From 7df670870b56901e49f6bb2b710b139bbc3259a1 Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: Madison Scott-Clary Date: Tue, 17 May 2022 23:45:17 -0700 Subject: [PATCH] update from sparkleup --- writing/post-self/mitzvot/031.html | 28 +++++++++++------------ writing/post-self/mitzvot/032.html | 6 ++--- writing/post-self/mitzvot/index.html | 34 ++++++++++++++-------------- 3 files changed, 34 insertions(+), 34 deletions(-) diff --git a/writing/post-self/mitzvot/031.html b/writing/post-self/mitzvot/031.html index 885eee00f..0a52a580c 100644 --- a/writing/post-self/mitzvot/031.html +++ b/writing/post-self/mitzvot/031.html @@ -20,14 +20,14 @@

There was a sense of a sigh from the other end. “I am sorry, my love.”

“Fuck, I’m sorry, E.W. That came out way snarkier than intended. I understand. I only meant to ask if it was the type of thing where I should fork and come by right away.”

“Please,” End Waking said, sounding relieved. “There is nothing to be done, but I am very impatient to speak with someone.”

-

Debarre laughed. “You? Impatient? I’ll be right over.”

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“You? Impatient?” Debarre laughed. “I’ll be right over.”

He forked off Debarre#RelEW and watched him step from the sim, then spent another few seconds looking out into the yard, trying to remember the last time anything had been so important that it had required him leaving immediately.

Something other than a tree falling on End Waking, that was.

“Well, shit,” he mumbled turning to head back inside. “This is gonna be a mess.”

Debarre#RelEW was greeted by the sight of End Waking sitting cross-legged in the clearing across from May Then My Name.

“Oh, company,” he said, frowning. “Wasn’t expecting two of you.”

-

“Wait, does that mean you are a fork?” May Then My Name said, frowning at End Waking.

+

“You messaged…wait, does that mean you are a fork?” May Then My Name said, frowning at End Waking.

“It does, yes.”

“I never knew you had it in you,” she said, sounding proud. To Debarre, she said, “Did this asshole tell you why I am here?”

He gave her a hug before sitting down with them. “He said it had something to do with you, Ioan, and True Name, and that he needed to talk to a non-Odist. That’s why I was surprised.”

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He shoved at the skunk, who giggled.

“Well, okay. What’s up? You finally merge down?”

She blinked, looking startled. “Yes, actually. How did you guess?”

-

“Ioan mentioned it when we talked last.” He grinned. “How’d it go? Did she explode?”

-

“Not at all, no.” She shrugged, poking at the dirt with a twig. “Actually, I am actually quite fond of her, now.”

-

“Bullshit.”

+

“Ioan mentioned it when we talked last. How’d it go? Did she explode?”

+

“Not at all, no.” She shrugged, poking at the dirt with a twig. “Actually, I am finding myself rather fond of her, now.”

+

“Bullshit,” he growled.

“Debarre,” End Waking murmured.

May Then My Name waved a paw. “It is okay. You do not have to like her. You do not have to interact with her. End Waking wanted you to know about some of the practical considerations, but neither of us are planning on swaying your opinion of her.”

He frowned and leaned back on his palms. “Sorry. I guess I’m just worried about you. She’s not exactly known for her openness and honesty without ulterior motives, so.”

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“Wait, you’ve been talking with her, too?”

“Yes.”

He shook his head. He could already feel his hackles up, and this wasn’t helping. “Can’t fucking believe it.”

-

May Then My Name frowned, leaned over to hug him around the shoulders, and whispered, “I am going to leave you two it, but first, remember who you were, who you are, and imagine who you will become, but above all, remember that you love him and that he loves you. Let go, and have fun. Those are the rules of engagement.”

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May Then My Name frowned, leaned over to hug him around the shoulders, and whispered, “I am going to leave you to it, but first, remember who you were, who you are, and imagine who you will become, but above all, remember that you love him and that he loves you. Let go, and have fun. Those are the rules of engagement.”

After a moment’s hesitation, he returned the hug. Had she said it in anything less than her most earnest voice, he might have scoffed, and as it was, he could see himself falling for the gentle manipulation as though from a meter above. He could resent her, but she had said exactly what it was that he needed to hear.

Because of course she had.

“You’re such an asshole,” he whispered back, then kissed her cheek to take the sting out of the words. “I’ll do my best. Now, shoo.”

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Debarre rubbed his paws over his face. “Where’s your root instance? Within an hour’s walk?”

End Waking nodded. “Up-river, yes. Would you like me to walk you there?”

He shook his head. “Give me some time to think. There’s still some of me that’s stuck on dinner parties, then another chunk on this whole thing, and another still on May telling me about these rules of engagement or whatever.”

-

The skunk smiled faintly. “Twenty minutes’ walk up-river, then. He knows that you are coming.”

