diary livejournal fossils
So.. things are actually looking pretty good right now. My teachers had everything due a few weeks ago, and so this week is looking to be pretty easy, and next week is spring break, wherein I have no school or work from Friday afternoon until Monday morning. I’m feeling really happy when I’m at school, and okay when I’m at home (for some reason, being in the house really drags me down, but I had the same trouble at my mom’s during the spring time). I’m really starting to enjoy the outdoors, but homework and other such things are keeping me inside a lot of the time when it’s light out. I think we should have a picnic. Pack up some bread, some cheese, some beer, and some summer salad and go out to city park or campus or somewhere.
There’ve been a good number of subtle sorts of changes recently. I’m feeling less and less lonely, but more and more distant from some friends. I feel less of a need for love, as if it just tickles me pink to feel subtler things. Less of a need for affection, but no loss of meaning. Less enjoyment for composing, but not for lack of ideas, so much as lack of time. Less frustration with work, but more responsibility. Humility in knowledge, but selfishness in social interaction. Pride in improvement, acceptance of evaluation from self and others. Less religious, less thought-filled, but no less spiritual. I think I can live with all of this for a while, but I’m fairly sure a change is coming up, possibly over break, possibly over summer, because I think a lot of it has to do with how much free time I have with school and work