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<h2 id="ioan-balan-the-balan-clade">Ioan Bălan — The Bălan clade</h2>
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<p>systime 222 (2346)</p>
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<p>Lagrange—Castor transmission delay:<br />
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30 days, 14 hours, 37 minutes</p>
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<p>Lagrange—Pollux transmission delay:<br />
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30 days, 14 hours, 41 minutes</p>
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<p>Codrin and Codrin,</p>
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<p>I hope that you and yours are well. All of this news from Castor quickly got overwhelming and I know I’ve not been as good as I would like at keeping up with things that are not just “holy shit, aliens”. I have a few updates.</p>
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<p>The first is that, surprising no one, I’ve been contracted by A Finger Pointing to write a play about our visitors. I’ve been reading all of your updates, #Castor, and certainly the knowledge is worth quite a bit on its own, but can I ask for some information about the moods throughout? If I’m to pull together a story out of this, that will be more useful in the context of a play than the facts. Besides, it’s not like we can do much in the way of fact checking from where we are. I have plenty of flexibility there. I’ve attached what I have, though obviously it’ll be a month out of date by the time you get it (and two months by the time you answer).</p>
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<p>Second, I’m sorry to say that End Waking has requested that Debarre give him some space for a bit again. I know that you two never got the chance to meet him and that I gush about him every time he comes up, but he really is delightful, and I wish him the best in his solitude, however long it might last.</p>
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<p>May and I visited Debarre for dinner after we got the news and spent a bit of time talking about it. I was pleased to learn that these separations don’t come with any ire, just a simple request and understanding. He seemed really calm, even a bit relieved about it. Apparently the weeks leading up to being asked to leave are a little awkward.</p>
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<p>I think part of why this came when it did is due to the convergence. I know that Debarre is still far more plugged into the news of the System than I, and given that End Waking has essentially opted out, I can see that being an uncomfortable divide.</p>
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<p>Finally and perhaps most impactful for me, I had the chance to meet one-on-one with True Name during convergence. Even after a month of thinking about the meeting, I’m still unsure what to make of it.</p>
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<p>I, like you two, had the chance to interview her a few times during the process of pulling together the <em>History</em>, so I had been expecting the same frightful competence that I saw twenty-odd years ago.</p>
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<p>I did not.</p>
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<p>It’s difficult for me to describe the ways in which she’s changed. She’s…overworked, perhaps? She looks like she’s stretched herself too thin to keep up as well as she used to. I know that she mentioned that the tone of our interviews was carefully constructed in order to shape the narrative, and that the emotions she put on display were deliberately chosen for the role she was playing, but…well, I wasn’t expecting to make her cry.</p>
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<p>And yet from what you two have said, other than her experience on Artemis, she’s still going strong on both the LVs.</p>
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<p>I don’t really know what to do with this information, honestly. I keep thinking about things I could have said or questions I could have asked, but it always gets muddled up in my head given her similarities to May. I’ve spent so long with May that seeing someone as similar to her as True Name in distress yet be unable to comfort in the same ways I might has me rudderless.</p>
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<p>Either way, I’ve set up another meeting with her now that convergence news has settled into a more steady stream, so I guess we’ll see where that leads.</p>
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<p>May has taken these two meetings surprisingly well, I’ll note. She mentioned that, given our position, that leaves us liable to come into contact with her again in the future, so we might as well ensure that it’s not so jarring as it was that first night we found out about Artemis.</p>
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<p>I know she’s been working on her feelings about this with Sarah, so I’m happy to see a little less fury in her than I used to. She got really quiet during that conversation before admitting that the reason she wound up feeling as she did about True Name was due to the <em>History</em> itself. She hadn’t known about True Name’s subtle nudging of Michelle/Sasha with regards to both Launch and her death until we put it to paper. We both agree that that’s helped her calm down the most: just being able to name the source.</p>
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<p>Still, it’s a lot. We seem to be inextricably entangled with the Ode clade, and while I love May dearly and I know that you two love Dear, it sometimes feels a little like being trapped.</p>
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<p>Anyway, all that to say that True Name’s having a rough time here, and I’m hoping that she’s able to get set up with Sarah. Never thought I’d say such, but I’m worried about her.</p>
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<p><strong>CODRIN BĂLAN#CASTOR INDIVIDUAL-EYES-ONLY MATERIAL</strong></p>
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<p>I’m also worried about you. Your last letter led to a few conversations between May and I about you and Sorina, but also about the topic of individuation in more general terms. I understand that you two did your best to diverge as quickly as possible, and I can’t even imagine that.</p>
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<p>I know that when you became Codrin, that was not something that I’d foreseen, and despite the surface similarities, this feels fundamentally different. It’s a new thing for us, I think. You two were borne out of the changes that the Odists wrought on us, but Sorina was borne out of changes coming from within.</p>
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<p>I know that I risk our messages passing each other through the great big nothing between us, so perhaps there’s more already on the way, but perhaps you can tell me more about her, or about the both of you?</p>
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<p>To be clear, none of this is for the play. I spent some time talking with Sarah about it and she had some suggestions for what my role in this matter is. Doubtless you’ve been speaking with her about your role, and perhaps you and Sorina are still talking things through, but maybe Sarah has some suggestions? Maybe you can tell me more about her, too — the good things you remember, in particular. What do you like best about her? What are your hopes for her? What wishes do you have?</p>
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<p>Lean on those around you to whatever level you’re comfortable with, and know that I’m here, firmly rooted as you say. I’ll offer all that I can.</p>
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<p>Be safe above all.</p>
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<p>The next section is just to inform #Pollux that you sent a fork to Artemis without details.</p>
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<p><strong>END CODRIN BĂLAN#CASTOR INDIVIDUAL-EYES-ONLY MATERIAL</strong></p>
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<p><strong>CODRIN BĂLAN#POLLUX INDIVIDUAL-EYES-ONLY MATERIAL</strong></p>
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<p>The previous section for #Castor surrounds eir decision to send a fork to Artemis. Without sharing too much, it’s led to a lot of inner strife for em. I’m worried, but that’s nothing new. Either way, just wanted to provide some context. I’ll leave any further information up to em to pass on.</p>
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<p><strong>END CODRIN BĂLAN#POLLUX INDIVIDUAL-EYES-ONLY MATERIAL</strong></p>
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<p>I hope things are going well despite all these dramatic goings on. May and I send our love to you and yours.</p>
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<p>Ioan Bălan</p>
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