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<h1>Zk | Limerent Object (WT)</h1>
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<p><span class="tag">short-story</span> <span class="tag">fiction</span> <span class="tag">sawtooth</span> <span class="tag">furry</span></p>
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<p>For RAWR, a <a href="discernment.html">prequel</a></p>
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<h3 id="brief-outline">Brief outline</h3>
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<ul>
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<li class="done2"> The slow formation of a crush<ul>
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<li class="done2"> Falling for anyone who’s the slightest bit nice to you</li>
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<li class="done2"> Intolerable limerence<ul>
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<li class="done2"> Limerence as unwanted emotional attraction</li>
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<li class="done2"> pining</li>
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<li class="done2"> dreaming about just being close, casual affection, etc</li>
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<li class="done2"> Not wanting to talk about it b/c afraid of coercion</li>
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<li class="done2"> Just try to be the best person you can be for them</li>
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<li class="done1"> Except that just makes it all the more intense</li>
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</ul>
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<li class="done0"> Crisis point and denouement<ul>
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<li class="done0"> Bounce off each other at some point and the limerence starts to fade</li>
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<li class="done0"> Picture what would have happened had they gotten together.</li>
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<p>Told in the form of journal entries after long online conversations, complete with snippets</p>
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<p>Goal: 40-50k words</p>
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<p>(why leave seminary: with church heading toward tending only to the members of the church, Dee felt as though he was leaving behind large swaths of people)
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(why the sense of duty and control: old-fashioned family of blue-collar coyotes - domestic animals being royalty, remember - pushed hard to lift him up)</p>
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<p>Epigraph: εκαρδίωσας ημάς ενί από οφθαλμών σου εν μία ενθέματι τραχήλου σου - you have ravished my heart with one glance of your eyes, with one bead of your necklace.</p>
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<h3 id="characters">Characters</h3>
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<li>Dewí “Dee” Kimana<ul>
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<li>Coyote guy</li>
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<li>Psychologist</li>
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<li>Raised (and still is) very religious</li>
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<li>Has a crush on…</li>
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<li>Kay<ul>
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<li>Coyote gal</li>
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<li>Music grad student at UI Boise</li>
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<li>Transferred after a year, met in the last few weeks of shared class</li>
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<li>Not religious, and that’s the thing that they bounce off each other on down the line</li>
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</ul>
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</li>
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<li>Jeremy<ul>
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<li>Dee’s therapist</li>
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<li>Encourages Dee to start journaling as a way to work through these new emotions</li>
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</ul>
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<li>Rev. Dr. Borenson<ul>
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<li>Saint Bernard</li>
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<li>Dee’s old advisor at St John’s university</li>
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</ul>
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<h2 id="story">Story</h2>
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<h3 id="using-romance-beats">Using romance beats</h3>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="beats/01-agenda.html">Goal/agenda</a><ul>
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<li class="done3"> Starting to journal</li>
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<li class="done3"> Session on discernment with client</li>
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</ul>
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</li>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="beats/02-meet-cute.html">Meet cute</a> (working backwards)<ul>
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<li class="done3"> Meet at library</li>
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<li class="done3"> Thinking back to first crush</li>
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</ul>
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</li>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="beats/03-no-way-1.html">No way #1</a><ul>
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<li class="done3"> the dream</li>
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<li class="done3"> post dream, left on a whim, why?</li>
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<li class="done3"> couldn’t tell, neurodivergent</li>
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<li class="rejected"> Celibacy — A bit more about that.</li>
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</ul>
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</li>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="beats/04-stuck-together.html">Stuck together</a><ul>
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<li class="done3"> Lunch 1: first lunch, actually chatting</li>
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<li class="done3"> Lunch 2: lent</li>
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<li class="done3"> Lunch 3: post-recital</li>
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</ul>
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</li>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="beats/05-no-way-2.html">No way #2</a><ul>
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<li class="done3"> confession</li>
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<li class="done3"> egodystonic attraction</li>
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<li class="done3"> talk with jeremy</li>
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<li class="done3"> Crowds + presentation — have to write presentation</li>
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<li class="done3"> Notes — outlining presentation</li>
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<li class="done3"> Essay + conversation with Kay abt it — presentation (also includes notes)</li>
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</ul>
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</li>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="beats/06-bone-town.html">Bone town</a><ul>
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<li class="done3"> A: Visit, finally acknowledge feelings may be real (okay but are they actually gonna bone (probably not))</li>
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</ul>
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</li>
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<li class="done3"> Seeds of doubt<ul>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="beats/07-seeds-of-doubt--1-wallow-1.html">Wallow #1</a> - I knew better when…<ul>
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<li class="done3"> A: Weird concert/dinner</li>
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<li class="done3"> B: Discernment - discussion with Borenson</li>
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</ul>
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</li>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="beats/07-seeds-of-doubt--2-retreat.html">Retreat</a> - soft spots exposed<ul>
