, as I&rsquo;d like to see how I feel when talking to her tonight without bringing this up, knowing that doing so in the future is a hard and fast goal for me.</p>