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<h1>Zk | RJ Brewster --- 2112</h1>
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<p><span class="tag">writing</span> <span class="tag">novel</span> <span class="tag">chapter</span> <span class="tag">fiction</span> <span class="tag">scifi</span> <span class="tag">post-self</span> <span class="tag">qoheleth</span></p>
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<p>It took AwDae just under two hours to find the microphone.</p>
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<p>The first hour was spent searching the auditorium thoroughly. Ey walked around clapping and humming, then singing songs half-remembered from productions ey had worked in the past. Ey would've whistled if it wasn't for the structure of a canid muzzle.</p>
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<p>Silence.</p>
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<p>After an hour, venturing even into the overhead areas where sound was muffled, damped, ey gave up and took a break.</p>
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<p><em>It's probably fruitless to be this thorough in the auditorium,</em> ey thought. <em>The gain' high enough that even a quiet clap should be enough.</em></p>
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<p>Ey slouched in an auditorium seat and pulled out the slip of paper with Cicero's transactions. Ey found that if ey focused on the page just so, rows would sort themselves by columns. Weird.</p>
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<p>Ey scanned over the titles of the initiatives voted on. Very little there to latch onto. Or, rather, way too much. AwDae couldn't manage to boil down the table into any single sentence, much less something useful. The cat had apparently voted on just about everything, without taking any breaks.</p>
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<p>Eventually, when neat rows of letters began to blur into one another, ey levered emself up from the seat. Paper refolded, ey slipped it back into a pocket before checking on the board once more. Everything remained set as it was before the break.</p>
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<p>AwDae had imagined ey would work in concentric circles away from the auditorium. Not to be the best idea. The hall was nestled between two arms of the school which did not meet except via the auditorium itself. Eir routine grew arduous: ey'd walk down one hallway, poke into classrooms, and make noise before moving on.</p>
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<p>When ey reached the end of eir circle, though, ey had to jog around the auditorium through the student center to go down the other hallway and do the same.</p>
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<p>Ey gave up on the concentric circle plan and started working from north to south, instead. Ey worked through the entirety of one hallway, clapping and hollering, without hearing anything. From there, on to the area of the student center near the auditorium.</p>
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<p>It was there that ey heard the first, faint hum of feedback.</p>
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<p>It threatened skimmed beneath eir attention, sounding too much like an echo from eir own voice in the cavernous common area. The door to the auditorium caught eir eye, and ey tried once more, getting another faint hum. It slowly died out as space and air dissipated tone.</p>
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<p>It took another few minutes to find the microphone itself. A lavalier mic, disguised as a button resting obsequiously atop the door handle leading into the principal's office. It was just to the northeast of the auditorium doors. Ey would've found it soon enough. It was surprising, in a way, that ey hadn't managed to trigger any feedback earlier.</p>
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<p>The door was labeled 'Admin.'. Ominous.</p>
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<p>There was a head office at the front of the school, but administration was where the principal and vice principals' offices were. One of those places that lingered in the mind of every student who passed through the doors of the school. Getting called to the front office was usually bad enough --- a call from a parent? --- but getting called to the admin office was more oh-shit than that.</p>
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<p>Ears pinned back, AwDae picked up the microphone delicately through mounting feedback before shutting it off. The hum had grown loud enough that ey could hear faint clicks from the speakers. Magnets clicking, popping as the physical limitations of the ancient-and-not-so-great speakers reached their limit.</p>
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<p>The sound stopped a scant few moments after, bouncing around the auditorium and the student center. Echoes.</p>
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<p>Eir ears slowly uncringed. Ey pocketed the mic in eir trouser pockets and straightened up. The school was silent once more.</p>
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<p>Remembering the position of the mic, AwDae pocketed the mic and straightened up, wandered back over to the auditorium, turning the gain down on the board and lowering the house volume to a reasonable level. Ey even turned the mic back on and mumbled a quick "one-two" to ensure that none of the speakers had been damaged.</p>
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<p><em>This is a sim. Not even mine,</em> ey thought, ears tinted pink with embarrassment. <em>What does it matter if a speaker blew?</em></p>
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<p>Ey shrugged it off. Habits were habits. No reason to break them now.</p>
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<p>Back to the admin office, then. Tail swishing behind em, AwDae couldn't help but feel as though ey was trapped within a game. One of those first-person puzzle solvers that seemed forever popular --- and eir favorite of the genres. It was surprising the adroitness with which eir perspective had shifted, sobbing behind em.</p>
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<p>Perhaps the fact that ey seemed to be receiving what amounted to clues while in a complex abandoned building added to that. Perhaps it was the shift from RJ to AwDae. Perhaps something about emself. Countless hours in sim. Countless changes in scenery. Countless changes in form.</p>
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<p>Shaking eir head, ey turned the knob on the admin office and peeked inside.</p>
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<p>There were no traps, no jump-scares. Just the six-sided room with three doors on the walls this one. One for the principal, and two for the vice principals. Taking the game metaphor to heart, ey started poking around the office where ey could, flipping through a datebook on the secretary's desk (empty) and rummaging through the drawers (office supplies).</p>
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<p>The waste baskets were empty.</p>
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<p>Steeling emself for something...what, shocking? The game mentality still holding tight, perhaps. Ey tried each of the doors in turn.</p>
