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<p>D&gt; Been thinking.</p>
<p>D&gt; We still talk a lot, and I really like that. For having only had a little bit of time together at UI, it&rsquo;s nice that we&rsquo;ve been able to keep up with each other.</p>
<p>K&gt; Yeah?</p>
<p>K&gt; I mean, I like it too.</p>
<p>K&gt; I only talk to you and like two classmates from that time, and one only because he&rsquo;s also up here in Boise.</p>
<p>D&gt; Yeah.</p>
<p>D&gt; So I don&rsquo;t know if this is weird or not. It&rsquo;s not something I&rsquo;ve ever done or</p>
<p>K&gt; ?</p>
<p>D&gt; Not something I&rsquo;ve ever done or really felt, but I think I really like you.</p>
<p>D&gt; Know I really like you.</p>
<p>D&gt; And goodness knows I have no idea what to do about it.</p>
<p>D&gt; It&rsquo;s taken me weeks to even get to the point where I could say that.</p>
<p>K&gt; Huh&hellip;</p>
<p>D&gt; ???</p>
<p>K&gt; I like you too, but I&rsquo;m not sure if it&rsquo;s in the same way?</p>
<p>K&gt; Assuming you mean romantically.</p>
<p>D&gt; Yes.</p>
<p>K&gt; Yeah, see.</p>
<p>K&gt; I don&rsquo;t know.</p>
<p>D&gt; I don&rsquo;t either, I guess.</p>
<p>K&gt; I&rsquo;m really not sure how to take this conversation haha</p>
<p>K&gt; I hope that&rsquo;s not</p>
<p>K&gt; I don&rsquo;t know</p>
<p>K&gt; Painful?</p>
<p>D&gt; Well.</p>
<p>K&gt; Yeah, sorry&hellip;</p>
<p>D&gt; No no, I mean</p>
<p>D&gt; Well, it is, but that&rsquo;s not quite where I was going, hah.</p>
<p>K&gt; Sorry. I&rsquo;ll let you type.</p>
<p>D&gt; I don&rsquo;t really know what I wanted out of this conversation, to be honest. Feelings like this aren&rsquo;t logical, you know? So I think I just wanted to say that because I don&rsquo;t know what to do with all of them. They just boil up within me and I just sit there and feel weird and bad but also kind of good at the same time.</p>
<p>D&gt; And I should add</p>
<p>D&gt; The goal wasn&rsquo;t to try and rope you into something you don&rsquo;t want to do, and I don&rsquo;t want to make it sound like I am trying to do so now.</p>
<p>D&gt; Guilt you into it or whatever.</p>
<p>D&gt; But I guess I wanted to talk about it and get it off my chest.</p>
<p>D&gt; And I guess that&rsquo;s it.</p>
<p>K&gt; Alright.</p>
<p>K&gt; I mean, I don&rsquo;t think you could guilt the wings off a fly, Dee.</p>
<p>K&gt; The whole Catholic thing is guilting yourself, right?</p>
<p>D&gt; That&rsquo;s a bit of an uncharitable way to put it.</p>
<p>K&gt; Sorry. You know I don&rsquo;t understand it.</p>
<p>D&gt; Yeah.</p>
<p>K&gt; And that&rsquo;s maybe part of it.</p>
<p>D&gt; How so?</p>
<p>K&gt; How would you feel being in a relationship with someone who doesn&rsquo;t believe the same stuff?</p>
<p>K&gt; Doesn&rsquo;t believe any of it, I mean.</p>
<p>K&gt; I&rsquo;m not going to knock it or anything, but I&rsquo;m not going to try it, either.</p>
<p>K&gt; I&rsquo;m sorry.</p>
<p>D&gt; Hah.</p>
<p>D&gt; Sorry, that came out weird?</p>
<p>D&gt; Seriously, though, I really don&rsquo;t know. This whole thing, this whole crush or whatever it is, I don&rsquo;t know what the end goal of it is. It&rsquo;s limerence, it&rsquo;s something that&rsquo;s happening to me, and I don&rsquo;t know what to do about it. It&rsquo;s this enormous feeling and you&rsquo;re the limerent object, and I hate that my brain is doing it.</p>
<p>All of my work on emotional literacy is failing me now. It was largely failing me then, as well. I am doing my best to recount the conversation that we had here, but I am in a state of, I suppose, numbness, and that numbness is taking up the same amount of space that the limerence did before. It is overwhelming in its nullity, and there is nothing, it seems, that I can do to shake it. I cannot transmute it into something more positive. I cannot release any of the built up pressure, for there is no catharsis for nothingness.</p>
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