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<p>Lyut stays up late into the night at the promise of the moon. Night is not day, this he knew, and the subconscious understanding that the sun brought light would mean that the absence of the sun would bring darkness does not surprise him.</p>
<p>He remains curious about all things. He marvels at the red and pulsing glow of the embers of his fire. He wonders at the way the sun&rsquo;s arrow disappearing colors the sky pink, purple, navy, black. He drinks in the way in which the color drains from the world.</p>
<p>The first night of the week of feasting is the night of the full moon, which Lyut had known but had not understood, but now he does. He understands the moon and its importance when first it creeps into view of his clearing. He understands its beauty, and he weeps. He weeps for my creation, and I am filled with praise unclouded by words. Filled to overflowing as I have never been since Ýng created me at the beginning of all things.</p>
<p>And that night is the night when Ýng comes to me and makes his decision.</p>
<p>The next morning, a second strange occurrence greets Lyut when he opens his eyes. Sitting at the entrance to his cave is a creature very much like him in many ways, but in many ways different. Long and lithe, yes, strong and slender, yes, but shorter, and with fur of the purest white as opposed to the dark brown of his own. A face more slender and ears larger, and on the tip of his tail, the fur is dark black.</p>
<p>&ldquo;Who are you?&rdquo;</p>
<p>I smile to him. &ldquo;It is I, faithful. It is Týw.&rdquo;</p>
<p>A look of confusion comes over his face, and I must hold back amusement as the fisher sits up and rubs his eyes, looking around as though the answers were to be found in the air itself.</p>
<p>&ldquo;Týw?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Yes, faithful.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;I thought that the gods were too dear to be seen?&rdquo;</p>
<p>I close my eyes. I revel in the blackness this brings. I revel in the feeling of terror and the exaltation that come with being embodied. I revel in the power of our lord. &ldquo;Yes, this is true. This has always been true through the long years and longer millennia. However, I was not completely honest with you yesterday, Lyut.&rdquo;</p>
<p>He frowns, staring intently at me in my new form. &ldquo;If you are a god and you are holy, how can you lie?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;It was a lie by omission, for I am the god of water and of watching and of the moon and of death, but I am also a trickster god. I am the god who sows chaos while Ýng brings order. Forever we work together or strive against each other. Forever we move in a cycle. This is our very nature. This is the way of things, for Ýng must have something to strive against that time move forward and his creations grow and change with it.&rdquo;</p>
<p>Lyut sits cross-legged and bows his head as he thinks on this. He knows that, on some level, it must be true, for there are times when the weather is bad for days on end and he cannot &mdash; or could not &mdash; tell the difference between day and night, and there are times when he will go a week without food from the river, and once there was even a time when something happened to the water of his section of the stream that caused it to taste bitter and plant-like, and no amount of boiling could remove the flavor and he was sick with fever.</p>
<p>&ldquo;You sow chaos and Ýng fixes it?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;There is no fixing chaos, faithful. I sow chaos because that is who and what I am. Ýng brings order because that is what They are. There is no moral ground on which to judge the chaos that I sow, just as there is no judgement to be made on the order of our lord. Both are holy in their own way, because they are the chaos and order of gods&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Is the chaos of your servants not holy, then?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;It is not. It is my role in the world to sow chaos so that you may learn and become better for it, but when you sow chaos for each other, you lower yourselves in our eyes.&rdquo; I see confusion on his face and sense questions in his mind, but he does not speak, so I continue. &ldquo;The chaos sown by living beings is an exchange of power. Inevitable, perhaps, but it bespeaks a lack of devotion.&rdquo;</p>
<p>Lyut frowns as he considers this.</p>
<p>I give my servant time, for he has learned more in the past day than any of his predecessors have in their spans.</p>
<p>&ldquo;So then,&rdquo; he says at last. &ldquo;How can I see you now? What are you?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;I am the god of watching and of water, of the moon and of death, and I am a trickster god, but all of these things are a part of the world separate from you. I am, this body is, the concrete manifestation of myself and I will take this form for a time. I am this concrete manifestation because I committed a concrete act by giving you sight, and the ramifications to me are also concrete.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;You made it so that I can see you?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;No, faithful. Ýng has made it so that you can see me, for They are my lord and I am Their servant, and I sowed chaos and They have in turn brought order to <em>me</em>. At least, for a while.&rdquo;</p>
<p>Lyut looks startled at this. &ldquo;Is it a wicked thing that you have given me sight? Have you made us both unholy?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;No, faithful, dear Lyut.&rdquo; I smile and hold up my hands. &ldquo;It is good and holy that you may see, and Ýng agrees. However, They control the balance, and so they have decided that the balance, the exchange, for you seeing is for me to be seen. I will live for thirty years among the world in this embodied form, and you will find that the chaos that I bring is vastly reduced while I am here, for in this form, I cannot work my usual methods.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Is that not a punishment, for a god to have their power lessened?&rdquo;</p>
<p>I laugh. &ldquo;No, I do not think so. Ýng was at first angry with me and perhaps They wished at one point to punish me. But They understand now, and this is instead a matter of me experiencing what you experience in the way that only a god can, for gods must learn and change along with their servants.&rdquo;</p>
<p>He thinks for a long while on this, and I know that he is praying to Ýng throughout, that he is closing his eyes so that his hearing is sharper and his smell is more keen and perhaps his sense of the holy is as well. I do not interrupt his prayer, for Ýng is with both of us. I pray with him. We sit in silence in the cave and hear the wind and the stream and the birds, and we smell the cassia and cardamom and copal, and we share our prayers.</p>
<p>&ldquo;Týw,&rdquo; he says at last. &ldquo;I have faith in Ýng and I have faith in you that I will remain pure and that the world will remain pure with us. I do not understand, but I have faith.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Good. Now, I will teach you to see, faithful, and you will teach me to be seen, for everything &mdash; <em>everything</em> &mdash; will be different now.&rdquo;</p>
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