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<p>date: 2019-08-19
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<div class="codehilite"><pre><span></span><code><span class="nv">Is</span> <span class="nv">this</span> <span class="nv">a</span> <span class="nv">thing</span> <span class="k">for</span> <span class="nv">Imgur</span>? <span class="nv">Most</span> <span class="nv">certainly</span> <span class="nv">not</span><span class="o">!</span> <span class="nv">It</span><span class="s1">&#39;</span><span class="s">s perfect for shouting into a vasty nothingness, though. It</span><span class="s1">&#39;</span><span class="nv">s</span> <span class="nv">just</span> <span class="nv">One</span> <span class="nv">Of</span> <span class="nv">Those</span> <span class="nv">Things</span>. <span class="nv">I</span><span class="s1">&#39;</span><span class="s">d say votes don</span><span class="s1">&#39;</span><span class="nv">t</span> <span class="nv">matter</span>, <span class="nv">since</span> <span class="nv">they</span> <span class="nv">don</span><span class="s1">&#39;</span><span class="s">t, but Lord knows I</span><span class="s1">&#39;</span><span class="nv">ll</span> <span class="nv">be</span> <span class="nv">back</span> <span class="nv">to</span> <span class="nv">check</span> <span class="nv">on</span> <span class="nv">this</span> <span class="nv">at</span> <span class="nv">some</span> <span class="nv">point</span>. <span class="k">If</span> <span class="nv">nothing</span> <span class="k">else</span>, <span class="nv">maybe</span> <span class="nv">folks</span> <span class="nv">with</span> <span class="nv">similar</span> <span class="nv">experiences</span> <span class="nv">will</span> <span class="nv">have</span> <span class="nv">info</span>, <span class="nv">hopes</span>, <span class="nv">and</span> <span class="nv">thoughts</span> <span class="nv">to</span> <span class="nv">add</span>.
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<div class="codehilite"><pre><span></span><code>This, er...human hygiene infopamphlet strongly evokes the sensation of the destabilization that comes along with going off of antipsychotics (see: http://imgur.com/a/vtulA ). Theres a certain type of magical, ritualistic thinking that comes with the (near-)psychosis of withdrawal. The kind that comes on you like a compulsion, or like your gag reflex being triggered, and makes you feel like your skin no longer fits.
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<div class="codehilite"><pre><span></span><code><span class="k">For</span> <span class="nv">me</span>, <span class="nv">it</span><span class="nv">s</span> <span class="nv">frequently</span> <span class="nv">about</span> <span class="nv">birds</span>. <span class="k">For</span> <span class="nv">a</span> <span class="nv">long</span> <span class="k">while</span>, <span class="nv">it</span> <span class="nv">was</span> <span class="nv">geese</span>. <span class="nv">A</span> <span class="nv">goose</span> <span class="nv">is</span> <span class="nv">dumb</span>. <span class="nv">A</span> <span class="nv">thousand</span> <span class="nv">geese</span> <span class="nv">darkening</span> <span class="nv">the</span> <span class="nv">horizon</span> <span class="nv">is</span> <span class="nv">a</span> <span class="nv">portent</span>. <span class="nv">Mindless</span> <span class="nv">honking</span>, <span class="nv">individually</span> <span class="nv">directionless</span>, <span class="nv">collectively</span> <span class="nv">unstoppable</span>. <span class="nv">A</span> <span class="nv">goose</span> <span class="nv">is</span> <span class="nv">tasty</span>. <span class="nv">Geese</span> <span class="nv">taste</span> <span class="nv">like</span> <span class="nv">horror</span>. <span class="nv">Acrid</span> <span class="nv">tang</span> <span class="nv">of</span> <span class="nv">ill</span> <span class="nv">omens</span>. <span class="nv">Or</span> <span class="nv">so</span> <span class="nv">it</span> <span class="nv">felt</span> <span class="nv">at</span> <span class="nv">the</span> <span class="nv">time</span>.
