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<p>I wound up spending the first few days at my dad&rsquo;s since Colorado Springs seemed closer at the time than Steamboat. When I made it back up to the mountains again, I met my mom at a restaurant near our house rather than heading straight home.</p>
<p>&ldquo;Thanks again for dinner,&rdquo; I said, our initial greetings out of the way once we had been seated.</p>
<p>&ldquo;Of course, Cory,&rdquo; she smiled. &ldquo;It&rsquo;s good to have you back home for a little bit.&rdquo;</p>
<p>I nodded and lied, &ldquo;It&rsquo;s good to be back, too. Nice to see real snow again.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Yeah? I&rsquo;m getting a little tired of shoveling, myself.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Jared helping out at all?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Yeah, we&rsquo;re alternating snowstorms for who shovels and who knocks down the snow and who does the driving for shopping.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Well, makes sense, I guess. We&rsquo;ve only gotten one or two big storms and a lot of little flurries out east. Never more than four inches.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Yeah,&rdquo; she laughed. &ldquo;That&rsquo;s not real snow at all.&rdquo;</p>
<p>I shook my head and sipped at my water. I had had to quell the urge to order a beer. Never mind my mom, I was still only eighteen with nineteen coming during the break. &ldquo;So how have things been going other than that?&rdquo;</p>
<p>She unfolded her napkin and laid her silverware out on the table, refolding the napkin, apparently found this disappointing enough to fold the napkin in a different way. She was stalling. Finally, &ldquo;Jared lost his job.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Huh? I thought he was feeling pretty secure, though!&rdquo;</p>
<p>Mom wouldn&rsquo;t look me in the eye, &ldquo;He was, but&hellip; oh, I don&rsquo;t know. You know the economy&rsquo;s a total mess right now.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;So I&rsquo;ve read,&rdquo; I nodded, then shook my head. &ldquo;Why didn&rsquo;t you call me?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;It was just this last week, you had finals.&rdquo;</p>
<p>I frowned, but nodded.</p>
<p>&ldquo;He didn&rsquo;t any real severance pay.&rdquo; She continued, still looking at everything on the table rather than me, &ldquo;That kind of messed up our plans.&rdquo;</p>
<p>I nodded and took another sip of water to try to swallow the lump that was growing in my throat. I thought I saw where this was going, but didn&rsquo;t even want to think about it.</p>
<p>When I didn&rsquo;t reply, my mom went on. &ldquo;Anyway, I&rsquo;m going to have to help him pay for his daughter&rsquo;s tuition, as well as yours. Combined, we can afford another semester of both of you like this before savings run out.&rdquo;</p>
<p>That lump that had been forming in my throat started to taste of bile, which I tried to quench with water. At the rate I was going, I&rsquo;d finish the glass before food got there. &ldquo;Oh,&rdquo; is all I could muster. Then, &ldquo;I&rsquo;m sorry&hellip;&rdquo;</p>
<p>Mom laughed and shook her head, finally looking back at me, smiling tiredly. &ldquo;No, Cory. Don&rsquo;t be. I&rsquo;m sure Jared will find another job soon.&rdquo;</p>
<p>I furrowed my brow and nodded.</p>
<p>&ldquo;But can we ask you to try to get a job this next semester just in case?&rdquo; she asked. &ldquo;We&rsquo;ll help you with scholarships when it comes time if it looks like a Jared won&rsquo;t find something in time.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Yeah, that sounds fine, I guess.&rdquo; I brightened, &ldquo;I was thinking I&rsquo;d hire myself out for computer help here and at my dad&rsquo;s during break, just little things.&rdquo;</p>
<p>Mom seemed to relax a little when I didn&rsquo;t freak out and flip the table over at the news. &ldquo;That sounds good. Jared and I will sound out among friends to see if any of them need any help. Do you have a brochure or website or something I can lead them to?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;I&rsquo;ll come up with something quick tonight. Web pages aren&rsquo;t that hard.&rdquo;</p>
<p>She nodded, &ldquo;Sounds good. When should I let people know when you&rsquo;re available?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;I don&rsquo;t know. I can be up here with a day&rsquo;s notice in most cases if I&rsquo;m at my dad&rsquo;s or elsewhere.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Oh? Thinking of heading somewhere else over break?&rdquo;</p>
<p>I toyed with the hem of the table cloth, but was rescued from answering for a few moments as our food was brought. Finally, I answered, &ldquo;Well, a bunch of friends from the dorms were thinking of meeting up somewhere, renting a condo or hotel room for a night at some ski area just for fun.&rdquo; I hastily added, &ldquo;Dad&rsquo;s cool with it, and might help with money if things work out with friends.&rdquo;</p>
<p>Mom sat up straighter and finished the mouthful she was chewing. &ldquo;Just&hellip; going and spending the night in some other mountain town? Why?&rdquo;</p>
<p>I shrugged and shovelled some of my own food into my mouth. I had been looking forward to the curry, but with the way our conversation had been going, it tasted of very little. &ldquo;Just getting together, rather than spending the whole month apart.&rdquo;</p>
<p>She nodded a little and I could tell she was trying to hide a smile. &ldquo;Kris going to be there?&rdquo;</p>
<p>I smiled plainly and nodded, &ldquo;I want to see her again, too, of course.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Well,&rdquo; she said, taking a sip from her glass of wine. &ldquo;I see no problem with it. Just wanted to make sure you were keeping up on your duties as boyfriend.&rdquo;</p>
