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High school poetry notebook

Cleaning Woman

I'd clean for him I would but Cleaning, I'd hope for a little something back. I told him I told him once Telling, I'd hoped for something to fill me. But I cleaned for him as he'd asked, my husband. And here I am and nothing's changed.

Free-write poem

This was also labeled "free ponies :) :) :)" and I only vaguely remember why.

The eroticism of oranges How seductive, Freakshows pondering A murder weapon. Secret clementine Tells of a third, dense. The first in somnambulant arms Of the second, citrus fancier. Live as normal, Death by paper.

Ode to Turn Signals

A steady white lights Stops, none goes; Though on blinking happy off Turns, informing. Click flashing click By turning on grants And behind, those praising Seeing, now know. So up or to down leftright Click, push and becomes.

Syntax poem

Every time I fall, The ground tells me I'm in love. Be he the tamed? No, family sheep? Spades, four, And one white, domesticated, Was my favorite. He who could, he had Need in friends, Your better cream! Ice, you love got All need. And 'cause love is All low. And love is Places.

Dialog poem

I love this song. What are you saying? You hate it. Any sense of melody is lost In chords Obscured by the weight of Tone. Harmony rules itself out. Think of the meaning, not just the music. The words are in Spanish. Does that matter? Spanish words in chords so thick, You have to peer through the fog of harmony for the light of melody. And on top, Cheap sound effects. I suppose I don't listen to it much. That's why I like it. I suppose you don't listen to it much. That's why you hate it.

The Four Winds

In ally

I. Borne through air, Close my eyes. Wind ruffles hair Soul sighs, Heart flies; I’m the wind. I flow east: Over the plains, Over land creased. Current refrains, Cloud stains As I build. Trees bow at my Will To move drives me Onward I push through Mountains Do nothing but Divert The rain as I Flow. II. Borne through air - Rise up high - Driven there, Earth nigh, I sigh; I’m the wind. I flow west: Past the lakes, Water my guest; Thunder makes Noise, wakes, As I storm. Sand flies at my Force Builds as I Push Across the Land Flows beneath my Self Means nothing to Wind. III. Borne through air, Through the night And dawn fair. No fight, Only flight; I’m the wind. I flow south On the ocean, On delta’s mouth My motion Just notion As I breathe. Waves break as I Drive Past the thin Sands Lift themselves to my Body Waxes as I Press Through the stillness of Night. IV. Borne through air, Around the world And forests I tear; Ferns furled, Trees burled; I am the wind. I flow north, Across the ice; I roll forth Past spice – So nice – As I change. Men bask as I Warm Drops of rain Fall Colored leaves Shiver Because of the Chill Wind blows on Past.

In ally

The undersides off gray of clouds drift while I on the path stand above where the crow flies me. Off with purple gray, I wandering ponder, should in a perfect were there such a thing world be a though the word is plain color with it's own to name as they say creates word. It soothes.

The Rise and Fall of Gods -- a fragment

In ally

I. What hath man wrought! When faced with the question of love Or seeking peace with the answer thereof, Or faced with life peril-fraught, Created a god, or several, to satisfy Some need to fulfill or deny A lacking - A slacking On someone else's behalf, Or his own behalf - And on the world a question of faith brought. And when a man, endowed With the ability to make his own God, Does so with nary a nod, And finds the god shan't be cowed, What does he then? And when a group of men Make their God With nary a nod, And cow him easily, rightly To them, and find him tightly bound, what then, with a god bowed? What then, indeed, should a God, Now lesser than his creators, do When his creators move to gods new? Is he then still a God? Or is that when God dies, Not bloated with swarms of flies, But forgotten? Not rotten, Forgotten and immortal, what then? Does he hope to come again, Rising a second time, perhaps again to be God? One would hope that the God, being omniscient Would realize he was no longer, otherwise Might he become destructive? Likewise, A god, waiting patient Could become restless, Try to leave his creators breathless, Again, But then, Be pronounced a heretic By all but the hermetic And others of the new God ignorant. So hence a people divided Those of Whispers and those of Nanon, Fight to the tooth and fight to the bone, Until over Whispers Nanon presided; And when those of Nanon took Speech from the Whispers so as to look And not hear, They here Those of Whispers with Supposed powers of myth Of creation with speech's remnants provided. So it was before the fall of Whispers that Faith of most all lay in technology, Remnants of religion lay in astrology And superstitious fears like the black cat. Only after the fall did the faiths Of only the Whisperers turn to mysterious wraiths And gods, But the odds That one of the gods was taken more seriously Than the rest was small, and not mysteriously, The small bit of Faith quickly passed as society's scat Now, it's come that those of Nanon have all but forgotten Those of Whispers except perhaps in myth Maybe portrayed as consorting with Black cats or something equally rotten. But for the Whisperers, the city Of Nanon is very real, also denial of pity Of sunlight, For sunlight Is blocked by the city directly overhead And the Whisperers know of only shadow instead; Only death out from beneath the city to be gotten. The magic that's spoken of those Of the Whispers, is often made Out to be more, but because of their stayed Speech, only whispers remain in quite prose. So through the long stretches of time, The Whisperers, through long stretches of rhyme Can make - Only make - What they wish, with words divine, Benign, or malign, And in their creations complete trust repose. So begins a story, often told but never yet writ Of a divided people still the same And the rise and fall of a god played like a game. While not true itself, it is truth lit: As men continue to create and live under gods, What would happen if the gods, at odds, Warred and fell, Raising hell In the process? What would happen In a society misshapen If a wrathful god fell and no one cared a whit?

Notes:

Notes from the post following this one: Some parallel universe or future or somesuch where empathy is/has become a major sense. Big-brother type thing ruling over citizens & magic, main character tries to break free etc etc. Futurological Congress helped inspire the dream that inspired this. Anyways, life expectancy increased, dead (god fell) takes on a new sense involving how other people perceive you with empathic sense (need a snazzy name for that. empathesia?) Story about main character as he slowly 'dies', but tries to overcome corrupt powers. Sorta cliche, oh well. Setting: mix between furcadia-ish (energetic.gif) and big city with no windows shrug reconciling religion and magic magic of Sabriel, Abhorsens servants (sorta), death still final, but with a twist, magic just a part of humans provided by god that only recently got discovered. Charter = man's constriction on his own free magic sound, words, and actions in religion and magic, synaesthesia, poetry and music's effect on people -> subjective/subtle magic -> subjective time, location, perception Death in Sabriel, "90 degrees from everything" in SiaSL (Ran)Gerig/Kerrick Simon Joshua Max Josef Partitions of magic, levels controlled by gov't. Magic->influence. Mana. Gov't messed w/perceptions "oblivious to the fact that if they weren't oblivious, they'd probably be screaming in pain" or empathy explosion: cares & worries turned into reality (starving children in africa makes it impossible to not clean your plate, water conservation hurts once you learn about it).