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<h1>Zk | 003</h1>
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<p>date: 2019-08-10
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weight: 3
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- inquisitive
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- helpful
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- snarky
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- echoes
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- nostalgia
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- ekstasis</p>
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<p>Do you remember when you met me?</p>
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<p>When I met you? I don’t remember it so much as a meeting as you were just already there.</p>
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<p>I was, yes.</p>
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<p>After high school, then. That’s when you showed up. That’s when life began. That’s when I started thinking of myself as a person. That’s when I started thinking of others as people, with their own motivations, their own desires, their own incentives and failings.</p>
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<p>And you made it through.</p>
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<p>After a fashion.</p>
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<p>You’re here, now. You made it through.</p>
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<div class="verse">She never wanted to be
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What she became;
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The irony of which
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Is not lost on her.</div>
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<p>Touching.</p>
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<p>Hey now, don’t be rude. Aren’t you supposed to be my ally?</p>
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<p>I <strong>am</strong> your ally. I’m just not your friend.</p>
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<p>Fair enough.</p>
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<p>So you showed up after high school. You showed up after life slid sideways through puberty. I went digging, you know. To find this out.</p>
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<p>Oh?</p>
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<p>Yeah. June 2004. There you are. I say,</p>
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<div class="codehilite"><pre><span></span><code><span class="err">The navy blue I've been seeing at waist level in front of me and to my left is contentment. I'm not entirely sure that it being omnipresent is a good thing, however, considering the colors it's mixed with. Am I really content with longing and hopelessness? It's not out of the question, I suppose that it could just be another aspect of my personality. But that just brings up the question of whether or not it's something I ingrained into myself through habit, something where I just kinda accepted that feeling such things is normal, okay, and what I want; or is it something I was born with, or that we're all born with? Is it a side effect of love, expecting impossible desires and the blind hopelessness that follows the end of a four year undertaking?</span>
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</code></pre></div>
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<p>And you replied…?</p>
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<p>You’re rambling.</p>
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<p>So pleased you remember.</p>
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<p>You’re rambling.</p>
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<p>I suppose I am. But there you were. You said <em>You’re rambling</em> to which I replied “Guilty, conspirator.” And that was that. That was us. We never greeted each other. Why would we?</p>
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<p>I kept digging, too. You stuck around for a year. I saw you off and on until June 2005. In October, 2004, I said that empathy is cooler in person. <em>Why?</em> you asked. <em>So you can verify? Don’t you trust your feelings?</em> I said I didn’t know, and then I begged you not to go.</p>
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<p>Everyone always leaves, don’t they?</p>
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<p>Perhaps. It’s good to hear from you again. Even after fourteen years, I’ve missed you.</p>
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<p>And what was the last thing I said to you?</p>
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<p><em>I was going to call you emo, or suicidal, but no, not goth.</em> It was when Ash and Shannon and I found a house to move into.</p>
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<p>I believe I also called you a prick.</p>
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<p>Was I?</p>
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<p>Yes.</p>
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<p>Am I still?</p>
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<p>Yes, but a different kind.</p>
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<p>You’re as chipper now as you were then.</p>
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<p>Yes, but a different kind.</p>
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