<p>I laughed with relief. &ldquo;Oh. Thanks, I suppose.&rdquo; Man, I thought. Moms are weird sometimes. I had thought she was going to just dismiss it straight out.</p>
<p>&ldquo;In fact,&rdquo; she was saying. &ldquo;If you want to, maybe have the little party up here. I wouldn&rsquo;t mind getting to meet Kris.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Well, to be honest, since everyone lives out east, we were thinking of somewhere like Loveland &ndash; Idaho Springs or Georgetown, I mean, there&rsquo;s nothing really around Loveland &mdash; or, you know, Winter Park or some other place closer.&rdquo;</p>
<p>Mom shrugged and nodded, pushing more of the yellow rice into her saag. &ldquo;That makes sense. Still, if she ever wants to, she&rsquo;s welcome to come visit you up here. I mean, heck, Chris visited, so why not Kris? Man, that&rsquo;s goofy to say&hellip;&rdquo;</p>
<p>I laughed and nodded, feeling better by the second. I savored a bite of curry and nodded, &ldquo;Sounds weird to hear. Luckily they&rsquo;re exactly the same and not just similar, so I don&rsquo;t mix them up.&rdquo;</p>
<p>She laughed and nodded. Most of the rest of our meal was spent in silence, my mom&rsquo;s addiction to spinach carrying her through just as my desire for good curry. I would have to find an Indian place in Fort Collins &mdash; I forgot how much I enjoyed the stuff.</p>
<p>With our food finished, only the milky chai left to finish, we were afforded more time to talk. &ldquo;So how much do you think I should charge for computer stuff?&rdquo; I asked.</p>
<p>&ldquo;Oh, I don&rsquo;t know,&rdquo; my mom shrugged. &ldquo;Maybe something like twenty dollars an hour, minimum one hour? That sound fair?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;I guess so.&rdquo; I thought for a few seconds, &ldquo;I&rsquo;d need about five hours to afford the trip. A hundred should cover my shair of the room if we all chip in equally, then maybe some food as well.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;What all were you guys planning? Six people in one room? Maybe two beds and a pull out bed in the couch? I guess if you pay two hundred for one night&hellip; yeah, about forty dollars for the room, plus gas and food.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Yeah, that&rsquo;s what I was thinking. There&rsquo;s me and Kris, Erin and Eric, hopefully. Jamen, and maybe one other if we can get ahold of him.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Jamen? That&rsquo;s a nice name,&rdquo; mom said. &ldquo;I bet people call him &lsquo;Jammin&rsquo; a lot, though. Or try to shorten it to &lsquo;Jay&rsquo;.&rdquo;</p>
<p>I laughed and nodded, &ldquo;That&rsquo;s a pretty sure fire way to get him really angry, really quick.&rdquo;</p>
<p>She laughed and sipped at her chai. &ldquo;Do you like your name?&rdquo;</p>
<p>I nodded, &ldquo;It&rsquo;s alright, I suppose. Kris calls me &lsquo;Cor,&rsquo; which I like. It means &lsquo;heart&rsquo; in Italian or somesuch.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Really? That&rsquo;s why we named you that, you know,&rdquo; she smiled. &ldquo;Your dad said when you were born that you looked like you&rsquo;d have a big heart. I suggested Cory, which he went along with on the stipulation that we never just call you &lsquo;Cor&rsquo;. He said it was stupid and Cory was short enough.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Wow,&rdquo; I laughed. &ldquo;Hadn&rsquo;t heard that one before. Sounds like something my dad would do. Say something like that, then amend it so he didn&rsquo;t sound like a softie.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Which he totally was, then,&rdquo; she grinned. &ldquo;How&rsquo;s he doing, anyhow? I still miss him occasionally.&rdquo;</p>
<p>I nodded, &ldquo;He&rsquo;s doing fine, I guess. Just working lots.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;How&rsquo;d he take to you and Kris?&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;He was fine with it, I suppose. Pretty happy about the whole thing, guess he kinda wanted grandkids.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Makes sense.&rdquo; Mom passed her credit card straight to the waitress before she could even hand her the bill. &ldquo;I have to ask,&rdquo; she said, leaning in close and lowering her voice. &ldquo;You two are being safe, or will be when you do anything?&rdquo;</p>
<p>My ears went from zero to fuscia in nothing flat. I nodded quickly and hid my face behind my mug of tea.</p>
<p>&ldquo;It&rsquo;s a mother&rsquo;s job to make her son blush.&rdquo; She sat back in her chair looking satisfied.</p>
<p>&ldquo;Child abuse,&rdquo; I mumbled.</p>
<p>She laughed and nodded, &ldquo;Just you try and report it. I really am happy for you two, by the way. I&rsquo;m glad it seems to be working out.&rdquo;</p>
<p>I smiled, &ldquo;Me too.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;It&rsquo;s still kind of surprising to think about. There was all that standard drama when coming out, it was strange to have to go through many of the same thoughts a second time.&rdquo;</p>
<p>I nodded, listening.</p>
<p>&ldquo;Hell, I nearly asked you flat out if it was a phase again.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Yeah, that was pretty strange. Kind of made me doubt myself.&rdquo;</p>
<p>She smiled and patted my hand across the table, &ldquo;You know that wasn&rsquo;t my intention.&rdquo;</p>
<p>I nodded, &ldquo;Of course. I just took it to heart is all. I think we wound up closer for my doubts, though.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;Good, good,&rdquo; Mom nodded. &ldquo;That&rsquo;s what good relationships should do.&rdquo;</p>
<p>I smiled. &ldquo;Good point.&rdquo;</p>
<p>The check came back and mom dashed off her signature. Slipping back into our jackets, we made our way back out into the cold, dry dark. Home didn&rsquo;t feel quiet as alien anymore.</p>
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