<span class="k">Then</span> <span class="nv">it</span> <span class="nv">was</span> <span class="nv">owls</span>. <span class="nv">It</span> <span class="nv">was</span> <span class="nv">my</span> <span class="nv">duty</span> <span class="nv">to</span> <span class="nv">think</span> <span class="nv">about</span> <span class="nv">owls</span>, <span class="nv">to</span> <span class="nv">encourage</span> <span class="nv">others</span> <span class="nv">to</span> <span class="nv">think</span> <span class="nv">about</span> <span class="nv">owls</span>. <span class="nv">In</span> <span class="nv">and</span> <span class="nv">of</span> <span class="nv">themselves</span>, <span class="nv">owls</span> <span class="nv">are</span> <span class="nv">alright</span>, <span class="nv">kind</span> <span class="nv">of</span> <span class="nv">a</span> <span class="nv">take</span><span class="o">-</span><span class="nv">it</span><span class="o">-</span><span class="nv">or</span><span class="o">-</span><span class="nv">leave</span><span class="o">-</span><span class="nv">it</span> <span class="nv">bird</span>, <span class="nv">but</span> <span class="nv">one</span> <span class="nv">must</span> <span class="nv">think</span> <span class="nv">about</span> <span class="nv">them</span>, <span class="nv">because</span> <span class="nv">the</span> <span class="nv">consequences</span> <span class="nv">of</span> <span class="nv">not</span> <span class="nv">thinking</span> <span class="nv">about</span> <span class="nv">them</span> <span class="nv">are</span> <span class="nv">beyond</span> <span class="nv">imagining</span>. <span class="nv">Or</span> <span class="nv">so</span> <span class="nv">it</span> <span class="nv">felt</span> <span class="nv">at</span> <span class="nv">the</span> <span class="nv">time</span>.
<span class="nv">And</span> <span class="k">for</span> <span class="nv">a</span> <span class="nv">bit</span>, <span class="nv">it</span> <span class="nv">was</span> <span class="nv">incantations</span>. “<span class="nv">Get</span> <span class="nv">fucked</span>,” <span class="nv">I</span><span class="nv">d</span> <span class="nv">tell</span> <span class="nv">the</span> <span class="nv">clouds</span>. <span class="nv">I</span><span class="nv">d</span> <span class="nv">tell</span> <span class="nv">my</span> <span class="nv">thoughts</span> <span class="nv">to</span> <span class="nv">get</span> <span class="nv">fucked</span>, <span class="nv">I</span><span class="nv">d</span> <span class="nv">tell</span> <span class="nv">sleep</span> <span class="nv">to</span> <span class="nv">get</span> <span class="nv">fucked</span>, <span class="nv">I</span><span class="nv">d</span> <span class="nv">tell</span> <span class="nv">the</span> <span class="nv">tic</span> <span class="nv">to</span> <span class="nv">get</span> <span class="nv">fucked</span>. <span class="nv">I</span> <span class="nv">had</span> <span class="nv">to</span>. <span class="nv">I</span> <span class="nv">couldn</span><span class="nv">t</span> <span class="nv">not</span>. <span class="nv">Or</span> <span class="nv">so</span> <span class="nv">it</span> <span class="nv">felt</span> <span class="nv">at</span> <span class="nv">the</span> <span class="nv">time</span>.