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The skunk smiled faintly. “Twenty minutes’ walk up-river, then. He will know that you are coming.”

After End Waking quit, Debarre started to trudge up the faint trail that they’d worn heading up along the river.

He knew that May Then My Name was right, that he probably needed to at least take into account that if Sasha and Michelle could change enough to make the Odists, that surely True Name could change enough to become someone that even her up-tree instances could like, just as he knew that he probably shouldn’t take that out on End Waking, frustrated as he was.

-

It was hard to square the image of his boyfriend and True Name meeting up voluntarily. What was it that he’d said when Ioan had come by asking after camping supplies? “I will help but I will not speak with her”?

+

Still, it was hard to square the image of his boyfriend and True Name meeting up voluntarily. What was it that he’d said when Ioan had come by asking after camping supplies? “I will help but I will not speak with her”?

Remember that you love him, he thought, even as he trudged up the path. Even if you’re working to undermine all that shit that she’s done with Jonas, at least you still love E.W.

-

The skunk as crouching at the edge of the stream, washing his paws after having apparently just finished gutting a trio of large trout.

+

The skunk was crouching at the edge of the stream, washing his paws after having apparently just finished gutting a trio of large trout.

“I understand if you are upset, Debarre,” he said, not looking up. He kept looking down at his paws as he scrubbed.

-

“No,” Debarre said, sitting down next to the skunk. “Or, well, I am, but it’s whatever. I just don’t see how something as stupid as May Then My Name merging down solves anything about this. Suddenly, you two are all buddy-buddy?”

+

“No,” Debarre said, sitting down next to him. “Or, well, I am, but it’s whatever. I just don’t see how something as stupid as May Then My Name merging down solves anything about this. Suddenly, you two are all buddy-buddy?”

End Waking shook his paws free of most of the water before drying them on the hem of his cloak. “We are not. I am pleased that she is no longer who she was, but she is not a friend. She is not me.”

“But you’re visiting her!”

“May Then My Name has asked me over a few times.” The skunk finally looked at him, gaze level and expression flat. “Did you not say that you would rather she not die?”

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“I do not know, my love,” he said after a long silence. “If I am defined by not being her, by not being what I was, then what is left? I cannot say my love for you, because all of the clade has that to some extent. I cannot even say that I have being an Odist, because, after all these years and with all of her changes over the last few months, I am not even sure that I am that.”

“You can be just End Waking,” Debarre said gently. “Like, you can just drop the clade and be that nerd who lives in the woods.”

The skunk laughed and elbowed him in the side. “We have rather turned our clade identity into idolatry of a sort, have we not?”

-

“Don’t get me wrong, I like where you came from! But I won’t be pissed if you drop your clade identifier. Hell, maybe you can even start saying things like ‘don’t’ and ‘haven’t’.”

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“Don’t get me wrong, I like where you came from! But I won’t be pissed if you drop your clade identifier. Hell, maybe you can even start saying things like ‘don’t’ and ‘isn’t’.”

“Do not push your luck.”

They laughed.

“You don’t have to have this sorted out, though.” He shrugged, adding, “You don’t even have to stop seeing True Name. I’m sorry I got angry there. I think I just got upset because any chance that you might start liking her felt like something of a betrayal.”

-

“I am a ways off from liking her yet, Debarre. I will not say never, but I may yet get to the point where I tolerate her. I will not betray you, though. You or your reactionary friends or whatever she called them.”

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“I am a ways off yet from liking her, Debarre. I will not say never, but I may yet get to the point where I tolerate her. I will not betray you, though. You or your reactionary friends or whatever she called them.”

Debarre scrambled to his feet, eyes darting around through the trees. “What the fuck?”

“The sim is empty, my dear,” the skunk said mildly. “I empty it every time someone enters.”

“Yeah, but–“

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“You are, yes, and doubtless the powers that be have been keeping their eye on you since Secession. I do not know the specifics, nor do I want to. As I said, I will not betray you.” End Waking smiled wryly, adding, “And I do not think I am of much interest to any of them, anyway. I rarely leave, and I never enter a building when I do. I am more focused on my next meal that anything else.”

“Skunks just wanna get fat.”

End Waking grinned toothily. “It is not not true.”

-

“Well, anyway. Fair enough. I don’t imagine you ratting us out, and you’re right that they probably already know. I’m just glad that you’ve been sweeping the place.”

+

“Well, anyway. Fair enough. I don’t imagine you’ll be ratting us out, and you’re right that they probably already know. I’m just glad that you’ve been sweeping the place.”

“I have never caught anyone hitchhiking on you, though I have on May Then My Name and Ioan.” He shrugged, gathered up the line of fish. “But speaking of fat, can we go back to cook these? I am not ready for you to stay over, but I would like to eat dinner with you, if you are up for it.”