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<p>Surprising. It wasn't the principal's office that opened, but one of the vice principals. The name escaped em, and no tags adorned the doors. The office was dark, but the lights responded to a touch on the pad. Ey set it to a comfortable level; warm without being cozy, bright enough to read without being intimidating.</p>
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<p>Memories of being hauled into the room, all those years ago, with the lights all the way up, a gesture of power.</p>
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<p>Rummaging through the desk revealed little of note.</p>
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<p>Rather than a planner on the desk, however, was a workstation. Simple. Ancient. It didn't respond to any of AwDae's interactions. How it would work, ey didn't know. A sim within a sim? Ey had perhaps hoped that a connection like that might lead outside. Outside of this mess.</p>
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<p>The only other items on the desk was a scratch pad and a pencil. They never seemed to go out of style. The pad contained a simple breakdown of costs, divided into departments, for the coming year. A simple three-column setup tallying subject, expense, and deductions from some number at the top. Budgets, perhaps. At the bottom of the page, was a final number, circled in dark, angry strokes. Apparently, the administrator hadn't liked the result.</p>
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<p>AwDae flumped down in the chair at a jaunty angle, eir tail flopping down between armrest and chair back. Tired, so very tired.</p>
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<p>Ey rubbed away the sandy grit of tears already shed. Ey was moving in this search with determination, as much as ey could muster. Anything to occupy eir mind, anything to keep em from ollapsing into a depression borne of hopelessness and despair. It occurred to em that getting lost was the perfect prison: complete freedom, or nearly so (ey had already fantasized about jimmying open the other doors), with nothing to do. Nothing to dream, nowhere to go, nothing to know.</p>
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<p>Ey didn't even know the time. No clocks adorned the walls.</p>
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<p>Ey would go mad without a task. Could ey create anything? But why create in these empty halls? What would ey even begin to make that would matter the worth of a damn? Ey would never be able to share it. Ey would only be able to spiral endlessly inwards.</p>
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<p>All AwDae wanted to do was curl up in the chair. It was comfortable enough. Perhaps ey could get some sleep in.</p>
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<p>Instead, ey ground the heels of eir paws against eir face and leaned toward the desk. Numbers, digits, columns. Something familiar. Mindlessly working through the sums in eir head simply for lack of anything else to do.</p>
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<p>"Weird," ey murmured sleepily.</p>
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<p>The numbers didn't add up. Rather, everything added up within its own row. It was as though a row were missing.</p>
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<p>Ey yawned and stretched, snatching up the scrap of note and holding it up to the light. No erasures, whiteouts, or scribbles. There was just not enough information.</p>
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<p>Digits. Numbers. Ledger. Paper. Notes?</p>
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<p>If ey was meant to be looking for clues, then...</p>
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<p>Ey fished the previous clue out of eir pocket. The ledger of Cicero's DDR interactions.</p>
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<p>It wasn't nearly so simple as the single-column arithmetic on the scratch paper. Each referendum had three columns: a cost, a bounty (if that referendum was referred back to the house), and any number of comments made on the issue. Often out of order on the sheet, as well, given Cicero's habit of voting on everything. Perhaps it was the first thing he did on waking.</p>
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<p>Given the note's interactivity level of expanding on closer examination, ey tried to will a sum out of the columns to match the final row. No luck.</p>
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<p>Ey wished for eir rig more than anything. It'd make the task almost trivial. Ah well. Ey snagged the half-used pencil and the rest of the scrap and worked it out. Each cost and comment would be a debit, and each bounty would be a credit. One could also buy DDR credits through a mechanism that basically acted as an additional withholding on one's taxes. There were two of those in there, possibly ensuring that Cicero would have enough DDR credit to make what AwDae assumed was some scathing political snipe on an upcoming high-stakes referendum.</p>
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<p>Even so, it was clear that the section of numbers on the paper, a month's worth, perhaps, didn't add up. Once more, there was a missing interaction. Three missing interactions, rather: one vote's cost, one vote's comment, and one vote's bounty, at AwDae's best guess. Perhaps a few smaller votes to add up to those totals.</p>
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<p>Except that one's DDR records were public. Not which way one voted, but that one had voted. Comments were public perforce. The information had to be public, for the system to work.</p>
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<p>Unless it had been tampered with, their was a combination of 1,252,000 credits unaccounted for in terms of transactions. One million debit to the comment, a quarter of a million credit for bounty, and two thousand to the vote cost.</p>
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<p>AwDae tore the top sheet off the pad and, working faster this time, ran the numbers once more. Same result.</p>
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<p>"Well, huh." Ey sat, stunned, for a little while longer before gathering eir notes. Ey folded them together with the original clue and stuffed them into eir pocket. Ey couldn't create a deck here, apparently, but ey could sure take items with emself.</p>
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<p>If this all had something to do with what was going on outside, where ey was counted among the lost, that was all well and good, but how would ey get that information back out remained a mystery.</p>
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<p>Too early to be thinking of such things. Ey wasn't going anywhere for the time being. Sleep was becoming an imperative.</p>
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<p>Ey gave token consideration to where ey would be able to sleep before deciding on the auditorium. The fold-down seats were cushioned. Not very well, but better than the floor.</p>
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<p>And the place had a sense of home about it, too. The thought was a barb tugging at eir heart, but there was nothing to be done. Not in this state. Not right now.</p>
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<p>Sleep, then.</p>
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<p>Sleep, perhaps dreams.</p>
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<p>Or perhaps not. Sleep to get away. Sleep for nullity. Sleep for nothingness.</p>
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