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<h1>Zk | 022</h1>
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<p>date: 2019-09-10
weight: 22</p>
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<p>My turn.</p>
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<p>Shoot.</p>
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<p>Why ask this now? Why ask about the core instead of a side quest?</p>
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<p>I did. I asked about TS.</p>
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<p>Don&rsquo;t deflect.</p>
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<p>Okay.</p>
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<p>Why ask about the project? Why ask about yourself?</p>
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<p>You had job interviews. You had the convention. You&rsquo;re visiting Barac. You stopped writing for a bit.</p>
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<p>I started again, didn&rsquo;t I?</p>
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<p>Yes. Hypomania is fading into the comfortable static of a ground state, though. You&rsquo;re <strong>still</strong> writing. That&rsquo;s why I&rsquo;m asking. Why are you writing this if you&rsquo;re not hypomanic?</p>
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<p>I wrote a bunch of <em>Restless Town</em> when I wasn&rsquo;t hypomanic.</p>
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<p>Yes.</p>
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<p>I wrote some of <em>Rum and Coke</em> when I wasn&rsquo;t hypomanic.</p>
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<p>It shows, in the last one.</p>
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<p>I&rsquo;ve grown as a writer. I&rsquo;ve grown as a person. I can continue projects whose inception lay in hypomania.</p>
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<p>And yet you say that you know a thing is right if you feel the same when depressed as when hypomanic. You can tell a decision is worth making if something other than strange energies birthed it.</p>
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<p>Yes.</p>
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<p>Did strange energies not birth me?</p>
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<p>I don&rsquo;t know. Maybe. I don&rsquo;t think they birthed this project, though. I think this project is&hellip;hmm.</p>
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<p>An honest one? A true one? A worthwhile one?</p>
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<p>Sort of.</p>
<p>Maybe I think it&rsquo;s an earnest one. One that was borne out of a real desire, birthed by a need beyond what might be imbued by hypomania. A more grounded need, not one based in those non-Newtonian laws that govern that other space, where mechanics break down and strange energies spring, palladial, into being.</p>
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