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<div class="codehilite"><pre><span></span><code><span class="nv">Birds</span> <span class="nv">and</span> <span class="nv">incantations</span>, <span class="nv">it</span> <span class="nv">turns</span> <span class="nv">out</span>, <span class="nv">are</span> <span class="nv">common</span> <span class="nv">in</span> <span class="nv">magical</span> <span class="nv">thinking</span> <span class="nv">and</span> <span class="nv">intrusive</span> <span class="nv">thoughts</span>, <span class="nv">as</span> <span class="nv">well</span> <span class="nv">as</span> <span class="nv">grids</span>, <span class="nv">parallel</span> <span class="nv">lines</span>, <span class="nv">and</span> <span class="nv">food</span>. <span class="nv">The</span> <span class="nv">comic</span> <span class="nv">is</span> <span class="nv">a</span> <span class="nv">prime</span> <span class="nv">example</span> <span class="nv">of</span> <span class="nv">that</span>. <span class="nv">There</span> <span class="nv">are</span> <span class="nv">aspects</span> <span class="nv">of</span> <span class="nv">OCD</span>, <span class="nv">sure</span>, <span class="nv">but</span> <span class="nv">it</span><span class="nv">s</span> <span class="nv">beyond</span> <span class="nv">just</span> <span class="nv">the</span> <span class="nv">obsessions</span> <span class="nv">and</span> <span class="nv">the</span> <span class="nv">compulsions</span>, <span class="nv">it</span><span class="nv">s</span> <span class="nv">the</span> <span class="nv">way</span> <span class="nv">that</span> <span class="nv">that</span> <span class="nv">is</span> <span class="nv">expressed</span> <span class="nv">in</span> <span class="nv">ritual</span> <span class="nv">and</span> <span class="nv">dire</span> <span class="nv">need</span>, <span class="nv">the</span> <span class="nv">fact</span> <span class="nv">that</span> <span class="nv">one</span> <span class="nv">cannot</span> <span class="nv">bear</span> <span class="nv">the</span> <span class="nv">consequences</span> <span class="nv">of</span> <span class="nv">NOT</span> <span class="nv">performing</span> <span class="nv">the</span> <span class="nv">ritual</span>. <span class="nv">There</span><span class="nv">s</span> <span class="nv">nothing</span> <span class="nv">wrong</span> <span class="nv">with</span> <span class="nv">ritual</span> <span class="nv">or</span> <span class="nv">magical</span> <span class="nv">thinking</span>, <span class="nv">nor</span> <span class="nv">even</span> <span class="nv">birds</span>, <span class="nv">incantations</span>, <span class="nv">grids</span>, <span class="nv">or</span> <span class="nv">food</span>. <span class="nv">The</span> <span class="nv">problem</span> <span class="nv">lies</span> <span class="nv">in</span> <span class="nv">when</span> <span class="nv">those</span> <span class="nv">are</span> <span class="nv">forced</span> <span class="nv">on</span> <span class="nv">you</span> <span class="nv">by</span> <span class="nv">your</span> <span class="nv">hindbrain</span> <span class="k">until</span> <span class="nv">you</span><span class="nv">re</span> <span class="nv">sick</span>.
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<div class="codehilite"><pre><span></span><code><span class="nv">A</span> <span class="nv">friend</span> <span class="nv">calls</span> <span class="nv">it</span> <span class="nv">bruise</span> <span class="nv">vision</span>, <span class="nv">and</span> <span class="k">while</span> <span class="nv">I</span> <span class="nv">can</span><span class="nv">t</span> <span class="nv">explain</span> <span class="nv">why</span>, <span class="nv">that</span><span class="nv">s</span> <span class="mi">100</span><span class="o">%</span> <span class="nv">accurate</span>.
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<div class="codehilite"><pre><span></span><code><span class="nv">I</span> <span class="nv">couldn</span><span class="s1">&#39;</span><span class="s">t create this sort of thing, so I</span><span class="s1">&#39;</span><span class="nv">m</span> <span class="nv">glad</span> <span class="nv">that</span> <span class="nv">someone</span> <span class="nv">did</span> <span class="k">for</span> <span class="nv">me</span>. <span class="nv">Here</span><span class="s1">&#39;</span><span class="s">s the original source: http://adactivity.tumblr.com/post/73552347250/here-are-the-raw-images-which-make-up-the-eat-no - support artists doing neat things! And take care of yourselves :)</span>
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