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<li class="done3"> Remembering talking with god after moving back to sawtooth</li>
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<li class="done3"> Talking about previous entry, then goes for hike</li>
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<li class="done3"> Discernment - talk with god, decide to go with it</li>
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</ul>
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</li>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="beats/07-seeds-of-doubt--3-choose-fear.html">Choose fear</a> - break up!<ul>
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<li class="done3"> A: Hanging out, reading ???: totes not going to work out</li>
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<li class="done3"> B: Discernment - struggling with self definition</li>
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</ul>
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</li>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="beats/07-seeds-of-doubt--4-wallow-2.html">Wallow #2</a><ul>
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<li class="done3"> B: Discernment - leaving</li>
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<li class="done3"> A: Going home, feeling rough re: giving up</li>
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<li class="done3"> Bit more — Maybe one more? Otherwise, he goes from pretty mopey to kind of positive fairly suddenly.</li>
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</ul>
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</ul>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="beats/08-choose-love.html">Choose love</a><ul>
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<li class="done3"> A: Decide maybe it’s worth it as a way to move forward for once</li>
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</ul>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="beats/09-plan.html">Plan</a><ul>
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<li class="done3"> A: Email boogaloo — Drafts email, sending a few before to build up the expectation of emails being a thing</li>
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<li class="done3"> B: Ask God — Talks to god</li>
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</ul>
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</li>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="beats/10-grand-gesture.html">Grand gesture</a><ul>
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<li class="done3"> The Conversation™ (winds up not actually sending the email ha ha whoops, just starts conversation over text)</li>
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</ul>
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</li>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="beats/11-ends-with-no.html">Ends with “no”</a><ul>
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<li class="done3"> A: Kay had picked up on it, decides pretty firmly on her end that she wants to keep friendship. Sigh, ah well. (merged with above)</li>
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</ul>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="beats/12-payoff.html">Payoff</a> (probably just one chapter of what-ifs)<ul>
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<li class="done3"> A: Limerence fades, settle back into new, more open friendship/what could have been</li>
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<li class="done3"> B: Doubt fades, settle into lay life/what could have been</li>
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</ul>
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</li>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="beats/13-epilogue.html">Epilogue/hope</a> (again, probably just one chapter)<ul>
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<li class="done3"> A: Plans another visit/okay being friends</li>
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<li class="done3"> B: Starts volunteering MH counselling services at church. — Feast of St KT.</li>
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</ul>
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</ol>
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<h3 id="old-outline">Old outline</h3>
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<li class="done3"> Act I<ul>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="10.html">Starting to journal</a></li>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="20.html">Liminal spaces and history</a></li>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="21.html">A sudden memory</a></li>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="30.html">Early crush</a></li>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="31.html">Lunch 1 with Kay</a></li>
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<li class="done3"> <a href="40.html">A dream</a></li>
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</ul>
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</li>
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<li class="done2"> Act II<ul>
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<li class="done2"> <a href="50.html">Leaving seminary vs liking Kay</a></li>
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<li class="done2"> <a href="51.html">Lunch 2 with Kay</a></li>
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<li class="done2"> <a href="52.html">Talking with god part 1</a> !</li>
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<li class="done0"> <a href="53.html">Talking with god part 2</a> !</li>
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<li class="done0"> <a href="54.html">Visiting Kay part 1</a> !</li>
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<li class="done0"> <a href="55.html">Visiting Kay part 2</a> !</li>
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<li class="done2"> <a href="60.html">Dee chickens out</a></li>
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<li class="done2"> <a href="61.html">Confession</a></li>
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<li class="done2"> <a href="70.html">Projection</a></li>
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<li class="done2"> <a href="71.html">Egodystonic attraction</a></li>
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<li class="done0"> <a href="72.html">Lunch 3 with Kay</a></li>
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</ul>
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</li>
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<li class="done1"> Act III<ul>
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<li class="done0"> <a href="80.html">Calling Borenson</a></li>
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<li class="done0"> <a href="86.html">Talking with God</a></li>
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<li class="done0"> </li>
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<li class="done1"> <a href="90.html">The conversation</a></li>
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</ul>
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</li>
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<li class="done0"> Conclusion<ul>
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<li class="done0"> What would have happened</li>
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<li class="done0"> Talking with God again</li>
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</ul>
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</li>
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</ul>
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<h3 id="todo">Todo</h3>
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<li class="done1"> Include more Job/Ecclesiastes-type thoughts</li>
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<li class="done0"> Quote scripture?</li>
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<li class="done4"> Integrate prequel in Dee’s words</li>
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<li class="done0"> Flesh out between current chapters.</li>
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<li class="done0"> Takes place around July 14, feast of St Kateri Tekakwitha</li>
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<li class="done0"> Make Dee’s qualms about the church more in line with Discernment and less about doctrine of good works (because that’s actually totally the catholics’ thing)</li>
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<li class="done0"> A few subplots!</li>
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