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<h1>Zk | 002</h1>
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<p>date: 2019-08-14
weight: 2</p>
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<p>I talk up my style as frumpcore. <em>It&rsquo;s the synthesis of momcore and downtempo librarian,</em> I say. In reality, It&rsquo;s an intentionally garbage-y, thrown-together look designed to, I hope, lead onlookers&rsquo; eyes to slide right off of me as unremarkable.</p>
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<p>Ah yes, the invisible six-foot-one trans woman with purple hair. That tired old trope.</p>
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<p>While I&rsquo;ve had <a class="pulse" href="/furry/fursona">furso&ntilde;as</a> that were intended to be something better than myself &mdash; Makyo, for a while, was dressed in a nice suit &mdash; more often than not, they&rsquo;ve played along similar lines.</p>
<p>Ranna was a gay fox, a bit pudgy, with two tails he readily admitted were an early affectation to differentiate himself from countless other foxes.</p>
<p>Makyo was intentionally a transfeminine vixen who didn&rsquo;t pass.</p>
<p>Maddy&rsquo;s a dumpy, nerdy cis girl who dresses to hide her weight.</p>
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<p>And Madison&rsquo;s a dumpy, nerdy transfeminine girl who doesn&rsquo;t pass and dresses to hide her weight?</p>
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<p>I suppose.</p>
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<p>You don&rsquo;t give yourself enough credit.</p>
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<p>Is that your department, now? Cheering me on?</p>
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<p>I&rsquo;m your ally.</p>
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<p>But not my friend.</p>
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<p>No, but I am your ally.</p>
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<p>Fine. How do I not give myself enough credit?</p>
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<p>Firstly, you&rsquo;re not as invisible as you seem and frumpcore isn&rsquo;t seen as that cohesive from the outside. Secondly, you pass better than you imagine. Everyone tells you that, you just can&rsquo;t yet hear it. Finally, you just got done writing some heavy shit after a day of worrying about work, so of course you&rsquo;re down on yourself. You don&rsquo;t want to pass, remember? You want to be visibly trans. You want to be seen as the trans psychopomp you strive to be.</p>
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<p>&hellip;Wow.</p>
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<p>Your very words set lie to your insecurities. Your furso&ntilde;as are yourself expressed more earnestly than you can manage in person.</p>
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<p>Thank you.</p>
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<p>If you could become Maddy, would you?</p>
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<p>Yeah, in a heartbeat.</p>
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<p>Why?</p>
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<p>You said it as well as I could. She&rsquo;s the front-stage persona I wish were also my back-stage persona.</p>
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<p>And she&rsquo;s pretty.</p>
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<p>I mean, she&rsquo;s still a dumpy fat nerd.</p>
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<p>Let&rsquo;s talk about kink.</p>
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<p>Oh for Christ&rsquo;s sake.</p>
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