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Ranna kinda embarrassed to say, but he read a whole shitload of stuff on unassisted childbirth last night, too - Merry went through it, and posted a link about it - which made him rather frustrated. S'the only thing he really HATES about being gay c.c Kanja squeeze. c.c Ranna wraparound mink. Oh well. Will live :3 Kanja says, "Could always adopt!" Ranna nods, s'true! Thinks.. er.. well, it's more like gender dysphoria than anything. Sure, he'd like to be a dad, but.. fff. Sometimes really wants to be a mom c.c Kanja certainly can understand that. Thinks he's said before he identifies more as female, sometimes to the point that it hurts to not be. Ranna nodnods. Most of the time he just feels like he's being left out of about half of everything, what with gender roles. Whenever he gets to thinking about parenthood, though, it gets kinda crazy like that c.c Kanja nodnods. ;.; You yerf, "Nevermind the sexual aspect of it :oP" Ranna oh well. Spent most of last night reading about homebirths and watching videos and whatnot. Then freaked out about his cat :oP Kanja hee. Had a dream once, long ago, of being female and having sex. Stuck with him all these years in detail because it was an extremely vivid dream, and he's never forgotten the sensation of /feeling/ someone inside, from the female end of things. c.c It was an odd dream. Ranna nodnods! Has a lot of.. ur.. hypnogogic thoughts like that - right at the edge of sleep. Still, he rather likes his penis, and penis in general, so though he may feel rather like a straight girl, he'll probably just stick with gay guy c.c Kanja hee. c.