Shortly after I started to realize just how ill-suited I was to music education, I went through a change of identity online. While before I had gone by the name ‘Ranna’, cribbed from Garth Nix’s excellent Old Kingdom series, I now began to go by the name Makyo, a zen Buddhist term which bears a similar meaning. Something about just how focused many of the general teacher education classes were on things other than education filled me with a sense that I might not actually be in any way helping students, but simply standing in their way. I was makyō. I was satan. ↩
((Alter suggests sarcastic interpretation: what is the point of maintaining your innocence? Might as well, wretch that you are. NOAB has his wife as more sympathetic in that she has also lost everything; Job’s reply not sinning with his lips disproves the Adversary ↩
+((Alter suggests sarcastic interpretation: what is the point of maintaining your innocence? Might as well, wretch that you are. NOAB has his wife as more sympathetic in that she has also lost everything; Job’s reply not sinning with his lips disproves the Adversary, though it also has the ‘god gives bad too’, which, complex thoughts)) ↩