<!doctype html> <html> <head> <title>Zk | 04</title> <link rel="stylesheet" type="text/css" href="/style.css" /> <meta name="viewport" content="width=device-width" /> <meta charset="utf-8" /> </head> <body> <main> <header> <h1>Zk | 04</h1> </header> <article class="content"> <hr /> <p>date: 2019-12-14 weight: 4</p> <hr /> <blockquote> <p>The third time was not the charm.</p> </blockquote> <p>No, it was not. Canonical stopped doing something I believed in, so I switched to a company — Internet Archive — that <em>was</em> doing something that I believed in, but the process was crap. Now, here I am at a company that’s got a great process and is doing something that I really believe in it, and…</p> <blockquote> <p>And you hate it.</p> </blockquote> <p>I hate my career. I don’t hate my company. I love them. They’re great people doing great things and doing them well. I just can’t stand programming anymore.</p> <blockquote> <p>I don’t believe you.</p> </blockquote> <p>You don’t?</p> <blockquote> <p>I don’t. You, who have at least two open programming projects you poke at with some regularity.</p> </blockquote> <p>I suppose I do, yeah.</p> <blockquote> <p>So what do you hate, if you don’t hate programming?</p> </blockquote> <p>It’s not work. I don’t hate working.</p> <p>It’s not programming, you’re right there. I still love the idea of making something that does what I tell it.</p> <p>It’s not computers, even if I’m a bit ambivalent on them.</p> <p>It’s…well, I definitely hate devops.</p> <blockquote> <p>Why?</p> </blockquote> <p>It feels…messy. It feels like I’m doing all I can to drag these ephemeral things into line, and none of them want to do it. It feels like all these people have grandiose ideas about what goes into running a system, and none of them agree with each other, and all we can do is to pick the least-bad one.</p> <p>It destroys this idea that computers are a thing that you can ask to do something, and they can do it. There are more non-deterministic bugs in devops than in any other area of dealing with computers than I’ve experienced.</p> <p>It makes me want to take up Haskell.</p> <blockquote> <p>All very sensible.</p> </blockquote> <p>If such a thing can be said of it.</p> <blockquote> <p>Is that why you’re burnt out, then?</p> </blockquote> <p>No.</p> <blockquote> <p>Then why?</p> </blockquote> <p>I don’t know.</p> <p>Perhaps I’m only good for seven years at a time, like I said.</p> <blockquote> <p>Did you burn out on music?</p> </blockquote> <p>I would say that I was burnt, but I placed that on the performers at my recital.</p> <blockquote> <p>Had your recital gone perfectly, would you still have felt burned out, though?</p> </blockquote> <p>Perhaps.</p> <blockquote> <p>Would you still have gone into computers?</p> </blockquote> <p>Definitely.</p> <blockquote> <p>Would you still be composing?</p> </blockquote> <p>I don’t know.</p> </article> <footer> <p>Page generated on 2020-06-24</p> </footer> </main> <script type="text/javascript"> document.querySelectorAll('.tag').forEach(tag => { let text = tag.innerText; tag.innerText = ''; tag.innerHTML = `<a href="/tags.html#${text}">${text}</a>`; }); </script> </body> </html>